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Partnership with Jason Wilson for Boy’s Rite of Passage

The author who wrote Cry Like an Man and Battle Cry after attending his Crucible men’s retreat, reached out to Crucible to create a Boy’s Rite of Passage retreat for the young men in his Cave of Abdullam program highlighted by ESPN.  Jason Wilson frequently quotes Frederick Douglas: “It’s easier to build strong children than to repair broken men.”

In a transformative hybrid Crucible weekend near Detroit, Michigan, young men ages 15-21 gathered for an experience aimed at fostering growth, resilience, and connection. Spearheaded Jason Wilson, Chicago Urban leader Terrance Foster, The Crucible Project’s Executive Director Roy Wooten, and a team of dedicated volunteers from the Urban Chicago Community, this retreat marked a pivotal moment in the lives of these young participants.

Retreat Leader Terrance Foster, reflecting on the significance of serving young men, remarked, "It’s one thing to work with grown men who are broken, but it’s another thing to work with young men who are in such formative years."

One of the things that set this weekend apart was the pre-existing bond among the participants, who had been under the mentorship of Jason Wilson for some time. Foster noted, "They all knew each other and had already shared a lot of life experiences as young men. So we were a container of Crucible staff entering into an existing container of these young men."

The weekend’s activities were tailored to suit the needs of these young men. Minor adjustments were made to the weekend curriculum, including surprising them with a special gift of their father or other important men in their lives Sunday morning surrounding them in a show of support. The emotional impact was palpable as tears flowed freely during moments of connection and blessing.

The weekend teaching centered around the story of David and Goliath, offering a fresh perspective on sleighing the giants in their lives so that they could live with more passion, power, or purpose. Throughout the weekend, participants engaged in Crucible exercises designed to challenge and empower them, including a time to slay their giants, where each young man faced a gauntlet, learning how to push through the messages that try to hold them back.

“Peace has to be in us before it can be around us.” – Jason Wilson

The weekend culminated in "The Blessing" and “Golden Hot Seat” that allowed the father-figures of the young men to speak gold and blessing into them. As part of the experience, Jason Wilson had personally crafted sling-shot necklaces for the young men that were presented to them by the men in their lives while offering words of affirmation and encouragement.

Even without attending the full weekend experience, many of the fathers who came to support the young men commented that they would like to attend a Crucible Men’s Weekend. Foster shared, “I was tremendously blessed by the whole experience. I saw that room - sons who may have dealt with some brokenness - lives being touched by the staff that came and then by their Dad’s and father figures that came. For me, I’m 45 years old and my dad will probably never go on a weekend but seeing those dads and young men blessing each other was a blessing to me. So my encouragement to them is to continue to give those blessings to each other. Walk up to your child or a child and give a blessing - that is their birthright. If we can do it with young men, we might be able to stop some of these generational issues.”

Foster also expressed his admiration for the young men, emphasizing their exceptional qualities and willingness to engage in the process. He noted that their receptiveness and respectfulness were truly commendable. “None of this could have happened without the Detroit and Chicago Redwoods who volunteered to staff.”

Roy Wooten shared, “I am so impressed with the work Jason Wilson is doing in CATTA.  The opportunity to partner with him and his team to serve young men was such a blessing. I’m hopeful that as the needs arise, we will be there for future young men and women. Terrance Foster and Dr. Tim Broe led well. The experience of the Chicago Urban Community in modifying the weekend to serve incarcerated men in the Crucible on the Inside was invaluable in modifying for these young men. I can’t wait to see what God does with these young leaders because of this partnership.”

Helping Others Explore Crucible: Leading with Ease

Do you long to have a bigger Crucible community in your area? Did you know there is a free and easy way to build this?

Exploration Groups serve as a gateway into the transformative journey offered by The Crucible Project and can be led by any initiated Redwood! These groups provide a space for both initiated and non-initiated individuals to engage in soul work together. The essence of these gatherings lies in fostering deeper emotional connections and enhancing self-awareness, setting the stage for personal growth even before embarking on a weekend retreat.

The Exploration Group curriculum is a comprehensive manual comprising of protocols and weekly exercises laid out in a way that anyone can lead, regardless of your previous group leadership experience. While the material suggests a 12-week commitment, leaders have the flexibility to tailor the content to suit their group's needs, whether within a church setting or a more casual environment.

April's Empowering Approach

April Damey and the Wyoming women’s team utilize Exploration Groups before weekends and their strategic approach has seen tremendous success. Typically a couple months before a scheduled local retreat, April invites participants to make a three-week commitment, fostering a safe and nurturing environment for exploration. Through word-of-mouth advertising, she extends her invitations, offering a glimpse into the transformative journey without the immediate commitment of a weekend retreat.

For April, the curriculum's simplicity stands out as a highlight, facilitating seamless engagement with Crucible principles. With a focus on accountability and integrity, April guides participants through foundational pillars of Crucible, providing a comprehensive overview while maintaining the essence of the weekend experience. “The curriculum is just so easy,” April shares. “I’ve led these groups at least five times and it’s very easy to follow and is a nice overview of some Crucible work without giving away anything from the weekend.”

When asked how she invites others to join the group, April has a simple message. “This is a great way to dip your foot in the pool and see what it’s all about without diving into a full weekend if you aren’t totally ready.” As a result, six of the eight women from her last group attended a weekend shortly after the group ended.

Mark's Insightful Journey

In 2019, Mark Dunning embarked on a mission to expand Crucible's reach within his community. Recognizing the potential of an Exploration Group as an effective onramp for men to engage with the work, Mark took the initiative to get started and found it to be an easy process. Teaming up with Brian Wojta, a friend from church who had recently attended an initial Crucible weekend, they worked together to select a day and time that worked well for them consistently, and then created a list of men to invite. This list included men from church, work, and professional networking contacts.

Mark shares that he found the curriculum remarkably accessible, offering a step-by-step guide for facilitating discussions and structuring meetings. “The curriculum was easy to break down to teach those who haven’t been on a weekend yet, there wasn’t any “insider language” that only initiated people would understand, and it was built really well for those who haven’t experienced anything with the organization yet.” He and Brian asked attendees to commit to six consecutive weeks with the group and then evaluate if they’d like to stay. The group has met every other week for over four years now ongoing and has seen growth of new members – all of whom have since attended their own initial weekend.

Reflecting on his journey, Mark expressed profound personal growth through leading the group. “The group has been very meaningful for me. When I moved to the area seven years ago, nobody had any kind of Crucible experience or background and to build this community has been very meaningful. I’ve grown in my ability to lead group, to serve men with different personalities and backgrounds, and it has helped me reflect on my own growth and sharpen how I’m showing up in my world.”

Success Stories

April and Mark’s experiences highlight the efficacy of Exploration Groups in cultivating interest and momentum towards weekend retreats. April’s strategic approach to introducing individuals to Crucible’s principles and Mark's commitment to building a supportive community have yielded remarkable results.Their journeys also highlight the accessibility and effectiveness of the curriculum of Exploration Groups in fostering personal growth and community engagement. As we witness their success, the key to building a supportive Crucible community starts with one Redwood being willing to try something new and say “yes” to leading an Exploration Group.

So why not take that step yourself? Gather some people you know, and lead a group. With the support of accessible curriculum and the guidance of fellow leaders like Mark and April, you can take the opportunity to facilitate meaningful connections and catalyze personal transformation within your community. Start your Exploration Group today and discover the profound impact it can have on yourself and those around you!

Ready to start your own Exploration Group? Click here to request access to the curriculum and start your journey today!

 

Partnership with Mission Resource Network: Transforming Missions Together

Established 25 years ago, Mission Resource Network emerged from a visionary group of 20 mission leaders across various autonomous churches. Their collective goal was to enhance missions through cooperation, communication, and collaboration while honoring each church's autonomy. Today the network stands as a supportive partner, aiding churches and global workers in fulfilling their divine mission.

Jay Jarboe, Mission Resource Network’s Director of Emerging Leadership Initiative, attended an initial weekend with The Crucible Project in 2013 and became aware of its transformative potential through first-hand experience. He encouraged other staff to attend and over the years a significant portion of MRN's staff has embraced the Crucible experience, including President Dr. Dan Bouchelle. Their experience has fostered growth, community, and profound transformation not just to their office dynamics, but also in the way they seek to empower leaders worldwide.

As part of Crucible’s ongoing mission to ignite Christ-like change through experiences of radical honesty and grace across the globe, Crucible and Mission Resource Network formalized a partnership that supports soul work in global missions. On December 8, 2023, Mission Resource Network’s President, Dr. Dan Bouchelle, and Crucible’s Executive Director, Roy Wooten, put into writing an agreement that will further the mission of both ministries.

Dan stated, “In our efforts to multiply healthy leaders who disciple the unreached and underserved people groups of the world, we have not found a better tool for self-discovery and transformation than Crucible. In much of the world, there is a massive dearth of resources to assist spiritual leaders in the kind of soul care and development that Crucible offers with such excellence. While western field workers certainly benefit from these resources, the national leaders around the world who are leading the advancement of Christian faith are also hungry for the kind of personal transformation Crucible serves so well. We are extremely grateful to have a partner in this important work.”

Roy shared, “I’ve worked with too many missionaries who blew out on the field because they felt there was no one they could talk to about their relational or spiritual challenges. Struggling missionaries assume, and unfortunately rightly so, that if they talk about their challenges, their supporters will yank them out of their calling – or worse – abandon them on the mission field. What Mission Resource Network is doing is the right thing. Through our partnership I pray God will extend the service of in-country and sent missionaries as well as continue to spread Crucible across the globe.”

Mission Resource Network supports the work of global missions in many ways, including a care ministry that was sparked by an underlying concern: the unsettling trend of missionaries spending less than two years in the field due to inadequate support systems. They developed a robust care ministry providing counseling, coaching, and team development, ensuring that missionaries not only effectively evangelize, but also take care of their soul so that they can stay in their calling for as long as God wants them.

A pivotal development in their strategy is the new partnership with Crucible, especially beneficial for their Emerging Leadership Initiative. Recognizing the evolving dynamics of global missions, the network has shifted from the traditional "west to the rest" paradigm. Instead, they actively engage with global mission leaders initiating from other countries, seeking to understand and address their unique needs. Foremost among these needs has been leadership coaching, emphasizing the kind of soul support Crucible has become known as a leader in.

Jay reported, “The epicenter of global Christianity has shifted to the global south—regions like Africa and Asia.  We are seeking to bridge this leadership gap, assisting cross-cultural leaders in developing sustainable systems for leadership cultivation. Crucible’s soul work resources play a pivotal role, offering invaluable insights into soul work, self-awareness, and spiritual growth."

One inspiring example Jay shared involved leadership coaching in the Philippines. Utilizing Crucible soul work resources, Jay leads an Exploration Group with a small ground of Filipino men and has been witnessing firsthand the hunger for spiritual and emotional growth among local leaders. They have had a great eagerness to share this transformative experience with others, emphasizing the importance of soul work in leadership.

The partnership extends beyond mere material resources; it represents a shared vision, mutual respect, and a commitment to holistic leadership development globally. From the Philippines to North Africa, the Middle East, and South Africa, this partnership fosters hope, transformation, and nurturing for today’s global workers and leaders for tomorrow’s world.

Crucible Impacts a Step Family

Kenton Larson was brought up in Christian home and as the 2nd oldest of six, he learned very early to shove down feelings and emotions. As an adult, he grappled with co-dependency, a struggle that fueled his ongoing quest to be true to himself and understand his intrinsic value in the eyes of God.

Angie, on the other hand, had her own set of challenges. After being previously married to Joe, her high school sweetheart, she faced marital difficulties that led to divorce. The separation occurred while she was pregnant with their second child and caring for their 2-year-old daughter. Post-divorce, Angie focused on personal healing, attending Shift—a recovery group at Flatirons Church in Colorado—with her then 1-year-old and 3-year-old in tow. Angie and Joe tried to coparent the best they could.

Kenton and Angie's paths converged in the Shift recovery group, and they began dating. As part of his growth journey, Kenton attended his initial Crucible weekend in Colorado in the spring of 2016. Reflecting on his weekend, he shares, "Before Crucible, my life was OK. After my initial weekend, I now live in integrity with myself, I have embraced who God has actually made me to be, and I can live that in a way that compels others to live how God created them, too."

Angie recounts the profound changes she observed in Kenton upon his return from the Crucible weekend. She shares, “He came back from his weekend and I thought, ‘I don’t know what to do with this!’ We were talking about marriage and were getting ready to have a dinner with some of his friends who were important in his life, and he kept crying and I didn’t know what to do with it. He asked if we could get coffee before we went to dinner with his friends, and while there, he detailed out every part of his story that he had been hiding and said he didn’t want to bring those things into our relationship.”

She continued sharing that the changes in Kenton started happening immediately and even still, every time Kenton participates in anything with Crucible, like staffing or attending a second-level weekend, there are additional ways that God takes Kenton’s brokenness and uses it to point toward Him. “The way he treated our family and his family and his family’s brokenness, the way we started talking through things, became healthier and healthier and healthier, it has been a true change.”

As Kenton embraced his on-going soul work, the dynamics within the blended family shifted. Angie's ex-husband, Joe, increasingly became a part of their lives. Kenton and Angie were contemplating the men in Kenton's life who could benefit from Crucible, and Angie said, “Why not Joe?” They extended an invitation, he signed up, and then the pandemic happened. Joe watched Kenton and Angie’s relationship grow stronger and stronger and saw their kids growing in emotionally healthy ways.  Joe was finally able to attend and his experience was powerful and made such an impact on him that his wife, Brittany, also began her soul work journey.

The impact of Crucible extended beyond individual transformations to a powerful family memory. Kenton, Angie, Joe, and Brittany are all now co-parenting Jillian (12) and Jack (9). At the start of this past school year, with the support and encouragement of her parents, Jillian embarked on a trip through church that proved to be a catalyst for profound change as she discovered her own personal relationship with Christ - a heart knowledge instead of a head knowledge from growing up in a Christian home. Jillian's post-camp revelation about her newfound faith culminated in a deeply meaningful baptism service. The significance of this event was accentuated by the blended family's presence. This visual representation included Joe, Brittany, and their three children; Kenton, Angie, and Jillian's brother, Jack; Angie's sister and her husband (who Angie says are both “anti-church” but came because Jillian asked and heard God’s truth preached with their family by them); and other friends and family.

Crucible has not only transformed individual lives but has woven a tapestry of truth, grace, and integrity into the fabric of this blended family. Through check-ins over dinner, the family ensures open communication, providing a safe space for emotions to be acknowledged and embraced. Even as the children move between two homes, the continuity in values and faith is maintained, fostering a sense of stability and belonging. Kenton shared, “Kid transitions between houses are now easier because both houses are on God-centered journeys.”

“Without Crucible, that wouldn’t be possible and I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I staff weekends with my wife’s ex-husband – how crazy! The core benefits of Crucible for me are that I can live in integrity with myself and my identity. I do life with a consistent group who are chasing God like me which has been instrumental in my growth. Lastly, I have tools and vocabulary to use with other people, whether that’s the person I’m married to, my family, or even people at work.”

Kenton and Angie’s motto of "Own your stuff, find God’s power, change your life." resonates as a guiding principle that has not only shaped their individual narratives but has also become the foundation for a transformed and cohesive blended family unit. This blended family stands as a testament to the profound impact of intentional self-discovery, communal support, and the transformative journey that Crucible offers.

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Celebrating 10 Years of Transformation: The Crucible Project’s Impact on Urban Communities

In the vibrant tapestry of urban life, where challenges often become opportunities for growth, The Crucible Project has emerged as a transformative force over the past decade. From 2013-2023, 370 participants and 390 staff men from Chicago’s Lawndale community and beyond have participated in 20 Crucible Urban Men’s weekends. Celebrating this milestone, we reflect on the profound importance of men's soul work in urban communities and honor the instrumental contributions of five remarkable individuals: Lawrence Haskin, Kenny Cox, Terrance Foster, Phil Jackson, and Greg Huston.

A Triumph of Black, Brown and White Unity

For over ten years and twenty weekends, Black, Brown, Asian, and White men have gathered at the table of brotherhood to share a feast at the end of a transformative weekend. Their transformed countenance on Sunday reminds us that this table is different. We really are living the dream that one day the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slaveholders will sit down at the table of brotherhood.

The weekend doesn't begin that way, however. These Black, Asian, Brown, and White participants are showing up to a distinctly Black space. "Can I trust these Black men telling, not asking, me to do things?" "Can I trust the White man talking to me about integrity?" "Can I believe this Brown man when he tells me food will be adequate?" "What is happening here?" Black, Brown, Asian, and White men wonder as they rest their heads on the pillow the first night.

Our containers are "Distinctly Crucible, Uniquely Urban." They have been forged that way through the intentional work of many, and God has made a way in the urban community of Chicago for Crucible to not only survive, but to thrive.

Honoring the Architects of Transformation

At the recent urban men's retreat in St. Charles, IL, the dedicated staff members came together in a heartfelt gathering to honor the pillars of The Crucible Project's transformative work, including Lawrence Haskin, Kenny Cox, Terrance Foster, and Phil Jackson. Each man was celebrated with a shared word that captured the essence of their individual contributions and profound impact on the community they have helped shape and nurture. They were also each presented with a perfectly sized pair of Michael Jordan shoes.

Phil Jackson: Pastor and Shepherd

The history of Crucible Urban Ministry traces back to a personal connection. Greg Huston, Crucible Founder, was friends with Pastor Phil Jackson, who played a pivotal role in initiating the urban ministry. Despite initial hesitations, Phil attended a Crucible weekend in 2011, and then joined a two-year group with Michael Byrd and Terrance Foster. His experience in a community of big truth and big grace fueled his conviction that men in the city needed Crucible’s transformative work.

The subsequent year, in 2012, Phil dedicated himself to recruiting men for the first Urban weekend in 2013. However, recruiting proved to be a formidable challenge. Inner-city men, accustomed to traditional church recruitment, faced difficulties trusting the process, compounded by financial insecurities. Phil remained committed to the goal, believing that, “If you aren’t seeking to transform your wounds, you’ll transfer your wounds,” and has since helped hundreds of men find a space where they can be seen. When it came to recruiting, Phil shared, “What you find is you have that one guy or those two guys that go through it and they become passionate about it and they run, and you don’t know who that guy is! So the more you recruit and the more that come through, you get more and some of those guys realize it’s part of their passion. Don’t give up the fight, don’t give up fighting for those guys.” Phil is a true pastor and shepherd of his community.

Greg Huston: Visionary

Greg Huston, Crucible’s visionary founder, embodies a profound passion for guiding men toward their best selves, one life at a time. His journey, fueled by personal wounds and subsequent healing, led to the creation of a transformative space for men to engage in life-changing soul work. Greg's courageous choices and sacrifices have been instrumental in the realization of what Crucible is today and was key to Crucible’s Urban initiative.

Even in retirement, Greg remains connected to the work in Crucible.  His heart for men in urban communities, shaped by years of pastoral experience, seeks to provide a safe haven for those facing fatherhood voids. Greg envisions reconciliation among diverse communities, emphasizing that the gospel extends beyond man and God to man and man. His message to prospective participants echoes his passion—to be the best version of themselves, fully alive and unburdened by unexplored pain. Greg defines men's work as a conscious effort to scrutinize life, fostering awareness and encouraging changes that lead to living with integrity, courage, and passion. Rejecting unconscious living, he advocates for a deeper examination of one's life.  Greg's humility, courage, and insight have shaped Crucible into a beacon of transformative masculinity, inspiring men to lead from their weaknesses and find strength in vulnerability.

Lawrence Haskin: The Grandfather
Lawrence Haskin, Senior Pastor of Household of Faith in Markham, IL, has had profound involvement in the lives of men within the urban ministry. Since his initial weekend in 2012, he has extended his fatherly presence to countless men, having staffed over 20 weekends and led a soul group.

As the leader of the Urban Leadership Team and longtime member of the Crucible Board of Directors, Lawrence contributes thoughtful perspectives on the realities of urban and suburban experiences of men of color, shaping strategies for effective communication, and fostering organizational development. His commitment to soul work within the urban community is not merely a professional duty but a deeply personal dedication that resonates through his leadership and unwavering support.

In his role on the board, Lawrence has served as a mentor and boundary-drawer, guiding men into leadership roles within the community. His compassionate leadership has been a catalyst for addressing racial issues, fostering healing, and maintaining cohesion throughout the greater Crucible community. From opening the doors of his church for numerous meetings to steering the leadership team with precision, Lawrence's impact extends far beyond the boundaries of his career and into the hearts of those who have found guidance and support within the crucible of transformative work. Lawrence has been a father-figure to many men, and the Grandfather of the Urban work.

Terrance Foster: Leader

Terrance Foster, a powerful advocate for addressing societal issues, emphasizes the importance of acknowledging and discussing racial disparities. He recognizes that, to achieve real reconciliation, challenging conversations are essential. Terrance, who attended his first weekend in November 2012, was motivated by his mentor, Phil Jackson. His commitment extends beyond personal transformation, as he actively engages in second-level activities, staffing, and inviting other men to experience the transformative power of Crucible.

When it comes to being involved in Crucible, Terrance says, “You know, it’s like having insider information on a stock that can make you and your friends very rich. You know when you hear people say, ‘if I knew what I know now and could back in the past, my life would be totally different?’ That’s how I look at the weekends, staffing and inviting other men.” For him, the ability to deal with past and present issues to bring about change is a form of wealth that motivates his continuous involvement. The men’s community expressed to Terrance that he created a ripple in men’s work that now ripples through the country and will continue to ripple throughout generations of families that have been changed by the work of Crucible. Terrance is a Leader among men.

Kenny Cox: Waymaker
Joining Crucible’s board in 2017, Kenny Cox brought not just his achievements, but a profound investment in the realm of urban ministry. A graduate of the Two-year Transformational Program, Kenny's dedication to aiding men in their quest for meaning and healing is deeply rooted in his own family of origin traumas. As the men’s urban community was being formed, Kenny funded a consultant who facilitated meetings with men on the Southside, contributing to the establishment of the Crucible urban community. It is through Kenny's leadership and unwavering support that this community, born from the collective vision of its members, stands today as a testament to the transformative power of shared purpose and healing. Kenny is a true Waymaker in this work.

A Blessing and a Challenge

Retreat Leader Tony Bradburn shared a heartfelt blessing to the architects of change—Lawrence Haskin, Kenny Cox, Terrance Foster, Phil Jackson, and Greg Huston— that can be summed up in the following. May their unwavering commitment to men's soul work in urban communities be a source of inspiration and guidance for all. May they continue to be vessels of authenticity, big truth and grace, and integrity, sowing seeds of transformation that ripple through the fabric of society. May the challenges they've faced and overcome serve as a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the power of communal healing. May they find strength in their mission, wisdom in their leadership, and boundless grace as they navigate the ongoing journey of fostering meaning, healing, and purpose for the lives they touch in inner-city Chicago and beyond. In celebrating their legacy, may their endeavors continue to be a beacon, guiding others towards the transformative light of self-discovery and integrity.

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Exploration Groups and the Church

One of the most impactful ways to strengthen your church is to bring soul work to it. On Sunday of your weekend, the leaders shared that you can take our check-in teachings to hand out into your home, church, business, and community. Pre-weekend “taste of Crucible” activities, such as the check-in are exposing Crucible to church members while deepening the church’s understanding of how to love God with all their heart, soul, mind, and strength.

Exploration Groups

The most impactful way to help church members begin their soul work journey is through our Exploration Group curriculum. The Exploration Group curriculum is available for any Redwood to lead and groups are offered free to those who have not yet been through a weekend retreat.

Impact at Storyline Church

For the past two years, Redwoods David Beaver, Russel Dains, and Ryan Burke have been impacting Storyline Church in Arvada, Colorado, by bringing soul work through the Exploration Group materials.  Their group operates on a trimester system with a commitment from attendees to be part of the group for four months. Once the four-month group ends, participants can choose to take a break or opt to commit to another four months.

Participants are invited by friends to join the group.  For those who have not yet attended a weekend retreat, the group creates a helpful gateway to get a taste of what soul work entails.  What sets the Exploration Group apart from other church small groups is that the curriculum creates a safe space for participants to be their authentic selves. Leaders in the group model sharing hard truths. As one participant expressed, "This is the first place in church where I can actually be real."

The Storyline Church Exploration group provides an environment for men to practice making commitments and experience the intended or unintended consequences of integrity gaps. The group fosters real support through prayer, where members commit to praying for one another and follow-up the next week to ensure they have done so. It is a space for growth, both personally and spiritually.

Strengthening the Church by Strengthening Men

David, Ryan, and Russel have experienced the transformative power of soul work and want all the men at their church to do the same. They have witnessed the significant impact of these groups on participants’ lives. Ryan shared that leading this group has allowed him to know men in his local church on a much deeper level, surpassing what typical men's groups offer.

While the group exercises may be simpler than the processes experienced during the weekend, the exercises facilitate substantial personal growth. Observing men within the group engage with these exercises has been a rewarding experience for the leaders.

David shared that his motivation for starting the Exploration Group at his church began after wondering why it felt like he needed to leave the church for soul care from outside places. The Crucible Exploration Group within the church offers an onramp into this work where participants can choose to attend a weekend retreat, if they desire, and then bring their more authentic selves back to their church community.

David noted, “Seeing another man across the lobby or across the auditorium - just seeing them and knowing that that person knows my story and I know their story and here we are with our wives or kids and our community around us and we’re operating here in the local church living our daily lives, that’s been a huge encouragement and what I see in that, is that my church is full of strong men. When I see strong men, I see strong churches.”

Flexible Structure

The Exploration Group curriculum has flexibility in its structure. Some leaders use the curriculum in a “drop-in” type setting around a fire pit.  Others run the group as part of their church’s small group curriculum. Some leaders invite both Redwoods and others who have not yet attended a weekend while others focus on pre-weekend participants only. Group leaders set how they will use the curriculum.

According to David, Russel, and Ryan, one crucial aspect of their Exploration Group's success is the clear expectations set for participants. The curriculum asks men to commit to the specific amount of time of four months while recognizing and honoring occasional scheduling conflicts. The defined start and end dates help create a structured container, allowing the group to maintain its flexibility.

Get Participants to Weekends

From the Storyline Church Exploration Group, six group participants have completed an initial Crucible weekend to date. David shared that the primary goal is not just to encourage retreat attendance but to equip men to engage in soul work within the local church community and develop tools that will serve them the rest of their life. “If a man comes to our group, learns to check-in, and uses it as a tool in his personal journaling and spiritual development going forward, that’s a win.”

Impact on the Church and Community

The Exploration Group at Storyline Church is pioneering the integration of soul work within a traditional church community. By providing a structured yet flexible platform for individuals to engage in personal growth, spiritual exploration, and deeper connections, Exploration groups are introducing participants to the power of soul work while strengthens the bonds of the local church community.

If you are interested in starting an Exploration Group at your church, contact us.

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Counselors Referring to Crucible

From the earliest years of the Crucible Project, counselors, coaches and psychologists have found our initial weekend a great resource for their clients. Some have found it so impactful that referrals to Crucible are a regular part of their practice.

This year’s American Association of Christian Counselors and Coaches AACC World Conference gathered 7,000 professionals from across the United States in Nashville around the theme of Know Hope. Women’s Ministry Leader Lisa Modrzejewski, Chicago area leader Chris Modrzejewski, and Chicago Regional Psychologist, Dr. Chris Mazzarella joined Executive Director Roy Wooten at the Crucible Booth at the conference.

He shared that one of his clients went through the weekend and the results he witnessed in moving goals forward had him referring others. Finally, one of his clients invited him and he attended in another community. Redwood Chris Mazzarrella stated, “I’m a clinical psychologist and I’ve yet to find anything that impacts men in a more effectively than the Crucible Weekend.”

Psychologist Andrew Harman shared, “I have been impressed with the Crucible Weekend’s ability to move men into taking responsibility for creating the world they have always desired. It has helped many men in my clinical practice.”

If you know a counselor, therapist, psychologist or coach, share Crucible as a resource for their clients. Share our AACC page for a list of benefits for counselors, coaches and psychologists, and their clients.

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Building Transformational Communities: The Journey of Crucible in Midland, TX

In the heart of the West Texas community of Midland, one man felt a pull to invite others on a Crucible weekend and through the process, sparked a community movement. Barry Thomas, a man driven by a powerful vision, embarked on a journey to bring the transformative experience of Crucible to the men in his local church community. Through perseverance, faith, and a deep desire for change, he started a movement that changed the scope and operations of The Crucible Project from a local level to national level.

In 2006, Barry found himself on staff at his local church and tasked with the responsibility to foster spiritual formation within the congregation. His desire was to build a community within the church that focused on more than just attendance or knowledge – his vision was for a church focused on transformational soul work. He started by meeting with various small group leaders, providing training on emotional health and its importance in discipleship, but felt he wasn’t making much progress. As he evaluated his struggles, he realized the leaders in his church were struggling to engage in emotional work because most had not engaged in their own emotions and stories of shadows and wounding.

“When I started, I felt like it was my job to plow the field for each person so the soul work and transformation work could get started. What I realized, though, is that before a field can be plowed, it has to be prepared. Someone has to go through to clear away all the rocks and stumps that are scattered throughout. I thought back to my experience with Crucible and realized TCP could be that dynamite, the tool that blows away the blocks in these men so the church can finally do deeper soul work within the community.”

As a church staff member, Barry had a platform and influence, but he didn't start with leveraging his position. He started, rather, with building relationships. He engaged with men he had personal connections with, sharing his aspirations and motivations for introducing the Crucible experience to Midland, TX. His goal was twofold: not only to get the The Crucible Project to the area but also to facilitate profound personal growth and transformation for individuals.

The idea of igniting change in people's lives resonated so deeply with Barry, it drove him to share this conviction with others. He started by asking just a few close men if they’d be interested in attending. After they completed their initial weekend and began to experience the life-altering effects of Crucible, a domino effect was set into motion. The transformational experiences were so profound they become impossible to ignore, catching the attention of even other church staff members and elders who attended their own weekends. Through this process, Midland, TX became the first community outside of Chicago (where Crucible originated) to experience a Crucible weekend.

The invitation process, Barry said, was simple yet profound. His role was simply to ask, while leaving the work of readiness and reception to the individual's heart and God’s divine timing. He looked for individuals who sought something different in their lives, whether a significant change or a subtle shift. Even when met with responses of interest but a need for time, Barry would persevere, trusting in the timing God had in store. This persistence yielded remarkable results, with individuals attending Crucible retreats even years after the initial invitation.

While Barry’s journey of inviting others was marked by several successes, he also acknowledged the challenges in inviting individuals to partake in the Crucible experience. Often, fear and assumptions led individuals to decline before they took the chance to truly consider the opportunity. In response to this, Barry emphasized that the role of the invitee is not to preemptively say no on behalf of others. Extend an invitation, allow them to make their own decision, and trust that God has their best at heart.

When asked how he personally invited others to a weekend, Barry said he would initiate a conversation by sharing his personal story of what Crucible has done for him. “When I went on my initial weekend, I wanted to get rid of shame in my life and it gave me an opportunity to deal with that and start me on a journey. It taught me how to handle anger in healthy ways, and was the first time I ever gave myself permission to get angry instead of stuffing it and it coming out sideways. Attending a TCP weekend was the most powerful thing I’ve ever done in my life and most others who attend would say the same thing. It’s the most fruitful, life-changing ministry I’ve ever been a part of and if you’re interested, I’d love to tell you more.”

Barry’s simple approach brings genuine connection to the forefront and provides a framework for others to replicate. With humility and authenticity, you can offer to share more with those who express interest. Furthermore, for those seeking to introduce Crucible to their own communities, Barry recommends having a dedicated point person who can rally a team and resources to support the endeavor. While there is no magic formula, the presence of critical ingredients – passion, dedication, and a supportive team who believe in the work – can make all the difference.

Barry Thomas's personal transformation is a testament to the power of the Crucible experience. From his own journey of shedding shame and learning healthy ways to handle emotions, he provides hope to those he invites and an example of how one small spark can turn into a flame.

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Where do weekend fees go?

Executive Director Roy Wooten shared recently, “I’m frequently asked where all of the weekend fees go.  Redwoods wonder why Crucible is asking for donations. The truth is that donations have been necessary all along.”  This month we want to share the end of year finances broken into percentages so that everyone will know where the fees go.

Average # of Participants Impacts Finances

There was a period beginning in 2008 where we averaged around 25 participants per weekend.  Emerging communities frequently held weekends around 10 participants while our established communities hosted weekends with 33-39 participants regularly.  Since emerging from the pandemic, we have slowly increased the average number of participants per weekend 18.8 with the average for the past 12 months at 15.

The number of participants per weekend drastically affects the financials for the weekend.  As we emerged from the pandemic, we continued to invest in community momentum by holding weekends that are near cost neutral.  We have counted on donations to cover any gaps.

Financial Assistance Impacts Finances

The number of participants requesting financial assistance has risen since the pandemic.   Last year, over $120,000 of financial assistance was awarded.  This year donations provided for over $97,000 to be awarded.  This financial assistance does not include any of the direct payment of a specific participant’s registration fees that many of you generously provide.  Paying for someone’s fee is not considered a donation by IRS guidelines.  Donating to a fund not directly tied to a specific individual is. Financial assistance includes support for our work in Mexico, Kenya, Rwanda and other special populations.

Weekend Revenues and Expenses

According to our unaudited financials of the fiscal year ending June 30, 2023, we had direct weekend participant and staff fees of $458,099.22 and direct weekend expenses of $461,015.69 with a net support of indirect weekend expenses (back office, merchant service fees, etc.) of -$2,916.47.

 

 

Direct Weekend Expenses

If we broke down the direct weekend expenses by a participant’s full fee of $595, the chart above shows how much of that fee is expensed per expense category.

• Retreat Rental 47% - Several of our favorite retreat sites closed or were sold due to the pandemic while others increased their fees post pandemic in an attempt to financially recover.
• Leader Fees 26% - The retreat leader is paid a fee for the heavy lift of organizing and leading safe and high-quality weekends. Carpet leaders and a coleader or two receive small stipends for ensuring the same and assisting in the weekends experiential impact. This figure does not include any pay when any staff member leads a weekend as they are compensated already for their roles.
• Leader Travel 9% - Reasonable travel expenses for retreat and carpet leaders is reimbursed.
• Food 11% - Due to inflation, food budgets have been increased. The actual expense of food items is difficult to capture as Food Coordinators frequently make additional purchases of food items for the weekend and do not turn in their receipts for reimbursement or as a Gift-In-Kind donation.
• Materials 6% - The actual expense of materials is difficult to capture as many staff purchase materials and do not turn in their receipts for reimbursement or as a Gift-In-Kind donation.
• Program Support and Graduation <5% - The expense of the back office, including website, merchant service fees, part time Operations Manager, Men’s Ministry Leader, Women’s Ministry Leader, and other expenses directly related to weekends was not covered last year by weekend staff and participant fees.

What Weekend Fees are NOT Financially Supporting

Donors last year provided the necessary funding of the back office of our weekends.  Those who give generously create the financial support to continue to replicate retreat and carpet leaders to be ready for growth and expansion, invest in the continued evolution of initial and second level weekends, and group curriculum, are the catalyst for ensuring Crucible communities are healthy and growing, and change lives by providing financial support that allows finances to not be a barrier for any participant, and especially in our work in Mexico, Kenya, Rwanda and other special populations.

If you are not supporting Crucible financially, you can start with a monthly gift of any amount securely online right now or learn about other ways to give.  If you have additional questions or would like to receive more information, let us know.

 

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All in the Family

Stepping into a Crucible weekend can come with some unknowns. Participants are not given a daily itinerary or roster, the emails leading up to the weekend make no mention of the menu or specific details about sleeping accommodations, and typically, most walk into the weekend without a clear idea of what to plan for or the impact it will have. But when Kevin Thompson pulled up to his retreat site in St. Charles, IL on a Friday night in November 2022, he knew two things for sure: that everything was done for a reason so he needed to trust the process, and that he would know at least two other participants and one staff member really well, because he was their dad.

Kevin’s son, Nathan, attended his first Crucible weekend in 2018 based on the recommendation of some friends. After experiencing a transformational weekend, Nathan was eager to share his journey with his dad. Kevin, a self-described skeptic and extroverted introvert, shared that while he was excited for the growth Nathan experienced, he was very hesitant to sign-up for his own weekend. His decision-making process is calculated, driven by collecting information and researching multiple sources.

After attempting – and failing - to find detailed information about the weekend retreats online, Kevin turned to Nathan in hopes of better clarity about the weekend’s agenda along with some of Nathan’s friends who attended after hearing about Nathan’s experience, including Kevin’s son-in-law. Much to Kevin’s dismay, each man remained intentionally vague in their response.

Through those conversations, though, Nathan did not let his dad’s skepticism keep him from continuing to gently, yet diligently, pursue him to participate. Kevin said, “Looking back, I have a lot of gratitude for him staying consistent with me and my skepticism. For over two years, he’d say, ‘Hey dad, have you reconsidered at all? What would it take for you to consider doing it?’ There was no conflict, no judgment, just a pure understanding of my hesitancy and honoring it but not letting me go. It was definitely a building block in our relationship.”

Nathan’s gentle patience with his dad paid off when Kevin finally agreed to sign-up and step into his own work. Kevin shared, “After years of trying to put it off because I couldn’t quite figure it all out, I finally said to Nathan, ‘I don’t know if this will be the right thing for me, but I love you, so I’ll go for you.’ I was aware I would likely be triggered by things from my past and it would be hard, but I was willing.” Kevin wasn’t the only one willing, either. His other two sons, Andrew and Luke, also opted to attend the same weekend after seeing a change in their brother.

Speaking on his experience attending with his dad and brothers, Andrew Thompson said, “I was pretty eager to go and really wanted to experience the retreat. I think my dad was a little terrified, but the weekend went really well. It was a lot to go through, but being there with Nathan staffing and my dad and little brother, Luke, as participants was a really special experience. Because of life stages and managing jobs and families, I felt like we were all starting to drift apart unintentionally but this brought us so much closer. We talk the same language now and we know how to check-in and process our emotions with each other. Despite having constant outward pressures from life, I feel so much more peace in our family dynamic.” Kevin shared similar sentiments. “As a family, we have a common language now. Sashet emotions are regularly discussed and as a whole, we have a high value on transparency and vulnerability.”

When asked about his biggest takeaway from attending the weekend with his sons, Kevin shared two things. First, that joy lies on the other side of fear, which is a lesson he taught to all seven of his sons and daughters as they were growing up but forgot to practice for himself. “Instead of doing what I taught and going where I was afraid, I let other people do it first so I could have less risk. The joy I experienced on the other side, though, was a beautiful reminder that it truly is just on the other side of fear, so go boldly.”

Kevin’s second takeaway was the experience he had Sunday afternoon with his sons. Nathan coordinated with the other staff so that he, his dad, and two brothers could participate in The Blessing as a group, silently giving and receiving blessing from one another and anointing each other with oil. Kevin shared that outside of welcoming his children into the world and their family, it was the single most impactful and joy-filled experience he has had as a father.  It was also special to see how it blessed other men in the room who witnessed a healthy relationship between a father and his sons, which is often a place of brokenness and sadness. They were able to unintentionally model that health and healing is possible and provide hope.

The Thompson family’s Crucible journey offers a beautiful challenge for other Redwoods. Do you have family members you’d like to invite on a weekend but have been hesitant? What’s holding you back? Though each weekend comes with uncertainties and fears, what joy may be waiting on the other side for your parents, siblings, or other relatives? Let us dare to step into the unknown and allow ourselves to risk vulnerability in order to experience transformation and unity with the people who have seen us at our best and worst. May the families of Crucible men and women everywhere uncover a new depth of relationship and become beacons of healing and love for others to witness and be inspired by. Joy lies just on the other side of fear, so trust the process and discover what sharing in this experience could do for your family!

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Living From a Place of Blessing

When we live from a place of blessing, we are confident in our identity and purpose. We find our fulfillment in God, and we are free to bless others. We don't need the approval of others to feel good about ourselves, and we don't base our self-worth on our achievements or possessions.

Living from a place of blessing doesn't mean that we don't have problems or that we're perfect. It means that we're confident in who God has made us to be, and we're secure in His love for us. We know that we are valuable to Him, and we don't have to strive to earn His love. As a result, we can freely love others without expecting anything in return.

Our identity is how others see us, and how we see ourselves. Our identity comes from many things - our family, our friends, our culture, our job, our interests, and more. But one of the most important things that shapes our identity is our relationship with God.

When we know that we are loved and accepted by God, it gives us a confidence that is unshakeable. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks of us because we know that we are chosen. We are His beloved children, and nothing can change that.

This confidence from God's blessing gives us the strength to live our lives boldly, and to love others boldly.

When we are blessed, it's not just for our own benefit. We are blessed so that we can in turn bless others. When we give out of the overflow of our own blessing, we can be a light in someone else's darkness and help them to feel loved, valued, and supported.

Blessing others does not always mean giving them material things. It can also mean giving our time, our attention, and our love. Sometimes the greatest blessing we can give is our presence. Just being there for someone in their time of need can make all the difference in the world.

So next time you are feeling blessed, remember that you have been given those blessings for a reason. You have been blessed so that you can bless others.

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Living in Freedom

“His final breath upon the Cross is now alive in me. Your name is VICTORY.”

- Resurrecting by Elevation Worship

A head once crowned with thorns, that is now crowned in GLORY.

The one that once wore sin and shame now robed in MAJESTY.

The radiance of perfect love, now shining for all to see.

Yes, Jesus is back. Defeated the story that once claimed DEATH over Him.

Death is not His Story. His story is VICTORY.

For those of us that walk with Him, victory is our story too.
We just need to live it.

Our God did not rob the grave so we can stay stuck in it, yet that’s the way so many live.

“For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons and daughters of God. For you DID NOT receive THE SPIRIT OF SLAVERY to fall back into fear, but YOU HAVE received the SPIRIT OF ADOPTION as sons and daughters. By whom we cry, ABBA Father”. -Romans 8:14-15

Jesus did not take the cross for us to fall back into fear. Beloved, His victory is yours.

Today, tomorrow, and forever.

What work have you begun in becoming free, that you’ve taken steps back from in fear?

What were the driving forces or voices that led to your steps back?

Did they sound like FREEDOM or DEFEAT?

Wherever you are today, FREEDOM IS STILL YOURS. An abundant life is still yours. You simply need to live in it.

Beauty for Ashes, that is for you.

Freedom from Fear, that is for you.

An Inheritance where you once were Alone, that is for you.

Gladness from Sorrow, that is for you.

It is time for YOU to rise from the ashes of defeat. The resurrected King is still resurrecting today.

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Join the Podcast Team!

The Crucible Project Podcast has been a huge win for the organization! In it, men and women share stories of their Crucible experience. These stories point to the radical honesty and grace experienced during and after the weekend. It is an awesome way to share what Crucible does with people who've yet to attend a weekend. Stories help us to relate, connect, and feel seen.

Do you love to have conversations? Do you enjoy listening to people share their stories?

Then Podcast Hosting may be for you!

One of our Podcast Hosts recently shared, “When I was asked to host podcasts, I had no idea how much I’d love it. The joy of it for me is getting to dive deeper into people’s stories. There are a wide range of people I’ve been able to interview- to be able to hear each unique individual so moved by their experiences and gold has inspired me significantly.”
On the Crucible Project Podcast men and women are interviewed on things like their weekend experience, as well as how Crucible Soul Work has impacted their everyday life.

We recently hit 4K downloads! The podcast team has been blown away to see the impact the podcast has had on bringing listeners to a weekend. Many men and women have listened to stories of life transformation and decided to experience it for themselves.

One of the beauties of Podcast Hosting, is that it is a simple set up. We have phenomenal editors who make sure the podcasts are ready to go. Hosting is as simple as recording!

If you’d like to take part in hosting our podcasts Contact Jess.

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My Soul Work Adventure

Redwoods share their stories of “Where I was then”, “Where I am now”, and “Where I’m going”. To share this video with a friend who’s not a Redwood yet, follow this link.

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Hope in the Hard Places

Article by Nikki LePore- Chicagoland Redwoods Community

Pastor of Care at Parkview Community Church

I recently discovered that “Joy to the World” was not meant to be a Christmas song. To say I was shocked is an understatement! You mean to tell me that one of the MOST popular Christmas songs of ALL time is in fact not a Christmas song… mind blown. And I gotta say, my Christmas spirit a little deflated. The world is hard enough, don’t take Christmas carols from me too!

I know I don’t need to convince those of you reading this that life is hard. Knowing, loving, and following Jesus does not shield us from the hard places. Having the Light of the world live in us does not mean we will never face darkness, disease, death, despair, or tragedy. And when we are facing those things, I think especially during this time of year, that hope can be hard to find, and our faith can feel fragile. If that’s you today, I see you sister, I love you brother, let me share of my hope with you!

“Joy to the World” was written by Isaac Watts to bring hope to a hurting world in the here and now. The world you and I live in. This time and space where Jesus has already come to save us from our sin and where we still long for His return. “Joy to the World” encourages us to prepare our hearts not for a baby that will be born in a manger but for our King who will come again to make all wrongs right. “Joy to the World” was written to point and prepare of hearts towards Jesus’ second coming!

So how does this bring hope in our hard places? How does this strengthen our faith? Hebrews 11:1 tell us that “faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Confidence in what we hope for… the day when Jesus will wipe every tear, and we will know in full what we can only see in part now. Assurance about what we do not see. It can be hard to see in the hard places. Hard to imagine joy, peace, or a way forward. It can be hard to be sure we will make it through the day let alone wait with hope for Jesus’ return. But here’s the light, the sliver of light that can pierce through the hard places, through the darkness and through the doubts, can calm the raging sea of our heart and minds… we have the future returning King with us in the here and now. He IS with you; He IS with me.

Because He is with me, I do not suffer in vain. All hope is not lost, death does not have the final say. Jesus, the one who conquered death, HE has the final say. And He says we are His. And nothing and I mean nothing can separate us from that love.

Wherever you find yourself today, may we prepare our hearts and make room for what is to come. May the true hope anchor us and fill us as we wait. May we share the Light and help bring His joy to a world who so desperately needs it.

Jesus loves you and so do I.

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Gratitude This Thanksgiving

The Character Trait God Values Most

That is a big statement, to say THIS is the thing God values and desires in His people more than all else.  What is it?  There are some biggies that come to mind:  Righteousness and holiness.  For sure, God calls us to be Holy, set apart and to live righteous lives.  But there is a character trait that must be place BEFORE holiness or else the pursuit of holiness degrades quickly into self-righteous Phariseeism.

Self-sacrificial serving is another big character trait that seems to be a contender for the top spot on the list. But again, there is another trait the but go BEFORE serving, else the serving opportunities devolve into a self-serving martyr syndrome. What is that one character trait that tops the list that must come before any other?  The one trait that brings out a pleasing aroma to our Lord in the WAY all those good things are carried out?  HUMILITY.

Humility is prized by our Father more than anything else.  Its opposite is what God Adam and Eve expelled from the Garden and Lucifer from Heaven before that.  Humility’s opposite is what turns any good thing ugly. Yet, humility is one of those traits that seems to not be available to us in a head-on pursuit.  It seems to be the byproduct of something else that, unfortunately, is usually only talked about one time a year:  Gratitude.

Brennan Manning in his excellent book Ruthless Trust, outlines four specific types of gratitude that, when practiced, yield the sweet fruit of genuine humility before the Lord and men.  In chapter two he outlines four ideas which I have re-arranged a bit in order to spell a word (call me crazy, but it helps me remember things!):  PACT. Daily I make a PACT with my heart to be thankful to God in these four ways and the result is humility.

• Present in God’s presence in the present. It is easy to wallow in yesterday’s losses or tomorrow’s what-ifs.  But to be present with God, here and now, and thankful for this very moment and the very air filling your lungs does something to the human soul.  It reminds you of your place before God.
• All inclusive Gratitude. The Bible says to give thanks to God IN ALL things.  Years ago my dad went through 17 years of brain tumors before one finally took him home to be with Jesus. After recovery from his first brain surgery, he said, “I would not wish brain tumors on my worst enemy, but I would not trade them for the world.  They have served to bring me closer to God than ever and closer to may family than ever.  I thank God for my brain tumors.”
• Contagious Gratitude. To ensure your gratitude is up to par, it must pass the test: Does my gratitude infect others with the desire to be grateful?
• Theocentric Gratitude. It is so easy to become self-centered in all of our thinking, even what we are thankful for. When we maintain God at the center our gratitude takes on a different shape.

Manning says that when we have this type of Gratitude, it produces in us the sweet fruit of humility, which is so precious to God.  So may challenge to you during thanksgiving (and beyond) is to get beyond the surface level of thankfulness and dig deep.  Make a PACT with your heart to cultivate THIS type of gratitude—then watch humility start to take shape in your life.

(Thoughts on gratitude this Thanksgiving from Texas Redwood Pastor Dr. Kevin Pigg.)

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Introduction to the Enneagram

By now you’ve probably heard of the Enneagram. It’s garnering a lot of attention lately and with good reason! This practical tool can give you remarkable self-clarity, increased emotional intelligence and greater empathy for others. It’s also an excellent team building tool – improving communication, collaboration, and morale while lessening conflict and making it more constructive.

So, what exactly is the Enneagram?

The Enneagram is a personality theory that recognizes 9 distinct personality types. The word Enneagram comes from two Greek words: ennea = nine, and gram = drawing. What sets it apart from other personality theories is that while other theories tend to focus on behavior (Myers-Briggs, DISC, Strengthsfinder, etc.), the Enneagram goes beyond the superficial to focus on motives. The WHY behind the WHAT provides vital insights into ourselves and others. This emphasis on motives is a very biblical concept! 1 Corinthians 4:5 states: “So don’t make judgments about anyone ahead of time—before the Lord returns. For he will bring our darkest secrets to light and will reveal our private motives.”

Enneagram Types and Common Characteristics

1 (The Perfectionist) – Precise, moral, diligent, reliable. Loves organizing.

2 (The Helper) – Caring, helpful, considerate, warm. Loves serving.

3 (The Performer) - Hard working, driven, focused, efficient. Loves competition.

4 (The Romantic) – Empathetic, sensitive, tasteful, intellectual. Loves creating.

5 (The Investigator) – Analytical, resourceful, knowledgeable, private. Loves problem solving.

6 (The Loyalist) – Loyal, dedicated, responsible, thorough. Loves planning.

7 (The Enthusiast) – Fun, inspiring, energetic, versatile. Loves adventures.

8 (The Challenger) – Protective, decisive, bold, compassionate.  Loves challenges.

9 (The Peacemaker) – Thoughtful, kind, inclusive, steady. Loves nature.

Each type has its own unique core motivations – comprised of it’s core fear, core desire, core weakness, and core longing. Understanding why we do what we do allows us to cooperate with the Holy Spirit in becoming more like Christ.

In the summer of 2020, I invested in myself by getting some Enneagram coaching. The five sessions I had were amazing! The coaching helped to lift my “inner fog” and better understand myself. It helped me become a better leader, husband, father, friend, and follower of Christ. It was so helpful that I decided to become a certified Enneagram coach myself! Since becoming a coach, I love seeing the light bulb turn on for people as the Enneagram exposes their true, God-given personality – the good, the bad, and the ugly! In Redwood terms – you develop a sharper vision of both your shadow and your gold.

Recommended Resources

1. The Road Back To You by Ian Morgan Cron and Suzanne Stabile. This is the place to start your Enneagram exploration; This book gives you the basics simply, concisely and with great humor!
2. The 9 Types of Leadership: Mastering the Art of People in the 21^st Century Workplace by Beatrice Chestnut. Intensely practical – If you lead a team, you need this book!
3. Your Enneagram Coach is a very biblical, gospel-centered ministry with a lot of resources – including a free online assessment.
4. NewLifeEnneagram.com is where I provide resources.

One final piece of advice: we should never use the Enneagram as a club or a shield. We use it as a club when we deride others by saying (or thinking) things like, “You are so bossy, you’re such an 8” or “You are a typical 4, always so melancholy.” We use it as a shield when we excuse our own bad behavior by saying things like, “I can’t help that I’m so critical – I’m a 1” or “I’m a 7, you can’t expect me to follow through on the details.”

While I believe the Enneagram is a helpful tool, I also firmly believe that it’s the good news of Jesus Christ that changes lives - NOT the Enneagram. Used correctly, the Enneagram shouldn't encourage you to “try harder” but rather lead you to lean into the mercy and provision of God as found in Jesus Christ.

Dave Corlew, Chicagoland Community

Get in touch with me here.

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Welcome New Support Team Members

The Crucible staff team serves to support the mission-centric work of Crucible volunteers throughout the globe.  In 2020, the staff supporting the organization was halved in order to meet the demands of the pandemic.  As our volume of weekends and giving returned, our staff is growing to meet today’s new demands.

Welcome Kenny Johnston as Full-time Men’s Ministry Coordinator

Kenny attended his initial weekend in July 2016 and started staffing weekends almost immediately. He is a certified group leader and is actively working towards his certification for both retreat leader and carpet leader. He graduated from Sam Houston State University in 2005 with a degree in music and history.  He spent most of his professional life in secondary education teaching percussion, history, and Bible. He is also a Bible teacher at his local church.  Kenny lives in Spring, TX, with his wife Lisa and their two elementary-age children, Timothy and Michaela.

Men’s Ministry Leader, Byron Myers, stated, “Although it was a difficult decision, I believe Kenny Johnston is the right person for the Men’s Ministry Coordinator position at this time.  Kenny will be also filling a community coordinator function that is currently missing as well as taking on some tasks and projects that I have in que and need completion.   I believe Kenny will be an asset to Men’s ministry.”

Welcome Jess Donovan as Part-time Communications Coordinator 

Jess Donovan is a proud New Englander who lives in New Hampshire. Her soul work journey started in the Northeast

community in 2021.  She is passionate about communicating in a way that is effective and engaging.  She shared, “Partnering alongside Crucible to help others in life transformation is a huge blessing to me”.  When she’s not working you can find her hiking, dancing, or exploring with friends.

Executive Director Roy Wooten shared, “The candidates for this position were all awesome and it was a tough decision made with prayer and input from interview committees.  I’m so glad to have Jess’ enthusiasm for Christ-centered soul work and her understanding of communicating in ways that this generation will consume will be such a gift to the ministry with her in this role.  I look forward to having Jess sharing Crucible with the world in this formal way”.

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Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Pastor Greg Huston went on a secular men’s retreat to work on the “things in the basement of his life” effecting his key relationships and ministry and experienced grace in such a unique way that he had never experienced over the course of his lifetime in Christian ministry.  He felt God’s calling to take this grace-filled experience to the Christian world.  What started as groups and coaching in the early 2000’s morphed into The Crucible Project ministry in 2005.  Now over six thousand across the USA and on three continents have touched their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of our Savior on one of our weekends.

Because of Greg’s inspirational actions that created a Christ-centered soul work movement across the globe, Crucible leadership has created an award to recognize him and an annual recipient.  We are calling it, the Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Founder Greg Huston

Greg served as a pastor for 17 years in several churches in Philadelphia and Chicago.  He holds a Bachelors degree in Bible from Grace College and a Masters of Arts in religion from Westminster Theological Seminary.  Greg first launched what would become The Crucible Project under his coaching practice, Dare to Soar.  Under his 13 years of leadership, more than 1700 souls experienced our life changing work.  He also expanded Crucible beyond its initial roots in Chicagoland to flourishing communities in Texas, Colorado and Australia.  Although he retired from active ministry leadership in 2015, he continues to serve as a weekend leader.

Greg Presents First-Ever Recipient

At this year’s annual gathering, Greg introduced this year’s recipient.  “It is my privilege to present the first ever Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity award this evening to Les Crooks.  Four years ago a mentor invited Les to attend the Crucible weekend.  He left empowered and wanting more.  He was an unhealthy warrior who was not the man he wanted to be.  He soon joined the 2 year transformational program.  Over the course of the next two years, he discovered how his warrior energy can be shifted to sovereign blessing energy, strengthening relationships with his wife and three boys.

Les Crook’s Leadership Project

As the Penn High School Buildings Trades teacher for the past 22 years, he is always active and building something.  His 2 year group leaders, Scott Selby and Bill Snyder, and his coach and mentor Chris Cleghorn, challenged him to use his warrior energy to make a difference in his leadership project.  Les began challenging himself by riding his bike longer and longer distances.  He signed up for the race around Michigan and continued finding different challenges to better himself mentally and physically.  Les’s leadership project began to take shape.

Goal that is a Stretch!

What if he joined the Race Across America championing Crucible from coast to coast?  It would stretch him to be able to lead a team of crew members required, find the resources and volunteers necessary to safely accomplish the race, including a follow-van and RV, medical expertise and all the supplies.  What if he could stretch himself to lead others to donate $100,000 of financial support for Crucible weekends?

Goal Achievement

That is exactly what he did.  Les left Oceanside, California on his bike on June 14^th and finished the grueling 3088 mile journey 11 days and 8 hours later.   Less than 500 people have ever completed the solo Race Across America.  Les’s goal to raise awareness caused significant increases in website visitors, new Compass Resource email subscribers, social media followers and inquiries for 2 year programs, weekends, groups and coaching.  Not only has his efforts raised awareness, but his physical challenge inspired donors to give $100,000 toward financial assistance for future participants.”

Les Crooks Award Winner

Les Crooks responded by sharing, “I would have never taken the chance to go for such a huge goal without the work I received on my weekend and through the 2-year transformational program.  I am so thankful to my wife and family, my crew, Bill Snyder who was there every pedal along the way, and all of you helped support and donate. This has been life changing.  Thank you so much Greg  Huston.  I’m honored and I humbly accept.”

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No One Left Behind Initiative

^“A shepherd in charge of 100 sheep notices that one of his sheep has gone astray. What do you think he should do? Should the shepherd leave the flock on the hills unguarded to search for the lost sheep? God’s shepherd goes to look for that one lost sheep,”

Matt 18:12 (VOICE)

At Crucible, we believe that every soul is a precious gift from God and worthy of us inviting them to experience the life changing soul work of Crucible. Every new Redwood is valued enough to not let fade away but instead be invited into a soul work lifestyle that will help them survive the ups and downs of life.  Every soul, regardless of their relationship with God, socioeconomic status, race, culture or ethnicity, nationality or political leanings should have access to the gift of soul work.

No One Left Behind in Your Sphere of Influence

What you got for yourself on your initial weekend is the miraculous work of God.  Moving from the lies you once believed to a new truth about who you are at the core of your soul was so transformational that it had a ripple effect in your marriage, family, church, workspace and neighborhood.

We believe everyone you know should have the opportunity to experience what you experienced. As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, we are developing a dropbox full of resources to help you share this ministry with everyone you know.  New Redwoods will soon begin leaving the weekend with resources in their hands to promote upcoming weekends to their friends, family, coworkers and church.  Resources are in development for each Graduation attendees to leave with as well.

No New Redwoods Left Behind

Too many Redwoods leave their initial weekend and never connect with other Redwoods in their community.  This is especially true for Redwoods who do not live near a large or budding community.  It is vitally important for each soul who has touched a piece of their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of God to find immediate support for their continued journey.

We believe each new Redwood needs a community where the ups and downs of life can be met with Christ-centered soul work in a Crucible community.  As part of the No One Left Behind, we have implemented a post-weekend interview with the same pre-weekend interviewer.  A new Online Community will capture souls who live far from a Crucible community to provide follow up for online groups.  Growth Groups are being scheduled before each weekend to begin within 6 weeks post weekend.  Group coordination has been strengthened across Crucible Communities.

No One Left Behind Due to Financial Constraints

Money should never be a barrier to anyone who wants to engage in soul work within Crucible. Growth Group and initial weekend access should be available regardless of ability to pay the set fees.  We are a nonprofit ministry that provided $112,138 in financial assistance for initial weekends in the past 12 months.  Support for our work in Mexico, Rwanda, Kenya and other special communities provide resources allowing every soul to attend regardless of their financial situation.

We believe each Redwood should be given the opportunity to “pay-it-forward” by joining other Redwoods in financially supporting the ministry.  As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, changes to pre and post weekend communications will strengthen Crucible’s culture of generosity providing the financial resources to leave no one behind due to their financial situation.

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Soul Work on the African Continent

There were two landmark events for Crucible the past couple months: Launching work in Rwanda with a first Crucible Weekend in Rwanda and doing the first Level II Weekend in Kenya, Africa. These two events came together through an intense and complex journey of just four months from idea inception to execution.  This is a summary of the story:

In December we were presented an opportunity to bring Crucible work to Rwanda by tapping relationships and the leadership of some men who had experience with Christian soul work.  We were known to them by reputation.  We went after this seeing it as a unique opportunity to build on our Crucible work already underway on the African Continent. This meant calling together a team of men who could provide leadership as staff from the US and especially African men from Kenya and possibly South Africa.

I was asked to run point on this project by Byron.  There were many unusual elements.  We recruited a small team of experienced US Redwoods who would commit to over two weeks of travel and cover their own expenses.  To have a core of local Rwandans, a number of men who had done another men’s soul work experience went through Crucible’s Online Intensive in February. This created a local staff. The staff included them and nine men who came from Kenya, at their own expense and raising some funds from their community.  Six Americans were part of the team, and one we lost to quarantining in Kigali for a week with COVID and could not serve, except to pray.

Key to all of this was the initial outreach from Jamie Whyte from Colorado who had the network of relationships in Rwanda with Christian men, leaders and close contacts with Hope Haven School which hosted the weekend. Jamie’s leadership and investment in all ways made this weekend possible.

Several generous Redwoods gave financially to help cover costs of this start up. Men from different men’s work experiences, and men from America, Kenya and Rwanda blended into a team that worked together beautifully.

One important element of doing soul work in Rwanda is the fact that the country today is still deeply affected by the national horror of the 1994 genocide there.  More than 800,000 civilians—primarily members of the Tutsi - were killed during the campaign over 100 days. As many as 2,000,000 Rwandans fled the country. This is a scar for all Rwandans and every man on a weekend comes with some residual trauma. In light of this history, we intentionally stepped into local history orientation to attempt to understand this experience, and the Kenyan and American staff men visited the Rwanda Genocide Memorial together prior to arriving at the weekend site.

18 men went through the initial weekend, all Rwandan men except, ironically two Americans (read about one of them here.). There were so many unique aspects of this and it was an extraordinary experience for everyone. The staff men from Kenya had their first taste of helping to take a Crucible work to a new country.  Key leadership came from Pastor Jimmy Muyango of Rwanda who was enrolled as local leader and provided important guidance, and linguistic and cultural interpretation.  Kenyan leader Ananda Kinisu of The Tribe served as Co-leader of the weekend and led the Kenyan team.

Immediately following the Weekend in Rwanda the staff scattered to other business or home, and some crossed to Kenya.  On the next weekend all the Kenyan staff men were participants in the Leadership Joy retreat as the US team came to do that retreat with support of two key staff from Kenya.  Alan Hicks and Kariuki Thande did all the work of the weekend while still serving as staff experiencing a rare blend of staffing and participating in processes throughout.  For the second level weekend, there were a total of 18 Kenyan Redwoods, going deeper into their work as they focused and became more aware of living as kings!

The US team for both the Rwanda initial and Kenya Leadership weekends was Jay Mountjoy and Paul Storaci from Colorado Community, Byron Myers and myself.  Personally, for me, Rwanda was the most demanding preparation and execution of a weekend I’ve worked on.

In the near future, we see continued initial and Level II weekends in Kenya, continued initial weekends in Rwanda, and our first Kenyan Women’s initial weekend.  All of it will take Redwoods giving of their time and financial resources to make it possible.

The bottom line: we have seen this in places everywhere in the United States and in Australia, Mexico, Kenya, South African – this work and the Crucible weekend “works” across cultures and geographies.

Chris Cleghorn

Volunteer Ambassador

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Confidentiality in Our Circles

On Friday night of your initial weekend, you heard the following:

“What goes on throughout this weekend as well as each soul’s story is confidential. Whatever a man says and does here, stays here. When you leave this place, you may talk about what you learn about yourself, but not the work of others. The staff will not share anything they hear about you, nor should you share what you hear about any other. The only exception to this rule is that there may be an obligation to report to social agencies if anyone shares that they are currently abusing children or the elderly in any way. Anyone feeling the need to make such a report is asked to notify staff.  However, we as a staff remain committed to helping you face and overcome such a pattern and will work with you toward liberating you from your abusive practices.”

Confidentiality is a sacred trust with those we do our soul work with.  Whether it is on a weekend, in a group setting or with a Crucible coach, the agreement to keep confidential each person’s work is the bedrock foundation of safety for each soul.

Breaking Confidentiality by Reporting

Crucible policy only places safety as a higher value than confidentiality.  Crucible leaders are trained to break confidentiality when there is abuse or neglect of elderly or children, and when there is imminent harm to others, such as when someone reports they intend to harm themselves or others.

Breaking confidentiality to report is always a difficult decision.  If someone is in harms way, a report to a family member or governmental entities may be obligatory.  In the post-“me-too” era and the aftermath of catholic sexual abuse cover-ups, many states have added laws of required reporting beyond child and elderly abuse.  At the core of any decision to break confidentiality and report, we must keep in mind that the only reason to report must be to protect from harm’s way.

Container Leaks

Container leaks include sharing another’s work to others who are voluntarily staffing a weekend as well as casual conversations with another Redwood over drinks or meal.  Some break confidentiality when they share another’s work with their spouse.  It is never OK to tell another soul’s story unless it is determined that a report for safety reasons is necessary.

If you find a container leak, it is important that you call into account the person who has possibly broken the container.  We have a process for that!  Your Regional Leader , Group Leader, or any of our certified Retreat Leaders can assist you.

Recommit to Confidentiality

Anytime you find yourself wondering about your container holding, ask for a recommitment to confidentiality.  Bring any perceived breaches to your circle.  Your retreat leader on a weekend or group leader can assist with any questions you might have.  Byron and Lisa are great resources for any questions you might have about our policies.

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“I got what I came for and more!”

You probably said something like that.  That’s what all but a few Redwoods say on every Sunday afternoon to the final leader before they leave their initial weekend.  A small number say, “I got a great start toward it.”

God has met your courage, and the courage of over 5,800 men and women as they wrestled with Him around wounds at the core of their soul on our transformational weekends.  Their weekends ignited Christ-like change through experiences of radical honesty and grace.

Over 700 Redwoods volunteered to staff one of our weekends last year, committed to creating a world where men and women live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose.

Over $85,000 of financial assistance was given to participants last year.  Redwoods “paid it forward” allowing souls to find peace, confidence, clarity, power, joy, purpose, and freedom last year.

If you are currently a donor, thank you on behalf of so many who your funds help!  If you are not a donor yet,

Will you join with hundreds of other Redwoods to “pay it forward” so that more souls will be able to experience radical honesty and grace?

Get Your Sticker!

If you say “yes”, I want to send you a token gift of appreciation.  Set up a monthly contribution at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or send a monthly check to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.  When you do, I’ll send you a couple of “Radical Honesty & Grace” stickers, like the one above, for you to place on a vehicle, cup, laptop, or whatever you choose.  If you are already a donor, your sticker will be coming to your mailbox soon.

I’m praying that your donation will help over 1,000 men and women become Redwoods in 2022.  I am also praying that the stickers I send you will be a point of conversation with others in your life to invite them to a weekend.

Join the hundreds of Redwoods who are “paying it forward” so that this ministry continues to create weekend experiences where every soul “gets what they came here for and more!”

Continuing the Journey and helping others start theirs,

Roy Wooten

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Souls Are Waiting

In addition to volunteering to staff Weekends, Crucible needs your help.  Want to volunteer?

Scheduler – Do you have experience scheduling multiple people for meetings?  We are looking for a virtual scheduler who would be willing to help set up meetings.  .  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke

Database Manager – Looking for a Redwood with high attention to detail and experience with Excel or databases, such as CRMs, Salesforce, etc.  If you have time and high attention to detail, we’ll train you.  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke.

Content Developers – Redwoods with years of experience in soul work and participating or leading groups who might want to work with other experienced Redwoods to create new experiences for non-Redwoods across the globe through My Journey To online offerings.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Communications Coordinator – Are you good at editing?  If you have experience with MailChimp and would like to assist with growing outward facing communications, connect with Roy Wooten.

Podcast Host – Work with a team of volunteer podcasters to interview guests as part of the Crucible Podcast launching soon.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Testimonials – Would you be willing to share your testimonial in a video or audio format?  If so, we’ll help with interview questions.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Video and Audio Editors – Do you have skills editing video and audio recordings?  We are looking for volunteers willing to serve 2-4 hours per week to help with editing audio for podcasts and video for outward facing communications.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Online Crucible Intensive Staff – are you passionate about helping those who cannot attend an in-person Weekend? If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Local Men’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Byron Myers.

Local Women’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski

Weekly Check-In Hosts – Wednesday check-ins are here to stay, and we’d like to get organized and expand our host rotation! It’s a great way to step into leading and hosting on Zoom in a relaxed, low-pressure environment! If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski.

Pre-Retreat & Post-Retreat Interviewers – Like talking on the phone? Good at basic facilitation skills? You do not need to be staffing a particular retreat to help with interviews. You’ll receive training and detailed instructions for how to complete the interview. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Participant Coordinators – like emailing with participants and tracking details? Work with retreat leaders to help women get to the retreats with all the information they need! Got a sturdy shield and lots of grace to extend to scared participants who have not yet gone on their Crucible retreat and know what you already know? Maybe you’re cut out for being a participant coordinator! Requires some customer service, computer and problem solving. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Staff Coordinators – If you enjoy being the hostess, you’ll love being staff coordinator! Help make sure staff have the info they need for meetings, updated protocols, and coordinate travel and bedding for staff who are traveling in from out of town.  If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

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Continuing Your Soul Work

Attend Second Level Weekends

Unshackled: Breaking the Chains of Shame - Women

February 4-6 Hempstead, TX

Available to women who have attended the Crucible Women’s Weekend, is a deep dive into breaking free from the shame-based identities that bind us.  Women will walk away knowing at a core level who God has created us each to be.  Register Here!

Leadership Joy - Men

February 4-6 St. Charles, IL

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Mission - Men

March 4-6 Como, CO

September 9-11 St. Charles, IL

WHAT IT IS

The core of a man’s life is his purpose. Without a conscious mission a man is lost, drifting and adapting to circumstances in his life, rather than creating events. We believe Jesus lived on mission and modeled how He wants us to fulfill our purpose as followers of Him (Luke 4:18, 19:10). This entire weekend is devoted to exploring the core of your life — your mission.  Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn to minimize distractions and detours and live from your heart, giving your gifts to the world.

Develop a conscious, actionable mission and align your life with it.

Challenge and support to embrace your purpose.

Deepen your commitment to act with integrity.

Sexuality Weekend - Men

April 8-10 Andover, CT

August 26-28 Chidlow, Western Australia

September 16-18 Como, CO

WHAT IT IS

If you are like most men, the word “sex” stirs up a wide range of emotions and experiences – from joy, delight and ecstatic pleasure to shame, anger and pain. How can something that God designed as such a wonderful gift become a source of such confusion, darkness and despair for so many men? This entire weekend is focuses on tackling the multifaceted subject of sex. If you long to move toward seeing your sexuality as a wonderful gift God has given you to enjoy, then this weekend is for you. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Investigate the “dark side” of sexuality – looking at the woundedness and shame you carry

Explore how men use sex to avoid unpleasant feelings—and chart a better path to emotional health

Reclaim your sexuality as a sacred gift to be repossessed—not repressed

Experience healing and freedom in a safe place to engage in a holistic process

Leadership: Dark Side - Men

May 20-22

Brownwood, TX

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Groups

CRUCIBLE PROJECT SOUL GROUPS WERE FORMED OUT OF THE RECOGNITION OF THE NEED FOR MEN AND WOMEN TO CONTINUE THE WORK FOLLOWING THEIR INITIAL WEEKEND.

What It Is

Small circles of men or women (typically 6-10) are committed to grow into deeper levels of authenticity, honesty, transparency and grace in a safe and non-condemning environment. Groups typically meet three times a month — although it varies by group — and are led by a trained facilitator. Groups are open to men and women who have completed an initial weekend (or equivalent). Groups are offered locally within our established communities, or you may join one of our many video-based groups that meet online.

What You’ll Get

• Support and positive challenge for your continued work and the goals you want to reach.
• Learn from the deepest experience of other men or women as they share their work with you.
• An unparalleled group experience of safety, openness and trust.
• The tools, skills and healing to live a more passionate, powerful life

Connect to an in-person or online Growth Group, Journey Group or Development Group for Men or Women.

Get a Crucible Certified Coach

What is it?

Hiring a Crucible Certified Coach is like hiring a trainer/guide for fitness, wilderness adventures or home design.  Coaching helps you move from a stuck place toward your goals.  Crucible Coaching has the express purpose of helping men & women move toward Christlikeness and become more like Jesus.  Crucible Project coaches meet you where you are at and help you become a better version of yourself.  Coaches do this by unlocking your God-given gifts, talents, and goodness.

How does it work?

Generally, you meet by phone or online for about fifty minutes. Prior to each session you will complete a brief questionnaire about your progress and what specifically you would like to focus on during the session together.  During the session the coach will serve as a guide in helping you achieve your goals. Before the end of the session you will confirm the next session. Appointments are at varied times of the week at the day and time you agree upon.

We use methods, language, and some processes practiced by The Crucible Project as well as the individual coach’s skill set.

What are the benefits?

In coaching you will discover how and where you are stuck, be guided to break through barriers and achieve your goals. You will find a trusted professional walking alongside and encouraging you; giving guidance as you move out of your current place to something better; someone who can tap your own personal resources and God-given giftedness to live as a better you. The cost of coaching is included in the Two-Year Transformation program.

Join the Two-Year Transformational Program for Men!

THE TWO-YEAR TRANSFORMATIONAL PROGRAM IS AN INTENSE PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT TRACK FOR MEN WHO ARE COMMITTED IN THEIR BOLD JOURNEY TO LIVE FULLY AS WARRIORS, LOVERS, SAGES AND KINGS — LIKE JESUS.

The Two-Year Program is open to men who have completed an Initial Weekend (or equivalent).

What It Includes

• Second Level Weekends
  • Mission/Life Purpose
  • Sexuality
  • Leadership: Facing the Dark Side and Discovering the Hero Within
  • Leadership: Moving Through Barriers Towards Joy
• Development Group membership. Continue your work with other men willing to make the same two-year commitment as you. Groups meet three times a month and are led by a trained facilitator. In addition to local face-to-face groups, we offer a video conferencing based group for those living in an area without a local group.
• Monthly coaching calls to further refine your journey in the two-year program.
• Staffing opportunities. Priority staff placement for all 1st-Level weekends to use what you are learning in service to other men.

What You’ll Get

• Discover and live your God-given purpose as a man.
• Become a more authentic man who lives at deeper levels of integrity.
• Engage your God-given inner strength to live with greater confidence and courage.
• Live more courageously – willing to shake things up and take risks; penetrating your world.
• Learn to live from your heart.
• Let go of the sexual shame you carry and embrace your sexuality as a sacred gift – full of life, connection and creativity.
• Build more authentic, loving relationships.
• Grow as a more effective leader.

Contact us for more information and cost

Workshops and Connections

FREE Weekly Redwood Men's or Women's Check In

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Caring For Your Inner Child

January 21, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Caring For Your Inner Child.

Register in Events!

Live Connection - Morning Stillness & Check In

January 25, 8-9AM CDT

Beginning your day with a meditation, stilling your soul. Center yourself for a productive day.

Register in Events!

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Motivation Without Shaming

January 27, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Motivation Without Shaming.

Register in Events!

FREE Live Workshop: Why Am I Stuck?

January 29, 9-11AM CDT

An opportunity to explore how and why we get stuck when trying make changes in our lives. Work on some specific area you’d like to change and develop a plan to move forward.

Register in Events

Introduction to Facilitation Training for Men

Connecticut Jan 22–23, 2022 In person or online. Led by yours Judson Poling.  $350 per person or $600 for couples.  In this training, you will learn the theory of all Carpet Work processes as well take a deep-dive into the specific steps of Anger and Support processes. The training will provide several opportunities to review and practice those steps. You’ll also learn how to refine what the participant really wants; what are people's different learning styles and the language to use that fits their style; and understand your own facilitator shadows. To maximize your learning, we recommend you carefully read over the manual before attending, which requires you to register at least four weeks in advance. If you register later, you’ll get the manual when you arrive on Saturday.

Register Here!

Staff an Upcoming Weekend

Staff an Upcoming Weekend
Men, Andover, CT March 18-20
Women, St. Charles, IL April 1-3
Men, Chouteau, OK April 1-3
Men, North Zulch, TX April 1-3
Men, Como, CO April 8-10
Women, Andover, CT April 22-24
Men, Sexuality, Andover CT April 8-10
Apply!

 

 

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The Gift of Christmas

Christmas Season Points to Jesus

I love that across the world, people are reminded annually that Jesus came into the world to “be God’s representative tot eh poor, to preach good news to them, to tell those who are held captive that they can now be free, that the blind can now see, to liberate those held down by oppression and to proclaim that now is the time and jubilee season of grace.” (Luke 4:18-21 VOICE).

Jesus is the Unquenchable Source of Light

Jesus’ entrance into the world was light coming into darkness.  John’s gospel tells us that Jesus was with God before creation and that He was the source of light in the universe “that thrives in the depths of darkness, blazes through murky bottoms – it cannot and will not be quenched.” (John 1:5 VOICE).

No Room in the Inn

But what has my attention this year is this part of Luke 2:7 VOICE, “because the inn had no room for them.”  During my elementary school years, it never made much sense to me when the Sunday school teacher shared this story.  How can they not make room for the Savior of the world?

Do I Make Room for Jesus?

What has me thinking about this verse so much is that I am not sure that I make enough room for Jesus in my life today.  I believe when Jesus said that He is always with those of us who call Him King of our lives.  But my awareness of His presence is absent far too frequently than I’d like to admit.   Distracted by the list of tasks to be accomplished today, commitments I’ve made, my health, our family schedule, work challenges, relationship struggles, and whatever breaking news is going on, I do not make room to create awareness of Jesus who is always with me.

Challenged To Make Room

Knowing this, I am committed to creating space as a part of my daily routine to arouse my personal awareness of Jesus with me.  In my space, I am committed to talking to Jesus through prayer and listening for anything He has to say to me about whatever is going on in my life at that time.  I’m committed to spending some time with an open Bible in a reading program that focuses me on my relationship with Him.  I am excited about what making room in my life for Jesus might bring to the rest of my life.

Need more light in your life?  Perhaps you will join me in making room for Jesus in your awareness as well!

(adapted from Dave Rider)

 

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Giving Groups

Every year several Journey Groups send in a group donation to Crucible.  We wanted to find out how it began and why they continue to give back to Crucible in this manner.  We interviewed Christopher Dorsano and Larry Korbus who generously shared their responses.

When did your group start doing it and why?

Larry said,

“Our Journey Group, we call “TCP Sequel”, was founded in April, 2014 by five men who were graduating from the 2-Year Program within one or two months of each other. (Four of the five men are still members today. The other relocated to another state.) We decided we did not want our “journey” together to end upon graduation. We wanted to “grow old together”. (Or as one of the men jokes, “grow older together”.)

The five of us met with members of two other Journey Groups to learn how they structured and governed themselves. We then drafted group documents which are still in place 8 years later.  One of the documents we agreed to stated, “In lieu of dues, each man is expected to make a donation to The Crucible Project. The donation should be made each month in the amount of $25 or a bi-annual donation in the amount of $150 or an annual donation in the amount of $300.””

Chris said,

“We have always done it that way. The fundamentals all came from Crucible and they are doing all they can to change lives and help them out of their deep waters. That is a mission I can put my money behind.”

Why does your group think giving back to the ministry is important

Larry replied:

“The founding members of TCP Sequel realized what a gift The Crucible Project had given us. We had grown significantly in areas of leadership, integrity and living our mission. We, in turn, wanted to give back to ensure that The Crucible Project continued to impact the lives of other men. We also did not want any existing or new members to take our group “lightly” or for granted. Therefore, requiring group members to make a minimum annual donation to The Crucible Project became a requirement for membership.”

Chris replied,

“The best way to make an impact I am not able to do with my own time is by tithing so others that do have the time can change lives.”

What do your group members get for themselves by giving to crucible? What are the benefits of your generosity?

Larry commented:

“We rest assured that our financial contributions are going to a ministry that is dedicated to changing the lives of men and women for the better. There’s a comfort in knowing that our continued support helps to maintain the current level of operations and provides for future enhancements and expansion.”

Chris commented:

“The benefits are a community of men that are all on different journeys but have a solid foundation. It is like having family all over the world that you may have never met but when you do there is common ground.”

If you want help to add giving as a part of your Journey Group covenant, contact us at communications@thecrucibleproject.org.

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Free for You for Life

In a recent conversation with my wife, Michelle, we were talking about the importance of continuing “our work.” I’m referring to our soul care journey toward self-awareness, emotional wellness and living at deeper levels of authenticity. We talked mostly about intentionality, but also about how hard it is to keep looking in the mirror, even though we both know it is vital to our healing.

I don’t know your story, but I wonder if it looked anything like mine over the last 18 months, where I often operated in survival mode and made up that it’s hard enough just to deal with life right now, so I’m gonna pass on “the work.” With too many weekends canceled and in-person group opportunities diminished during the lockdown, I had all the excuses.

Enter My Journey To 

I’m thankful for the forward thinking of The Crucible Project to build the My Journey To app that brings soul care right to you, literally anywhere, for free. Its content library is full of powerful teachings, exercises and visualizations developed and delivered by experienced men and women on the journey — it’s good stuff. It also features live connection events and workshops where you can join others online for shared experiences. Groups and coaching are offered through the app as well.

There are three membership levels, and the bronze tier is free forever. If you decide to upgrade to the silver tier, the expanded content library is free for the first two weeks and you get the self-assessment tool, which helps you identify areas to focus on and delivers content tailored to those areas. I challenge you to check MyJourneyTo.com out. If you think it may benefit others in your circle, please share it with them, too.

We may not yet know the full impact this pandemic has on our emotional health. While the soul work journey is not easy and requires intentionality, I believe anything we can do to press into our work and stay on the journey will prove invaluable.  Having a tool like the My Journey To app can only help. Be encouraged and keep looking in the mirror — you and those you love are worth it.

John Owen

Courageous Free Hawk

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Share to Win

We are meeting the dark times we are all living in by creating a world where souls help others to live fully alive, instead of wasting their lives.

Your help is urgently needed. We are inviting those of you who have wrestled with God around your core wounds to spread the mission of Crucible Project across the globe.

Crucible’s strongest hope of introducing Christ-centered soul work to souls who are unaware of how they are living their lives is Crucible’s new outreach application – MyJourneyTo.com.  We anticipate that a large number of souls helped through My Journey To will eventually face the fire and find their gold at an upcoming Weekend.

Are you Social?

Our new social media channels for My Journey To Renewal, Wellness and Belonging have recently launched on Facebook and Instagram.  Liking, following and sharing social media channels will expand our reach, without spending money on marketing. When you like, follow and share our My Journey To channels, you are helping provide Soul Care Anywhere – to isolated souls across town or across the globe.

Share to Win

When you like, follow and share My Journey To on Facebook or Instagram you are helping Crucible expand our reach as we provide Soul Care Anywhere. By engaging on these social media channels — you will be entered to win prizes as a thank you gift.

Random Drawing “Thanks for Sharing” Prizes

One will win a $100 Amazon Gift Card

One will win a $50 Amazon Gift Card

Five will win a $10 Starbucks Gift Card

How to enter on Facebook:

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow My Journey To My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in comments on the Share to Win post for an additional entry.
5. Share the Share to Win post for an additional entry.

How to enter on Instagram: 

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow the My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in the Share to Win comments for an additional entry.

Contest Rules:

Anyone over 18 can enter. Must complete steps 1-3 for valid entry. Complete steps 4-5 for additional bonus entries. No limit to number of entries. Winners drawn randomly. Seven total winners. Winners will be announced on the My Journey To Facebook and Instagram channels on October 20, 2021.  Winners must send a private/direct message through to My Journey To channels within 7 days of winner announcement. Questions about the contest should be addressed to Communications@MyJourneyTo.com.

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Dare to Soar Couples and Crucible

Our Founder, Greg Huston, and his wife, Toni, have been leading Dare to Soar Couples Retreats, groups and coaching for a couple of decades.  Greg Huston started Dare to Soar in 1999 to help men create more authentic, passionate, and grace-filled lives and to build relationships in which they experience more joy, love, and peace.

A pastor for 18 years, Greg first developed Dare to Soar programs, including individual counseling work, group work, and weekend retreats, to address the issues with which many men in the church were struggling. In 2005, Greg’s men’s work evolved into The Crucible Project ministry.

After several years of working with men, Greg felt a growing desire to bring his expertise to couples. At the same time, men were requesting a way to introduce their wives to their spiritual and emotional journey. Greg responded by expanding Dare to Soar to include couples’ retreats—and to include his wife, Toni, to help lead them.

Together Greg and Toni launched the first Dare To Soar Couples retreat in 2005 and quickly added continuing care in the form of monthly groups. Since then, they have led couples’ weekends in Illinois, Texas, Colorado and the Czech Republic.

An accomplished speaker, facilitator, coach, and counselor, Greg is driven not just by his education and pastoral experiences but also by 30 years of extensive work on his own life. He has been used by God to powerfully impact the lives of many through his work.

One of the great joys of Greg and Toni’s life is doing this work together, sharing what they have learned in the “lab” of their own 45 years of marriage.  Another is their family, which includes two daughters and their husbands and two grandchildren.

Greg and Toni are excited that The Crucible Project will continue the Dare to Soar legacy of couples’ retreats, groups and coaching beginning in January, 2022.  According to Greg and Toni, “We are thankful that our work with couples will continue as we shift to a new season in our lives.”

Roy Wooten, Executive Director, stated, “It is a great honor for Crucible to continue Greg and Toni’s legacy of couples soul work.  They are such a gift to couples around the world and to this ministry.  The need for good solutions for couples navigating the ups and downs of lifelong relationships is great.  We are so thankful to Greg and Toni!”

The last Dare to Soar Weekend led by Greg and Toni Huston is scheduled for October 15-17 in the Chicago area.  Registrations are still available for couples to register.  Learn more!

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Will you step into your Warrior and rise to the challenge?

On your initial weekend you were challenged to stop complaining and blaming and step into your warrior.  You were courageously vulnerable in declaring the thing you did not want others to know.  You wrestled with God around your core wounds – and found a true blessing. You found your power and stepped into your strength to set boundaries within you.  As you gained clarity about your heart’s deepest desires, you stepped into action to get them for yourself and to create the world you really want.

This has been one of the most challenging years of our lifetimes.  Many Redwoods rose to the challenge facing this incredible ministry we both love so much.  They stepped into their strength and courage to financially provide for the ministry’s sustainability during a time many ministries closed their doors forever.  Their investments made it possible for over 250 Weekend Participants and over 200 Staff to engage their soul work this challenging pandemic.

Will you join fellow Redwoods by rising to the financial challenges of this past year by making a financial contribution to The Crucible Project?  Your donation to the Annual Fund supports all operational and strategic initiatives.  A secure one-time or monthly donation of any amount can be set up quickly at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or by mailing checks to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.

When I mail out acknowledgment for a donation of any amount, you will receive the new Warrior sticker to proudly display in a visible place.  You can use it as a point of discussion to share what God has done and is doing through this powerful ministry and remind you of the strength and courage you summoned this past year and can deploy for any future challenge before you.

Your generosity will keep us igniting Christ-like change in men and women through experiences of radical honesty and grace.  Your gift will allow us to continue to create a world of women and men who live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose!

Thanking you in advance for rising to the challenge!

Roy Wooten

Executive Director

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For Redwood Pastors Only!

Participate in the first Redwoods Pastors Retreat

3pm Monday, November 1-11:30am Thursday, November 4, 2021

Land of My Grandfather’s

North Zulch, TX

The last 18 months have been some of the most challenging times to be a Pastor.  With that in mind, we have put together a retreat with you in mind.  This special men's retreat is for initiated full-time Pastor’s and parachurch Ministers to come and renew your spirit, to rest, to connect, to be authentic and find a brotherhood for support. Our desire is to minister to the heart of each one of you!  We believe this retreat will be inspirational, healing, refreshing and will be better if you are there.

The cost is $250 which includes lodging, food and supplies. Register now so we can plan for your attendance. For more information,  Contact Andy Spell or Tim Rush.

REGISTER NOW

Join a Redwood “Pastors Only” Group

We are starting two new groups for Pastors who would like a place to do your work, where you are allowed to be your authentic self, and in a place that is set apart from those you lead.

Both groups will meet on the 1^st and 3^rd Wednesday of the month, beginning June 2^nd and ending November 17^th.  Group one will meet from 6:00-7:30 am central time zone.  Contact Andy Spell . Group two will meet from 6:00-7:30 am pacific time zone.  Contact Tim Rush.

There are no fees for these groups.

What Pastor’s Are Saying:

“The pastors in this group helped me process things that others would never understand.  A safe place that I could just be me, nothing more. No pastor hat just a man among other men.”   -Brent in Chicago

“The Crucible Pastor's Group was the safe community I was missing. I never thought a zoom call could have such a profound impact on my life and walk with Jesus.  It was well worth waking at 3:30am to join twice a month” - Ryan in Seattle

Mid-Week Initial Weekend

So many church staff struggle to give up a weekend while in full time ministry.  Will you prayerfully consider staffing a midweek weekend?  Staff will arrive on Sunday night, August 22^nd as a member of the staff team, serve pastors from across the country as they experience radical honesty and grace, and leave the afternoon of Wednesday, August 25^th full and blessed. If you are interested in staffing, complete an application.

Participant registration is open!  Participants arrive 6:45-7PM Central Monday night and exit by 3PM on Wednesday.  Let ministers know that they can sign up now at TheCrucibleProject.org

New Resource for Those You Lead

When a challenging church member or a church leader is struggling, Crucible now has a suite of resources you can place in their hands.  My Journey To is an online app that has an assessment, pre-recorded soul work experience library, and Live Events available to supplement any pastoral care or counseling you might be providing.  If you would like a complimentary membership, contact   and let him know you are a Pastor.  If interested in group membership pricing for your leadership team or congregants, contact Roy Wooten.

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Finding My Strength and Growth Opportunities

“Intentional living is the art of making our own choices before others’ choices make us.” – Richie Norton

Emerging Intentionally

It is so encouraging to see news reports that the pandemic’s end is in view.  The past fourteen months have been challenging, but we can find some truths about ourselves.  Challenges provide opportunities to raise our awareness about who we are, how we show up in life, where we still have opportunities to grow, and what our strengths are.  There are always things to learn as well as celebrate along our journey.

One of the gifts many of us discovered is that we do not want to go back to the way life was pre-pandemic.  Many of us found an unscheduled “reset” to our lives. Hurry and busy have been replaced with serenity and meaning.  Changes in routines provided more space for contemplation, creativity and recreation.  Some of us found our spiritual practices increasing even as church attendance disappeared or dwindled.

• What growth opportunities have you discovered about yourself?
• What strengths and resiliency have you noticed about yourself?
• What have you been doing that you want to continue post-pandemic?

Intentionally Creating Your Post-Pandemic Life

Our My Journey To Team has a free and confidential resource to assist in planning and designing your post-pandemic inner world.  The My Journey To Self-Assessment is a tool that provides personal feedback of strengths and growth opportunities in eight areas of your life.

The eight areas measured include emotional wellness, family relationships, physical wellness, vocation, spiritual wellness, finances, relationships with friends, and recreational life. Results reveal where you are satisfied in your life and what is in the way in the areas where you are not satisfied.

The Self-Assessment takes about forty minutes to complete and provides a report or each assessment area as well as an overall conclusive report.  It is available with a two-week trial membership of My Journey To.

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You Are the Sum of What You Look At

You may have heard the saying that, “You’re the sum of the five people you spend the most time with.” 

Maybe before the internet age that was true, but it’s really not true anymore.

I think today what’s true is, “You are the sum of what you look at.”

The idea used to be if you hung around with certain people, they would rub off on you. Their attitudes would rub off on you. Their ways of thinking about things would rub off on you. That you’d be influenced even if you thought these were just little interactions that didn’t really matter, you’re gonna be influenced.

That’s true, but it’s even more true for what it is you look at.

If you spend time flipping through “feeds”—be it Facebook, or Reddit, or Instagram, or Twitter, or whatever—of things that make you angry all the time, you are going to be the sum of all those little posts that make you angry.

That’s what you’re going to turn into. You’ll become incredibly bitter about life.

On the other hand, if you’re always reading books that are uplifting, or biographies of great people, or sci-fi that you really enjoy, stuff like that, that’s going to have that impact on you too. You’re going to be the sum of the quality of what you look with there, as well.

In Cal Newport’s book, Deep Work, he talks about how we tend to think that it’s the big outcomes in life that really matter, and they’re the only things we really need to think about: Did I get the job? Did I get married? Did I get a raise? Did I succeed at the thing?

We think the big outcomes are what’s important, and all the little moment-to-moment stuff can be ignored.

But it turns out the reverse is actually a lot more true.

What you do moment-to-moment, what you look at moment-to-moment, what media you’re consuming moment-to-moment—it’s those little moments that actually add up to who you become.

It’s easy to discount these effects.  It’s easy to say, about the five people you hang out with who have the biggest impact, “Well, you know, we just hang out occasionally, it doesn’t really matter.” It’s easy to say, “While I’m standing in line I flip through Facebook, and that doesn’t really matter.”

But if you’re doing that literally for, perhaps, hours a day, it actually really does matter.

It’s the little things in life, as they say, that matter. And they actually create that big picture outcome that you might be going for.

So what’s the takeaway for this? Over the next few days, if you think of it, think about, “What is it I’m looking at most? What is it I’m absorbing most?”

Ask yourself: “If this is influencing me ten times more than I think—if this is influencing my attitude, my day-to-day feelings, and my ability to focus on something for more than a moment—would I really want to be looking at it?”

And if you feel like you wouldn’t, maybe search out things that actually do inspire you and do make you feel good. Either reading books, on the internet, people you like—something like that.  It’s just so easy for these little moments that we have throughout our day to get sucked up and filled up with flipping through the “feeds”—the five internet friends —who make us the craziest.

Choose what you look at, in those little moments, wisely. They make up who you are.

By Dmitri Bilgere

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Christmas Tears

I remember feeling my heart sink when I saw him come through the door. My wife and I were at a Christmas gathering at our church. My brother spotted me and made his way to our table. He didn’t have to say anything. I knew what had happened by the look on his face. My fears were confirmed with just two words: “He’s gone.”

That December 19th — 21 years ago — made it a Christmas season very different from any I had ever experienced.

Dad had gone into the hospital that year shortly after Thanksgiving. The doctors soon concluded that his heart would not withstand bypass surgery. There were no other options. The goal now was to build up his strength enough so he could come home for what was to be his last Christmas.

Just as Jan and I were about to leave for our Christmas party, Dad called to see how things were going with us. That was Dad. Literally on his death bed but asking how we and the kids were doing. As the conversation was ending he asked, “When am I supposed to come home again?” Jan answered, “Christmas Eve.” Dad asked, “How many days is that?” Jan told him, “Five.”

Dad’s response was peculiar. He said matter-of-factly, “I’m not going to make that.” Jan assured him that if he wanted to, the doctors would certainly allow him to come home early. She told him we could come right then to pick him up. Not surprisingly, he declined the offer. Dad never wanted people making a fuss over him. He responded, “No, we’ll see how tonight goes.”

A nurse later reported that, according to Dad’s roommate, he was “on the phone with someone, hung up and died.” Turns out Dad was calling to say goodbye.

Most people who are close to me or have heard me speak or have read my writings know that due to my father’s drinking problem we a rather tumultuous relationship. Throughout my childhood I knew my dad as a verbally abusive alcoholic. The name of my ministry–Finding Father’s Love—suggests what my heart yearned for. The very title of my first book–When Father is a Bad Word—offers a glimpse into what my relationship with my father had been like. 

Through the years I have shared many personal and painful stories about how my dad’s drinking affected me and my family. I have described my father to literally thousands of people with adjectives like violent, scary, mean, and shaming. One would think that news of his passing would trigger feelings of anger, hopelessness, and deep regret. Instead, I found myself overflowing with gratitude.

Many people know about the drinking problem my dad had when I was a boy. What they may not know is that my dad overcame his addiction when I was an adult. In what could rightfully be termed a miracle, my dad quit drinking. That in itself is not miraculous. People overcome addictive behaviors every day. It’s how my dad did it. You see, he did it with no visible help. He didn’t seek support from AA. He didn’t go to a counselor for direction. He didn’t rely on a sponsor for support. He just quit.

When our pastor got wind of the news he stopped by for a visit. “John,” he said, “I understand you quit drinking.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“I also understand that you’re not going anywhere for help.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“Well,” the pastor replied, “if you’re able to quit without help you’ll be the first person I’ve ever seen do it.”

Dad’s response took him aback. He grinned and said, “Then I’ll be the first.”

My dad never drank again. Turns out God’s help was the only help he needed. I don’t often speak of this because I don’t want to hold up Dad’s story as the norm. For the vast majority of alcoholics, quitting drinking is just the first step. Then they must assemble and rely on a support network to help them maintain sobriety. For many, staying sober is an everyday, lifelong battle.

My dad, virtually overnight, was transformed from the raging drunk I feared as a child to the kind and gentle man I was privileged to come to know and love as an adult.

There were many tears during that Christmas season 21 years ago. But intermingled with my tears of sadness were tears of profound gratitude.

• I was grateful for the answer to thousands of prayers uttered in desperation by me and my family on my father’s behalf.
• I was grateful for the years of sobriety that God had granted Dad at the end of his life.
• I was grateful that mom didn’t break her wedding vows and kept our family together when it would have been easier to bail.
• I was grateful that my wife and children never witnessed thatside of my dad.
• I was grateful to get to know my father for who he really was—a good man who happened to have a bad problem.

While I struggled to sing Joy to the World on that Christmas after losing my dad, there were many other familiar carols that took on new meaning for me that year. Some still bring tears. But they are no longer tears of sadness. Only tears of gratitude.

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

Dan Kuiper completed his initial Crucible weekend in 2009. He is an author and speaker and leads a ministry called, Finding Father’s Love which helps wounded souls find love, healing, and grace in relationship with the Heavenly Father. Dan’s first book, When Father is a Bad Word, illustrates the parallels between our relationship with our earthly father and our perception of our Heavenly Father. Dan leads Finding Father’s Love Seminars across the country, offering hope and healing to those who have experienced brokenness from dysfunctional family relationships.

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My Journey To: Renewal - Wellness - Belonging

Executive Director, Roy Wooten and Member Services Manager, Bob Locascio discuss new offering for future Redwoods coming in January!

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Post Traumatic Stress and Crucible

We have experienced some great books by Redwoods sharing their story. In Redwood Jason Wilson’s Cry Like a Man: Fighting for Freedom from Emotional Incarceration , Jason reveals all of his story and his road to recovery through The Crucible Project. Jeff Madsen writes the history of Crucible Founder Greg Huston and the history of The Crucible Project in Truth and Grace: The Leadership Legacy of Greg Huston.

Both books share voraciously highly confidential information about each soul. And this month a new book was published by another Redwood with the same courage.

George Coen, a 72 year old retired Navy Veteran who had served two deployments with a Navy Attack Squadron in Viet Nam, attended one of our weekends after ten years of extensive PTSD treatment. Not only was he suffering post traumatic stress from combat, but also from his year’s growing up in the home of a father with untreated post traumatic stress from World War II.

His new book, Collateral Damage: A Journey in Dealing with Combat-related PTSD, is about physical, mental and spiritual healing. He attributes the healing of his physical wounds and the treatment of his mental wounds to the Veterans Administration. But the VA is absent of spiritual healing. Several men where he and his wife of thirty-four years worship encouraged him to attend The Crucible Project Weekend. At the age of 72, he registered and attended.

He shares on pages 116 and 117, the following:

“…the weekend experience was one of the most intense physical, mental and emotional challenges that I have ever experienced. Yes, I wrestled with God …. I. came home. At peace, knowing I could trust God to do the right thing with the remaining few years of my life. …Prior to my Crucible experience… my statement of faith would have gone something like this:

For most of my life, God has been some mystical being out there that is somehow responsible for all things. In spite of that I am still in control and responsible for short-come outcomes. The conflicting tension is the persistent presence of that “inner voice” that is often times in conflict with my actions.

Today … having completed Crucible, I would summarize my faith as follows:

Jesus in the example of the person I should aspire to be. It’s not about the destination; it’s about the voyage. I need to be less concerned about the future and more concerned with the present. God has a plan for my life, but only the ending is made known to me and is certain. The path will be revealed to me in small increments. I. just need to pay attention and listen. I believe that voice that is constantly talking to me over my shoulder is that revelation in small bits. I just need to listen and heed. God’s intermediate destinations for me my not be consistent with my desires or expectations; however, I’m expected to obey! Terrible things happen to good people, thus the significance of the. Cross and the Resurrection. I know God loves me and is with me!

The empirical literature points to a clear conclusion: spirituality is part and parcel of the human response to trauma and its resolution.”

We are thankful to Redwood George M. Coen for the authenticity and courageous vulnerability in how he tells his story toward healing. This risky story-telling is why every soul can find a part of their story in his. Every soul’s work is my work and my work is every soul’s work.

You can get access to George’s story and the book at this link. George wants to ensure anyone who wants a copy can get one, so let bduke@thecrucibleproject.org know if you need assistance in getting a copy.

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Thriving in Covid Times: Heart & Soul

“How’s your heart?” my three year old asked his mom.  “My heart is full,” my wife answered.  “How is yours?”  My son answered, “My heart is naughty,” he smiled.

You can’t talk about the heart, until you define the heart.

The heart I am talking about is mentioned many times in the Scriptures.

Our hearts can provide strength (Psalm 73:2), be guarded (Prov. 4:23, Phil.4:7) and be purified (Matt 5:8).

The heart and the head/mind - seem to be separate things mentioned together.

In the ancient world, Greek and Hebrews among others, the heart was symbolic of the soul.  The heart is considered the seat of all morality and spiritual functions.

In these challenging times - caring for our soul is more important than ever.

If we just live on the surface, taking care of our bodies, being mindful of our lives - it’s not enough.  C.S. Lewis is typically attributed this quote from his favorite writer, George MacDonald:

"'Never tell a child you have a soul. Teach him, you are a soul; you have a body."

How do we care for our soul?  Three distinct, but connected ways:

1. Connect with God
2. Connect with our neighbors
3. Connect with ourselves

Connect with God

We cannot form character from inside our own selves.  We get our worth and sense of identity from God.  What God says about us is true and good and worthy.  If you believe what God  says about you is true, your identity is rooted in something that can’t be changed and can’t go away.  What does God say about you?  You found some things out on that initial Crucible weekend, and perhaps on second level or workshops.  The good news?  There’s more!

Connect with our neighbors

We must get more external connections with people that God created in His image.  Here’s the caveat - the BEST connections are with those who are safe, doing their own work, and connecting with God, others and themselves.  Henry Cloud states the four corners of connection:  No Connection, Bad Connection, Pseudo Connection and Real Connection.

Real connection gives ultimate freedom and self-control.  Don’t those sound like great things to have in a pandemic?  Fortunately Crucible Project small groups are excellent places to get real connection.

Real connection allows us to ultimately....

Connect with ourselves

We must learn to love ourselves as a result of experiencing love and acceptance and connection from God and others.  It is a natural flow from this experiential place that empowers us and helps us live out what God intended for us all along - a life that THRIVES.

Remember this story of Jesus in Mark 12:28-34?

One of the teachers of religious law was standing there listening to the debate. He realized that Jesus had answered well, so he asked, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”

Jesus replied, “The most important commandment is this: ‘Listen, O Israel! The Lord our God is the one and only Lord. And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength.’ The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’No other commandment is greater than these.”

The teacher of religious law replied, “Well said, Teacher. You have spoken the truth by saying that there is only one God and no other. And I know it is important to love him with all my heart and all my understanding and all my strength, and to love my neighbor as myself. This is more important than to offer all of the burnt offerings and sacrifices required in the law.”

Realizing how much the man understood, Jesus said to him, “You are not far from the Kingdom of God.” And after that, no one dared to ask him any more questions. 

The Mic Drop of Jesus is: Love of God, love of  neighbor and ourselves - THAT is how to THRIVE.

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 2

Let me remind you again: This is no ordinary time!

If you’ve made some commitments to take care of your body - remember your brain is a part of that.  You need water, rest and healthy hobbies to keep the brain going!

Even more amazing than the brain - is what the brain “houses”  our minds. 

Our minds are incredible mysteries that can adapt to extremely stressful situations, get us going to accomplish seemingly impossible tasks, and solve complex issues and problems.  Our minds are powerful.

The apostle Paul affirmed the power of the mind.  It’s worthy of a Bible study:

“Fix your mind…”  “Renew your mind…” “Think about these things…”  

“Have this mind among yourselves…”  “The world has blinded the minds…”

Paul knew the power of Mindfulness. 

People who experience consistent success and persevere through life have discovered the secret of Mindfulness. 

What is it?

Oxford Dictionary gives a few definitions that are helpful:

1. The quality or state of being conscious or aware of something.
2. A mental state achieved by focusing one's awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one's feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations, used as a therapeutic technique.

Remember your Crucible weekend? 

Everything was full of mindfulness - it was designed to help you become aware of what was working and not working in your life. 

By focusing on the present moment, you were able to work our feelings, thoughts, and body exercises that gave you a God-ordained experience!

In these extraordinary times, here are some ways to practice mindfulness:

• Regularly check-in with yourself and others around your feelings.  
• Meditate on phrases or verses of Scripture that are true and good.
• Get in touch with your attitude.  Attitude is one of the only things we can control.
• Cultivate your mind with gratitude.  Being thankful for what God has provided.
• Create a daily time and place to practice mindfulness. A morning and evening time where you can ground yourself in the morning and decompress your mind in the evening is relieving. 

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.” - Paul in Philippians 4:8

Next Issue:  Our Hearts

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 1

This is no Ordinary Time!

We can all agree that there are so many things that feel out of control - we feel hard pressed on all sides.  Our country is experiencing many crises at one time. We all can agree on that.

Stress levels are through the roof!  How do we deal with that?

In speaking with a variety of professionals and wise men & women from all backgrounds, here are insights that may help you move from surviving to thriving in these times.  While not an exhaustive list,  it is a good start.    We will cover Body, Mind, Heart & Soul in this series.

Today we focus on the Body!  Remember what the Apostle Paul wrote to the church in Corinth (who had confusion over the importance of the body): “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;  you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.” 1 Cor. 19-20

Your Body

1. Exercise well
2. Sleep well
3. Eat well
4. Wash your hands

Exercise Well! Just getting out for a 30 minute walk/jog is a huge help.  If you have a dog (or a child on a lease), you’ve already got an excuse to exercise.  In addition to being outdoors if you can, you can also exercise with instructors online.  Set up a routine, ask some friends to go with you (but follow social distance guidelines) and try a variety of things to see what you enjoy. When you exercise, you not only reduce the obvious stress you’re experiencing, but you prevent weight gain, boost your immune system and improve your sleep.

Sleep Well! Good sleep goes hand in hand with exercise (so does food).  It has all the same benefits as exercise - including preventing weight gain!  The Mayo Clinic defines fatigue as “a nearly constant state of weariness that develops over time and reduces your energy, motivation and concentration.” Even if you receive an adequate amount of sleep at night, fatigue can still leave you feeling tired and unmotivated in the morning. Establish a sleep routine of consistent wake-up, wind-down and bedtimes.

Eat Well! Stress can translate into poor eating habits.  Remember that we truly are what we eat.  If we load junk into the furnace, the furnace won’t work.  One of the greatest things I’ve ever learned was that you exercise to build muscle and immunity, but you lose weight by having good eating habits. 

Lastly, wash your hands!   Good hygiene is a huge deterrer to sickness! Plus, it puts into practice, Mindfulness, which we will showcase next time.

Treat your body well.  If you need a coach or personal accountability, remember your Crucible Redwoods stand ready to be supportive to you as you take care of you! Find out more about Crucible Coaching.

At the end of the day, we cannot control how others treat us, how others treat others or how others treat themselves.  We can control how we treat others and how we treat ourselves.

Next issue: Our Minds

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Coaching Bennies (Benefits)

Coaching is available for both men and women by highly trained and qualified Crucible coaches.

This isn't just for Crucible men and women - did you know that anyone can use our coaching services?

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Ancient Creeds in Modern Times

“They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers.” - Acts 2:42 (NRSV)
“Adversity does not build character, it reveals it.” - James Lane Allen 

Life in the age of pandemic  - trying times indeed.  If ever there was a season that has revealed much to us about ourselves, now is that time. 

As one of those who have stopped to reflect on how I have been responding and acting, I have discovered a deep truth.  I am not who I thought I was.  

I discovered in The Crucible Project and in recovery work - that the biggest problem in my life is myself.  And I have discovered new ways to live and respond to my family, friends, clients and others.  It’s been a good journey.

What about the way I live and respond to God?

Take for example, my prayer life.  I’ve had a short attention span with God in prayer.  Let’s just say - the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.  

I find myself going off course in prayer - being inconsistent - and wondering what to do.

The character of my prayer has been revealed to be about me.  When I’m angry, my prayers are angry.  When I’m sad, my prayers are sad.  My prayers are flighty and unfocused. And that’s if I pray at all.

Brian Zahnd states, “The primary purpose of prayer is not to get God to do what we think God ought to do, but to be properly formed.”

The verse from Acts mentioned above - shows how the early community of God was being formed.  They did four things:

1. Learned the apostle’s teachings about Jesus (The Bible)
2. Were in fellowship with each other (Community)
3. The weekly breaking of bread (Communion)
4. And “The Prayers” - Here we go!

“The Prayers” is descriptive of the early church teachings of the Creeds and Prayers that the followers of Jesus recited.  They were being properly formed by these liturgical truths.  

There’s no such thing as dead liturgy - only true or false liturgy.  There are dead or alive people.   Using the Creeds and Prayers is like putting up a trellis for vines to grow.  It takes the pressure off the soul and allows us truth to cling to and focus on - while we become formed in the likeness of Jesus.  Jesus taught us this.

When the disciples asked Jesus to teach them to pray - he did:

Our Father, Who Art In Heaven

Hallowed Be Thy Name

Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will Be Done

On earth as it is in Heaven

Give us this day our daily bread

And forgive us our trespasses, 

as we forgive those who trespass against us,

And led us not into temptation, 

But deliver us from evil, 

For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory forever. Amen.

There are so many amazing time tested prayers and creeds.  (The Apostle’s Creed, Nicene Creed, The Jesus Prayer, The Beatitudes in Matt 5, Psalm 23, Prayer of St. Francis, Confessional Prayers). I realize I am joining with past and present Jesus followers in prayer.

I started praying a set of them every morning - and it’s been transformational. 

My mind can focus on my heart - and my heart focuses on the deep truths of these rich treasures.  I even use my body in raising my hands, or moving about.  It fulfills the “Love the Lord  God with your Heart, Soul, Mind & Strength”  that is so important! 

Here’s a confessional example I pray and how it’s changing  me:

Most merciful God, we confess that we have sinned against you in thought, word, and deed, by what we have done, and by what we have left undone.

We have not loved you with our whole heart; we have not loved our neighbors as ourselves. We are truly sorry and we humbly repent.

For the sake of your Son Jesus Christ, have mercy on us and forgive us; that we may delight in your will, and walk in your ways, to the glory of your Name. Amen.

I am so much more in tune with my neighbors - all people I come in contact with - I am more tender and empathetic and helpful.  Why? God is forming me during my morning prayer time.

I do this every day.  My challenge to you is get a set of these prayers - and pray them for 30 days. 

Blessings as we journey with Jesus together. - Tim White

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Preparing to Go Live Again

When the Crucible COVID19 committee met for the first time, the discussion began with these perplexing questions:

• How can we implement the deep experiential and intimate programs within our weekends within healthy boundaries set by public health officials? 
• Will Personal Protective Equipment be required?
• Is it responsible for Crucible to consume PPE that hospitals while medical staff in hospitals are experiencing shortages and rationing them?

It is hard to imagine any way we can be fully compliant with current public health guidance with the way our Weekends protocols are currently organized.

Crucible Project staff have been working with Retreat Leaders and key volunteers to prepare for a safe launch of Weekends again as soon as public health officials tell us we can.

According to Roy Wooten, Executive Director, “It is likely that we will be able to hold face-to-face groups and Weekends in some Crucible Communities before others. We will go wherever we can as soon as we can!”

Rachel Shubin and Bob Locascio have been working with Redwood medical professionals to develop adaptations to our Weekends protocols to enhance staff and participant safety and reduce COVID fears that might be a barrier to getting what they came for.

Rachel Shubin states, “We are committed to maintaining the integrity of the Crucible Weekend experience, while also creating safety for participants and staff.”

The recommendations of this committee will hopefully support the reopening of face-to-face weekends and groups as soon as possible.

“I’m excited to be planning the restart of our weekends, and I know many regular staffers who share that excitement,”  says Bob Locascio.

If you have ideas about implementation of our groups and weekends during this pandemic, please contact Rachel or Bob. Keep Crucible and this committee in your prayers.

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Fear

I’m reminded of Henri Nouwen’s words about fear:  Fear, not hate, is the opposite of love and its obstacle, he said.   When we accept God’s unconditional love, we can find joy in the limited expression of this love in our intimate relationships, without feeling that we have to be God for each other.  “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” (I John 4:18)

Pastor John Casey, one of our long time Crucible Project leaders states:

“In my work as a hospital chaplain, the people who most deny their fear are those who claim connection with God.

To Zechariah and later to Mary, the angel said, “Do not fear.”   To the Israelites facing destruction, God said, “Fear not.”

We misunderstand God, I think.

God isn’t saying, “Never be afraid” or “Fear is wrong.”

Believing this, we deny our fear and miss deep connection with God.

When God says, “Fear not,” he means, “Do not stay in fear” and then almost always adds a way out.

In Psalm 23, “I fear no evil, for you are with me.”

To God’s people facing deportation, God says, “Fear not for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name…when you walk through the waters, I will be with you…”

In these chaotic times, feel your fear of getting sick, of losing ones you love, of not being able to pay your rent. And then look for reassurance—remember God’s past help, search for his presence now, ask him for your daily bread, remember your Father knows what you need. We are finite and will fear. Feel your fear and in the dark, feel for God who is always nearby.”

Remember what Paul writes in Philippians 4:6-7, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”   

Acknowledge your fear, reach out to God and to God's supportive people.  Let us take care of each other. - Tim White

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Owning Your Darkness

Wednesday, February 26 is Ash Wednesday, the start of Lent

Ash Wednesday derives its name from the  placing of repentance ashes on the foreheads of participants to either the words "Repent, and believe in the Gospel" or the dictum "Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return.”

Ash ceremonies typically recite Psalm 51, prayers of confession, and receiving the sign of the ashes, typically in the form of a cross - a blessing on the forehead.

Fasting, Abstinence and Repentance can also encompass Ash Wednesday.

People sat in Ashes to show on the outside what they knew was true about them on the inside.

In many faith traditions, ashes represent:

• Deep awareness of your sinfulness in God’s holy presence
• Resolve to operate in God’s power, and not your own.
• Your mortality - dust to dust, ashes to ashes.
• That you don’t have it all together.
• Showing honesty instead of hiding.
• Death & Mourning.
• Your Shadow, and conversely, your Gold.
• The truth you don’t want you to know about yourself revealed.

The Crucible Project has its own ash ceremony.  One where acknowledgement of one’s shadow is encouraged and a blessing offered to bring that shadow for others to see - as a gift.  What shadow shows up for you this season?

When we acknowledge the truth of our shadow side, we not only give it a voice that we may have repressed, we also use our shadow & brokenness to bring life and healing to ourselves and others.  

Psalm 51 is a beautiful reminder of owning our shadow & brokenness and sitting in honest reflection about who we really are - all the facets - and not sugar coating our lives.  

The promise of cleansing and healing is right there from God AS IS the ability to help others and bless them from the truth of owning our shadow and gold.  What gold do you bring to yourself and others this season?

May God richly bless you during this Lenten season as you own your darkness, in the light of God's grace and truth.

Psalm 51

Have mercy on me, O God,

    according to your unfailing love;

according to your great compassion

    blot out my transgressions.

Wash away all my iniquity

    and cleanse me from my sin.

For I know my transgressions,

    and my sin is always before me.

Against you, you only, have I sinned

    and done what is evil in your sight;

so you are right in your verdict

    and justified when you judge.

Surely I was sinful at birth,

    sinful from the time my mother conceived me.

Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;

    you taught me wisdom in that secret place. 

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;

    wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. 

Let me hear joy and gladness;

    let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

Hide your face from my sins

    and blot out all my iniquity.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,

    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Do not cast me from your presence

    or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation

    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways,

    so that sinners will turn back to you.

Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,

    you who are God my Savior,

    and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

Open my lips, Lord,

    and my mouth will declare your praise.

You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;

    you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;

    a broken and contrite heart

    you, God, will not despise.

May it please you to prosper Zion,

    to build up the walls of Jerusalem.

Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,

    in burnt offerings offered whole;

    then bulls will be offered on your altar.

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New Communication @ The Crucible Project

In our world, communication methods and tools change at a frenzying pace. New or even old ways start to seem like some foreign code.

Jesus communicated in code.  Parables to be exact. “With many such parables he spoke the word to them, as they were able to hear it; he did not speak to them except in parables, but he explained everything in private to his disciples.” (Mark 4: 33-34)

To his disciples, he explained what those coded parables meant.  

In a sense, those of us initiated on a Crucible Project weekend, are ‘brought in from the code’.  We learn a language and learn what it’s all about. This outside/inside communication isn’t unique to The Crucible Project, but it’s a tension we deal with.

We are currently exploring ways to expand both our communication methods based on the realities we experience:

• People are more mobile and use more mobile.
• More people scan for information, instead of deep reading.
• Email isn’t as big of a thing as it used to be - texting/messaging is.
• More information is disseminated via video and auditory delivery culturally. 
• Everyone longs for connection and we are committed to providing that connection.

Here is what we are doing and working on:

• Social Media to the outside audience.  We are exploring best methods and tools to let the world know about this ministry’s mission.  
• Texting Services internally.  We know we can't exclusively use email for our communication.  It’s now old-school to some groups!
• Shifting from Words to Video.  Attention spans are short. Studies show that people “consume” messages differently online than reading offline.
• New Monthly Town Hall meetings via Video.
• More FB Group Live communication from leadership as a way to keep in touch.
• Podcasting.  Replacing those amazing Crucible Project blog posts  (Thanks, Jeff!)

Do you have a question or idea?  Do you want to get involved? Email Tim White communications@thecrucibleproject.org 

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Lifelong Soul Work In Redwood Circles

Soul work circles have always been a part of The Crucible Project since its earliest days. As the organization expanded outside of Chicagoland, the need for training group leaders and replicating group exercises became apparent. The birth of the exercise group now called Growth Group was developed and launched in 2010.

Group Variety and Choices

Since then the variety of groups where soul work happens has continued to expand. Today the types of groups include the following:

• Growth Group – paid group led by a certified group leader, these exercises provide deeper understanding of core concepts taught on the weekend with the goal of integrating the weekend’s experiences.
• Development Group – paid group led by a certified carpet leader, this group offers the opportunity to experience carpet work every session for participants.
• 2 Year Group – this is a Development Group where a cohort of Redwoods also participate in all second level weekends together and includes individual coaching sessions.
• Journey Group – this free group is led by uncertified peer Redwoods with access to group exercise resources. Typically group leadership rotates within the group.
• Open Group – this free group is open to uninitiated people and is led by a Redwood with access to pre-weekend exercises.

 

Why Do Some Groups Have Fees?

All paid groups have certified group leaders. Group leaders invest time and energy achieving certification as well as coordinating and preparing for each group session. Certification ensures that group quality and safety remains at a high level. Group leaders receive compensation for their time and energy. Some of the group payments recover expenses in group development, marketing, and back office support.

Free groups are peer led. There may be a certified group or carpet leader in the group, but group leadership is shared by all Redwoods in the group. A large array of exercises are available for Journey groups to self-facilitate and are accessible with a request to your Regional Leader or Community Developer. For questions, contact Brittany Duke, Office Manager at BDuke@TheCrucibleProject.org.

Growth Group Curriculum Changes

With input from Regional Leaders, the Growth Group Curriculum has expanded to include three additional sessions which will be paid for in the weekend registration fees. In other words, all newly initiated Redwoods will have access to join a local or video based group without additional costs for the first three sessions of the Growth Group. These first sessions help new Redwoods experience group life, including Accountability and Clearings, which are essential to healthy group life.

If you are interested in becoming certified as a Group Leader or Carpet Leader, contact Byron Myers, Leadership Development Manager, to begin the process at LeadershipDevelopment@TheCrucibleProject.org.

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ECFA Accreditation

We are so proud and thankful to announce that The Crucible Project has received ECFA accreditation! This was an 18-month long application and interview process and the seal approval has been granted.

ECFA accreditation is based on the ECFA Seven Standards of Responsible Stewardship™, including financial accountability, transparency, sound board governance and ethical fundraising. These standards not only ensure that The Crucible Project is a safe and trusted ministry to donate too, but it also blessed our financial practices and how we manage the funds entrusted to us.

The Crucible Project joins a growing number of Christ-centered churches and ministries across America, supported by over 14.6 million donors that have earned the right to display the ECFA seal. When an organization is accredited by ECFA, it demonstrates its willingness to follow the model of biblical accountability.

Founded in 2002, The Crucible Project is committed to creating a world of men and women who live with integrity, grace, and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose. To learn more about The Crucible Project and their stewardship opportunities, visit GiverConnect, ECFA’s newest online program, that connects giver’s hearts with trusted members.

 

ECFA, founded in 1979, provides accreditation to leading Christian nonprofit organizations that faithfully demonstrate compliance with the ECFA Standards pertaining to financial accountability, fundraising and board governance. For more information about ECFA, including information about accreditation and a listing of ECFA-accredited members, visit www.ECFA.org or call 1-800-323-9473.

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Living in Freedom

“His final breath upon the Cross is now alive in me. Your name is VICTORY.”

- Resurrecting by Elevation Worship

A head once crowned with thorns, that is now crowned in GLORY.

The one that once wore sin and shame now robed in MAJESTY.

The radiance of perfect love, now shining for all to see.

Yes, Jesus is back. Defeated the story that once claimed DEATH over Him.

Death is not His Story. His story is VICTORY.

For those of us that walk with Him, victory is our story too.
We just need to live it.

Our God did not rob the grave so we can stay stuck in it, yet that’s the way so many live.

“For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons and daughters of God. For you DID NOT receive THE SPIRIT OF SLAVERY to fall back into fear, but YOU HAVE received the SPIRIT OF ADOPTION as sons and daughters. By whom we cry, ABBA Father”. -Romans 8:14-15

Jesus did not take the cross for us to fall back into fear. Beloved, His victory is yours.

Today, tomorrow, and forever.

What work have you begun in becoming free, that you’ve taken steps back from in fear?

What were the driving forces or voices that led to your steps back?

Did they sound like FREEDOM or DEFEAT?

Wherever you are today, FREEDOM IS STILL YOURS. An abundant life is still yours. You simply need to live in it.

Beauty for Ashes, that is for you.

Freedom from Fear, that is for you.

An Inheritance where you once were Alone, that is for you.

Gladness from Sorrow, that is for you.

It is time for YOU to rise from the ashes of defeat. The resurrected King is still resurrecting today.

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Join the Podcast Team!

The Crucible Project Podcast has been a huge win for the organization! In it, men and women share stories of their Crucible experience. These stories point to the radical honesty and grace experienced during and after the weekend. It is an awesome way to share what Crucible does with people who've yet to attend a weekend. Stories help us to relate, connect, and feel seen.

Do you love to have conversations? Do you enjoy listening to people share their stories?

Then Podcast Hosting may be for you!

One of our Podcast Hosts recently shared, “When I was asked to host podcasts, I had no idea how much I’d love it. The joy of it for me is getting to dive deeper into people’s stories. There are a wide range of people I’ve been able to interview- to be able to hear each unique individual so moved by their experiences and gold has inspired me significantly.”
On the Crucible Project Podcast men and women are interviewed on things like their weekend experience, as well as how Crucible Soul Work has impacted their everyday life.

We recently hit 4K downloads! The podcast team has been blown away to see the impact the podcast has had on bringing listeners to a weekend. Many men and women have listened to stories of life transformation and decided to experience it for themselves.

One of the beauties of Podcast Hosting, is that it is a simple set up. We have phenomenal editors who make sure the podcasts are ready to go. Hosting is as simple as recording!

If you’d like to take part in hosting our podcasts Contact Jess.

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My Soul Work Adventure

Redwoods share their stories of “Where I was then”, “Where I am now”, and “Where I’m going”. To share this video with a friend who’s not a Redwood yet, follow this link.

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Hope in the Hard Places

Article by Nikki LePore- Chicagoland Redwoods Community

Pastor of Care at Parkview Community Church

I recently discovered that “Joy to the World” was not meant to be a Christmas song. To say I was shocked is an understatement! You mean to tell me that one of the MOST popular Christmas songs of ALL time is in fact not a Christmas song… mind blown. And I gotta say, my Christmas spirit a little deflated. The world is hard enough, don’t take Christmas carols from me too!

I know I don’t need to convince those of you reading this that life is hard. Knowing, loving, and following Jesus does not shield us from the hard places. Having the Light of the world live in us does not mean we will never face darkness, disease, death, despair, or tragedy. And when we are facing those things, I think especially during this time of year, that hope can be hard to find, and our faith can feel fragile. If that’s you today, I see you sister, I love you brother, let me share of my hope with you!

“Joy to the World” was written by Isaac Watts to bring hope to a hurting world in the here and now. The world you and I live in. This time and space where Jesus has already come to save us from our sin and where we still long for His return. “Joy to the World” encourages us to prepare our hearts not for a baby that will be born in a manger but for our King who will come again to make all wrongs right. “Joy to the World” was written to point and prepare of hearts towards Jesus’ second coming!

So how does this bring hope in our hard places? How does this strengthen our faith? Hebrews 11:1 tell us that “faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Confidence in what we hope for… the day when Jesus will wipe every tear, and we will know in full what we can only see in part now. Assurance about what we do not see. It can be hard to see in the hard places. Hard to imagine joy, peace, or a way forward. It can be hard to be sure we will make it through the day let alone wait with hope for Jesus’ return. But here’s the light, the sliver of light that can pierce through the hard places, through the darkness and through the doubts, can calm the raging sea of our heart and minds… we have the future returning King with us in the here and now. He IS with you; He IS with me.

Because He is with me, I do not suffer in vain. All hope is not lost, death does not have the final say. Jesus, the one who conquered death, HE has the final say. And He says we are His. And nothing and I mean nothing can separate us from that love.

Wherever you find yourself today, may we prepare our hearts and make room for what is to come. May the true hope anchor us and fill us as we wait. May we share the Light and help bring His joy to a world who so desperately needs it.

Jesus loves you and so do I.

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Gratitude This Thanksgiving

The Character Trait God Values Most

That is a big statement, to say THIS is the thing God values and desires in His people more than all else.  What is it?  There are some biggies that come to mind:  Righteousness and holiness.  For sure, God calls us to be Holy, set apart and to live righteous lives.  But there is a character trait that must be place BEFORE holiness or else the pursuit of holiness degrades quickly into self-righteous Phariseeism.

Self-sacrificial serving is another big character trait that seems to be a contender for the top spot on the list. But again, there is another trait the but go BEFORE serving, else the serving opportunities devolve into a self-serving martyr syndrome. What is that one character trait that tops the list that must come before any other?  The one trait that brings out a pleasing aroma to our Lord in the WAY all those good things are carried out?  HUMILITY.

Humility is prized by our Father more than anything else.  Its opposite is what God Adam and Eve expelled from the Garden and Lucifer from Heaven before that.  Humility’s opposite is what turns any good thing ugly. Yet, humility is one of those traits that seems to not be available to us in a head-on pursuit.  It seems to be the byproduct of something else that, unfortunately, is usually only talked about one time a year:  Gratitude.

Brennan Manning in his excellent book Ruthless Trust, outlines four specific types of gratitude that, when practiced, yield the sweet fruit of genuine humility before the Lord and men.  In chapter two he outlines four ideas which I have re-arranged a bit in order to spell a word (call me crazy, but it helps me remember things!):  PACT. Daily I make a PACT with my heart to be thankful to God in these four ways and the result is humility.

• Present in God’s presence in the present. It is easy to wallow in yesterday’s losses or tomorrow’s what-ifs.  But to be present with God, here and now, and thankful for this very moment and the very air filling your lungs does something to the human soul.  It reminds you of your place before God.
• All inclusive Gratitude. The Bible says to give thanks to God IN ALL things.  Years ago my dad went through 17 years of brain tumors before one finally took him home to be with Jesus. After recovery from his first brain surgery, he said, “I would not wish brain tumors on my worst enemy, but I would not trade them for the world.  They have served to bring me closer to God than ever and closer to may family than ever.  I thank God for my brain tumors.”
• Contagious Gratitude. To ensure your gratitude is up to par, it must pass the test: Does my gratitude infect others with the desire to be grateful?
• Theocentric Gratitude. It is so easy to become self-centered in all of our thinking, even what we are thankful for. When we maintain God at the center our gratitude takes on a different shape.

Manning says that when we have this type of Gratitude, it produces in us the sweet fruit of humility, which is so precious to God.  So may challenge to you during thanksgiving (and beyond) is to get beyond the surface level of thankfulness and dig deep.  Make a PACT with your heart to cultivate THIS type of gratitude—then watch humility start to take shape in your life.

(Thoughts on gratitude this Thanksgiving from Texas Redwood Pastor Dr. Kevin Pigg.)

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Introduction to the Enneagram

By now you’ve probably heard of the Enneagram. It’s garnering a lot of attention lately and with good reason! This practical tool can give you remarkable self-clarity, increased emotional intelligence and greater empathy for others. It’s also an excellent team building tool – improving communication, collaboration, and morale while lessening conflict and making it more constructive.

So, what exactly is the Enneagram?

The Enneagram is a personality theory that recognizes 9 distinct personality types. The word Enneagram comes from two Greek words: ennea = nine, and gram = drawing. What sets it apart from other personality theories is that while other theories tend to focus on behavior (Myers-Briggs, DISC, Strengthsfinder, etc.), the Enneagram goes beyond the superficial to focus on motives. The WHY behind the WHAT provides vital insights into ourselves and others. This emphasis on motives is a very biblical concept! 1 Corinthians 4:5 states: “So don’t make judgments about anyone ahead of time—before the Lord returns. For he will bring our darkest secrets to light and will reveal our private motives.”

Enneagram Types and Common Characteristics

1 (The Perfectionist) – Precise, moral, diligent, reliable. Loves organizing.

2 (The Helper) – Caring, helpful, considerate, warm. Loves serving.

3 (The Performer) - Hard working, driven, focused, efficient. Loves competition.

4 (The Romantic) – Empathetic, sensitive, tasteful, intellectual. Loves creating.

5 (The Investigator) – Analytical, resourceful, knowledgeable, private. Loves problem solving.

6 (The Loyalist) – Loyal, dedicated, responsible, thorough. Loves planning.

7 (The Enthusiast) – Fun, inspiring, energetic, versatile. Loves adventures.

8 (The Challenger) – Protective, decisive, bold, compassionate.  Loves challenges.

9 (The Peacemaker) – Thoughtful, kind, inclusive, steady. Loves nature.

Each type has its own unique core motivations – comprised of it’s core fear, core desire, core weakness, and core longing. Understanding why we do what we do allows us to cooperate with the Holy Spirit in becoming more like Christ.

In the summer of 2020, I invested in myself by getting some Enneagram coaching. The five sessions I had were amazing! The coaching helped to lift my “inner fog” and better understand myself. It helped me become a better leader, husband, father, friend, and follower of Christ. It was so helpful that I decided to become a certified Enneagram coach myself! Since becoming a coach, I love seeing the light bulb turn on for people as the Enneagram exposes their true, God-given personality – the good, the bad, and the ugly! In Redwood terms – you develop a sharper vision of both your shadow and your gold.

Recommended Resources

1. The Road Back To You by Ian Morgan Cron and Suzanne Stabile. This is the place to start your Enneagram exploration; This book gives you the basics simply, concisely and with great humor!
2. The 9 Types of Leadership: Mastering the Art of People in the 21^st Century Workplace by Beatrice Chestnut. Intensely practical – If you lead a team, you need this book!
3. Your Enneagram Coach is a very biblical, gospel-centered ministry with a lot of resources – including a free online assessment.
4. NewLifeEnneagram.com is where I provide resources.

One final piece of advice: we should never use the Enneagram as a club or a shield. We use it as a club when we deride others by saying (or thinking) things like, “You are so bossy, you’re such an 8” or “You are a typical 4, always so melancholy.” We use it as a shield when we excuse our own bad behavior by saying things like, “I can’t help that I’m so critical – I’m a 1” or “I’m a 7, you can’t expect me to follow through on the details.”

While I believe the Enneagram is a helpful tool, I also firmly believe that it’s the good news of Jesus Christ that changes lives - NOT the Enneagram. Used correctly, the Enneagram shouldn't encourage you to “try harder” but rather lead you to lean into the mercy and provision of God as found in Jesus Christ.

Dave Corlew, Chicagoland Community

Get in touch with me here.

 

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Welcome New Support Team Members

The Crucible staff team serves to support the mission-centric work of Crucible volunteers throughout the globe.  In 2020, the staff supporting the organization was halved in order to meet the demands of the pandemic.  As our volume of weekends and giving returned, our staff is growing to meet today’s new demands.

Welcome Kenny Johnston as Full-time Men’s Ministry Coordinator

Kenny attended his initial weekend in July 2016 and started staffing weekends almost immediately. He is a certified group leader and is actively working towards his certification for both retreat leader and carpet leader. He graduated from Sam Houston State University in 2005 with a degree in music and history.  He spent most of his professional life in secondary education teaching percussion, history, and Bible. He is also a Bible teacher at his local church.  Kenny lives in Spring, TX, with his wife Lisa and their two elementary-age children, Timothy and Michaela.

Men’s Ministry Leader, Byron Myers, stated, “Although it was a difficult decision, I believe Kenny Johnston is the right person for the Men’s Ministry Coordinator position at this time.  Kenny will be also filling a community coordinator function that is currently missing as well as taking on some tasks and projects that I have in que and need completion.   I believe Kenny will be an asset to Men’s ministry.”

Welcome Jess Donovan as Part-time Communications Coordinator 

Jess Donovan is a proud New Englander who lives in New Hampshire. Her soul work journey started in the Northeast

community in 2021.  She is passionate about communicating in a way that is effective and engaging.  She shared, “Partnering alongside Crucible to help others in life transformation is a huge blessing to me”.  When she’s not working you can find her hiking, dancing, or exploring with friends.

Executive Director Roy Wooten shared, “The candidates for this position were all awesome and it was a tough decision made with prayer and input from interview committees.  I’m so glad to have Jess’ enthusiasm for Christ-centered soul work and her understanding of communicating in ways that this generation will consume will be such a gift to the ministry with her in this role.  I look forward to having Jess sharing Crucible with the world in this formal way”.

 

 

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Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Pastor Greg Huston went on a secular men’s retreat to work on the “things in the basement of his life” effecting his key relationships and ministry and experienced grace in such a unique way that he had never experienced over the course of his lifetime in Christian ministry.  He felt God’s calling to take this grace-filled experience to the Christian world.  What started as groups and coaching in the early 2000’s morphed into The Crucible Project ministry in 2005.  Now over six thousand across the USA and on three continents have touched their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of our Savior on one of our weekends.

Because of Greg’s inspirational actions that created a Christ-centered soul work movement across the globe, Crucible leadership has created an award to recognize him and an annual recipient.  We are calling it, the Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Founder Greg Huston

Greg served as a pastor for 17 years in several churches in Philadelphia and Chicago.  He holds a Bachelors degree in Bible from Grace College and a Masters of Arts in religion from Westminster Theological Seminary.  Greg first launched what would become The Crucible Project under his coaching practice, Dare to Soar.  Under his 13 years of leadership, more than 1700 souls experienced our life changing work.  He also expanded Crucible beyond its initial roots in Chicagoland to flourishing communities in Texas, Colorado and Australia.  Although he retired from active ministry leadership in 2015, he continues to serve as a weekend leader.

Greg Presents First-Ever Recipient

At this year’s annual gathering, Greg introduced this year’s recipient.  “It is my privilege to present the first ever Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity award this evening to Les Crooks.  Four years ago a mentor invited Les to attend the Crucible weekend.  He left empowered and wanting more.  He was an unhealthy warrior who was not the man he wanted to be.  He soon joined the 2 year transformational program.  Over the course of the next two years, he discovered how his warrior energy can be shifted to sovereign blessing energy, strengthening relationships with his wife and three boys.

Les Crook’s Leadership Project

As the Penn High School Buildings Trades teacher for the past 22 years, he is always active and building something.  His 2 year group leaders, Scott Selby and Bill Snyder, and his coach and mentor Chris Cleghorn, challenged him to use his warrior energy to make a difference in his leadership project.  Les began challenging himself by riding his bike longer and longer distances.  He signed up for the race around Michigan and continued finding different challenges to better himself mentally and physically.  Les’s leadership project began to take shape.

Goal that is a Stretch!

What if he joined the Race Across America championing Crucible from coast to coast?  It would stretch him to be able to lead a team of crew members required, find the resources and volunteers necessary to safely accomplish the race, including a follow-van and RV, medical expertise and all the supplies.  What if he could stretch himself to lead others to donate $100,000 of financial support for Crucible weekends?

Goal Achievement

That is exactly what he did.  Les left Oceanside, California on his bike on June 14^th and finished the grueling 3088 mile journey 11 days and 8 hours later.   Less than 500 people have ever completed the solo Race Across America.  Les’s goal to raise awareness caused significant increases in website visitors, new Compass Resource email subscribers, social media followers and inquiries for 2 year programs, weekends, groups and coaching.  Not only has his efforts raised awareness, but his physical challenge inspired donors to give $100,000 toward financial assistance for future participants.”

Les Crooks Award Winner

Les Crooks responded by sharing, “I would have never taken the chance to go for such a huge goal without the work I received on my weekend and through the 2-year transformational program.  I am so thankful to my wife and family, my crew, Bill Snyder who was there every pedal along the way, and all of you helped support and donate. This has been life changing.  Thank you so much Greg  Huston.  I’m honored and I humbly accept.”

 

 

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No One Left Behind Initiative

^“A shepherd in charge of 100 sheep notices that one of his sheep has gone astray. What do you think he should do? Should the shepherd leave the flock on the hills unguarded to search for the lost sheep? God’s shepherd goes to look for that one lost sheep,”

Matt 18:12 (VOICE)

At Crucible, we believe that every soul is a precious gift from God and worthy of us inviting them to experience the life changing soul work of Crucible. Every new Redwood is valued enough to not let fade away but instead be invited into a soul work lifestyle that will help them survive the ups and downs of life.  Every soul, regardless of their relationship with God, socioeconomic status, race, culture or ethnicity, nationality or political leanings should have access to the gift of soul work.

No One Left Behind in Your Sphere of Influence

What you got for yourself on your initial weekend is the miraculous work of God.  Moving from the lies you once believed to a new truth about who you are at the core of your soul was so transformational that it had a ripple effect in your marriage, family, church, workspace and neighborhood.

We believe everyone you know should have the opportunity to experience what you experienced. As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, we are developing a dropbox full of resources to help you share this ministry with everyone you know.  New Redwoods will soon begin leaving the weekend with resources in their hands to promote upcoming weekends to their friends, family, coworkers and church.  Resources are in development for each Graduation attendees to leave with as well.

No New Redwoods Left Behind

Too many Redwoods leave their initial weekend and never connect with other Redwoods in their community.  This is especially true for Redwoods who do not live near a large or budding community.  It is vitally important for each soul who has touched a piece of their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of God to find immediate support for their continued journey.

We believe each new Redwood needs a community where the ups and downs of life can be met with Christ-centered soul work in a Crucible community.  As part of the No One Left Behind, we have implemented a post-weekend interview with the same pre-weekend interviewer.  A new Online Community will capture souls who live far from a Crucible community to provide follow up for online groups.  Growth Groups are being scheduled before each weekend to begin within 6 weeks post weekend.  Group coordination has been strengthened across Crucible Communities.

No One Left Behind Due to Financial Constraints

Money should never be a barrier to anyone who wants to engage in soul work within Crucible. Growth Group and initial weekend access should be available regardless of ability to pay the set fees.  We are a nonprofit ministry that provided $112,138 in financial assistance for initial weekends in the past 12 months.  Support for our work in Mexico, Rwanda, Kenya and other special communities provide resources allowing every soul to attend regardless of their financial situation.

We believe each Redwood should be given the opportunity to “pay-it-forward” by joining other Redwoods in financially supporting the ministry.  As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, changes to pre and post weekend communications will strengthen Crucible’s culture of generosity providing the financial resources to leave no one behind due to their financial situation.

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Soul Work on the African Continent

There were two landmark events for Crucible the past couple months: Launching work in Rwanda with a first Crucible Weekend in Rwanda and doing the first Level II Weekend in Kenya, Africa. These two events came together through an intense and complex journey of just four months from idea inception to execution.  This is a summary of the story:

In December we were presented an opportunity to bring Crucible work to Rwanda by tapping relationships and the leadership of some men who had experience with Christian soul work.  We were known to them by reputation.  We went after this seeing it as a unique opportunity to build on our Crucible work already underway on the African Continent. This meant calling together a team of men who could provide leadership as staff from the US and especially African men from Kenya and possibly South Africa.

I was asked to run point on this project by Byron.  There were many unusual elements.  We recruited a small team of experienced US Redwoods who would commit to over two weeks of travel and cover their own expenses.  To have a core of local Rwandans, a number of men who had done another men’s soul work experience went through Crucible’s Online Intensive in February. This created a local staff. The staff included them and nine men who came from Kenya, at their own expense and raising some funds from their community.  Six Americans were part of the team, and one we lost to quarantining in Kigali for a week with COVID and could not serve, except to pray.

Key to all of this was the initial outreach from Jamie Whyte from Colorado who had the network of relationships in Rwanda with Christian men, leaders and close contacts with Hope Haven School which hosted the weekend. Jamie’s leadership and investment in all ways made this weekend possible.

Several generous Redwoods gave financially to help cover costs of this start up. Men from different men’s work experiences, and men from America, Kenya and Rwanda blended into a team that worked together beautifully.

One important element of doing soul work in Rwanda is the fact that the country today is still deeply affected by the national horror of the 1994 genocide there.  More than 800,000 civilians—primarily members of the Tutsi - were killed during the campaign over 100 days. As many as 2,000,000 Rwandans fled the country. This is a scar for all Rwandans and every man on a weekend comes with some residual trauma. In light of this history, we intentionally stepped into local history orientation to attempt to understand this experience, and the Kenyan and American staff men visited the Rwanda Genocide Memorial together prior to arriving at the weekend site.

18 men went through the initial weekend, all Rwandan men except, ironically two Americans (read about one of them here.). There were so many unique aspects of this and it was an extraordinary experience for everyone. The staff men from Kenya had their first taste of helping to take a Crucible work to a new country.  Key leadership came from Pastor Jimmy Muyango of Rwanda who was enrolled as local leader and provided important guidance, and linguistic and cultural interpretation.  Kenyan leader Ananda Kinisu of The Tribe served as Co-leader of the weekend and led the Kenyan team.

Immediately following the Weekend in Rwanda the staff scattered to other business or home, and some crossed to Kenya.  On the next weekend all the Kenyan staff men were participants in the Leadership Joy retreat as the US team came to do that retreat with support of two key staff from Kenya.  Alan Hicks and Kariuki Thande did all the work of the weekend while still serving as staff experiencing a rare blend of staffing and participating in processes throughout.  For the second level weekend, there were a total of 18 Kenyan Redwoods, going deeper into their work as they focused and became more aware of living as kings!

The US team for both the Rwanda initial and Kenya Leadership weekends was Jay Mountjoy and Paul Storaci from Colorado Community, Byron Myers and myself.  Personally, for me, Rwanda was the most demanding preparation and execution of a weekend I’ve worked on.

In the near future, we see continued initial and Level II weekends in Kenya, continued initial weekends in Rwanda, and our first Kenyan Women’s initial weekend.  All of it will take Redwoods giving of their time and financial resources to make it possible.

The bottom line: we have seen this in places everywhere in the United States and in Australia, Mexico, Kenya, South African – this work and the Crucible weekend “works” across cultures and geographies.

Chris Cleghorn

Volunteer Ambassador

 

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Confidentiality in Our Circles

On Friday night of your initial weekend, you heard the following:

“What goes on throughout this weekend as well as each soul’s story is confidential. Whatever a man says and does here, stays here. When you leave this place, you may talk about what you learn about yourself, but not the work of others. The staff will not share anything they hear about you, nor should you share what you hear about any other. The only exception to this rule is that there may be an obligation to report to social agencies if anyone shares that they are currently abusing children or the elderly in any way. Anyone feeling the need to make such a report is asked to notify staff.  However, we as a staff remain committed to helping you face and overcome such a pattern and will work with you toward liberating you from your abusive practices.”

Confidentiality is a sacred trust with those we do our soul work with.  Whether it is on a weekend, in a group setting or with a Crucible coach, the agreement to keep confidential each person’s work is the bedrock foundation of safety for each soul.

Breaking Confidentiality by Reporting

Crucible policy only places safety as a higher value than confidentiality.  Crucible leaders are trained to break confidentiality when there is abuse or neglect of elderly or children, and when there is imminent harm to others, such as when someone reports they intend to harm themselves or others.

Breaking confidentiality to report is always a difficult decision.  If someone is in harms way, a report to a family member or governmental entities may be obligatory.  In the post-“me-too” era and the aftermath of catholic sexual abuse cover-ups, many states have added laws of required reporting beyond child and elderly abuse.  At the core of any decision to break confidentiality and report, we must keep in mind that the only reason to report must be to protect from harm’s way.

Container Leaks

Container leaks include sharing another’s work to others who are voluntarily staffing a weekend as well as casual conversations with another Redwood over drinks or meal.  Some break confidentiality when they share another’s work with their spouse.  It is never OK to tell another soul’s story unless it is determined that a report for safety reasons is necessary.

If you find a container leak, it is important that you call into account the person who has possibly broken the container.  We have a process for that!  Your Regional Leader , Group Leader, or any of our certified Retreat Leaders can assist you.

Recommit to Confidentiality

Anytime you find yourself wondering about your container holding, ask for a recommitment to confidentiality.  Bring any perceived breaches to your circle.  Your retreat leader on a weekend or group leader can assist with any questions you might have.  Byron and Lisa are great resources for any questions you might have about our policies.

 

 

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“I got what I came for and more!”

You probably said something like that.  That’s what all but a few Redwoods say on every Sunday afternoon to the final leader before they leave their initial weekend.  A small number say, “I got a great start toward it.”

God has met your courage, and the courage of over 5,800 men and women as they wrestled with Him around wounds at the core of their soul on our transformational weekends.  Their weekends ignited Christ-like change through experiences of radical honesty and grace.

Over 700 Redwoods volunteered to staff one of our weekends last year, committed to creating a world where men and women live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose.

Over $85,000 of financial assistance was given to participants last year.  Redwoods “paid it forward” allowing souls to find peace, confidence, clarity, power, joy, purpose, and freedom last year.

If you are currently a donor, thank you on behalf of so many who your funds help!  If you are not a donor yet,

Will you join with hundreds of other Redwoods to “pay it forward” so that more souls will be able to experience radical honesty and grace?

Get Your Sticker!

If you say “yes”, I want to send you a token gift of appreciation.  Set up a monthly contribution at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or send a monthly check to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.  When you do, I’ll send you a couple of “Radical Honesty & Grace” stickers, like the one above, for you to place on a vehicle, cup, laptop, or whatever you choose.  If you are already a donor, your sticker will be coming to your mailbox soon.

I’m praying that your donation will help over 1,000 men and women become Redwoods in 2022.  I am also praying that the stickers I send you will be a point of conversation with others in your life to invite them to a weekend.

Join the hundreds of Redwoods who are “paying it forward” so that this ministry continues to create weekend experiences where every soul “gets what they came here for and more!”

Continuing the Journey and helping others start theirs,

Roy Wooten

 

 

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Souls Are Waiting

In addition to volunteering to staff Weekends, Crucible needs your help.  Want to volunteer?

Scheduler – Do you have experience scheduling multiple people for meetings?  We are looking for a virtual scheduler who would be willing to help set up meetings.  .  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke

Database Manager – Looking for a Redwood with high attention to detail and experience with Excel or databases, such as CRMs, Salesforce, etc.  If you have time and high attention to detail, we’ll train you.  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke.

Content Developers – Redwoods with years of experience in soul work and participating or leading groups who might want to work with other experienced Redwoods to create new experiences for non-Redwoods across the globe through My Journey To online offerings.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Communications Coordinator – Are you good at editing?  If you have experience with MailChimp and would like to assist with growing outward facing communications, connect with Roy Wooten.

Podcast Host – Work with a team of volunteer podcasters to interview guests as part of the Crucible Podcast launching soon.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Testimonials – Would you be willing to share your testimonial in a video or audio format?  If so, we’ll help with interview questions.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Video and Audio Editors – Do you have skills editing video and audio recordings?  We are looking for volunteers willing to serve 2-4 hours per week to help with editing audio for podcasts and video for outward facing communications.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Online Crucible Intensive Staff – are you passionate about helping those who cannot attend an in-person Weekend? If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Local Men’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Byron Myers.

Local Women’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski

Weekly Check-In Hosts – Wednesday check-ins are here to stay, and we’d like to get organized and expand our host rotation! It’s a great way to step into leading and hosting on Zoom in a relaxed, low-pressure environment! If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski.

Pre-Retreat & Post-Retreat Interviewers – Like talking on the phone? Good at basic facilitation skills? You do not need to be staffing a particular retreat to help with interviews. You’ll receive training and detailed instructions for how to complete the interview. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Participant Coordinators – like emailing with participants and tracking details? Work with retreat leaders to help women get to the retreats with all the information they need! Got a sturdy shield and lots of grace to extend to scared participants who have not yet gone on their Crucible retreat and know what you already know? Maybe you’re cut out for being a participant coordinator! Requires some customer service, computer and problem solving. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Staff Coordinators – If you enjoy being the hostess, you’ll love being staff coordinator! Help make sure staff have the info they need for meetings, updated protocols, and coordinate travel and bedding for staff who are traveling in from out of town.  If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

 

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Continuing Your Soul Work

Attend Second Level Weekends

Unshackled: Breaking the Chains of Shame - Women

February 4-6 Hempstead, TX

Available to women who have attended the Crucible Women’s Weekend, is a deep dive into breaking free from the shame-based identities that bind us.  Women will walk away knowing at a core level who God has created us each to be.  Register Here!

Leadership Joy - Men

February 4-6 St. Charles, IL

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Mission - Men

March 4-6 Como, CO

September 9-11 St. Charles, IL

WHAT IT IS

The core of a man’s life is his purpose. Without a conscious mission a man is lost, drifting and adapting to circumstances in his life, rather than creating events. We believe Jesus lived on mission and modeled how He wants us to fulfill our purpose as followers of Him (Luke 4:18, 19:10). This entire weekend is devoted to exploring the core of your life — your mission.  Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn to minimize distractions and detours and live from your heart, giving your gifts to the world.

Develop a conscious, actionable mission and align your life with it.

Challenge and support to embrace your purpose.

Deepen your commitment to act with integrity.

Sexuality Weekend - Men

April 8-10 Andover, CT

August 26-28 Chidlow, Western Australia

September 16-18 Como, CO

WHAT IT IS

If you are like most men, the word “sex” stirs up a wide range of emotions and experiences – from joy, delight and ecstatic pleasure to shame, anger and pain. How can something that God designed as such a wonderful gift become a source of such confusion, darkness and despair for so many men? This entire weekend is focuses on tackling the multifaceted subject of sex. If you long to move toward seeing your sexuality as a wonderful gift God has given you to enjoy, then this weekend is for you. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Investigate the “dark side” of sexuality – looking at the woundedness and shame you carry

Explore how men use sex to avoid unpleasant feelings—and chart a better path to emotional health

Reclaim your sexuality as a sacred gift to be repossessed—not repressed

Experience healing and freedom in a safe place to engage in a holistic process

Leadership: Dark Side - Men

May 20-22

Brownwood, TX

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Groups

CRUCIBLE PROJECT SOUL GROUPS WERE FORMED OUT OF THE RECOGNITION OF THE NEED FOR MEN AND WOMEN TO CONTINUE THE WORK FOLLOWING THEIR INITIAL WEEKEND.

What It Is

Small circles of men or women (typically 6-10) are committed to grow into deeper levels of authenticity, honesty, transparency and grace in a safe and non-condemning environment. Groups typically meet three times a month — although it varies by group — and are led by a trained facilitator. Groups are open to men and women who have completed an initial weekend (or equivalent). Groups are offered locally within our established communities, or you may join one of our many video-based groups that meet online.

What You’ll Get

• Support and positive challenge for your continued work and the goals you want to reach.
• Learn from the deepest experience of other men or women as they share their work with you.
• An unparalleled group experience of safety, openness and trust.
• The tools, skills and healing to live a more passionate, powerful life

Connect to an in-person or online Growth Group, Journey Group or Development Group for Men or Women.

Get a Crucible Certified Coach

What is it?

Hiring a Crucible Certified Coach is like hiring a trainer/guide for fitness, wilderness adventures or home design.  Coaching helps you move from a stuck place toward your goals.  Crucible Coaching has the express purpose of helping men & women move toward Christlikeness and become more like Jesus.  Crucible Project coaches meet you where you are at and help you become a better version of yourself.  Coaches do this by unlocking your God-given gifts, talents, and goodness.

How does it work?

Generally, you meet by phone or online for about fifty minutes. Prior to each session you will complete a brief questionnaire about your progress and what specifically you would like to focus on during the session together.  During the session the coach will serve as a guide in helping you achieve your goals. Before the end of the session you will confirm the next session. Appointments are at varied times of the week at the day and time you agree upon.

We use methods, language, and some processes practiced by The Crucible Project as well as the individual coach’s skill set.

What are the benefits?

In coaching you will discover how and where you are stuck, be guided to break through barriers and achieve your goals. You will find a trusted professional walking alongside and encouraging you; giving guidance as you move out of your current place to something better; someone who can tap your own personal resources and God-given giftedness to live as a better you. The cost of coaching is included in the Two-Year Transformation program.

Join the Two-Year Transformational Program for Men!

THE TWO-YEAR TRANSFORMATIONAL PROGRAM IS AN INTENSE PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT TRACK FOR MEN WHO ARE COMMITTED IN THEIR BOLD JOURNEY TO LIVE FULLY AS WARRIORS, LOVERS, SAGES AND KINGS — LIKE JESUS.

The Two-Year Program is open to men who have completed an Initial Weekend (or equivalent).

What It Includes

• Second Level Weekends
  • Mission/Life Purpose
  • Sexuality
  • Leadership: Facing the Dark Side and Discovering the Hero Within
  • Leadership: Moving Through Barriers Towards Joy
• Development Group membership. Continue your work with other men willing to make the same two-year commitment as you. Groups meet three times a month and are led by a trained facilitator. In addition to local face-to-face groups, we offer a video conferencing based group for those living in an area without a local group.
• Monthly coaching calls to further refine your journey in the two-year program.
• Staffing opportunities. Priority staff placement for all 1st-Level weekends to use what you are learning in service to other men.

What You’ll Get

• Discover and live your God-given purpose as a man.
• Become a more authentic man who lives at deeper levels of integrity.
• Engage your God-given inner strength to live with greater confidence and courage.
• Live more courageously – willing to shake things up and take risks; penetrating your world.
• Learn to live from your heart.
• Let go of the sexual shame you carry and embrace your sexuality as a sacred gift – full of life, connection and creativity.
• Build more authentic, loving relationships.
• Grow as a more effective leader.

Contact us for more information and cost

Workshops and Connections

FREE Weekly Redwood Men's or Women's Check In

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Caring For Your Inner Child

January 21, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Caring For Your Inner Child.

Register in Events!

Live Connection - Morning Stillness & Check In

January 25, 8-9AM CDT

Beginning your day with a meditation, stilling your soul. Center yourself for a productive day.

Register in Events!

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Motivation Without Shaming

January 27, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Motivation Without Shaming.

Register in Events!

FREE Live Workshop: Why Am I Stuck?

January 29, 9-11AM CDT

An opportunity to explore how and why we get stuck when trying make changes in our lives. Work on some specific area you’d like to change and develop a plan to move forward.

Register in Events

Introduction to Facilitation Training for Men

Connecticut Jan 22–23, 2022 In person or online. Led by yours Judson Poling.  $350 per person or $600 for couples.  In this training, you will learn the theory of all Carpet Work processes as well take a deep-dive into the specific steps of Anger and Support processes. The training will provide several opportunities to review and practice those steps. You’ll also learn how to refine what the participant really wants; what are people's different learning styles and the language to use that fits their style; and understand your own facilitator shadows. To maximize your learning, we recommend you carefully read over the manual before attending, which requires you to register at least four weeks in advance. If you register later, you’ll get the manual when you arrive on Saturday.

Register Here!

Staff an Upcoming Weekend

Staff an Upcoming Weekend
Men, Andover, CT March 18-20
Women, St. Charles, IL April 1-3
Men, Chouteau, OK April 1-3
Men, North Zulch, TX April 1-3
Men, Como, CO April 8-10
Women, Andover, CT April 22-24
Men, Sexuality, Andover CT April 8-10
Apply!

 

 

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The Gift of Christmas

Christmas Season Points to Jesus

I love that across the world, people are reminded annually that Jesus came into the world to “be God’s representative tot eh poor, to preach good news to them, to tell those who are held captive that they can now be free, that the blind can now see, to liberate those held down by oppression and to proclaim that now is the time and jubilee season of grace.” (Luke 4:18-21 VOICE).

Jesus is the Unquenchable Source of Light

Jesus’ entrance into the world was light coming into darkness.  John’s gospel tells us that Jesus was with God before creation and that He was the source of light in the universe “that thrives in the depths of darkness, blazes through murky bottoms – it cannot and will not be quenched.” (John 1:5 VOICE).

No Room in the Inn

But what has my attention this year is this part of Luke 2:7 VOICE, “because the inn had no room for them.”  During my elementary school years, it never made much sense to me when the Sunday school teacher shared this story.  How can they not make room for the Savior of the world?

Do I Make Room for Jesus?

What has me thinking about this verse so much is that I am not sure that I make enough room for Jesus in my life today.  I believe when Jesus said that He is always with those of us who call Him King of our lives.  But my awareness of His presence is absent far too frequently than I’d like to admit.   Distracted by the list of tasks to be accomplished today, commitments I’ve made, my health, our family schedule, work challenges, relationship struggles, and whatever breaking news is going on, I do not make room to create awareness of Jesus who is always with me.

Challenged To Make Room

Knowing this, I am committed to creating space as a part of my daily routine to arouse my personal awareness of Jesus with me.  In my space, I am committed to talking to Jesus through prayer and listening for anything He has to say to me about whatever is going on in my life at that time.  I’m committed to spending some time with an open Bible in a reading program that focuses me on my relationship with Him.  I am excited about what making room in my life for Jesus might bring to the rest of my life.

Need more light in your life?  Perhaps you will join me in making room for Jesus in your awareness as well!

(adapted from Dave Rider)

 

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Giving Groups

Every year several Journey Groups send in a group donation to Crucible.  We wanted to find out how it began and why they continue to give back to Crucible in this manner.  We interviewed Christopher Dorsano and Larry Korbus who generously shared their responses.

When did your group start doing it and why?

Larry said,

“Our Journey Group, we call “TCP Sequel”, was founded in April, 2014 by five men who were graduating from the 2-Year Program within one or two months of each other. (Four of the five men are still members today. The other relocated to another state.) We decided we did not want our “journey” together to end upon graduation. We wanted to “grow old together”. (Or as one of the men jokes, “grow older together”.)

The five of us met with members of two other Journey Groups to learn how they structured and governed themselves. We then drafted group documents which are still in place 8 years later.  One of the documents we agreed to stated, “In lieu of dues, each man is expected to make a donation to The Crucible Project. The donation should be made each month in the amount of $25 or a bi-annual donation in the amount of $150 or an annual donation in the amount of $300.””

Chris said,

“We have always done it that way. The fundamentals all came from Crucible and they are doing all they can to change lives and help them out of their deep waters. That is a mission I can put my money behind.”

Why does your group think giving back to the ministry is important

Larry replied:

“The founding members of TCP Sequel realized what a gift The Crucible Project had given us. We had grown significantly in areas of leadership, integrity and living our mission. We, in turn, wanted to give back to ensure that The Crucible Project continued to impact the lives of other men. We also did not want any existing or new members to take our group “lightly” or for granted. Therefore, requiring group members to make a minimum annual donation to The Crucible Project became a requirement for membership.”

Chris replied,

“The best way to make an impact I am not able to do with my own time is by tithing so others that do have the time can change lives.”

What do your group members get for themselves by giving to crucible? What are the benefits of your generosity?

Larry commented:

“We rest assured that our financial contributions are going to a ministry that is dedicated to changing the lives of men and women for the better. There’s a comfort in knowing that our continued support helps to maintain the current level of operations and provides for future enhancements and expansion.”

Chris commented:

“The benefits are a community of men that are all on different journeys but have a solid foundation. It is like having family all over the world that you may have never met but when you do there is common ground.”

If you want help to add giving as a part of your Journey Group covenant, contact us at communications@thecrucibleproject.org.

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Free for You for Life

In a recent conversation with my wife, Michelle, we were talking about the importance of continuing “our work.” I’m referring to our soul care journey toward self-awareness, emotional wellness and living at deeper levels of authenticity. We talked mostly about intentionality, but also about how hard it is to keep looking in the mirror, even though we both know it is vital to our healing.

I don’t know your story, but I wonder if it looked anything like mine over the last 18 months, where I often operated in survival mode and made up that it’s hard enough just to deal with life right now, so I’m gonna pass on “the work.” With too many weekends canceled and in-person group opportunities diminished during the lockdown, I had all the excuses.

Enter My Journey To 

I’m thankful for the forward thinking of The Crucible Project to build the My Journey To app that brings soul care right to you, literally anywhere, for free. Its content library is full of powerful teachings, exercises and visualizations developed and delivered by experienced men and women on the journey — it’s good stuff. It also features live connection events and workshops where you can join others online for shared experiences. Groups and coaching are offered through the app as well.

There are three membership levels, and the bronze tier is free forever. If you decide to upgrade to the silver tier, the expanded content library is free for the first two weeks and you get the self-assessment tool, which helps you identify areas to focus on and delivers content tailored to those areas. I challenge you to check MyJourneyTo.com out. If you think it may benefit others in your circle, please share it with them, too.

We may not yet know the full impact this pandemic has on our emotional health. While the soul work journey is not easy and requires intentionality, I believe anything we can do to press into our work and stay on the journey will prove invaluable.  Having a tool like the My Journey To app can only help. Be encouraged and keep looking in the mirror — you and those you love are worth it.

John Owen

Courageous Free Hawk

 

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Share to Win

We are meeting the dark times we are all living in by creating a world where souls help others to live fully alive, instead of wasting their lives.

Your help is urgently needed. We are inviting those of you who have wrestled with God around your core wounds to spread the mission of Crucible Project across the globe.

Crucible’s strongest hope of introducing Christ-centered soul work to souls who are unaware of how they are living their lives is Crucible’s new outreach application – MyJourneyTo.com.  We anticipate that a large number of souls helped through My Journey To will eventually face the fire and find their gold at an upcoming Weekend.

Are you Social?

Our new social media channels for My Journey To Renewal, Wellness and Belonging have recently launched on Facebook and Instagram.  Liking, following and sharing social media channels will expand our reach, without spending money on marketing. When you like, follow and share our My Journey To channels, you are helping provide Soul Care Anywhere – to isolated souls across town or across the globe.

Share to Win

When you like, follow and share My Journey To on Facebook or Instagram you are helping Crucible expand our reach as we provide Soul Care Anywhere. By engaging on these social media channels — you will be entered to win prizes as a thank you gift.

Random Drawing “Thanks for Sharing” Prizes

One will win a $100 Amazon Gift Card

One will win a $50 Amazon Gift Card

Five will win a $10 Starbucks Gift Card

How to enter on Facebook:

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow My Journey To My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in comments on the Share to Win post for an additional entry.
5. Share the Share to Win post for an additional entry.

How to enter on Instagram: 

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow the My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in the Share to Win comments for an additional entry.

Contest Rules:

Anyone over 18 can enter. Must complete steps 1-3 for valid entry. Complete steps 4-5 for additional bonus entries. No limit to number of entries. Winners drawn randomly. Seven total winners. Winners will be announced on the My Journey To Facebook and Instagram channels on October 20, 2021.  Winners must send a private/direct message through to My Journey To channels within 7 days of winner announcement. Questions about the contest should be addressed to Communications@MyJourneyTo.com.

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Dare to Soar Couples and Crucible

Our Founder, Greg Huston, and his wife, Toni, have been leading Dare to Soar Couples Retreats, groups and coaching for a couple of decades.  Greg Huston started Dare to Soar in 1999 to help men create more authentic, passionate, and grace-filled lives and to build relationships in which they experience more joy, love, and peace.

A pastor for 18 years, Greg first developed Dare to Soar programs, including individual counseling work, group work, and weekend retreats, to address the issues with which many men in the church were struggling. In 2005, Greg’s men’s work evolved into The Crucible Project ministry.

After several years of working with men, Greg felt a growing desire to bring his expertise to couples. At the same time, men were requesting a way to introduce their wives to their spiritual and emotional journey. Greg responded by expanding Dare to Soar to include couples’ retreats—and to include his wife, Toni, to help lead them.

Together Greg and Toni launched the first Dare To Soar Couples retreat in 2005 and quickly added continuing care in the form of monthly groups. Since then, they have led couples’ weekends in Illinois, Texas, Colorado and the Czech Republic.

An accomplished speaker, facilitator, coach, and counselor, Greg is driven not just by his education and pastoral experiences but also by 30 years of extensive work on his own life. He has been used by God to powerfully impact the lives of many through his work.

One of the great joys of Greg and Toni’s life is doing this work together, sharing what they have learned in the “lab” of their own 45 years of marriage.  Another is their family, which includes two daughters and their husbands and two grandchildren.

Greg and Toni are excited that The Crucible Project will continue the Dare to Soar legacy of couples’ retreats, groups and coaching beginning in January, 2022.  According to Greg and Toni, “We are thankful that our work with couples will continue as we shift to a new season in our lives.”

Roy Wooten, Executive Director, stated, “It is a great honor for Crucible to continue Greg and Toni’s legacy of couples soul work.  They are such a gift to couples around the world and to this ministry.  The need for good solutions for couples navigating the ups and downs of lifelong relationships is great.  We are so thankful to Greg and Toni!”

The last Dare to Soar Weekend led by Greg and Toni Huston is scheduled for October 15-17 in the Chicago area.  Registrations are still available for couples to register.  Learn more!

 

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Will you step into your Warrior and rise to the challenge?

On your initial weekend you were challenged to stop complaining and blaming and step into your warrior.  You were courageously vulnerable in declaring the thing you did not want others to know.  You wrestled with God around your core wounds – and found a true blessing. You found your power and stepped into your strength to set boundaries within you.  As you gained clarity about your heart’s deepest desires, you stepped into action to get them for yourself and to create the world you really want.

This has been one of the most challenging years of our lifetimes.  Many Redwoods rose to the challenge facing this incredible ministry we both love so much.  They stepped into their strength and courage to financially provide for the ministry’s sustainability during a time many ministries closed their doors forever.  Their investments made it possible for over 250 Weekend Participants and over 200 Staff to engage their soul work this challenging pandemic.

Will you join fellow Redwoods by rising to the financial challenges of this past year by making a financial contribution to The Crucible Project?  Your donation to the Annual Fund supports all operational and strategic initiatives.  A secure one-time or monthly donation of any amount can be set up quickly at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or by mailing checks to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.

When I mail out acknowledgment for a donation of any amount, you will receive the new Warrior sticker to proudly display in a visible place.  You can use it as a point of discussion to share what God has done and is doing through this powerful ministry and remind you of the strength and courage you summoned this past year and can deploy for any future challenge before you.

Your generosity will keep us igniting Christ-like change in men and women through experiences of radical honesty and grace.  Your gift will allow us to continue to create a world of women and men who live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose!

Thanking you in advance for rising to the challenge!

Roy Wooten

Executive Director

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For Redwood Pastors Only!

Participate in the first Redwoods Pastors Retreat

3pm Monday, November 1-11:30am Thursday, November 4, 2021

Land of My Grandfather’s

North Zulch, TX

The last 18 months have been some of the most challenging times to be a Pastor.  With that in mind, we have put together a retreat with you in mind.  This special men's retreat is for initiated full-time Pastor’s and parachurch Ministers to come and renew your spirit, to rest, to connect, to be authentic and find a brotherhood for support. Our desire is to minister to the heart of each one of you!  We believe this retreat will be inspirational, healing, refreshing and will be better if you are there.

The cost is $250 which includes lodging, food and supplies. Register now so we can plan for your attendance. For more information,  Contact Andy Spell or Tim Rush.

REGISTER NOW

Join a Redwood “Pastors Only” Group

We are starting two new groups for Pastors who would like a place to do your work, where you are allowed to be your authentic self, and in a place that is set apart from those you lead.

Both groups will meet on the 1^st and 3^rd Wednesday of the month, beginning June 2^nd and ending November 17^th.  Group one will meet from 6:00-7:30 am central time zone.  Contact Andy Spell . Group two will meet from 6:00-7:30 am pacific time zone.  Contact Tim Rush.

There are no fees for these groups.

What Pastor’s Are Saying:

“The pastors in this group helped me process things that others would never understand.  A safe place that I could just be me, nothing more. No pastor hat just a man among other men.”   -Brent in Chicago

“The Crucible Pastor's Group was the safe community I was missing. I never thought a zoom call could have such a profound impact on my life and walk with Jesus.  It was well worth waking at 3:30am to join twice a month” - Ryan in Seattle

Mid-Week Initial Weekend

So many church staff struggle to give up a weekend while in full time ministry.  Will you prayerfully consider staffing a midweek weekend?  Staff will arrive on Sunday night, August 22^nd as a member of the staff team, serve pastors from across the country as they experience radical honesty and grace, and leave the afternoon of Wednesday, August 25^th full and blessed. If you are interested in staffing, complete an application.

Participant registration is open!  Participants arrive 6:45-7PM Central Monday night and exit by 3PM on Wednesday.  Let ministers know that they can sign up now at TheCrucibleProject.org

New Resource for Those You Lead

When a challenging church member or a church leader is struggling, Crucible now has a suite of resources you can place in their hands.  My Journey To is an online app that has an assessment, pre-recorded soul work experience library, and Live Events available to supplement any pastoral care or counseling you might be providing.  If you would like a complimentary membership, contact   and let him know you are a Pastor.  If interested in group membership pricing for your leadership team or congregants, contact Roy Wooten.

 

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Finding My Strength and Growth Opportunities

“Intentional living is the art of making our own choices before others’ choices make us.” – Richie Norton

Emerging Intentionally

It is so encouraging to see news reports that the pandemic’s end is in view.  The past fourteen months have been challenging, but we can find some truths about ourselves.  Challenges provide opportunities to raise our awareness about who we are, how we show up in life, where we still have opportunities to grow, and what our strengths are.  There are always things to learn as well as celebrate along our journey.

One of the gifts many of us discovered is that we do not want to go back to the way life was pre-pandemic.  Many of us found an unscheduled “reset” to our lives. Hurry and busy have been replaced with serenity and meaning.  Changes in routines provided more space for contemplation, creativity and recreation.  Some of us found our spiritual practices increasing even as church attendance disappeared or dwindled.

• What growth opportunities have you discovered about yourself?
• What strengths and resiliency have you noticed about yourself?
• What have you been doing that you want to continue post-pandemic?

Intentionally Creating Your Post-Pandemic Life

Our My Journey To Team has a free and confidential resource to assist in planning and designing your post-pandemic inner world.  The My Journey To Self-Assessment is a tool that provides personal feedback of strengths and growth opportunities in eight areas of your life.

The eight areas measured include emotional wellness, family relationships, physical wellness, vocation, spiritual wellness, finances, relationships with friends, and recreational life. Results reveal where you are satisfied in your life and what is in the way in the areas where you are not satisfied.

The Self-Assessment takes about forty minutes to complete and provides a report or each assessment area as well as an overall conclusive report.  It is available with a two-week trial membership of My Journey To.

 

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You Are the Sum of What You Look At

You may have heard the saying that, “You’re the sum of the five people you spend the most time with.” 

Maybe before the internet age that was true, but it’s really not true anymore.

I think today what’s true is, “You are the sum of what you look at.”

The idea used to be if you hung around with certain people, they would rub off on you. Their attitudes would rub off on you. Their ways of thinking about things would rub off on you. That you’d be influenced even if you thought these were just little interactions that didn’t really matter, you’re gonna be influenced.

That’s true, but it’s even more true for what it is you look at.

If you spend time flipping through “feeds”—be it Facebook, or Reddit, or Instagram, or Twitter, or whatever—of things that make you angry all the time, you are going to be the sum of all those little posts that make you angry.

That’s what you’re going to turn into. You’ll become incredibly bitter about life.

On the other hand, if you’re always reading books that are uplifting, or biographies of great people, or sci-fi that you really enjoy, stuff like that, that’s going to have that impact on you too. You’re going to be the sum of the quality of what you look with there, as well.

In Cal Newport’s book, Deep Work, he talks about how we tend to think that it’s the big outcomes in life that really matter, and they’re the only things we really need to think about: Did I get the job? Did I get married? Did I get a raise? Did I succeed at the thing?

We think the big outcomes are what’s important, and all the little moment-to-moment stuff can be ignored.

But it turns out the reverse is actually a lot more true.

What you do moment-to-moment, what you look at moment-to-moment, what media you’re consuming moment-to-moment—it’s those little moments that actually add up to who you become.

It’s easy to discount these effects.  It’s easy to say, about the five people you hang out with who have the biggest impact, “Well, you know, we just hang out occasionally, it doesn’t really matter.” It’s easy to say, “While I’m standing in line I flip through Facebook, and that doesn’t really matter.”

But if you’re doing that literally for, perhaps, hours a day, it actually really does matter.

It’s the little things in life, as they say, that matter. And they actually create that big picture outcome that you might be going for.

So what’s the takeaway for this? Over the next few days, if you think of it, think about, “What is it I’m looking at most? What is it I’m absorbing most?”

Ask yourself: “If this is influencing me ten times more than I think—if this is influencing my attitude, my day-to-day feelings, and my ability to focus on something for more than a moment—would I really want to be looking at it?”

And if you feel like you wouldn’t, maybe search out things that actually do inspire you and do make you feel good. Either reading books, on the internet, people you like—something like that.  It’s just so easy for these little moments that we have throughout our day to get sucked up and filled up with flipping through the “feeds”—the five internet friends —who make us the craziest.

Choose what you look at, in those little moments, wisely. They make up who you are.

By Dmitri Bilgere

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Christmas Tears

I remember feeling my heart sink when I saw him come through the door. My wife and I were at a Christmas gathering at our church. My brother spotted me and made his way to our table. He didn’t have to say anything. I knew what had happened by the look on his face. My fears were confirmed with just two words: “He’s gone.”

That December 19th — 21 years ago — made it a Christmas season very different from any I had ever experienced.

Dad had gone into the hospital that year shortly after Thanksgiving. The doctors soon concluded that his heart would not withstand bypass surgery. There were no other options. The goal now was to build up his strength enough so he could come home for what was to be his last Christmas.

Just as Jan and I were about to leave for our Christmas party, Dad called to see how things were going with us. That was Dad. Literally on his death bed but asking how we and the kids were doing. As the conversation was ending he asked, “When am I supposed to come home again?” Jan answered, “Christmas Eve.” Dad asked, “How many days is that?” Jan told him, “Five.”

Dad’s response was peculiar. He said matter-of-factly, “I’m not going to make that.” Jan assured him that if he wanted to, the doctors would certainly allow him to come home early. She told him we could come right then to pick him up. Not surprisingly, he declined the offer. Dad never wanted people making a fuss over him. He responded, “No, we’ll see how tonight goes.”

A nurse later reported that, according to Dad’s roommate, he was “on the phone with someone, hung up and died.” Turns out Dad was calling to say goodbye.

Most people who are close to me or have heard me speak or have read my writings know that due to my father’s drinking problem we a rather tumultuous relationship. Throughout my childhood I knew my dad as a verbally abusive alcoholic. The name of my ministry–Finding Father’s Love—suggests what my heart yearned for. The very title of my first book–When Father is a Bad Word—offers a glimpse into what my relationship with my father had been like. 

Through the years I have shared many personal and painful stories about how my dad’s drinking affected me and my family. I have described my father to literally thousands of people with adjectives like violent, scary, mean, and shaming. One would think that news of his passing would trigger feelings of anger, hopelessness, and deep regret. Instead, I found myself overflowing with gratitude.

Many people know about the drinking problem my dad had when I was a boy. What they may not know is that my dad overcame his addiction when I was an adult. In what could rightfully be termed a miracle, my dad quit drinking. That in itself is not miraculous. People overcome addictive behaviors every day. It’s how my dad did it. You see, he did it with no visible help. He didn’t seek support from AA. He didn’t go to a counselor for direction. He didn’t rely on a sponsor for support. He just quit.

When our pastor got wind of the news he stopped by for a visit. “John,” he said, “I understand you quit drinking.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“I also understand that you’re not going anywhere for help.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“Well,” the pastor replied, “if you’re able to quit without help you’ll be the first person I’ve ever seen do it.”

Dad’s response took him aback. He grinned and said, “Then I’ll be the first.”

My dad never drank again. Turns out God’s help was the only help he needed. I don’t often speak of this because I don’t want to hold up Dad’s story as the norm. For the vast majority of alcoholics, quitting drinking is just the first step. Then they must assemble and rely on a support network to help them maintain sobriety. For many, staying sober is an everyday, lifelong battle.

My dad, virtually overnight, was transformed from the raging drunk I feared as a child to the kind and gentle man I was privileged to come to know and love as an adult.

There were many tears during that Christmas season 21 years ago. But intermingled with my tears of sadness were tears of profound gratitude.

• I was grateful for the answer to thousands of prayers uttered in desperation by me and my family on my father’s behalf.
• I was grateful for the years of sobriety that God had granted Dad at the end of his life.
• I was grateful that mom didn’t break her wedding vows and kept our family together when it would have been easier to bail.
• I was grateful that my wife and children never witnessed thatside of my dad.
• I was grateful to get to know my father for who he really was—a good man who happened to have a bad problem.

While I struggled to sing Joy to the World on that Christmas after losing my dad, there were many other familiar carols that took on new meaning for me that year. Some still bring tears. But they are no longer tears of sadness. Only tears of gratitude.

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

Dan Kuiper completed his initial Crucible weekend in 2009. He is an author and speaker and leads a ministry called, Finding Father’s Love which helps wounded souls find love, healing, and grace in relationship with the Heavenly Father. Dan’s first book, When Father is a Bad Word, illustrates the parallels between our relationship with our earthly father and our perception of our Heavenly Father. Dan leads Finding Father’s Love Seminars across the country, offering hope and healing to those who have experienced brokenness from dysfunctional family relationships.

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My Journey To: Renewal - Wellness - Belonging

Executive Director, Roy Wooten and Member Services Manager, Bob Locascio discuss new offering for future Redwoods coming in January!

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Post Traumatic Stress and Crucible

We have experienced some great books by Redwoods sharing their story. In Redwood Jason Wilson’s Cry Like a Man: Fighting for Freedom from Emotional Incarceration , Jason reveals all of his story and his road to recovery through The Crucible Project. Jeff Madsen writes the history of Crucible Founder Greg Huston and the history of The Crucible Project in Truth and Grace: The Leadership Legacy of Greg Huston.

Both books share voraciously highly confidential information about each soul. And this month a new book was published by another Redwood with the same courage.

George Coen, a 72 year old retired Navy Veteran who had served two deployments with a Navy Attack Squadron in Viet Nam, attended one of our weekends after ten years of extensive PTSD treatment. Not only was he suffering post traumatic stress from combat, but also from his year’s growing up in the home of a father with untreated post traumatic stress from World War II.

His new book, Collateral Damage: A Journey in Dealing with Combat-related PTSD, is about physical, mental and spiritual healing. He attributes the healing of his physical wounds and the treatment of his mental wounds to the Veterans Administration. But the VA is absent of spiritual healing. Several men where he and his wife of thirty-four years worship encouraged him to attend The Crucible Project Weekend. At the age of 72, he registered and attended.

He shares on pages 116 and 117, the following:

“…the weekend experience was one of the most intense physical, mental and emotional challenges that I have ever experienced. Yes, I wrestled with God …. I. came home. At peace, knowing I could trust God to do the right thing with the remaining few years of my life. …Prior to my Crucible experience… my statement of faith would have gone something like this:

For most of my life, God has been some mystical being out there that is somehow responsible for all things. In spite of that I am still in control and responsible for short-come outcomes. The conflicting tension is the persistent presence of that “inner voice” that is often times in conflict with my actions.

Today … having completed Crucible, I would summarize my faith as follows:

Jesus in the example of the person I should aspire to be. It’s not about the destination; it’s about the voyage. I need to be less concerned about the future and more concerned with the present. God has a plan for my life, but only the ending is made known to me and is certain. The path will be revealed to me in small increments. I. just need to pay attention and listen. I believe that voice that is constantly talking to me over my shoulder is that revelation in small bits. I just need to listen and heed. God’s intermediate destinations for me my not be consistent with my desires or expectations; however, I’m expected to obey! Terrible things happen to good people, thus the significance of the. Cross and the Resurrection. I know God loves me and is with me!

The empirical literature points to a clear conclusion: spirituality is part and parcel of the human response to trauma and its resolution.”

We are thankful to Redwood George M. Coen for the authenticity and courageous vulnerability in how he tells his story toward healing. This risky story-telling is why every soul can find a part of their story in his. Every soul’s work is my work and my work is every soul’s work.

You can get access to George’s story and the book at this link. George wants to ensure anyone who wants a copy can get one, so let bduke@thecrucibleproject.org know if you need assistance in getting a copy.

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Thriving in Covid Times: Heart & Soul

“How’s your heart?” my three year old asked his mom.  “My heart is full,” my wife answered.  “How is yours?”  My son answered, “My heart is naughty,” he smiled.

You can’t talk about the heart, until you define the heart.

The heart I am talking about is mentioned many times in the Scriptures.

Our hearts can provide strength (Psalm 73:2), be guarded (Prov. 4:23, Phil.4:7) and be purified (Matt 5:8).

The heart and the head/mind - seem to be separate things mentioned together.

In the ancient world, Greek and Hebrews among others, the heart was symbolic of the soul.  The heart is considered the seat of all morality and spiritual functions.

In these challenging times - caring for our soul is more important than ever.

If we just live on the surface, taking care of our bodies, being mindful of our lives - it’s not enough.  C.S. Lewis is typically attributed this quote from his favorite writer, George MacDonald:

"'Never tell a child you have a soul. Teach him, you are a soul; you have a body."

How do we care for our soul?  Three distinct, but connected ways:

1. Connect with God
2. Connect with our neighbors
3. Connect with ourselves

Connect with God

We cannot form character from inside our own selves.  We get our worth and sense of identity from God.  What God says about us is true and good and worthy.  If you believe what God  says about you is true, your identity is rooted in something that can’t be changed and can’t go away.  What does God say about you?  You found some things out on that initial Crucible weekend, and perhaps on second level or workshops.  The good news?  There’s more!

Connect with our neighbors

We must get more external connections with people that God created in His image.  Here’s the caveat - the BEST connections are with those who are safe, doing their own work, and connecting with God, others and themselves.  Henry Cloud states the four corners of connection:  No Connection, Bad Connection, Pseudo Connection and Real Connection.

Real connection gives ultimate freedom and self-control.  Don’t those sound like great things to have in a pandemic?  Fortunately Crucible Project small groups are excellent places to get real connection.

Real connection allows us to ultimately....

Connect with ourselves

We must learn to love ourselves as a result of experiencing love and acceptance and connection from God and others.  It is a natural flow from this experiential place that empowers us and helps us live out what God intended for us all along - a life that THRIVES.

Remember this story of Jesus in Mark 12:28-34?

One of the teachers of religious law was standing there listening to the debate. He realized that Jesus had answered well, so he asked, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”

Jesus replied, “The most important commandment is this: ‘Listen, O Israel! The Lord our God is the one and only Lord. And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength.’ The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’No other commandment is greater than these.”

The teacher of religious law replied, “Well said, Teacher. You have spoken the truth by saying that there is only one God and no other. And I know it is important to love him with all my heart and all my understanding and all my strength, and to love my neighbor as myself. This is more important than to offer all of the burnt offerings and sacrifices required in the law.”

Realizing how much the man understood, Jesus said to him, “You are not far from the Kingdom of God.” And after that, no one dared to ask him any more questions. 

The Mic Drop of Jesus is: Love of God, love of  neighbor and ourselves - THAT is how to THRIVE.

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 2

Let me remind you again: This is no ordinary time!

If you’ve made some commitments to take care of your body - remember your brain is a part of that.  You need water, rest and healthy hobbies to keep the brain going!

Even more amazing than the brain - is what the brain “houses”  our minds. 

Our minds are incredible mysteries that can adapt to extremely stressful situations, get us going to accomplish seemingly impossible tasks, and solve complex issues and problems.  Our minds are powerful.

The apostle Paul affirmed the power of the mind.  It’s worthy of a Bible study:

“Fix your mind…”  “Renew your mind…” “Think about these things…”  

“Have this mind among yourselves…”  “The world has blinded the minds…”

Paul knew the power of Mindfulness. 

People who experience consistent success and persevere through life have discovered the secret of Mindfulness. 

What is it?

Oxford Dictionary gives a few definitions that are helpful:

1. The quality or state of being conscious or aware of something.
2. A mental state achieved by focusing one's awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one's feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations, used as a therapeutic technique.

Remember your Crucible weekend? 

Everything was full of mindfulness - it was designed to help you become aware of what was working and not working in your life. 

By focusing on the present moment, you were able to work our feelings, thoughts, and body exercises that gave you a God-ordained experience!

In these extraordinary times, here are some ways to practice mindfulness:

• Regularly check-in with yourself and others around your feelings.  
• Meditate on phrases or verses of Scripture that are true and good.
• Get in touch with your attitude.  Attitude is one of the only things we can control.
• Cultivate your mind with gratitude.  Being thankful for what God has provided.
• Create a daily time and place to practice mindfulness. A morning and evening time where you can ground yourself in the morning and decompress your mind in the evening is relieving. 

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.” - Paul in Philippians 4:8

Next Issue:  Our Hearts

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 1

This is no Ordinary Time!

We can all agree that there are so many things that feel out of control - we feel hard pressed on all sides.  Our country is experiencing many crises at one time. We all can agree on that.

Stress levels are through the roof!  How do we deal with that?

In speaking with a variety of professionals and wise men & women from all backgrounds, here are insights that may help you move from surviving to thriving in these times.  While not an exhaustive list,  it is a good start.    We will cover Body, Mind, Heart & Soul in this series.

Today we focus on the Body!  Remember what the Apostle Paul wrote to the church in Corinth (who had confusion over the importance of the body): “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;  you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.” 1 Cor. 19-20

Your Body

1. Exercise well
2. Sleep well
3. Eat well
4. Wash your hands

Exercise Well! Just getting out for a 30 minute walk/jog is a huge help.  If you have a dog (or a child on a lease), you’ve already got an excuse to exercise.  In addition to being outdoors if you can, you can also exercise with instructors online.  Set up a routine, ask some friends to go with you (but follow social distance guidelines) and try a variety of things to see what you enjoy. When you exercise, you not only reduce the obvious stress you’re experiencing, but you prevent weight gain, boost your immune system and improve your sleep.

Sleep Well! Good sleep goes hand in hand with exercise (so does food).  It has all the same benefits as exercise - including preventing weight gain!  The Mayo Clinic defines fatigue as “a nearly constant state of weariness that develops over time and reduces your energy, motivation and concentration.” Even if you receive an adequate amount of sleep at night, fatigue can still leave you feeling tired and unmotivated in the morning. Establish a sleep routine of consistent wake-up, wind-down and bedtimes.

Eat Well! Stress can translate into poor eating habits.  Remember that we truly are what we eat.  If we load junk into the furnace, the furnace won’t work.  One of the greatest things I’ve ever learned was that you exercise to build muscle and immunity, but you lose weight by having good eating habits. 

Lastly, wash your hands!   Good hygiene is a huge deterrer to sickness! Plus, it puts into practice, Mindfulness, which we will showcase next time.

Treat your body well.  If you need a coach or personal accountability, remember your Crucible Redwoods stand ready to be supportive to you as you take care of you! Find out more about Crucible Coaching.

At the end of the day, we cannot control how others treat us, how others treat others or how others treat themselves.  We can control how we treat others and how we treat ourselves.

Next issue: Our Minds

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This isn't just for Crucible men and women - did you know that anyone can use our coaching services?

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Ancient Creeds in Modern Times

“They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers.” - Acts 2:42 (NRSV)
“Adversity does not build character, it reveals it.” - James Lane Allen 

Life in the age of pandemic  - trying times indeed.  If ever there was a season that has revealed much to us about ourselves, now is that time. 

As one of those who have stopped to reflect on how I have been responding and acting, I have discovered a deep truth.  I am not who I thought I was.  

I discovered in The Crucible Project and in recovery work - that the biggest problem in my life is myself.  And I have discovered new ways to live and respond to my family, friends, clients and others.  It’s been a good journey.

What about the way I live and respond to God?

Take for example, my prayer life.  I’ve had a short attention span with God in prayer.  Let’s just say - the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.  

I find myself going off course in prayer - being inconsistent - and wondering what to do.

The character of my prayer has been revealed to be about me.  When I’m angry, my prayers are angry.  When I’m sad, my prayers are sad.  My prayers are flighty and unfocused. And that’s if I pray at all.

Brian Zahnd states, “The primary purpose of prayer is not to get God to do what we think God ought to do, but to be properly formed.”

The verse from Acts mentioned above - shows how the early community of God was being formed.  They did four things:

1. Learned the apostle’s teachings about Jesus (The Bible)
2. Were in fellowship with each other (Community)
3. The weekly breaking of bread (Communion)
4. And “The Prayers” - Here we go!

“The Prayers” is descriptive of the early church teachings of the Creeds and Prayers that the followers of Jesus recited.  They were being properly formed by these liturgical truths.  

There’s no such thing as dead liturgy - only true or false liturgy.  There are dead or alive people.   Using the Creeds and Prayers is like putting up a trellis for vines to grow.  It takes the pressure off the soul and allows us truth to cling to and focus on - while we become formed in the likeness of Jesus.  Jesus taught us this.

When the disciples asked Jesus to teach them to pray - he did:

Our Father, Who Art In Heaven

Hallowed Be Thy Name

Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will Be Done

On earth as it is in Heaven

Give us this day our daily bread

And forgive us our trespasses, 

as we forgive those who trespass against us,

And led us not into temptation, 

But deliver us from evil, 

For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory forever. Amen.

There are so many amazing time tested prayers and creeds.  (The Apostle’s Creed, Nicene Creed, The Jesus Prayer, The Beatitudes in Matt 5, Psalm 23, Prayer of St. Francis, Confessional Prayers). I realize I am joining with past and present Jesus followers in prayer.

I started praying a set of them every morning - and it’s been transformational. 

My mind can focus on my heart - and my heart focuses on the deep truths of these rich treasures.  I even use my body in raising my hands, or moving about.  It fulfills the “Love the Lord  God with your Heart, Soul, Mind & Strength”  that is so important! 

Here’s a confessional example I pray and how it’s changing  me:

Most merciful God, we confess that we have sinned against you in thought, word, and deed, by what we have done, and by what we have left undone.

We have not loved you with our whole heart; we have not loved our neighbors as ourselves. We are truly sorry and we humbly repent.

For the sake of your Son Jesus Christ, have mercy on us and forgive us; that we may delight in your will, and walk in your ways, to the glory of your Name. Amen.

I am so much more in tune with my neighbors - all people I come in contact with - I am more tender and empathetic and helpful.  Why? God is forming me during my morning prayer time.

I do this every day.  My challenge to you is get a set of these prayers - and pray them for 30 days. 

Blessings as we journey with Jesus together. - Tim White

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Preparing to Go Live Again

When the Crucible COVID19 committee met for the first time, the discussion began with these perplexing questions:

• How can we implement the deep experiential and intimate programs within our weekends within healthy boundaries set by public health officials? 
• Will Personal Protective Equipment be required?
• Is it responsible for Crucible to consume PPE that hospitals while medical staff in hospitals are experiencing shortages and rationing them?

It is hard to imagine any way we can be fully compliant with current public health guidance with the way our Weekends protocols are currently organized.

Crucible Project staff have been working with Retreat Leaders and key volunteers to prepare for a safe launch of Weekends again as soon as public health officials tell us we can.

According to Roy Wooten, Executive Director, “It is likely that we will be able to hold face-to-face groups and Weekends in some Crucible Communities before others. We will go wherever we can as soon as we can!”

Rachel Shubin and Bob Locascio have been working with Redwood medical professionals to develop adaptations to our Weekends protocols to enhance staff and participant safety and reduce COVID fears that might be a barrier to getting what they came for.

Rachel Shubin states, “We are committed to maintaining the integrity of the Crucible Weekend experience, while also creating safety for participants and staff.”

The recommendations of this committee will hopefully support the reopening of face-to-face weekends and groups as soon as possible.

“I’m excited to be planning the restart of our weekends, and I know many regular staffers who share that excitement,”  says Bob Locascio.

If you have ideas about implementation of our groups and weekends during this pandemic, please contact Rachel or Bob. Keep Crucible and this committee in your prayers.

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Fear

I’m reminded of Henri Nouwen’s words about fear:  Fear, not hate, is the opposite of love and its obstacle, he said.   When we accept God’s unconditional love, we can find joy in the limited expression of this love in our intimate relationships, without feeling that we have to be God for each other.  “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” (I John 4:18)

Pastor John Casey, one of our long time Crucible Project leaders states:

“In my work as a hospital chaplain, the people who most deny their fear are those who claim connection with God.

To Zechariah and later to Mary, the angel said, “Do not fear.”   To the Israelites facing destruction, God said, “Fear not.”

We misunderstand God, I think.

God isn’t saying, “Never be afraid” or “Fear is wrong.”

Believing this, we deny our fear and miss deep connection with God.

When God says, “Fear not,” he means, “Do not stay in fear” and then almost always adds a way out.

In Psalm 23, “I fear no evil, for you are with me.”

To God’s people facing deportation, God says, “Fear not for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name…when you walk through the waters, I will be with you…”

In these chaotic times, feel your fear of getting sick, of losing ones you love, of not being able to pay your rent. And then look for reassurance—remember God’s past help, search for his presence now, ask him for your daily bread, remember your Father knows what you need. We are finite and will fear. Feel your fear and in the dark, feel for God who is always nearby.”

Remember what Paul writes in Philippians 4:6-7, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”   

Acknowledge your fear, reach out to God and to God's supportive people.  Let us take care of each other. - Tim White

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Owning Your Darkness

Wednesday, February 26 is Ash Wednesday, the start of Lent

Ash Wednesday derives its name from the  placing of repentance ashes on the foreheads of participants to either the words "Repent, and believe in the Gospel" or the dictum "Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return.”

Ash ceremonies typically recite Psalm 51, prayers of confession, and receiving the sign of the ashes, typically in the form of a cross - a blessing on the forehead.

Fasting, Abstinence and Repentance can also encompass Ash Wednesday.

People sat in Ashes to show on the outside what they knew was true about them on the inside.

In many faith traditions, ashes represent:

• Deep awareness of your sinfulness in God’s holy presence
• Resolve to operate in God’s power, and not your own.
• Your mortality - dust to dust, ashes to ashes.
• That you don’t have it all together.
• Showing honesty instead of hiding.
• Death & Mourning.
• Your Shadow, and conversely, your Gold.
• The truth you don’t want you to know about yourself revealed.

The Crucible Project has its own ash ceremony.  One where acknowledgement of one’s shadow is encouraged and a blessing offered to bring that shadow for others to see - as a gift.  What shadow shows up for you this season?

When we acknowledge the truth of our shadow side, we not only give it a voice that we may have repressed, we also use our shadow & brokenness to bring life and healing to ourselves and others.  

Psalm 51 is a beautiful reminder of owning our shadow & brokenness and sitting in honest reflection about who we really are - all the facets - and not sugar coating our lives.  

The promise of cleansing and healing is right there from God AS IS the ability to help others and bless them from the truth of owning our shadow and gold.  What gold do you bring to yourself and others this season?

May God richly bless you during this Lenten season as you own your darkness, in the light of God's grace and truth.

Psalm 51

Have mercy on me, O God,

    according to your unfailing love;

according to your great compassion

    blot out my transgressions.

Wash away all my iniquity

    and cleanse me from my sin.

For I know my transgressions,

    and my sin is always before me.

Against you, you only, have I sinned

    and done what is evil in your sight;

so you are right in your verdict

    and justified when you judge.

Surely I was sinful at birth,

    sinful from the time my mother conceived me.

Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;

    you taught me wisdom in that secret place. 

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;

    wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. 

Let me hear joy and gladness;

    let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

Hide your face from my sins

    and blot out all my iniquity.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,

    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Do not cast me from your presence

    or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation

    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways,

    so that sinners will turn back to you.

Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,

    you who are God my Savior,

    and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

Open my lips, Lord,

    and my mouth will declare your praise.

You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;

    you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;

    a broken and contrite heart

    you, God, will not despise.

May it please you to prosper Zion,

    to build up the walls of Jerusalem.

Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,

    in burnt offerings offered whole;

    then bulls will be offered on your altar.

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New Communication @ The Crucible Project

In our world, communication methods and tools change at a frenzying pace. New or even old ways start to seem like some foreign code.

Jesus communicated in code.  Parables to be exact. “With many such parables he spoke the word to them, as they were able to hear it; he did not speak to them except in parables, but he explained everything in private to his disciples.” (Mark 4: 33-34)

To his disciples, he explained what those coded parables meant.  

In a sense, those of us initiated on a Crucible Project weekend, are ‘brought in from the code’.  We learn a language and learn what it’s all about. This outside/inside communication isn’t unique to The Crucible Project, but it’s a tension we deal with.

We are currently exploring ways to expand both our communication methods based on the realities we experience:

• People are more mobile and use more mobile.
• More people scan for information, instead of deep reading.
• Email isn’t as big of a thing as it used to be - texting/messaging is.
• More information is disseminated via video and auditory delivery culturally. 
• Everyone longs for connection and we are committed to providing that connection.

Here is what we are doing and working on:

• Social Media to the outside audience.  We are exploring best methods and tools to let the world know about this ministry’s mission.  
• Texting Services internally.  We know we can't exclusively use email for our communication.  It’s now old-school to some groups!
• Shifting from Words to Video.  Attention spans are short. Studies show that people “consume” messages differently online than reading offline.
• New Monthly Town Hall meetings via Video.
• More FB Group Live communication from leadership as a way to keep in touch.
• Podcasting.  Replacing those amazing Crucible Project blog posts  (Thanks, Jeff!)

Do you have a question or idea?  Do you want to get involved? Email Tim White communications@thecrucibleproject.org 

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Lifelong Soul Work In Redwood Circles

Soul work circles have always been a part of The Crucible Project since its earliest days. As the organization expanded outside of Chicagoland, the need for training group leaders and replicating group exercises became apparent. The birth of the exercise group now called Growth Group was developed and launched in 2010.

Group Variety and Choices

Since then the variety of groups where soul work happens has continued to expand. Today the types of groups include the following:

• Growth Group – paid group led by a certified group leader, these exercises provide deeper understanding of core concepts taught on the weekend with the goal of integrating the weekend’s experiences.
• Development Group – paid group led by a certified carpet leader, this group offers the opportunity to experience carpet work every session for participants.
• 2 Year Group – this is a Development Group where a cohort of Redwoods also participate in all second level weekends together and includes individual coaching sessions.
• Journey Group – this free group is led by uncertified peer Redwoods with access to group exercise resources. Typically group leadership rotates within the group.
• Open Group – this free group is open to uninitiated people and is led by a Redwood with access to pre-weekend exercises.

 

Why Do Some Groups Have Fees?

All paid groups have certified group leaders. Group leaders invest time and energy achieving certification as well as coordinating and preparing for each group session. Certification ensures that group quality and safety remains at a high level. Group leaders receive compensation for their time and energy. Some of the group payments recover expenses in group development, marketing, and back office support.

Free groups are peer led. There may be a certified group or carpet leader in the group, but group leadership is shared by all Redwoods in the group. A large array of exercises are available for Journey groups to self-facilitate and are accessible with a request to your Regional Leader or Community Developer. For questions, contact Brittany Duke, Office Manager at BDuke@TheCrucibleProject.org.

Growth Group Curriculum Changes

With input from Regional Leaders, the Growth Group Curriculum has expanded to include three additional sessions which will be paid for in the weekend registration fees. In other words, all newly initiated Redwoods will have access to join a local or video based group without additional costs for the first three sessions of the Growth Group. These first sessions help new Redwoods experience group life, including Accountability and Clearings, which are essential to healthy group life.

If you are interested in becoming certified as a Group Leader or Carpet Leader, contact Byron Myers, Leadership Development Manager, to begin the process at LeadershipDevelopment@TheCrucibleProject.org.

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My Soul Work Adventure

Redwoods share their stories of “Where I was then”, “Where I am now”, and “Where I’m going”. To share this video with a friend who’s not a Redwood yet, follow this link.

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Hope in the Hard Places

Article by Nikki LePore- Chicagoland Redwoods Community

Pastor of Care at Parkview Community Church

I recently discovered that “Joy to the World” was not meant to be a Christmas song. To say I was shocked is an understatement! You mean to tell me that one of the MOST popular Christmas songs of ALL time is in fact not a Christmas song… mind blown. And I gotta say, my Christmas spirit a little deflated. The world is hard enough, don’t take Christmas carols from me too!

I know I don’t need to convince those of you reading this that life is hard. Knowing, loving, and following Jesus does not shield us from the hard places. Having the Light of the world live in us does not mean we will never face darkness, disease, death, despair, or tragedy. And when we are facing those things, I think especially during this time of year, that hope can be hard to find, and our faith can feel fragile. If that’s you today, I see you sister, I love you brother, let me share of my hope with you!

“Joy to the World” was written by Isaac Watts to bring hope to a hurting world in the here and now. The world you and I live in. This time and space where Jesus has already come to save us from our sin and where we still long for His return. “Joy to the World” encourages us to prepare our hearts not for a baby that will be born in a manger but for our King who will come again to make all wrongs right. “Joy to the World” was written to point and prepare of hearts towards Jesus’ second coming!

So how does this bring hope in our hard places? How does this strengthen our faith? Hebrews 11:1 tell us that “faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Confidence in what we hope for… the day when Jesus will wipe every tear, and we will know in full what we can only see in part now. Assurance about what we do not see. It can be hard to see in the hard places. Hard to imagine joy, peace, or a way forward. It can be hard to be sure we will make it through the day let alone wait with hope for Jesus’ return. But here’s the light, the sliver of light that can pierce through the hard places, through the darkness and through the doubts, can calm the raging sea of our heart and minds… we have the future returning King with us in the here and now. He IS with you; He IS with me.

Because He is with me, I do not suffer in vain. All hope is not lost, death does not have the final say. Jesus, the one who conquered death, HE has the final say. And He says we are His. And nothing and I mean nothing can separate us from that love.

Wherever you find yourself today, may we prepare our hearts and make room for what is to come. May the true hope anchor us and fill us as we wait. May we share the Light and help bring His joy to a world who so desperately needs it.

Jesus loves you and so do I.

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Gratitude This Thanksgiving

The Character Trait God Values Most

That is a big statement, to say THIS is the thing God values and desires in His people more than all else.  What is it?  There are some biggies that come to mind:  Righteousness and holiness.  For sure, God calls us to be Holy, set apart and to live righteous lives.  But there is a character trait that must be place BEFORE holiness or else the pursuit of holiness degrades quickly into self-righteous Phariseeism.

Self-sacrificial serving is another big character trait that seems to be a contender for the top spot on the list. But again, there is another trait the but go BEFORE serving, else the serving opportunities devolve into a self-serving martyr syndrome. What is that one character trait that tops the list that must come before any other?  The one trait that brings out a pleasing aroma to our Lord in the WAY all those good things are carried out?  HUMILITY.

Humility is prized by our Father more than anything else.  Its opposite is what God Adam and Eve expelled from the Garden and Lucifer from Heaven before that.  Humility’s opposite is what turns any good thing ugly. Yet, humility is one of those traits that seems to not be available to us in a head-on pursuit.  It seems to be the byproduct of something else that, unfortunately, is usually only talked about one time a year:  Gratitude.

Brennan Manning in his excellent book Ruthless Trust, outlines four specific types of gratitude that, when practiced, yield the sweet fruit of genuine humility before the Lord and men.  In chapter two he outlines four ideas which I have re-arranged a bit in order to spell a word (call me crazy, but it helps me remember things!):  PACT. Daily I make a PACT with my heart to be thankful to God in these four ways and the result is humility.

• Present in God’s presence in the present. It is easy to wallow in yesterday’s losses or tomorrow’s what-ifs.  But to be present with God, here and now, and thankful for this very moment and the very air filling your lungs does something to the human soul.  It reminds you of your place before God.
• All inclusive Gratitude. The Bible says to give thanks to God IN ALL things.  Years ago my dad went through 17 years of brain tumors before one finally took him home to be with Jesus. After recovery from his first brain surgery, he said, “I would not wish brain tumors on my worst enemy, but I would not trade them for the world.  They have served to bring me closer to God than ever and closer to may family than ever.  I thank God for my brain tumors.”
• Contagious Gratitude. To ensure your gratitude is up to par, it must pass the test: Does my gratitude infect others with the desire to be grateful?
• Theocentric Gratitude. It is so easy to become self-centered in all of our thinking, even what we are thankful for. When we maintain God at the center our gratitude takes on a different shape.

Manning says that when we have this type of Gratitude, it produces in us the sweet fruit of humility, which is so precious to God.  So may challenge to you during thanksgiving (and beyond) is to get beyond the surface level of thankfulness and dig deep.  Make a PACT with your heart to cultivate THIS type of gratitude—then watch humility start to take shape in your life.

(Thoughts on gratitude this Thanksgiving from Texas Redwood Pastor Dr. Kevin Pigg.)

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Introduction to the Enneagram

By now you’ve probably heard of the Enneagram. It’s garnering a lot of attention lately and with good reason! This practical tool can give you remarkable self-clarity, increased emotional intelligence and greater empathy for others. It’s also an excellent team building tool – improving communication, collaboration, and morale while lessening conflict and making it more constructive.

So, what exactly is the Enneagram?

The Enneagram is a personality theory that recognizes 9 distinct personality types. The word Enneagram comes from two Greek words: ennea = nine, and gram = drawing. What sets it apart from other personality theories is that while other theories tend to focus on behavior (Myers-Briggs, DISC, Strengthsfinder, etc.), the Enneagram goes beyond the superficial to focus on motives. The WHY behind the WHAT provides vital insights into ourselves and others. This emphasis on motives is a very biblical concept! 1 Corinthians 4:5 states: “So don’t make judgments about anyone ahead of time—before the Lord returns. For he will bring our darkest secrets to light and will reveal our private motives.”

Enneagram Types and Common Characteristics

1 (The Perfectionist) – Precise, moral, diligent, reliable. Loves organizing.

2 (The Helper) – Caring, helpful, considerate, warm. Loves serving.

3 (The Performer) - Hard working, driven, focused, efficient. Loves competition.

4 (The Romantic) – Empathetic, sensitive, tasteful, intellectual. Loves creating.

5 (The Investigator) – Analytical, resourceful, knowledgeable, private. Loves problem solving.

6 (The Loyalist) – Loyal, dedicated, responsible, thorough. Loves planning.

7 (The Enthusiast) – Fun, inspiring, energetic, versatile. Loves adventures.

8 (The Challenger) – Protective, decisive, bold, compassionate.  Loves challenges.

9 (The Peacemaker) – Thoughtful, kind, inclusive, steady. Loves nature.

Each type has its own unique core motivations – comprised of it’s core fear, core desire, core weakness, and core longing. Understanding why we do what we do allows us to cooperate with the Holy Spirit in becoming more like Christ.

In the summer of 2020, I invested in myself by getting some Enneagram coaching. The five sessions I had were amazing! The coaching helped to lift my “inner fog” and better understand myself. It helped me become a better leader, husband, father, friend, and follower of Christ. It was so helpful that I decided to become a certified Enneagram coach myself! Since becoming a coach, I love seeing the light bulb turn on for people as the Enneagram exposes their true, God-given personality – the good, the bad, and the ugly! In Redwood terms – you develop a sharper vision of both your shadow and your gold.

Recommended Resources

1. The Road Back To You by Ian Morgan Cron and Suzanne Stabile. This is the place to start your Enneagram exploration; This book gives you the basics simply, concisely and with great humor!
2. The 9 Types of Leadership: Mastering the Art of People in the 21^st Century Workplace by Beatrice Chestnut. Intensely practical – If you lead a team, you need this book!
3. Your Enneagram Coach is a very biblical, gospel-centered ministry with a lot of resources – including a free online assessment.
4. NewLifeEnneagram.com is where I provide resources.

One final piece of advice: we should never use the Enneagram as a club or a shield. We use it as a club when we deride others by saying (or thinking) things like, “You are so bossy, you’re such an 8” or “You are a typical 4, always so melancholy.” We use it as a shield when we excuse our own bad behavior by saying things like, “I can’t help that I’m so critical – I’m a 1” or “I’m a 7, you can’t expect me to follow through on the details.”

While I believe the Enneagram is a helpful tool, I also firmly believe that it’s the good news of Jesus Christ that changes lives - NOT the Enneagram. Used correctly, the Enneagram shouldn't encourage you to “try harder” but rather lead you to lean into the mercy and provision of God as found in Jesus Christ.

Dave Corlew, Chicagoland Community

Get in touch with me here.

 

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Welcome New Support Team Members

The Crucible staff team serves to support the mission-centric work of Crucible volunteers throughout the globe.  In 2020, the staff supporting the organization was halved in order to meet the demands of the pandemic.  As our volume of weekends and giving returned, our staff is growing to meet today’s new demands.

Welcome Kenny Johnston as Full-time Men’s Ministry Coordinator

Kenny attended his initial weekend in July 2016 and started staffing weekends almost immediately. He is a certified group leader and is actively working towards his certification for both retreat leader and carpet leader. He graduated from Sam Houston State University in 2005 with a degree in music and history.  He spent most of his professional life in secondary education teaching percussion, history, and Bible. He is also a Bible teacher at his local church.  Kenny lives in Spring, TX, with his wife Lisa and their two elementary-age children, Timothy and Michaela.

Men’s Ministry Leader, Byron Myers, stated, “Although it was a difficult decision, I believe Kenny Johnston is the right person for the Men’s Ministry Coordinator position at this time.  Kenny will be also filling a community coordinator function that is currently missing as well as taking on some tasks and projects that I have in que and need completion.   I believe Kenny will be an asset to Men’s ministry.”

Welcome Jess Donovan as Part-time Communications Coordinator 

Jess Donovan is a proud New Englander who lives in New Hampshire. Her soul work journey started in the Northeast

community in 2021.  She is passionate about communicating in a way that is effective and engaging.  She shared, “Partnering alongside Crucible to help others in life transformation is a huge blessing to me”.  When she’s not working you can find her hiking, dancing, or exploring with friends.

Executive Director Roy Wooten shared, “The candidates for this position were all awesome and it was a tough decision made with prayer and input from interview committees.  I’m so glad to have Jess’ enthusiasm for Christ-centered soul work and her understanding of communicating in ways that this generation will consume will be such a gift to the ministry with her in this role.  I look forward to having Jess sharing Crucible with the world in this formal way”.

 

 

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Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Pastor Greg Huston went on a secular men’s retreat to work on the “things in the basement of his life” effecting his key relationships and ministry and experienced grace in such a unique way that he had never experienced over the course of his lifetime in Christian ministry.  He felt God’s calling to take this grace-filled experience to the Christian world.  What started as groups and coaching in the early 2000’s morphed into The Crucible Project ministry in 2005.  Now over six thousand across the USA and on three continents have touched their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of our Savior on one of our weekends.

Because of Greg’s inspirational actions that created a Christ-centered soul work movement across the globe, Crucible leadership has created an award to recognize him and an annual recipient.  We are calling it, the Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Founder Greg Huston

Greg served as a pastor for 17 years in several churches in Philadelphia and Chicago.  He holds a Bachelors degree in Bible from Grace College and a Masters of Arts in religion from Westminster Theological Seminary.  Greg first launched what would become The Crucible Project under his coaching practice, Dare to Soar.  Under his 13 years of leadership, more than 1700 souls experienced our life changing work.  He also expanded Crucible beyond its initial roots in Chicagoland to flourishing communities in Texas, Colorado and Australia.  Although he retired from active ministry leadership in 2015, he continues to serve as a weekend leader.

Greg Presents First-Ever Recipient

At this year’s annual gathering, Greg introduced this year’s recipient.  “It is my privilege to present the first ever Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity award this evening to Les Crooks.  Four years ago a mentor invited Les to attend the Crucible weekend.  He left empowered and wanting more.  He was an unhealthy warrior who was not the man he wanted to be.  He soon joined the 2 year transformational program.  Over the course of the next two years, he discovered how his warrior energy can be shifted to sovereign blessing energy, strengthening relationships with his wife and three boys.

Les Crook’s Leadership Project

As the Penn High School Buildings Trades teacher for the past 22 years, he is always active and building something.  His 2 year group leaders, Scott Selby and Bill Snyder, and his coach and mentor Chris Cleghorn, challenged him to use his warrior energy to make a difference in his leadership project.  Les began challenging himself by riding his bike longer and longer distances.  He signed up for the race around Michigan and continued finding different challenges to better himself mentally and physically.  Les’s leadership project began to take shape.

Goal that is a Stretch!

What if he joined the Race Across America championing Crucible from coast to coast?  It would stretch him to be able to lead a team of crew members required, find the resources and volunteers necessary to safely accomplish the race, including a follow-van and RV, medical expertise and all the supplies.  What if he could stretch himself to lead others to donate $100,000 of financial support for Crucible weekends?

Goal Achievement

That is exactly what he did.  Les left Oceanside, California on his bike on June 14^th and finished the grueling 3088 mile journey 11 days and 8 hours later.   Less than 500 people have ever completed the solo Race Across America.  Les’s goal to raise awareness caused significant increases in website visitors, new Compass Resource email subscribers, social media followers and inquiries for 2 year programs, weekends, groups and coaching.  Not only has his efforts raised awareness, but his physical challenge inspired donors to give $100,000 toward financial assistance for future participants.”

Les Crooks Award Winner

Les Crooks responded by sharing, “I would have never taken the chance to go for such a huge goal without the work I received on my weekend and through the 2-year transformational program.  I am so thankful to my wife and family, my crew, Bill Snyder who was there every pedal along the way, and all of you helped support and donate. This has been life changing.  Thank you so much Greg  Huston.  I’m honored and I humbly accept.”

 

 

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No One Left Behind Initiative

^“A shepherd in charge of 100 sheep notices that one of his sheep has gone astray. What do you think he should do? Should the shepherd leave the flock on the hills unguarded to search for the lost sheep? God’s shepherd goes to look for that one lost sheep,”

Matt 18:12 (VOICE)

At Crucible, we believe that every soul is a precious gift from God and worthy of us inviting them to experience the life changing soul work of Crucible. Every new Redwood is valued enough to not let fade away but instead be invited into a soul work lifestyle that will help them survive the ups and downs of life.  Every soul, regardless of their relationship with God, socioeconomic status, race, culture or ethnicity, nationality or political leanings should have access to the gift of soul work.

No One Left Behind in Your Sphere of Influence

What you got for yourself on your initial weekend is the miraculous work of God.  Moving from the lies you once believed to a new truth about who you are at the core of your soul was so transformational that it had a ripple effect in your marriage, family, church, workspace and neighborhood.

We believe everyone you know should have the opportunity to experience what you experienced. As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, we are developing a dropbox full of resources to help you share this ministry with everyone you know.  New Redwoods will soon begin leaving the weekend with resources in their hands to promote upcoming weekends to their friends, family, coworkers and church.  Resources are in development for each Graduation attendees to leave with as well.

No New Redwoods Left Behind

Too many Redwoods leave their initial weekend and never connect with other Redwoods in their community.  This is especially true for Redwoods who do not live near a large or budding community.  It is vitally important for each soul who has touched a piece of their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of God to find immediate support for their continued journey.

We believe each new Redwood needs a community where the ups and downs of life can be met with Christ-centered soul work in a Crucible community.  As part of the No One Left Behind, we have implemented a post-weekend interview with the same pre-weekend interviewer.  A new Online Community will capture souls who live far from a Crucible community to provide follow up for online groups.  Growth Groups are being scheduled before each weekend to begin within 6 weeks post weekend.  Group coordination has been strengthened across Crucible Communities.

No One Left Behind Due to Financial Constraints

Money should never be a barrier to anyone who wants to engage in soul work within Crucible. Growth Group and initial weekend access should be available regardless of ability to pay the set fees.  We are a nonprofit ministry that provided $112,138 in financial assistance for initial weekends in the past 12 months.  Support for our work in Mexico, Rwanda, Kenya and other special communities provide resources allowing every soul to attend regardless of their financial situation.

We believe each Redwood should be given the opportunity to “pay-it-forward” by joining other Redwoods in financially supporting the ministry.  As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, changes to pre and post weekend communications will strengthen Crucible’s culture of generosity providing the financial resources to leave no one behind due to their financial situation.

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Soul Work on the African Continent

There were two landmark events for Crucible the past couple months: Launching work in Rwanda with a first Crucible Weekend in Rwanda and doing the first Level II Weekend in Kenya, Africa. These two events came together through an intense and complex journey of just four months from idea inception to execution.  This is a summary of the story:

In December we were presented an opportunity to bring Crucible work to Rwanda by tapping relationships and the leadership of some men who had experience with Christian soul work.  We were known to them by reputation.  We went after this seeing it as a unique opportunity to build on our Crucible work already underway on the African Continent. This meant calling together a team of men who could provide leadership as staff from the US and especially African men from Kenya and possibly South Africa.

I was asked to run point on this project by Byron.  There were many unusual elements.  We recruited a small team of experienced US Redwoods who would commit to over two weeks of travel and cover their own expenses.  To have a core of local Rwandans, a number of men who had done another men’s soul work experience went through Crucible’s Online Intensive in February. This created a local staff. The staff included them and nine men who came from Kenya, at their own expense and raising some funds from their community.  Six Americans were part of the team, and one we lost to quarantining in Kigali for a week with COVID and could not serve, except to pray.

Key to all of this was the initial outreach from Jamie Whyte from Colorado who had the network of relationships in Rwanda with Christian men, leaders and close contacts with Hope Haven School which hosted the weekend. Jamie’s leadership and investment in all ways made this weekend possible.

Several generous Redwoods gave financially to help cover costs of this start up. Men from different men’s work experiences, and men from America, Kenya and Rwanda blended into a team that worked together beautifully.

One important element of doing soul work in Rwanda is the fact that the country today is still deeply affected by the national horror of the 1994 genocide there.  More than 800,000 civilians—primarily members of the Tutsi - were killed during the campaign over 100 days. As many as 2,000,000 Rwandans fled the country. This is a scar for all Rwandans and every man on a weekend comes with some residual trauma. In light of this history, we intentionally stepped into local history orientation to attempt to understand this experience, and the Kenyan and American staff men visited the Rwanda Genocide Memorial together prior to arriving at the weekend site.

18 men went through the initial weekend, all Rwandan men except, ironically two Americans (read about one of them here.). There were so many unique aspects of this and it was an extraordinary experience for everyone. The staff men from Kenya had their first taste of helping to take a Crucible work to a new country.  Key leadership came from Pastor Jimmy Muyango of Rwanda who was enrolled as local leader and provided important guidance, and linguistic and cultural interpretation.  Kenyan leader Ananda Kinisu of The Tribe served as Co-leader of the weekend and led the Kenyan team.

Immediately following the Weekend in Rwanda the staff scattered to other business or home, and some crossed to Kenya.  On the next weekend all the Kenyan staff men were participants in the Leadership Joy retreat as the US team came to do that retreat with support of two key staff from Kenya.  Alan Hicks and Kariuki Thande did all the work of the weekend while still serving as staff experiencing a rare blend of staffing and participating in processes throughout.  For the second level weekend, there were a total of 18 Kenyan Redwoods, going deeper into their work as they focused and became more aware of living as kings!

The US team for both the Rwanda initial and Kenya Leadership weekends was Jay Mountjoy and Paul Storaci from Colorado Community, Byron Myers and myself.  Personally, for me, Rwanda was the most demanding preparation and execution of a weekend I’ve worked on.

In the near future, we see continued initial and Level II weekends in Kenya, continued initial weekends in Rwanda, and our first Kenyan Women’s initial weekend.  All of it will take Redwoods giving of their time and financial resources to make it possible.

The bottom line: we have seen this in places everywhere in the United States and in Australia, Mexico, Kenya, South African – this work and the Crucible weekend “works” across cultures and geographies.

Chris Cleghorn

Volunteer Ambassador

 

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Confidentiality in Our Circles

On Friday night of your initial weekend, you heard the following:

“What goes on throughout this weekend as well as each soul’s story is confidential. Whatever a man says and does here, stays here. When you leave this place, you may talk about what you learn about yourself, but not the work of others. The staff will not share anything they hear about you, nor should you share what you hear about any other. The only exception to this rule is that there may be an obligation to report to social agencies if anyone shares that they are currently abusing children or the elderly in any way. Anyone feeling the need to make such a report is asked to notify staff.  However, we as a staff remain committed to helping you face and overcome such a pattern and will work with you toward liberating you from your abusive practices.”

Confidentiality is a sacred trust with those we do our soul work with.  Whether it is on a weekend, in a group setting or with a Crucible coach, the agreement to keep confidential each person’s work is the bedrock foundation of safety for each soul.

Breaking Confidentiality by Reporting

Crucible policy only places safety as a higher value than confidentiality.  Crucible leaders are trained to break confidentiality when there is abuse or neglect of elderly or children, and when there is imminent harm to others, such as when someone reports they intend to harm themselves or others.

Breaking confidentiality to report is always a difficult decision.  If someone is in harms way, a report to a family member or governmental entities may be obligatory.  In the post-“me-too” era and the aftermath of catholic sexual abuse cover-ups, many states have added laws of required reporting beyond child and elderly abuse.  At the core of any decision to break confidentiality and report, we must keep in mind that the only reason to report must be to protect from harm’s way.

Container Leaks

Container leaks include sharing another’s work to others who are voluntarily staffing a weekend as well as casual conversations with another Redwood over drinks or meal.  Some break confidentiality when they share another’s work with their spouse.  It is never OK to tell another soul’s story unless it is determined that a report for safety reasons is necessary.

If you find a container leak, it is important that you call into account the person who has possibly broken the container.  We have a process for that!  Your Regional Leader , Group Leader, or any of our certified Retreat Leaders can assist you.

Recommit to Confidentiality

Anytime you find yourself wondering about your container holding, ask for a recommitment to confidentiality.  Bring any perceived breaches to your circle.  Your retreat leader on a weekend or group leader can assist with any questions you might have.  Byron and Lisa are great resources for any questions you might have about our policies.

 

 

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“I got what I came for and more!”

You probably said something like that.  That’s what all but a few Redwoods say on every Sunday afternoon to the final leader before they leave their initial weekend.  A small number say, “I got a great start toward it.”

God has met your courage, and the courage of over 5,800 men and women as they wrestled with Him around wounds at the core of their soul on our transformational weekends.  Their weekends ignited Christ-like change through experiences of radical honesty and grace.

Over 700 Redwoods volunteered to staff one of our weekends last year, committed to creating a world where men and women live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose.

Over $85,000 of financial assistance was given to participants last year.  Redwoods “paid it forward” allowing souls to find peace, confidence, clarity, power, joy, purpose, and freedom last year.

If you are currently a donor, thank you on behalf of so many who your funds help!  If you are not a donor yet,

Will you join with hundreds of other Redwoods to “pay it forward” so that more souls will be able to experience radical honesty and grace?

Get Your Sticker!

If you say “yes”, I want to send you a token gift of appreciation.  Set up a monthly contribution at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or send a monthly check to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.  When you do, I’ll send you a couple of “Radical Honesty & Grace” stickers, like the one above, for you to place on a vehicle, cup, laptop, or whatever you choose.  If you are already a donor, your sticker will be coming to your mailbox soon.

I’m praying that your donation will help over 1,000 men and women become Redwoods in 2022.  I am also praying that the stickers I send you will be a point of conversation with others in your life to invite them to a weekend.

Join the hundreds of Redwoods who are “paying it forward” so that this ministry continues to create weekend experiences where every soul “gets what they came here for and more!”

Continuing the Journey and helping others start theirs,

Roy Wooten

 

 

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Souls Are Waiting

In addition to volunteering to staff Weekends, Crucible needs your help.  Want to volunteer?

Scheduler – Do you have experience scheduling multiple people for meetings?  We are looking for a virtual scheduler who would be willing to help set up meetings.  .  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke

Database Manager – Looking for a Redwood with high attention to detail and experience with Excel or databases, such as CRMs, Salesforce, etc.  If you have time and high attention to detail, we’ll train you.  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke.

Content Developers – Redwoods with years of experience in soul work and participating or leading groups who might want to work with other experienced Redwoods to create new experiences for non-Redwoods across the globe through My Journey To online offerings.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Communications Coordinator – Are you good at editing?  If you have experience with MailChimp and would like to assist with growing outward facing communications, connect with Roy Wooten.

Podcast Host – Work with a team of volunteer podcasters to interview guests as part of the Crucible Podcast launching soon.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Testimonials – Would you be willing to share your testimonial in a video or audio format?  If so, we’ll help with interview questions.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Video and Audio Editors – Do you have skills editing video and audio recordings?  We are looking for volunteers willing to serve 2-4 hours per week to help with editing audio for podcasts and video for outward facing communications.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Online Crucible Intensive Staff – are you passionate about helping those who cannot attend an in-person Weekend? If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Local Men’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Byron Myers.

Local Women’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski

Weekly Check-In Hosts – Wednesday check-ins are here to stay, and we’d like to get organized and expand our host rotation! It’s a great way to step into leading and hosting on Zoom in a relaxed, low-pressure environment! If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski.

Pre-Retreat & Post-Retreat Interviewers – Like talking on the phone? Good at basic facilitation skills? You do not need to be staffing a particular retreat to help with interviews. You’ll receive training and detailed instructions for how to complete the interview. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Participant Coordinators – like emailing with participants and tracking details? Work with retreat leaders to help women get to the retreats with all the information they need! Got a sturdy shield and lots of grace to extend to scared participants who have not yet gone on their Crucible retreat and know what you already know? Maybe you’re cut out for being a participant coordinator! Requires some customer service, computer and problem solving. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Staff Coordinators – If you enjoy being the hostess, you’ll love being staff coordinator! Help make sure staff have the info they need for meetings, updated protocols, and coordinate travel and bedding for staff who are traveling in from out of town.  If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

 

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Continuing Your Soul Work

Attend Second Level Weekends

Unshackled: Breaking the Chains of Shame - Women

February 4-6 Hempstead, TX

Available to women who have attended the Crucible Women’s Weekend, is a deep dive into breaking free from the shame-based identities that bind us.  Women will walk away knowing at a core level who God has created us each to be.  Register Here!

Leadership Joy - Men

February 4-6 St. Charles, IL

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Mission - Men

March 4-6 Como, CO

September 9-11 St. Charles, IL

WHAT IT IS

The core of a man’s life is his purpose. Without a conscious mission a man is lost, drifting and adapting to circumstances in his life, rather than creating events. We believe Jesus lived on mission and modeled how He wants us to fulfill our purpose as followers of Him (Luke 4:18, 19:10). This entire weekend is devoted to exploring the core of your life — your mission.  Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn to minimize distractions and detours and live from your heart, giving your gifts to the world.

Develop a conscious, actionable mission and align your life with it.

Challenge and support to embrace your purpose.

Deepen your commitment to act with integrity.

Sexuality Weekend - Men

April 8-10 Andover, CT

August 26-28 Chidlow, Western Australia

September 16-18 Como, CO

WHAT IT IS

If you are like most men, the word “sex” stirs up a wide range of emotions and experiences – from joy, delight and ecstatic pleasure to shame, anger and pain. How can something that God designed as such a wonderful gift become a source of such confusion, darkness and despair for so many men? This entire weekend is focuses on tackling the multifaceted subject of sex. If you long to move toward seeing your sexuality as a wonderful gift God has given you to enjoy, then this weekend is for you. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Investigate the “dark side” of sexuality – looking at the woundedness and shame you carry

Explore how men use sex to avoid unpleasant feelings—and chart a better path to emotional health

Reclaim your sexuality as a sacred gift to be repossessed—not repressed

Experience healing and freedom in a safe place to engage in a holistic process

Leadership: Dark Side - Men

May 20-22

Brownwood, TX

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Groups

CRUCIBLE PROJECT SOUL GROUPS WERE FORMED OUT OF THE RECOGNITION OF THE NEED FOR MEN AND WOMEN TO CONTINUE THE WORK FOLLOWING THEIR INITIAL WEEKEND.

What It Is

Small circles of men or women (typically 6-10) are committed to grow into deeper levels of authenticity, honesty, transparency and grace in a safe and non-condemning environment. Groups typically meet three times a month — although it varies by group — and are led by a trained facilitator. Groups are open to men and women who have completed an initial weekend (or equivalent). Groups are offered locally within our established communities, or you may join one of our many video-based groups that meet online.

What You’ll Get

• Support and positive challenge for your continued work and the goals you want to reach.
• Learn from the deepest experience of other men or women as they share their work with you.
• An unparalleled group experience of safety, openness and trust.
• The tools, skills and healing to live a more passionate, powerful life

Connect to an in-person or online Growth Group, Journey Group or Development Group for Men or Women.

Get a Crucible Certified Coach

What is it?

Hiring a Crucible Certified Coach is like hiring a trainer/guide for fitness, wilderness adventures or home design.  Coaching helps you move from a stuck place toward your goals.  Crucible Coaching has the express purpose of helping men & women move toward Christlikeness and become more like Jesus.  Crucible Project coaches meet you where you are at and help you become a better version of yourself.  Coaches do this by unlocking your God-given gifts, talents, and goodness.

How does it work?

Generally, you meet by phone or online for about fifty minutes. Prior to each session you will complete a brief questionnaire about your progress and what specifically you would like to focus on during the session together.  During the session the coach will serve as a guide in helping you achieve your goals. Before the end of the session you will confirm the next session. Appointments are at varied times of the week at the day and time you agree upon.

We use methods, language, and some processes practiced by The Crucible Project as well as the individual coach’s skill set.

What are the benefits?

In coaching you will discover how and where you are stuck, be guided to break through barriers and achieve your goals. You will find a trusted professional walking alongside and encouraging you; giving guidance as you move out of your current place to something better; someone who can tap your own personal resources and God-given giftedness to live as a better you. The cost of coaching is included in the Two-Year Transformation program.

Join the Two-Year Transformational Program for Men!

THE TWO-YEAR TRANSFORMATIONAL PROGRAM IS AN INTENSE PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT TRACK FOR MEN WHO ARE COMMITTED IN THEIR BOLD JOURNEY TO LIVE FULLY AS WARRIORS, LOVERS, SAGES AND KINGS — LIKE JESUS.

The Two-Year Program is open to men who have completed an Initial Weekend (or equivalent).

What It Includes

• Second Level Weekends
  • Mission/Life Purpose
  • Sexuality
  • Leadership: Facing the Dark Side and Discovering the Hero Within
  • Leadership: Moving Through Barriers Towards Joy
• Development Group membership. Continue your work with other men willing to make the same two-year commitment as you. Groups meet three times a month and are led by a trained facilitator. In addition to local face-to-face groups, we offer a video conferencing based group for those living in an area without a local group.
• Monthly coaching calls to further refine your journey in the two-year program.
• Staffing opportunities. Priority staff placement for all 1st-Level weekends to use what you are learning in service to other men.

What You’ll Get

• Discover and live your God-given purpose as a man.
• Become a more authentic man who lives at deeper levels of integrity.
• Engage your God-given inner strength to live with greater confidence and courage.
• Live more courageously – willing to shake things up and take risks; penetrating your world.
• Learn to live from your heart.
• Let go of the sexual shame you carry and embrace your sexuality as a sacred gift – full of life, connection and creativity.
• Build more authentic, loving relationships.
• Grow as a more effective leader.

Contact us for more information and cost

Workshops and Connections

FREE Weekly Redwood Men's or Women's Check In

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Caring For Your Inner Child

January 21, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Caring For Your Inner Child.

Register in Events!

Live Connection - Morning Stillness & Check In

January 25, 8-9AM CDT

Beginning your day with a meditation, stilling your soul. Center yourself for a productive day.

Register in Events!

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Motivation Without Shaming

January 27, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Motivation Without Shaming.

Register in Events!

FREE Live Workshop: Why Am I Stuck?

January 29, 9-11AM CDT

An opportunity to explore how and why we get stuck when trying make changes in our lives. Work on some specific area you’d like to change and develop a plan to move forward.

Register in Events

Introduction to Facilitation Training for Men

Connecticut Jan 22–23, 2022 In person or online. Led by yours Judson Poling.  $350 per person or $600 for couples.  In this training, you will learn the theory of all Carpet Work processes as well take a deep-dive into the specific steps of Anger and Support processes. The training will provide several opportunities to review and practice those steps. You’ll also learn how to refine what the participant really wants; what are people's different learning styles and the language to use that fits their style; and understand your own facilitator shadows. To maximize your learning, we recommend you carefully read over the manual before attending, which requires you to register at least four weeks in advance. If you register later, you’ll get the manual when you arrive on Saturday.

Register Here!

Staff an Upcoming Weekend

Staff an Upcoming Weekend
Men, Andover, CT March 18-20
Women, St. Charles, IL April 1-3
Men, Chouteau, OK April 1-3
Men, North Zulch, TX April 1-3
Men, Como, CO April 8-10
Women, Andover, CT April 22-24
Men, Sexuality, Andover CT April 8-10
Apply!

 

 

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The Gift of Christmas

Christmas Season Points to Jesus

I love that across the world, people are reminded annually that Jesus came into the world to “be God’s representative tot eh poor, to preach good news to them, to tell those who are held captive that they can now be free, that the blind can now see, to liberate those held down by oppression and to proclaim that now is the time and jubilee season of grace.” (Luke 4:18-21 VOICE).

Jesus is the Unquenchable Source of Light

Jesus’ entrance into the world was light coming into darkness.  John’s gospel tells us that Jesus was with God before creation and that He was the source of light in the universe “that thrives in the depths of darkness, blazes through murky bottoms – it cannot and will not be quenched.” (John 1:5 VOICE).

No Room in the Inn

But what has my attention this year is this part of Luke 2:7 VOICE, “because the inn had no room for them.”  During my elementary school years, it never made much sense to me when the Sunday school teacher shared this story.  How can they not make room for the Savior of the world?

Do I Make Room for Jesus?

What has me thinking about this verse so much is that I am not sure that I make enough room for Jesus in my life today.  I believe when Jesus said that He is always with those of us who call Him King of our lives.  But my awareness of His presence is absent far too frequently than I’d like to admit.   Distracted by the list of tasks to be accomplished today, commitments I’ve made, my health, our family schedule, work challenges, relationship struggles, and whatever breaking news is going on, I do not make room to create awareness of Jesus who is always with me.

Challenged To Make Room

Knowing this, I am committed to creating space as a part of my daily routine to arouse my personal awareness of Jesus with me.  In my space, I am committed to talking to Jesus through prayer and listening for anything He has to say to me about whatever is going on in my life at that time.  I’m committed to spending some time with an open Bible in a reading program that focuses me on my relationship with Him.  I am excited about what making room in my life for Jesus might bring to the rest of my life.

Need more light in your life?  Perhaps you will join me in making room for Jesus in your awareness as well!

(adapted from Dave Rider)

 

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Giving Groups

Every year several Journey Groups send in a group donation to Crucible.  We wanted to find out how it began and why they continue to give back to Crucible in this manner.  We interviewed Christopher Dorsano and Larry Korbus who generously shared their responses.

When did your group start doing it and why?

Larry said,

“Our Journey Group, we call “TCP Sequel”, was founded in April, 2014 by five men who were graduating from the 2-Year Program within one or two months of each other. (Four of the five men are still members today. The other relocated to another state.) We decided we did not want our “journey” together to end upon graduation. We wanted to “grow old together”. (Or as one of the men jokes, “grow older together”.)

The five of us met with members of two other Journey Groups to learn how they structured and governed themselves. We then drafted group documents which are still in place 8 years later.  One of the documents we agreed to stated, “In lieu of dues, each man is expected to make a donation to The Crucible Project. The donation should be made each month in the amount of $25 or a bi-annual donation in the amount of $150 or an annual donation in the amount of $300.””

Chris said,

“We have always done it that way. The fundamentals all came from Crucible and they are doing all they can to change lives and help them out of their deep waters. That is a mission I can put my money behind.”

Why does your group think giving back to the ministry is important

Larry replied:

“The founding members of TCP Sequel realized what a gift The Crucible Project had given us. We had grown significantly in areas of leadership, integrity and living our mission. We, in turn, wanted to give back to ensure that The Crucible Project continued to impact the lives of other men. We also did not want any existing or new members to take our group “lightly” or for granted. Therefore, requiring group members to make a minimum annual donation to The Crucible Project became a requirement for membership.”

Chris replied,

“The best way to make an impact I am not able to do with my own time is by tithing so others that do have the time can change lives.”

What do your group members get for themselves by giving to crucible? What are the benefits of your generosity?

Larry commented:

“We rest assured that our financial contributions are going to a ministry that is dedicated to changing the lives of men and women for the better. There’s a comfort in knowing that our continued support helps to maintain the current level of operations and provides for future enhancements and expansion.”

Chris commented:

“The benefits are a community of men that are all on different journeys but have a solid foundation. It is like having family all over the world that you may have never met but when you do there is common ground.”

If you want help to add giving as a part of your Journey Group covenant, contact us at communications@thecrucibleproject.org.

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Free for You for Life

In a recent conversation with my wife, Michelle, we were talking about the importance of continuing “our work.” I’m referring to our soul care journey toward self-awareness, emotional wellness and living at deeper levels of authenticity. We talked mostly about intentionality, but also about how hard it is to keep looking in the mirror, even though we both know it is vital to our healing.

I don’t know your story, but I wonder if it looked anything like mine over the last 18 months, where I often operated in survival mode and made up that it’s hard enough just to deal with life right now, so I’m gonna pass on “the work.” With too many weekends canceled and in-person group opportunities diminished during the lockdown, I had all the excuses.

Enter My Journey To 

I’m thankful for the forward thinking of The Crucible Project to build the My Journey To app that brings soul care right to you, literally anywhere, for free. Its content library is full of powerful teachings, exercises and visualizations developed and delivered by experienced men and women on the journey — it’s good stuff. It also features live connection events and workshops where you can join others online for shared experiences. Groups and coaching are offered through the app as well.

There are three membership levels, and the bronze tier is free forever. If you decide to upgrade to the silver tier, the expanded content library is free for the first two weeks and you get the self-assessment tool, which helps you identify areas to focus on and delivers content tailored to those areas. I challenge you to check MyJourneyTo.com out. If you think it may benefit others in your circle, please share it with them, too.

We may not yet know the full impact this pandemic has on our emotional health. While the soul work journey is not easy and requires intentionality, I believe anything we can do to press into our work and stay on the journey will prove invaluable.  Having a tool like the My Journey To app can only help. Be encouraged and keep looking in the mirror — you and those you love are worth it.

John Owen

Courageous Free Hawk

 

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Share to Win

We are meeting the dark times we are all living in by creating a world where souls help others to live fully alive, instead of wasting their lives.

Your help is urgently needed. We are inviting those of you who have wrestled with God around your core wounds to spread the mission of Crucible Project across the globe.

Crucible’s strongest hope of introducing Christ-centered soul work to souls who are unaware of how they are living their lives is Crucible’s new outreach application – MyJourneyTo.com.  We anticipate that a large number of souls helped through My Journey To will eventually face the fire and find their gold at an upcoming Weekend.

Are you Social?

Our new social media channels for My Journey To Renewal, Wellness and Belonging have recently launched on Facebook and Instagram.  Liking, following and sharing social media channels will expand our reach, without spending money on marketing. When you like, follow and share our My Journey To channels, you are helping provide Soul Care Anywhere – to isolated souls across town or across the globe.

Share to Win

When you like, follow and share My Journey To on Facebook or Instagram you are helping Crucible expand our reach as we provide Soul Care Anywhere. By engaging on these social media channels — you will be entered to win prizes as a thank you gift.

Random Drawing “Thanks for Sharing” Prizes

One will win a $100 Amazon Gift Card

One will win a $50 Amazon Gift Card

Five will win a $10 Starbucks Gift Card

How to enter on Facebook:

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow My Journey To My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in comments on the Share to Win post for an additional entry.
5. Share the Share to Win post for an additional entry.

How to enter on Instagram: 

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow the My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in the Share to Win comments for an additional entry.

Contest Rules:

Anyone over 18 can enter. Must complete steps 1-3 for valid entry. Complete steps 4-5 for additional bonus entries. No limit to number of entries. Winners drawn randomly. Seven total winners. Winners will be announced on the My Journey To Facebook and Instagram channels on October 20, 2021.  Winners must send a private/direct message through to My Journey To channels within 7 days of winner announcement. Questions about the contest should be addressed to Communications@MyJourneyTo.com.

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Dare to Soar Couples and Crucible

Our Founder, Greg Huston, and his wife, Toni, have been leading Dare to Soar Couples Retreats, groups and coaching for a couple of decades.  Greg Huston started Dare to Soar in 1999 to help men create more authentic, passionate, and grace-filled lives and to build relationships in which they experience more joy, love, and peace.

A pastor for 18 years, Greg first developed Dare to Soar programs, including individual counseling work, group work, and weekend retreats, to address the issues with which many men in the church were struggling. In 2005, Greg’s men’s work evolved into The Crucible Project ministry.

After several years of working with men, Greg felt a growing desire to bring his expertise to couples. At the same time, men were requesting a way to introduce their wives to their spiritual and emotional journey. Greg responded by expanding Dare to Soar to include couples’ retreats—and to include his wife, Toni, to help lead them.

Together Greg and Toni launched the first Dare To Soar Couples retreat in 2005 and quickly added continuing care in the form of monthly groups. Since then, they have led couples’ weekends in Illinois, Texas, Colorado and the Czech Republic.

An accomplished speaker, facilitator, coach, and counselor, Greg is driven not just by his education and pastoral experiences but also by 30 years of extensive work on his own life. He has been used by God to powerfully impact the lives of many through his work.

One of the great joys of Greg and Toni’s life is doing this work together, sharing what they have learned in the “lab” of their own 45 years of marriage.  Another is their family, which includes two daughters and their husbands and two grandchildren.

Greg and Toni are excited that The Crucible Project will continue the Dare to Soar legacy of couples’ retreats, groups and coaching beginning in January, 2022.  According to Greg and Toni, “We are thankful that our work with couples will continue as we shift to a new season in our lives.”

Roy Wooten, Executive Director, stated, “It is a great honor for Crucible to continue Greg and Toni’s legacy of couples soul work.  They are such a gift to couples around the world and to this ministry.  The need for good solutions for couples navigating the ups and downs of lifelong relationships is great.  We are so thankful to Greg and Toni!”

The last Dare to Soar Weekend led by Greg and Toni Huston is scheduled for October 15-17 in the Chicago area.  Registrations are still available for couples to register.  Learn more!

 

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Will you step into your Warrior and rise to the challenge?

On your initial weekend you were challenged to stop complaining and blaming and step into your warrior.  You were courageously vulnerable in declaring the thing you did not want others to know.  You wrestled with God around your core wounds – and found a true blessing. You found your power and stepped into your strength to set boundaries within you.  As you gained clarity about your heart’s deepest desires, you stepped into action to get them for yourself and to create the world you really want.

This has been one of the most challenging years of our lifetimes.  Many Redwoods rose to the challenge facing this incredible ministry we both love so much.  They stepped into their strength and courage to financially provide for the ministry’s sustainability during a time many ministries closed their doors forever.  Their investments made it possible for over 250 Weekend Participants and over 200 Staff to engage their soul work this challenging pandemic.

Will you join fellow Redwoods by rising to the financial challenges of this past year by making a financial contribution to The Crucible Project?  Your donation to the Annual Fund supports all operational and strategic initiatives.  A secure one-time or monthly donation of any amount can be set up quickly at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or by mailing checks to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.

When I mail out acknowledgment for a donation of any amount, you will receive the new Warrior sticker to proudly display in a visible place.  You can use it as a point of discussion to share what God has done and is doing through this powerful ministry and remind you of the strength and courage you summoned this past year and can deploy for any future challenge before you.

Your generosity will keep us igniting Christ-like change in men and women through experiences of radical honesty and grace.  Your gift will allow us to continue to create a world of women and men who live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose!

Thanking you in advance for rising to the challenge!

Roy Wooten

Executive Director

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For Redwood Pastors Only!

Participate in the first Redwoods Pastors Retreat

3pm Monday, November 1-11:30am Thursday, November 4, 2021

Land of My Grandfather’s

North Zulch, TX

The last 18 months have been some of the most challenging times to be a Pastor.  With that in mind, we have put together a retreat with you in mind.  This special men's retreat is for initiated full-time Pastor’s and parachurch Ministers to come and renew your spirit, to rest, to connect, to be authentic and find a brotherhood for support. Our desire is to minister to the heart of each one of you!  We believe this retreat will be inspirational, healing, refreshing and will be better if you are there.

The cost is $250 which includes lodging, food and supplies. Register now so we can plan for your attendance. For more information,  Contact Andy Spell or Tim Rush.

REGISTER NOW

Join a Redwood “Pastors Only” Group

We are starting two new groups for Pastors who would like a place to do your work, where you are allowed to be your authentic self, and in a place that is set apart from those you lead.

Both groups will meet on the 1^st and 3^rd Wednesday of the month, beginning June 2^nd and ending November 17^th.  Group one will meet from 6:00-7:30 am central time zone.  Contact Andy Spell . Group two will meet from 6:00-7:30 am pacific time zone.  Contact Tim Rush.

There are no fees for these groups.

What Pastor’s Are Saying:

“The pastors in this group helped me process things that others would never understand.  A safe place that I could just be me, nothing more. No pastor hat just a man among other men.”   -Brent in Chicago

“The Crucible Pastor's Group was the safe community I was missing. I never thought a zoom call could have such a profound impact on my life and walk with Jesus.  It was well worth waking at 3:30am to join twice a month” - Ryan in Seattle

Mid-Week Initial Weekend

So many church staff struggle to give up a weekend while in full time ministry.  Will you prayerfully consider staffing a midweek weekend?  Staff will arrive on Sunday night, August 22^nd as a member of the staff team, serve pastors from across the country as they experience radical honesty and grace, and leave the afternoon of Wednesday, August 25^th full and blessed. If you are interested in staffing, complete an application.

Participant registration is open!  Participants arrive 6:45-7PM Central Monday night and exit by 3PM on Wednesday.  Let ministers know that they can sign up now at TheCrucibleProject.org

New Resource for Those You Lead

When a challenging church member or a church leader is struggling, Crucible now has a suite of resources you can place in their hands.  My Journey To is an online app that has an assessment, pre-recorded soul work experience library, and Live Events available to supplement any pastoral care or counseling you might be providing.  If you would like a complimentary membership, contact   and let him know you are a Pastor.  If interested in group membership pricing for your leadership team or congregants, contact Roy Wooten.

 

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Finding My Strength and Growth Opportunities

“Intentional living is the art of making our own choices before others’ choices make us.” – Richie Norton

Emerging Intentionally

It is so encouraging to see news reports that the pandemic’s end is in view.  The past fourteen months have been challenging, but we can find some truths about ourselves.  Challenges provide opportunities to raise our awareness about who we are, how we show up in life, where we still have opportunities to grow, and what our strengths are.  There are always things to learn as well as celebrate along our journey.

One of the gifts many of us discovered is that we do not want to go back to the way life was pre-pandemic.  Many of us found an unscheduled “reset” to our lives. Hurry and busy have been replaced with serenity and meaning.  Changes in routines provided more space for contemplation, creativity and recreation.  Some of us found our spiritual practices increasing even as church attendance disappeared or dwindled.

• What growth opportunities have you discovered about yourself?
• What strengths and resiliency have you noticed about yourself?
• What have you been doing that you want to continue post-pandemic?

Intentionally Creating Your Post-Pandemic Life

Our My Journey To Team has a free and confidential resource to assist in planning and designing your post-pandemic inner world.  The My Journey To Self-Assessment is a tool that provides personal feedback of strengths and growth opportunities in eight areas of your life.

The eight areas measured include emotional wellness, family relationships, physical wellness, vocation, spiritual wellness, finances, relationships with friends, and recreational life. Results reveal where you are satisfied in your life and what is in the way in the areas where you are not satisfied.

The Self-Assessment takes about forty minutes to complete and provides a report or each assessment area as well as an overall conclusive report.  It is available with a two-week trial membership of My Journey To.

 

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You Are the Sum of What You Look At

You may have heard the saying that, “You’re the sum of the five people you spend the most time with.” 

Maybe before the internet age that was true, but it’s really not true anymore.

I think today what’s true is, “You are the sum of what you look at.”

The idea used to be if you hung around with certain people, they would rub off on you. Their attitudes would rub off on you. Their ways of thinking about things would rub off on you. That you’d be influenced even if you thought these were just little interactions that didn’t really matter, you’re gonna be influenced.

That’s true, but it’s even more true for what it is you look at.

If you spend time flipping through “feeds”—be it Facebook, or Reddit, or Instagram, or Twitter, or whatever—of things that make you angry all the time, you are going to be the sum of all those little posts that make you angry.

That’s what you’re going to turn into. You’ll become incredibly bitter about life.

On the other hand, if you’re always reading books that are uplifting, or biographies of great people, or sci-fi that you really enjoy, stuff like that, that’s going to have that impact on you too. You’re going to be the sum of the quality of what you look with there, as well.

In Cal Newport’s book, Deep Work, he talks about how we tend to think that it’s the big outcomes in life that really matter, and they’re the only things we really need to think about: Did I get the job? Did I get married? Did I get a raise? Did I succeed at the thing?

We think the big outcomes are what’s important, and all the little moment-to-moment stuff can be ignored.

But it turns out the reverse is actually a lot more true.

What you do moment-to-moment, what you look at moment-to-moment, what media you’re consuming moment-to-moment—it’s those little moments that actually add up to who you become.

It’s easy to discount these effects.  It’s easy to say, about the five people you hang out with who have the biggest impact, “Well, you know, we just hang out occasionally, it doesn’t really matter.” It’s easy to say, “While I’m standing in line I flip through Facebook, and that doesn’t really matter.”

But if you’re doing that literally for, perhaps, hours a day, it actually really does matter.

It’s the little things in life, as they say, that matter. And they actually create that big picture outcome that you might be going for.

So what’s the takeaway for this? Over the next few days, if you think of it, think about, “What is it I’m looking at most? What is it I’m absorbing most?”

Ask yourself: “If this is influencing me ten times more than I think—if this is influencing my attitude, my day-to-day feelings, and my ability to focus on something for more than a moment—would I really want to be looking at it?”

And if you feel like you wouldn’t, maybe search out things that actually do inspire you and do make you feel good. Either reading books, on the internet, people you like—something like that.  It’s just so easy for these little moments that we have throughout our day to get sucked up and filled up with flipping through the “feeds”—the five internet friends —who make us the craziest.

Choose what you look at, in those little moments, wisely. They make up who you are.

By Dmitri Bilgere

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Christmas Tears

I remember feeling my heart sink when I saw him come through the door. My wife and I were at a Christmas gathering at our church. My brother spotted me and made his way to our table. He didn’t have to say anything. I knew what had happened by the look on his face. My fears were confirmed with just two words: “He’s gone.”

That December 19th — 21 years ago — made it a Christmas season very different from any I had ever experienced.

Dad had gone into the hospital that year shortly after Thanksgiving. The doctors soon concluded that his heart would not withstand bypass surgery. There were no other options. The goal now was to build up his strength enough so he could come home for what was to be his last Christmas.

Just as Jan and I were about to leave for our Christmas party, Dad called to see how things were going with us. That was Dad. Literally on his death bed but asking how we and the kids were doing. As the conversation was ending he asked, “When am I supposed to come home again?” Jan answered, “Christmas Eve.” Dad asked, “How many days is that?” Jan told him, “Five.”

Dad’s response was peculiar. He said matter-of-factly, “I’m not going to make that.” Jan assured him that if he wanted to, the doctors would certainly allow him to come home early. She told him we could come right then to pick him up. Not surprisingly, he declined the offer. Dad never wanted people making a fuss over him. He responded, “No, we’ll see how tonight goes.”

A nurse later reported that, according to Dad’s roommate, he was “on the phone with someone, hung up and died.” Turns out Dad was calling to say goodbye.

Most people who are close to me or have heard me speak or have read my writings know that due to my father’s drinking problem we a rather tumultuous relationship. Throughout my childhood I knew my dad as a verbally abusive alcoholic. The name of my ministry–Finding Father’s Love—suggests what my heart yearned for. The very title of my first book–When Father is a Bad Word—offers a glimpse into what my relationship with my father had been like. 

Through the years I have shared many personal and painful stories about how my dad’s drinking affected me and my family. I have described my father to literally thousands of people with adjectives like violent, scary, mean, and shaming. One would think that news of his passing would trigger feelings of anger, hopelessness, and deep regret. Instead, I found myself overflowing with gratitude.

Many people know about the drinking problem my dad had when I was a boy. What they may not know is that my dad overcame his addiction when I was an adult. In what could rightfully be termed a miracle, my dad quit drinking. That in itself is not miraculous. People overcome addictive behaviors every day. It’s how my dad did it. You see, he did it with no visible help. He didn’t seek support from AA. He didn’t go to a counselor for direction. He didn’t rely on a sponsor for support. He just quit.

When our pastor got wind of the news he stopped by for a visit. “John,” he said, “I understand you quit drinking.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“I also understand that you’re not going anywhere for help.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“Well,” the pastor replied, “if you’re able to quit without help you’ll be the first person I’ve ever seen do it.”

Dad’s response took him aback. He grinned and said, “Then I’ll be the first.”

My dad never drank again. Turns out God’s help was the only help he needed. I don’t often speak of this because I don’t want to hold up Dad’s story as the norm. For the vast majority of alcoholics, quitting drinking is just the first step. Then they must assemble and rely on a support network to help them maintain sobriety. For many, staying sober is an everyday, lifelong battle.

My dad, virtually overnight, was transformed from the raging drunk I feared as a child to the kind and gentle man I was privileged to come to know and love as an adult.

There were many tears during that Christmas season 21 years ago. But intermingled with my tears of sadness were tears of profound gratitude.

• I was grateful for the answer to thousands of prayers uttered in desperation by me and my family on my father’s behalf.
• I was grateful for the years of sobriety that God had granted Dad at the end of his life.
• I was grateful that mom didn’t break her wedding vows and kept our family together when it would have been easier to bail.
• I was grateful that my wife and children never witnessed thatside of my dad.
• I was grateful to get to know my father for who he really was—a good man who happened to have a bad problem.

While I struggled to sing Joy to the World on that Christmas after losing my dad, there were many other familiar carols that took on new meaning for me that year. Some still bring tears. But they are no longer tears of sadness. Only tears of gratitude.

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

Dan Kuiper completed his initial Crucible weekend in 2009. He is an author and speaker and leads a ministry called, Finding Father’s Love which helps wounded souls find love, healing, and grace in relationship with the Heavenly Father. Dan’s first book, When Father is a Bad Word, illustrates the parallels between our relationship with our earthly father and our perception of our Heavenly Father. Dan leads Finding Father’s Love Seminars across the country, offering hope and healing to those who have experienced brokenness from dysfunctional family relationships.

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My Journey To: Renewal - Wellness - Belonging

Executive Director, Roy Wooten and Member Services Manager, Bob Locascio discuss new offering for future Redwoods coming in January!

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Post Traumatic Stress and Crucible

We have experienced some great books by Redwoods sharing their story. In Redwood Jason Wilson’s Cry Like a Man: Fighting for Freedom from Emotional Incarceration , Jason reveals all of his story and his road to recovery through The Crucible Project. Jeff Madsen writes the history of Crucible Founder Greg Huston and the history of The Crucible Project in Truth and Grace: The Leadership Legacy of Greg Huston.

Both books share voraciously highly confidential information about each soul. And this month a new book was published by another Redwood with the same courage.

George Coen, a 72 year old retired Navy Veteran who had served two deployments with a Navy Attack Squadron in Viet Nam, attended one of our weekends after ten years of extensive PTSD treatment. Not only was he suffering post traumatic stress from combat, but also from his year’s growing up in the home of a father with untreated post traumatic stress from World War II.

His new book, Collateral Damage: A Journey in Dealing with Combat-related PTSD, is about physical, mental and spiritual healing. He attributes the healing of his physical wounds and the treatment of his mental wounds to the Veterans Administration. But the VA is absent of spiritual healing. Several men where he and his wife of thirty-four years worship encouraged him to attend The Crucible Project Weekend. At the age of 72, he registered and attended.

He shares on pages 116 and 117, the following:

“…the weekend experience was one of the most intense physical, mental and emotional challenges that I have ever experienced. Yes, I wrestled with God …. I. came home. At peace, knowing I could trust God to do the right thing with the remaining few years of my life. …Prior to my Crucible experience… my statement of faith would have gone something like this:

For most of my life, God has been some mystical being out there that is somehow responsible for all things. In spite of that I am still in control and responsible for short-come outcomes. The conflicting tension is the persistent presence of that “inner voice” that is often times in conflict with my actions.

Today … having completed Crucible, I would summarize my faith as follows:

Jesus in the example of the person I should aspire to be. It’s not about the destination; it’s about the voyage. I need to be less concerned about the future and more concerned with the present. God has a plan for my life, but only the ending is made known to me and is certain. The path will be revealed to me in small increments. I. just need to pay attention and listen. I believe that voice that is constantly talking to me over my shoulder is that revelation in small bits. I just need to listen and heed. God’s intermediate destinations for me my not be consistent with my desires or expectations; however, I’m expected to obey! Terrible things happen to good people, thus the significance of the. Cross and the Resurrection. I know God loves me and is with me!

The empirical literature points to a clear conclusion: spirituality is part and parcel of the human response to trauma and its resolution.”

We are thankful to Redwood George M. Coen for the authenticity and courageous vulnerability in how he tells his story toward healing. This risky story-telling is why every soul can find a part of their story in his. Every soul’s work is my work and my work is every soul’s work.

You can get access to George’s story and the book at this link. George wants to ensure anyone who wants a copy can get one, so let bduke@thecrucibleproject.org know if you need assistance in getting a copy.

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Thriving in Covid Times: Heart & Soul

“How’s your heart?” my three year old asked his mom.  “My heart is full,” my wife answered.  “How is yours?”  My son answered, “My heart is naughty,” he smiled.

You can’t talk about the heart, until you define the heart.

The heart I am talking about is mentioned many times in the Scriptures.

Our hearts can provide strength (Psalm 73:2), be guarded (Prov. 4:23, Phil.4:7) and be purified (Matt 5:8).

The heart and the head/mind - seem to be separate things mentioned together.

In the ancient world, Greek and Hebrews among others, the heart was symbolic of the soul.  The heart is considered the seat of all morality and spiritual functions.

In these challenging times - caring for our soul is more important than ever.

If we just live on the surface, taking care of our bodies, being mindful of our lives - it’s not enough.  C.S. Lewis is typically attributed this quote from his favorite writer, George MacDonald:

"'Never tell a child you have a soul. Teach him, you are a soul; you have a body."

How do we care for our soul?  Three distinct, but connected ways:

1. Connect with God
2. Connect with our neighbors
3. Connect with ourselves

Connect with God

We cannot form character from inside our own selves.  We get our worth and sense of identity from God.  What God says about us is true and good and worthy.  If you believe what God  says about you is true, your identity is rooted in something that can’t be changed and can’t go away.  What does God say about you?  You found some things out on that initial Crucible weekend, and perhaps on second level or workshops.  The good news?  There’s more!

Connect with our neighbors

We must get more external connections with people that God created in His image.  Here’s the caveat - the BEST connections are with those who are safe, doing their own work, and connecting with God, others and themselves.  Henry Cloud states the four corners of connection:  No Connection, Bad Connection, Pseudo Connection and Real Connection.

Real connection gives ultimate freedom and self-control.  Don’t those sound like great things to have in a pandemic?  Fortunately Crucible Project small groups are excellent places to get real connection.

Real connection allows us to ultimately....

Connect with ourselves

We must learn to love ourselves as a result of experiencing love and acceptance and connection from God and others.  It is a natural flow from this experiential place that empowers us and helps us live out what God intended for us all along - a life that THRIVES.

Remember this story of Jesus in Mark 12:28-34?

One of the teachers of religious law was standing there listening to the debate. He realized that Jesus had answered well, so he asked, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”

Jesus replied, “The most important commandment is this: ‘Listen, O Israel! The Lord our God is the one and only Lord. And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength.’ The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’No other commandment is greater than these.”

The teacher of religious law replied, “Well said, Teacher. You have spoken the truth by saying that there is only one God and no other. And I know it is important to love him with all my heart and all my understanding and all my strength, and to love my neighbor as myself. This is more important than to offer all of the burnt offerings and sacrifices required in the law.”

Realizing how much the man understood, Jesus said to him, “You are not far from the Kingdom of God.” And after that, no one dared to ask him any more questions. 

The Mic Drop of Jesus is: Love of God, love of  neighbor and ourselves - THAT is how to THRIVE.

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 2

Let me remind you again: This is no ordinary time!

If you’ve made some commitments to take care of your body - remember your brain is a part of that.  You need water, rest and healthy hobbies to keep the brain going!

Even more amazing than the brain - is what the brain “houses”  our minds. 

Our minds are incredible mysteries that can adapt to extremely stressful situations, get us going to accomplish seemingly impossible tasks, and solve complex issues and problems.  Our minds are powerful.

The apostle Paul affirmed the power of the mind.  It’s worthy of a Bible study:

“Fix your mind…”  “Renew your mind…” “Think about these things…”  

“Have this mind among yourselves…”  “The world has blinded the minds…”

Paul knew the power of Mindfulness. 

People who experience consistent success and persevere through life have discovered the secret of Mindfulness. 

What is it?

Oxford Dictionary gives a few definitions that are helpful:

1. The quality or state of being conscious or aware of something.
2. A mental state achieved by focusing one's awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one's feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations, used as a therapeutic technique.

Remember your Crucible weekend? 

Everything was full of mindfulness - it was designed to help you become aware of what was working and not working in your life. 

By focusing on the present moment, you were able to work our feelings, thoughts, and body exercises that gave you a God-ordained experience!

In these extraordinary times, here are some ways to practice mindfulness:

• Regularly check-in with yourself and others around your feelings.  
• Meditate on phrases or verses of Scripture that are true and good.
• Get in touch with your attitude.  Attitude is one of the only things we can control.
• Cultivate your mind with gratitude.  Being thankful for what God has provided.
• Create a daily time and place to practice mindfulness. A morning and evening time where you can ground yourself in the morning and decompress your mind in the evening is relieving. 

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.” - Paul in Philippians 4:8

Next Issue:  Our Hearts

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 1

This is no Ordinary Time!

We can all agree that there are so many things that feel out of control - we feel hard pressed on all sides.  Our country is experiencing many crises at one time. We all can agree on that.

Stress levels are through the roof!  How do we deal with that?

In speaking with a variety of professionals and wise men & women from all backgrounds, here are insights that may help you move from surviving to thriving in these times.  While not an exhaustive list,  it is a good start.    We will cover Body, Mind, Heart & Soul in this series.

Today we focus on the Body!  Remember what the Apostle Paul wrote to the church in Corinth (who had confusion over the importance of the body): “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;  you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.” 1 Cor. 19-20

Your Body

1. Exercise well
2. Sleep well
3. Eat well
4. Wash your hands

Exercise Well! Just getting out for a 30 minute walk/jog is a huge help.  If you have a dog (or a child on a lease), you’ve already got an excuse to exercise.  In addition to being outdoors if you can, you can also exercise with instructors online.  Set up a routine, ask some friends to go with you (but follow social distance guidelines) and try a variety of things to see what you enjoy. When you exercise, you not only reduce the obvious stress you’re experiencing, but you prevent weight gain, boost your immune system and improve your sleep.

Sleep Well! Good sleep goes hand in hand with exercise (so does food).  It has all the same benefits as exercise - including preventing weight gain!  The Mayo Clinic defines fatigue as “a nearly constant state of weariness that develops over time and reduces your energy, motivation and concentration.” Even if you receive an adequate amount of sleep at night, fatigue can still leave you feeling tired and unmotivated in the morning. Establish a sleep routine of consistent wake-up, wind-down and bedtimes.

Eat Well! Stress can translate into poor eating habits.  Remember that we truly are what we eat.  If we load junk into the furnace, the furnace won’t work.  One of the greatest things I’ve ever learned was that you exercise to build muscle and immunity, but you lose weight by having good eating habits. 

Lastly, wash your hands!   Good hygiene is a huge deterrer to sickness! Plus, it puts into practice, Mindfulness, which we will showcase next time.

Treat your body well.  If you need a coach or personal accountability, remember your Crucible Redwoods stand ready to be supportive to you as you take care of you! Find out more about Crucible Coaching.

At the end of the day, we cannot control how others treat us, how others treat others or how others treat themselves.  We can control how we treat others and how we treat ourselves.

Next issue: Our Minds

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Coaching Bennies (Benefits)

Coaching is available for both men and women by highly trained and qualified Crucible coaches.

This isn't just for Crucible men and women - did you know that anyone can use our coaching services?

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Ancient Creeds in Modern Times

“They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers.” - Acts 2:42 (NRSV)
“Adversity does not build character, it reveals it.” - James Lane Allen 

Life in the age of pandemic  - trying times indeed.  If ever there was a season that has revealed much to us about ourselves, now is that time. 

As one of those who have stopped to reflect on how I have been responding and acting, I have discovered a deep truth.  I am not who I thought I was.  

I discovered in The Crucible Project and in recovery work - that the biggest problem in my life is myself.  And I have discovered new ways to live and respond to my family, friends, clients and others.  It’s been a good journey.

What about the way I live and respond to God?

Take for example, my prayer life.  I’ve had a short attention span with God in prayer.  Let’s just say - the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.  

I find myself going off course in prayer - being inconsistent - and wondering what to do.

The character of my prayer has been revealed to be about me.  When I’m angry, my prayers are angry.  When I’m sad, my prayers are sad.  My prayers are flighty and unfocused. And that’s if I pray at all.

Brian Zahnd states, “The primary purpose of prayer is not to get God to do what we think God ought to do, but to be properly formed.”

The verse from Acts mentioned above - shows how the early community of God was being formed.  They did four things:

1. Learned the apostle’s teachings about Jesus (The Bible)
2. Were in fellowship with each other (Community)
3. The weekly breaking of bread (Communion)
4. And “The Prayers” - Here we go!

“The Prayers” is descriptive of the early church teachings of the Creeds and Prayers that the followers of Jesus recited.  They were being properly formed by these liturgical truths.  

There’s no such thing as dead liturgy - only true or false liturgy.  There are dead or alive people.   Using the Creeds and Prayers is like putting up a trellis for vines to grow.  It takes the pressure off the soul and allows us truth to cling to and focus on - while we become formed in the likeness of Jesus.  Jesus taught us this.

When the disciples asked Jesus to teach them to pray - he did:

Our Father, Who Art In Heaven

Hallowed Be Thy Name

Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will Be Done

On earth as it is in Heaven

Give us this day our daily bread

And forgive us our trespasses, 

as we forgive those who trespass against us,

And led us not into temptation, 

But deliver us from evil, 

For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory forever. Amen.

There are so many amazing time tested prayers and creeds.  (The Apostle’s Creed, Nicene Creed, The Jesus Prayer, The Beatitudes in Matt 5, Psalm 23, Prayer of St. Francis, Confessional Prayers). I realize I am joining with past and present Jesus followers in prayer.

I started praying a set of them every morning - and it’s been transformational. 

My mind can focus on my heart - and my heart focuses on the deep truths of these rich treasures.  I even use my body in raising my hands, or moving about.  It fulfills the “Love the Lord  God with your Heart, Soul, Mind & Strength”  that is so important! 

Here’s a confessional example I pray and how it’s changing  me:

Most merciful God, we confess that we have sinned against you in thought, word, and deed, by what we have done, and by what we have left undone.

We have not loved you with our whole heart; we have not loved our neighbors as ourselves. We are truly sorry and we humbly repent.

For the sake of your Son Jesus Christ, have mercy on us and forgive us; that we may delight in your will, and walk in your ways, to the glory of your Name. Amen.

I am so much more in tune with my neighbors - all people I come in contact with - I am more tender and empathetic and helpful.  Why? God is forming me during my morning prayer time.

I do this every day.  My challenge to you is get a set of these prayers - and pray them for 30 days. 

Blessings as we journey with Jesus together. - Tim White

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Preparing to Go Live Again

When the Crucible COVID19 committee met for the first time, the discussion began with these perplexing questions:

• How can we implement the deep experiential and intimate programs within our weekends within healthy boundaries set by public health officials? 
• Will Personal Protective Equipment be required?
• Is it responsible for Crucible to consume PPE that hospitals while medical staff in hospitals are experiencing shortages and rationing them?

It is hard to imagine any way we can be fully compliant with current public health guidance with the way our Weekends protocols are currently organized.

Crucible Project staff have been working with Retreat Leaders and key volunteers to prepare for a safe launch of Weekends again as soon as public health officials tell us we can.

According to Roy Wooten, Executive Director, “It is likely that we will be able to hold face-to-face groups and Weekends in some Crucible Communities before others. We will go wherever we can as soon as we can!”

Rachel Shubin and Bob Locascio have been working with Redwood medical professionals to develop adaptations to our Weekends protocols to enhance staff and participant safety and reduce COVID fears that might be a barrier to getting what they came for.

Rachel Shubin states, “We are committed to maintaining the integrity of the Crucible Weekend experience, while also creating safety for participants and staff.”

The recommendations of this committee will hopefully support the reopening of face-to-face weekends and groups as soon as possible.

“I’m excited to be planning the restart of our weekends, and I know many regular staffers who share that excitement,”  says Bob Locascio.

If you have ideas about implementation of our groups and weekends during this pandemic, please contact Rachel or Bob. Keep Crucible and this committee in your prayers.

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Fear

I’m reminded of Henri Nouwen’s words about fear:  Fear, not hate, is the opposite of love and its obstacle, he said.   When we accept God’s unconditional love, we can find joy in the limited expression of this love in our intimate relationships, without feeling that we have to be God for each other.  “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” (I John 4:18)

Pastor John Casey, one of our long time Crucible Project leaders states:

“In my work as a hospital chaplain, the people who most deny their fear are those who claim connection with God.

To Zechariah and later to Mary, the angel said, “Do not fear.”   To the Israelites facing destruction, God said, “Fear not.”

We misunderstand God, I think.

God isn’t saying, “Never be afraid” or “Fear is wrong.”

Believing this, we deny our fear and miss deep connection with God.

When God says, “Fear not,” he means, “Do not stay in fear” and then almost always adds a way out.

In Psalm 23, “I fear no evil, for you are with me.”

To God’s people facing deportation, God says, “Fear not for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name…when you walk through the waters, I will be with you…”

In these chaotic times, feel your fear of getting sick, of losing ones you love, of not being able to pay your rent. And then look for reassurance—remember God’s past help, search for his presence now, ask him for your daily bread, remember your Father knows what you need. We are finite and will fear. Feel your fear and in the dark, feel for God who is always nearby.”

Remember what Paul writes in Philippians 4:6-7, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”   

Acknowledge your fear, reach out to God and to God's supportive people.  Let us take care of each other. - Tim White

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Owning Your Darkness

Wednesday, February 26 is Ash Wednesday, the start of Lent

Ash Wednesday derives its name from the  placing of repentance ashes on the foreheads of participants to either the words "Repent, and believe in the Gospel" or the dictum "Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return.”

Ash ceremonies typically recite Psalm 51, prayers of confession, and receiving the sign of the ashes, typically in the form of a cross - a blessing on the forehead.

Fasting, Abstinence and Repentance can also encompass Ash Wednesday.

People sat in Ashes to show on the outside what they knew was true about them on the inside.

In many faith traditions, ashes represent:

• Deep awareness of your sinfulness in God’s holy presence
• Resolve to operate in God’s power, and not your own.
• Your mortality - dust to dust, ashes to ashes.
• That you don’t have it all together.
• Showing honesty instead of hiding.
• Death & Mourning.
• Your Shadow, and conversely, your Gold.
• The truth you don’t want you to know about yourself revealed.

The Crucible Project has its own ash ceremony.  One where acknowledgement of one’s shadow is encouraged and a blessing offered to bring that shadow for others to see - as a gift.  What shadow shows up for you this season?

When we acknowledge the truth of our shadow side, we not only give it a voice that we may have repressed, we also use our shadow & brokenness to bring life and healing to ourselves and others.  

Psalm 51 is a beautiful reminder of owning our shadow & brokenness and sitting in honest reflection about who we really are - all the facets - and not sugar coating our lives.  

The promise of cleansing and healing is right there from God AS IS the ability to help others and bless them from the truth of owning our shadow and gold.  What gold do you bring to yourself and others this season?

May God richly bless you during this Lenten season as you own your darkness, in the light of God's grace and truth.

Psalm 51

Have mercy on me, O God,

    according to your unfailing love;

according to your great compassion

    blot out my transgressions.

Wash away all my iniquity

    and cleanse me from my sin.

For I know my transgressions,

    and my sin is always before me.

Against you, you only, have I sinned

    and done what is evil in your sight;

so you are right in your verdict

    and justified when you judge.

Surely I was sinful at birth,

    sinful from the time my mother conceived me.

Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;

    you taught me wisdom in that secret place. 

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;

    wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. 

Let me hear joy and gladness;

    let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

Hide your face from my sins

    and blot out all my iniquity.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,

    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Do not cast me from your presence

    or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation

    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways,

    so that sinners will turn back to you.

Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,

    you who are God my Savior,

    and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

Open my lips, Lord,

    and my mouth will declare your praise.

You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;

    you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;

    a broken and contrite heart

    you, God, will not despise.

May it please you to prosper Zion,

    to build up the walls of Jerusalem.

Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,

    in burnt offerings offered whole;

    then bulls will be offered on your altar.

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New Communication @ The Crucible Project

In our world, communication methods and tools change at a frenzying pace. New or even old ways start to seem like some foreign code.

Jesus communicated in code.  Parables to be exact. “With many such parables he spoke the word to them, as they were able to hear it; he did not speak to them except in parables, but he explained everything in private to his disciples.” (Mark 4: 33-34)

To his disciples, he explained what those coded parables meant.  

In a sense, those of us initiated on a Crucible Project weekend, are ‘brought in from the code’.  We learn a language and learn what it’s all about. This outside/inside communication isn’t unique to The Crucible Project, but it’s a tension we deal with.

We are currently exploring ways to expand both our communication methods based on the realities we experience:

• People are more mobile and use more mobile.
• More people scan for information, instead of deep reading.
• Email isn’t as big of a thing as it used to be - texting/messaging is.
• More information is disseminated via video and auditory delivery culturally. 
• Everyone longs for connection and we are committed to providing that connection.

Here is what we are doing and working on:

• Social Media to the outside audience.  We are exploring best methods and tools to let the world know about this ministry’s mission.  
• Texting Services internally.  We know we can't exclusively use email for our communication.  It’s now old-school to some groups!
• Shifting from Words to Video.  Attention spans are short. Studies show that people “consume” messages differently online than reading offline.
• New Monthly Town Hall meetings via Video.
• More FB Group Live communication from leadership as a way to keep in touch.
• Podcasting.  Replacing those amazing Crucible Project blog posts  (Thanks, Jeff!)

Do you have a question or idea?  Do you want to get involved? Email Tim White communications@thecrucibleproject.org 

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Lifelong Soul Work In Redwood Circles

Soul work circles have always been a part of The Crucible Project since its earliest days. As the organization expanded outside of Chicagoland, the need for training group leaders and replicating group exercises became apparent. The birth of the exercise group now called Growth Group was developed and launched in 2010.

Group Variety and Choices

Since then the variety of groups where soul work happens has continued to expand. Today the types of groups include the following:

• Growth Group – paid group led by a certified group leader, these exercises provide deeper understanding of core concepts taught on the weekend with the goal of integrating the weekend’s experiences.
• Development Group – paid group led by a certified carpet leader, this group offers the opportunity to experience carpet work every session for participants.
• 2 Year Group – this is a Development Group where a cohort of Redwoods also participate in all second level weekends together and includes individual coaching sessions.
• Journey Group – this free group is led by uncertified peer Redwoods with access to group exercise resources. Typically group leadership rotates within the group.
• Open Group – this free group is open to uninitiated people and is led by a Redwood with access to pre-weekend exercises.

 

Why Do Some Groups Have Fees?

All paid groups have certified group leaders. Group leaders invest time and energy achieving certification as well as coordinating and preparing for each group session. Certification ensures that group quality and safety remains at a high level. Group leaders receive compensation for their time and energy. Some of the group payments recover expenses in group development, marketing, and back office support.

Free groups are peer led. There may be a certified group or carpet leader in the group, but group leadership is shared by all Redwoods in the group. A large array of exercises are available for Journey groups to self-facilitate and are accessible with a request to your Regional Leader or Community Developer. For questions, contact Brittany Duke, Office Manager at BDuke@TheCrucibleProject.org.

Growth Group Curriculum Changes

With input from Regional Leaders, the Growth Group Curriculum has expanded to include three additional sessions which will be paid for in the weekend registration fees. In other words, all newly initiated Redwoods will have access to join a local or video based group without additional costs for the first three sessions of the Growth Group. These first sessions help new Redwoods experience group life, including Accountability and Clearings, which are essential to healthy group life.

If you are interested in becoming certified as a Group Leader or Carpet Leader, contact Byron Myers, Leadership Development Manager, to begin the process at LeadershipDevelopment@TheCrucibleProject.org.

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Hope in the Hard Places

Article by Nikki LePore- Chicagoland Redwoods Community

Pastor of Care at Parkview Community Church

I recently discovered that “Joy to the World” was not meant to be a Christmas song. To say I was shocked is an understatement! You mean to tell me that one of the MOST popular Christmas songs of ALL time is in fact not a Christmas song… mind blown. And I gotta say, my Christmas spirit a little deflated. The world is hard enough, don’t take Christmas carols from me too!

I know I don’t need to convince those of you reading this that life is hard. Knowing, loving, and following Jesus does not shield us from the hard places. Having the Light of the world live in us does not mean we will never face darkness, disease, death, despair, or tragedy. And when we are facing those things, I think especially during this time of year, that hope can be hard to find, and our faith can feel fragile. If that’s you today, I see you sister, I love you brother, let me share of my hope with you!

“Joy to the World” was written by Isaac Watts to bring hope to a hurting world in the here and now. The world you and I live in. This time and space where Jesus has already come to save us from our sin and where we still long for His return. “Joy to the World” encourages us to prepare our hearts not for a baby that will be born in a manger but for our King who will come again to make all wrongs right. “Joy to the World” was written to point and prepare of hearts towards Jesus’ second coming!

So how does this bring hope in our hard places? How does this strengthen our faith? Hebrews 11:1 tell us that “faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Confidence in what we hope for… the day when Jesus will wipe every tear, and we will know in full what we can only see in part now. Assurance about what we do not see. It can be hard to see in the hard places. Hard to imagine joy, peace, or a way forward. It can be hard to be sure we will make it through the day let alone wait with hope for Jesus’ return. But here’s the light, the sliver of light that can pierce through the hard places, through the darkness and through the doubts, can calm the raging sea of our heart and minds… we have the future returning King with us in the here and now. He IS with you; He IS with me.

Because He is with me, I do not suffer in vain. All hope is not lost, death does not have the final say. Jesus, the one who conquered death, HE has the final say. And He says we are His. And nothing and I mean nothing can separate us from that love.

Wherever you find yourself today, may we prepare our hearts and make room for what is to come. May the true hope anchor us and fill us as we wait. May we share the Light and help bring His joy to a world who so desperately needs it.

Jesus loves you and so do I.

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Gratitude This Thanksgiving

The Character Trait God Values Most

That is a big statement, to say THIS is the thing God values and desires in His people more than all else.  What is it?  There are some biggies that come to mind:  Righteousness and holiness.  For sure, God calls us to be Holy, set apart and to live righteous lives.  But there is a character trait that must be place BEFORE holiness or else the pursuit of holiness degrades quickly into self-righteous Phariseeism.

Self-sacrificial serving is another big character trait that seems to be a contender for the top spot on the list. But again, there is another trait the but go BEFORE serving, else the serving opportunities devolve into a self-serving martyr syndrome. What is that one character trait that tops the list that must come before any other?  The one trait that brings out a pleasing aroma to our Lord in the WAY all those good things are carried out?  HUMILITY.

Humility is prized by our Father more than anything else.  Its opposite is what God Adam and Eve expelled from the Garden and Lucifer from Heaven before that.  Humility’s opposite is what turns any good thing ugly. Yet, humility is one of those traits that seems to not be available to us in a head-on pursuit.  It seems to be the byproduct of something else that, unfortunately, is usually only talked about one time a year:  Gratitude.

Brennan Manning in his excellent book Ruthless Trust, outlines four specific types of gratitude that, when practiced, yield the sweet fruit of genuine humility before the Lord and men.  In chapter two he outlines four ideas which I have re-arranged a bit in order to spell a word (call me crazy, but it helps me remember things!):  PACT. Daily I make a PACT with my heart to be thankful to God in these four ways and the result is humility.

• Present in God’s presence in the present. It is easy to wallow in yesterday’s losses or tomorrow’s what-ifs.  But to be present with God, here and now, and thankful for this very moment and the very air filling your lungs does something to the human soul.  It reminds you of your place before God.
• All inclusive Gratitude. The Bible says to give thanks to God IN ALL things.  Years ago my dad went through 17 years of brain tumors before one finally took him home to be with Jesus. After recovery from his first brain surgery, he said, “I would not wish brain tumors on my worst enemy, but I would not trade them for the world.  They have served to bring me closer to God than ever and closer to may family than ever.  I thank God for my brain tumors.”
• Contagious Gratitude. To ensure your gratitude is up to par, it must pass the test: Does my gratitude infect others with the desire to be grateful?
• Theocentric Gratitude. It is so easy to become self-centered in all of our thinking, even what we are thankful for. When we maintain God at the center our gratitude takes on a different shape.

Manning says that when we have this type of Gratitude, it produces in us the sweet fruit of humility, which is so precious to God.  So may challenge to you during thanksgiving (and beyond) is to get beyond the surface level of thankfulness and dig deep.  Make a PACT with your heart to cultivate THIS type of gratitude—then watch humility start to take shape in your life.

(Thoughts on gratitude this Thanksgiving from Texas Redwood Pastor Dr. Kevin Pigg.)

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Introduction to the Enneagram

By now you’ve probably heard of the Enneagram. It’s garnering a lot of attention lately and with good reason! This practical tool can give you remarkable self-clarity, increased emotional intelligence and greater empathy for others. It’s also an excellent team building tool – improving communication, collaboration, and morale while lessening conflict and making it more constructive.

So, what exactly is the Enneagram?

The Enneagram is a personality theory that recognizes 9 distinct personality types. The word Enneagram comes from two Greek words: ennea = nine, and gram = drawing. What sets it apart from other personality theories is that while other theories tend to focus on behavior (Myers-Briggs, DISC, Strengthsfinder, etc.), the Enneagram goes beyond the superficial to focus on motives. The WHY behind the WHAT provides vital insights into ourselves and others. This emphasis on motives is a very biblical concept! 1 Corinthians 4:5 states: “So don’t make judgments about anyone ahead of time—before the Lord returns. For he will bring our darkest secrets to light and will reveal our private motives.”

Enneagram Types and Common Characteristics

1 (The Perfectionist) – Precise, moral, diligent, reliable. Loves organizing.

2 (The Helper) – Caring, helpful, considerate, warm. Loves serving.

3 (The Performer) - Hard working, driven, focused, efficient. Loves competition.

4 (The Romantic) – Empathetic, sensitive, tasteful, intellectual. Loves creating.

5 (The Investigator) – Analytical, resourceful, knowledgeable, private. Loves problem solving.

6 (The Loyalist) – Loyal, dedicated, responsible, thorough. Loves planning.

7 (The Enthusiast) – Fun, inspiring, energetic, versatile. Loves adventures.

8 (The Challenger) – Protective, decisive, bold, compassionate.  Loves challenges.

9 (The Peacemaker) – Thoughtful, kind, inclusive, steady. Loves nature.

Each type has its own unique core motivations – comprised of it’s core fear, core desire, core weakness, and core longing. Understanding why we do what we do allows us to cooperate with the Holy Spirit in becoming more like Christ.

In the summer of 2020, I invested in myself by getting some Enneagram coaching. The five sessions I had were amazing! The coaching helped to lift my “inner fog” and better understand myself. It helped me become a better leader, husband, father, friend, and follower of Christ. It was so helpful that I decided to become a certified Enneagram coach myself! Since becoming a coach, I love seeing the light bulb turn on for people as the Enneagram exposes their true, God-given personality – the good, the bad, and the ugly! In Redwood terms – you develop a sharper vision of both your shadow and your gold.

Recommended Resources

1. The Road Back To You by Ian Morgan Cron and Suzanne Stabile. This is the place to start your Enneagram exploration; This book gives you the basics simply, concisely and with great humor!
2. The 9 Types of Leadership: Mastering the Art of People in the 21^st Century Workplace by Beatrice Chestnut. Intensely practical – If you lead a team, you need this book!
3. Your Enneagram Coach is a very biblical, gospel-centered ministry with a lot of resources – including a free online assessment.
4. NewLifeEnneagram.com is where I provide resources.

One final piece of advice: we should never use the Enneagram as a club or a shield. We use it as a club when we deride others by saying (or thinking) things like, “You are so bossy, you’re such an 8” or “You are a typical 4, always so melancholy.” We use it as a shield when we excuse our own bad behavior by saying things like, “I can’t help that I’m so critical – I’m a 1” or “I’m a 7, you can’t expect me to follow through on the details.”

While I believe the Enneagram is a helpful tool, I also firmly believe that it’s the good news of Jesus Christ that changes lives - NOT the Enneagram. Used correctly, the Enneagram shouldn't encourage you to “try harder” but rather lead you to lean into the mercy and provision of God as found in Jesus Christ.

Dave Corlew, Chicagoland Community

Get in touch with me here.

 

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Welcome New Support Team Members

The Crucible staff team serves to support the mission-centric work of Crucible volunteers throughout the globe.  In 2020, the staff supporting the organization was halved in order to meet the demands of the pandemic.  As our volume of weekends and giving returned, our staff is growing to meet today’s new demands.

Welcome Kenny Johnston as Full-time Men’s Ministry Coordinator

Kenny attended his initial weekend in July 2016 and started staffing weekends almost immediately. He is a certified group leader and is actively working towards his certification for both retreat leader and carpet leader. He graduated from Sam Houston State University in 2005 with a degree in music and history.  He spent most of his professional life in secondary education teaching percussion, history, and Bible. He is also a Bible teacher at his local church.  Kenny lives in Spring, TX, with his wife Lisa and their two elementary-age children, Timothy and Michaela.

Men’s Ministry Leader, Byron Myers, stated, “Although it was a difficult decision, I believe Kenny Johnston is the right person for the Men’s Ministry Coordinator position at this time.  Kenny will be also filling a community coordinator function that is currently missing as well as taking on some tasks and projects that I have in que and need completion.   I believe Kenny will be an asset to Men’s ministry.”

Welcome Jess Donovan as Part-time Communications Coordinator 

Jess Donovan is a proud New Englander who lives in New Hampshire. Her soul work journey started in the Northeast

community in 2021.  She is passionate about communicating in a way that is effective and engaging.  She shared, “Partnering alongside Crucible to help others in life transformation is a huge blessing to me”.  When she’s not working you can find her hiking, dancing, or exploring with friends.

Executive Director Roy Wooten shared, “The candidates for this position were all awesome and it was a tough decision made with prayer and input from interview committees.  I’m so glad to have Jess’ enthusiasm for Christ-centered soul work and her understanding of communicating in ways that this generation will consume will be such a gift to the ministry with her in this role.  I look forward to having Jess sharing Crucible with the world in this formal way”.

 

 

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Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Pastor Greg Huston went on a secular men’s retreat to work on the “things in the basement of his life” effecting his key relationships and ministry and experienced grace in such a unique way that he had never experienced over the course of his lifetime in Christian ministry.  He felt God’s calling to take this grace-filled experience to the Christian world.  What started as groups and coaching in the early 2000’s morphed into The Crucible Project ministry in 2005.  Now over six thousand across the USA and on three continents have touched their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of our Savior on one of our weekends.

Because of Greg’s inspirational actions that created a Christ-centered soul work movement across the globe, Crucible leadership has created an award to recognize him and an annual recipient.  We are calling it, the Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Founder Greg Huston

Greg served as a pastor for 17 years in several churches in Philadelphia and Chicago.  He holds a Bachelors degree in Bible from Grace College and a Masters of Arts in religion from Westminster Theological Seminary.  Greg first launched what would become The Crucible Project under his coaching practice, Dare to Soar.  Under his 13 years of leadership, more than 1700 souls experienced our life changing work.  He also expanded Crucible beyond its initial roots in Chicagoland to flourishing communities in Texas, Colorado and Australia.  Although he retired from active ministry leadership in 2015, he continues to serve as a weekend leader.

Greg Presents First-Ever Recipient

At this year’s annual gathering, Greg introduced this year’s recipient.  “It is my privilege to present the first ever Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity award this evening to Les Crooks.  Four years ago a mentor invited Les to attend the Crucible weekend.  He left empowered and wanting more.  He was an unhealthy warrior who was not the man he wanted to be.  He soon joined the 2 year transformational program.  Over the course of the next two years, he discovered how his warrior energy can be shifted to sovereign blessing energy, strengthening relationships with his wife and three boys.

Les Crook’s Leadership Project

As the Penn High School Buildings Trades teacher for the past 22 years, he is always active and building something.  His 2 year group leaders, Scott Selby and Bill Snyder, and his coach and mentor Chris Cleghorn, challenged him to use his warrior energy to make a difference in his leadership project.  Les began challenging himself by riding his bike longer and longer distances.  He signed up for the race around Michigan and continued finding different challenges to better himself mentally and physically.  Les’s leadership project began to take shape.

Goal that is a Stretch!

What if he joined the Race Across America championing Crucible from coast to coast?  It would stretch him to be able to lead a team of crew members required, find the resources and volunteers necessary to safely accomplish the race, including a follow-van and RV, medical expertise and all the supplies.  What if he could stretch himself to lead others to donate $100,000 of financial support for Crucible weekends?

Goal Achievement

That is exactly what he did.  Les left Oceanside, California on his bike on June 14^th and finished the grueling 3088 mile journey 11 days and 8 hours later.   Less than 500 people have ever completed the solo Race Across America.  Les’s goal to raise awareness caused significant increases in website visitors, new Compass Resource email subscribers, social media followers and inquiries for 2 year programs, weekends, groups and coaching.  Not only has his efforts raised awareness, but his physical challenge inspired donors to give $100,000 toward financial assistance for future participants.”

Les Crooks Award Winner

Les Crooks responded by sharing, “I would have never taken the chance to go for such a huge goal without the work I received on my weekend and through the 2-year transformational program.  I am so thankful to my wife and family, my crew, Bill Snyder who was there every pedal along the way, and all of you helped support and donate. This has been life changing.  Thank you so much Greg  Huston.  I’m honored and I humbly accept.”

 

 

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No One Left Behind Initiative

^“A shepherd in charge of 100 sheep notices that one of his sheep has gone astray. What do you think he should do? Should the shepherd leave the flock on the hills unguarded to search for the lost sheep? God’s shepherd goes to look for that one lost sheep,”

Matt 18:12 (VOICE)

At Crucible, we believe that every soul is a precious gift from God and worthy of us inviting them to experience the life changing soul work of Crucible. Every new Redwood is valued enough to not let fade away but instead be invited into a soul work lifestyle that will help them survive the ups and downs of life.  Every soul, regardless of their relationship with God, socioeconomic status, race, culture or ethnicity, nationality or political leanings should have access to the gift of soul work.

No One Left Behind in Your Sphere of Influence

What you got for yourself on your initial weekend is the miraculous work of God.  Moving from the lies you once believed to a new truth about who you are at the core of your soul was so transformational that it had a ripple effect in your marriage, family, church, workspace and neighborhood.

We believe everyone you know should have the opportunity to experience what you experienced. As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, we are developing a dropbox full of resources to help you share this ministry with everyone you know.  New Redwoods will soon begin leaving the weekend with resources in their hands to promote upcoming weekends to their friends, family, coworkers and church.  Resources are in development for each Graduation attendees to leave with as well.

No New Redwoods Left Behind

Too many Redwoods leave their initial weekend and never connect with other Redwoods in their community.  This is especially true for Redwoods who do not live near a large or budding community.  It is vitally important for each soul who has touched a piece of their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of God to find immediate support for their continued journey.

We believe each new Redwood needs a community where the ups and downs of life can be met with Christ-centered soul work in a Crucible community.  As part of the No One Left Behind, we have implemented a post-weekend interview with the same pre-weekend interviewer.  A new Online Community will capture souls who live far from a Crucible community to provide follow up for online groups.  Growth Groups are being scheduled before each weekend to begin within 6 weeks post weekend.  Group coordination has been strengthened across Crucible Communities.

No One Left Behind Due to Financial Constraints

Money should never be a barrier to anyone who wants to engage in soul work within Crucible. Growth Group and initial weekend access should be available regardless of ability to pay the set fees.  We are a nonprofit ministry that provided $112,138 in financial assistance for initial weekends in the past 12 months.  Support for our work in Mexico, Rwanda, Kenya and other special communities provide resources allowing every soul to attend regardless of their financial situation.

We believe each Redwood should be given the opportunity to “pay-it-forward” by joining other Redwoods in financially supporting the ministry.  As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, changes to pre and post weekend communications will strengthen Crucible’s culture of generosity providing the financial resources to leave no one behind due to their financial situation.

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Soul Work on the African Continent

There were two landmark events for Crucible the past couple months: Launching work in Rwanda with a first Crucible Weekend in Rwanda and doing the first Level II Weekend in Kenya, Africa. These two events came together through an intense and complex journey of just four months from idea inception to execution.  This is a summary of the story:

In December we were presented an opportunity to bring Crucible work to Rwanda by tapping relationships and the leadership of some men who had experience with Christian soul work.  We were known to them by reputation.  We went after this seeing it as a unique opportunity to build on our Crucible work already underway on the African Continent. This meant calling together a team of men who could provide leadership as staff from the US and especially African men from Kenya and possibly South Africa.

I was asked to run point on this project by Byron.  There were many unusual elements.  We recruited a small team of experienced US Redwoods who would commit to over two weeks of travel and cover their own expenses.  To have a core of local Rwandans, a number of men who had done another men’s soul work experience went through Crucible’s Online Intensive in February. This created a local staff. The staff included them and nine men who came from Kenya, at their own expense and raising some funds from their community.  Six Americans were part of the team, and one we lost to quarantining in Kigali for a week with COVID and could not serve, except to pray.

Key to all of this was the initial outreach from Jamie Whyte from Colorado who had the network of relationships in Rwanda with Christian men, leaders and close contacts with Hope Haven School which hosted the weekend. Jamie’s leadership and investment in all ways made this weekend possible.

Several generous Redwoods gave financially to help cover costs of this start up. Men from different men’s work experiences, and men from America, Kenya and Rwanda blended into a team that worked together beautifully.

One important element of doing soul work in Rwanda is the fact that the country today is still deeply affected by the national horror of the 1994 genocide there.  More than 800,000 civilians—primarily members of the Tutsi - were killed during the campaign over 100 days. As many as 2,000,000 Rwandans fled the country. This is a scar for all Rwandans and every man on a weekend comes with some residual trauma. In light of this history, we intentionally stepped into local history orientation to attempt to understand this experience, and the Kenyan and American staff men visited the Rwanda Genocide Memorial together prior to arriving at the weekend site.

18 men went through the initial weekend, all Rwandan men except, ironically two Americans (read about one of them here.). There were so many unique aspects of this and it was an extraordinary experience for everyone. The staff men from Kenya had their first taste of helping to take a Crucible work to a new country.  Key leadership came from Pastor Jimmy Muyango of Rwanda who was enrolled as local leader and provided important guidance, and linguistic and cultural interpretation.  Kenyan leader Ananda Kinisu of The Tribe served as Co-leader of the weekend and led the Kenyan team.

Immediately following the Weekend in Rwanda the staff scattered to other business or home, and some crossed to Kenya.  On the next weekend all the Kenyan staff men were participants in the Leadership Joy retreat as the US team came to do that retreat with support of two key staff from Kenya.  Alan Hicks and Kariuki Thande did all the work of the weekend while still serving as staff experiencing a rare blend of staffing and participating in processes throughout.  For the second level weekend, there were a total of 18 Kenyan Redwoods, going deeper into their work as they focused and became more aware of living as kings!

The US team for both the Rwanda initial and Kenya Leadership weekends was Jay Mountjoy and Paul Storaci from Colorado Community, Byron Myers and myself.  Personally, for me, Rwanda was the most demanding preparation and execution of a weekend I’ve worked on.

In the near future, we see continued initial and Level II weekends in Kenya, continued initial weekends in Rwanda, and our first Kenyan Women’s initial weekend.  All of it will take Redwoods giving of their time and financial resources to make it possible.

The bottom line: we have seen this in places everywhere in the United States and in Australia, Mexico, Kenya, South African – this work and the Crucible weekend “works” across cultures and geographies.

Chris Cleghorn

Volunteer Ambassador

 

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Confidentiality in Our Circles

On Friday night of your initial weekend, you heard the following:

“What goes on throughout this weekend as well as each soul’s story is confidential. Whatever a man says and does here, stays here. When you leave this place, you may talk about what you learn about yourself, but not the work of others. The staff will not share anything they hear about you, nor should you share what you hear about any other. The only exception to this rule is that there may be an obligation to report to social agencies if anyone shares that they are currently abusing children or the elderly in any way. Anyone feeling the need to make such a report is asked to notify staff.  However, we as a staff remain committed to helping you face and overcome such a pattern and will work with you toward liberating you from your abusive practices.”

Confidentiality is a sacred trust with those we do our soul work with.  Whether it is on a weekend, in a group setting or with a Crucible coach, the agreement to keep confidential each person’s work is the bedrock foundation of safety for each soul.

Breaking Confidentiality by Reporting

Crucible policy only places safety as a higher value than confidentiality.  Crucible leaders are trained to break confidentiality when there is abuse or neglect of elderly or children, and when there is imminent harm to others, such as when someone reports they intend to harm themselves or others.

Breaking confidentiality to report is always a difficult decision.  If someone is in harms way, a report to a family member or governmental entities may be obligatory.  In the post-“me-too” era and the aftermath of catholic sexual abuse cover-ups, many states have added laws of required reporting beyond child and elderly abuse.  At the core of any decision to break confidentiality and report, we must keep in mind that the only reason to report must be to protect from harm’s way.

Container Leaks

Container leaks include sharing another’s work to others who are voluntarily staffing a weekend as well as casual conversations with another Redwood over drinks or meal.  Some break confidentiality when they share another’s work with their spouse.  It is never OK to tell another soul’s story unless it is determined that a report for safety reasons is necessary.

If you find a container leak, it is important that you call into account the person who has possibly broken the container.  We have a process for that!  Your Regional Leader , Group Leader, or any of our certified Retreat Leaders can assist you.

Recommit to Confidentiality

Anytime you find yourself wondering about your container holding, ask for a recommitment to confidentiality.  Bring any perceived breaches to your circle.  Your retreat leader on a weekend or group leader can assist with any questions you might have.  Byron and Lisa are great resources for any questions you might have about our policies.

 

 

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“I got what I came for and more!”

You probably said something like that.  That’s what all but a few Redwoods say on every Sunday afternoon to the final leader before they leave their initial weekend.  A small number say, “I got a great start toward it.”

God has met your courage, and the courage of over 5,800 men and women as they wrestled with Him around wounds at the core of their soul on our transformational weekends.  Their weekends ignited Christ-like change through experiences of radical honesty and grace.

Over 700 Redwoods volunteered to staff one of our weekends last year, committed to creating a world where men and women live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose.

Over $85,000 of financial assistance was given to participants last year.  Redwoods “paid it forward” allowing souls to find peace, confidence, clarity, power, joy, purpose, and freedom last year.

If you are currently a donor, thank you on behalf of so many who your funds help!  If you are not a donor yet,

Will you join with hundreds of other Redwoods to “pay it forward” so that more souls will be able to experience radical honesty and grace?

Get Your Sticker!

If you say “yes”, I want to send you a token gift of appreciation.  Set up a monthly contribution at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or send a monthly check to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.  When you do, I’ll send you a couple of “Radical Honesty & Grace” stickers, like the one above, for you to place on a vehicle, cup, laptop, or whatever you choose.  If you are already a donor, your sticker will be coming to your mailbox soon.

I’m praying that your donation will help over 1,000 men and women become Redwoods in 2022.  I am also praying that the stickers I send you will be a point of conversation with others in your life to invite them to a weekend.

Join the hundreds of Redwoods who are “paying it forward” so that this ministry continues to create weekend experiences where every soul “gets what they came here for and more!”

Continuing the Journey and helping others start theirs,

Roy Wooten

 

 

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Souls Are Waiting

In addition to volunteering to staff Weekends, Crucible needs your help.  Want to volunteer?

Scheduler – Do you have experience scheduling multiple people for meetings?  We are looking for a virtual scheduler who would be willing to help set up meetings.  .  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke

Database Manager – Looking for a Redwood with high attention to detail and experience with Excel or databases, such as CRMs, Salesforce, etc.  If you have time and high attention to detail, we’ll train you.  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke.

Content Developers – Redwoods with years of experience in soul work and participating or leading groups who might want to work with other experienced Redwoods to create new experiences for non-Redwoods across the globe through My Journey To online offerings.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Communications Coordinator – Are you good at editing?  If you have experience with MailChimp and would like to assist with growing outward facing communications, connect with Roy Wooten.

Podcast Host – Work with a team of volunteer podcasters to interview guests as part of the Crucible Podcast launching soon.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Testimonials – Would you be willing to share your testimonial in a video or audio format?  If so, we’ll help with interview questions.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Video and Audio Editors – Do you have skills editing video and audio recordings?  We are looking for volunteers willing to serve 2-4 hours per week to help with editing audio for podcasts and video for outward facing communications.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Online Crucible Intensive Staff – are you passionate about helping those who cannot attend an in-person Weekend? If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Local Men’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Byron Myers.

Local Women’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski

Weekly Check-In Hosts – Wednesday check-ins are here to stay, and we’d like to get organized and expand our host rotation! It’s a great way to step into leading and hosting on Zoom in a relaxed, low-pressure environment! If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski.

Pre-Retreat & Post-Retreat Interviewers – Like talking on the phone? Good at basic facilitation skills? You do not need to be staffing a particular retreat to help with interviews. You’ll receive training and detailed instructions for how to complete the interview. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Participant Coordinators – like emailing with participants and tracking details? Work with retreat leaders to help women get to the retreats with all the information they need! Got a sturdy shield and lots of grace to extend to scared participants who have not yet gone on their Crucible retreat and know what you already know? Maybe you’re cut out for being a participant coordinator! Requires some customer service, computer and problem solving. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Staff Coordinators – If you enjoy being the hostess, you’ll love being staff coordinator! Help make sure staff have the info they need for meetings, updated protocols, and coordinate travel and bedding for staff who are traveling in from out of town.  If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

 

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Continuing Your Soul Work

Attend Second Level Weekends

Unshackled: Breaking the Chains of Shame - Women

February 4-6 Hempstead, TX

Available to women who have attended the Crucible Women’s Weekend, is a deep dive into breaking free from the shame-based identities that bind us.  Women will walk away knowing at a core level who God has created us each to be.  Register Here!

Leadership Joy - Men

February 4-6 St. Charles, IL

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Mission - Men

March 4-6 Como, CO

September 9-11 St. Charles, IL

WHAT IT IS

The core of a man’s life is his purpose. Without a conscious mission a man is lost, drifting and adapting to circumstances in his life, rather than creating events. We believe Jesus lived on mission and modeled how He wants us to fulfill our purpose as followers of Him (Luke 4:18, 19:10). This entire weekend is devoted to exploring the core of your life — your mission.  Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn to minimize distractions and detours and live from your heart, giving your gifts to the world.

Develop a conscious, actionable mission and align your life with it.

Challenge and support to embrace your purpose.

Deepen your commitment to act with integrity.

Sexuality Weekend - Men

April 8-10 Andover, CT

August 26-28 Chidlow, Western Australia

September 16-18 Como, CO

WHAT IT IS

If you are like most men, the word “sex” stirs up a wide range of emotions and experiences – from joy, delight and ecstatic pleasure to shame, anger and pain. How can something that God designed as such a wonderful gift become a source of such confusion, darkness and despair for so many men? This entire weekend is focuses on tackling the multifaceted subject of sex. If you long to move toward seeing your sexuality as a wonderful gift God has given you to enjoy, then this weekend is for you. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Investigate the “dark side” of sexuality – looking at the woundedness and shame you carry

Explore how men use sex to avoid unpleasant feelings—and chart a better path to emotional health

Reclaim your sexuality as a sacred gift to be repossessed—not repressed

Experience healing and freedom in a safe place to engage in a holistic process

Leadership: Dark Side - Men

May 20-22

Brownwood, TX

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Groups

CRUCIBLE PROJECT SOUL GROUPS WERE FORMED OUT OF THE RECOGNITION OF THE NEED FOR MEN AND WOMEN TO CONTINUE THE WORK FOLLOWING THEIR INITIAL WEEKEND.

What It Is

Small circles of men or women (typically 6-10) are committed to grow into deeper levels of authenticity, honesty, transparency and grace in a safe and non-condemning environment. Groups typically meet three times a month — although it varies by group — and are led by a trained facilitator. Groups are open to men and women who have completed an initial weekend (or equivalent). Groups are offered locally within our established communities, or you may join one of our many video-based groups that meet online.

What You’ll Get

• Support and positive challenge for your continued work and the goals you want to reach.
• Learn from the deepest experience of other men or women as they share their work with you.
• An unparalleled group experience of safety, openness and trust.
• The tools, skills and healing to live a more passionate, powerful life

Connect to an in-person or online Growth Group, Journey Group or Development Group for Men or Women.

Get a Crucible Certified Coach

What is it?

Hiring a Crucible Certified Coach is like hiring a trainer/guide for fitness, wilderness adventures or home design.  Coaching helps you move from a stuck place toward your goals.  Crucible Coaching has the express purpose of helping men & women move toward Christlikeness and become more like Jesus.  Crucible Project coaches meet you where you are at and help you become a better version of yourself.  Coaches do this by unlocking your God-given gifts, talents, and goodness.

How does it work?

Generally, you meet by phone or online for about fifty minutes. Prior to each session you will complete a brief questionnaire about your progress and what specifically you would like to focus on during the session together.  During the session the coach will serve as a guide in helping you achieve your goals. Before the end of the session you will confirm the next session. Appointments are at varied times of the week at the day and time you agree upon.

We use methods, language, and some processes practiced by The Crucible Project as well as the individual coach’s skill set.

What are the benefits?

In coaching you will discover how and where you are stuck, be guided to break through barriers and achieve your goals. You will find a trusted professional walking alongside and encouraging you; giving guidance as you move out of your current place to something better; someone who can tap your own personal resources and God-given giftedness to live as a better you. The cost of coaching is included in the Two-Year Transformation program.

Join the Two-Year Transformational Program for Men!

THE TWO-YEAR TRANSFORMATIONAL PROGRAM IS AN INTENSE PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT TRACK FOR MEN WHO ARE COMMITTED IN THEIR BOLD JOURNEY TO LIVE FULLY AS WARRIORS, LOVERS, SAGES AND KINGS — LIKE JESUS.

The Two-Year Program is open to men who have completed an Initial Weekend (or equivalent).

What It Includes

• Second Level Weekends
  • Mission/Life Purpose
  • Sexuality
  • Leadership: Facing the Dark Side and Discovering the Hero Within
  • Leadership: Moving Through Barriers Towards Joy
• Development Group membership. Continue your work with other men willing to make the same two-year commitment as you. Groups meet three times a month and are led by a trained facilitator. In addition to local face-to-face groups, we offer a video conferencing based group for those living in an area without a local group.
• Monthly coaching calls to further refine your journey in the two-year program.
• Staffing opportunities. Priority staff placement for all 1st-Level weekends to use what you are learning in service to other men.

What You’ll Get

• Discover and live your God-given purpose as a man.
• Become a more authentic man who lives at deeper levels of integrity.
• Engage your God-given inner strength to live with greater confidence and courage.
• Live more courageously – willing to shake things up and take risks; penetrating your world.
• Learn to live from your heart.
• Let go of the sexual shame you carry and embrace your sexuality as a sacred gift – full of life, connection and creativity.
• Build more authentic, loving relationships.
• Grow as a more effective leader.

Contact us for more information and cost

Workshops and Connections

FREE Weekly Redwood Men's or Women's Check In

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Caring For Your Inner Child

January 21, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Caring For Your Inner Child.

Register in Events!

Live Connection - Morning Stillness & Check In

January 25, 8-9AM CDT

Beginning your day with a meditation, stilling your soul. Center yourself for a productive day.

Register in Events!

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Motivation Without Shaming

January 27, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Motivation Without Shaming.

Register in Events!

FREE Live Workshop: Why Am I Stuck?

January 29, 9-11AM CDT

An opportunity to explore how and why we get stuck when trying make changes in our lives. Work on some specific area you’d like to change and develop a plan to move forward.

Register in Events

Introduction to Facilitation Training for Men

Connecticut Jan 22–23, 2022 In person or online. Led by yours Judson Poling.  $350 per person or $600 for couples.  In this training, you will learn the theory of all Carpet Work processes as well take a deep-dive into the specific steps of Anger and Support processes. The training will provide several opportunities to review and practice those steps. You’ll also learn how to refine what the participant really wants; what are people's different learning styles and the language to use that fits their style; and understand your own facilitator shadows. To maximize your learning, we recommend you carefully read over the manual before attending, which requires you to register at least four weeks in advance. If you register later, you’ll get the manual when you arrive on Saturday.

Register Here!

Staff an Upcoming Weekend

Staff an Upcoming Weekend
Men, Andover, CT March 18-20
Women, St. Charles, IL April 1-3
Men, Chouteau, OK April 1-3
Men, North Zulch, TX April 1-3
Men, Como, CO April 8-10
Women, Andover, CT April 22-24
Men, Sexuality, Andover CT April 8-10
Apply!

 

 

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The Gift of Christmas

Christmas Season Points to Jesus

I love that across the world, people are reminded annually that Jesus came into the world to “be God’s representative tot eh poor, to preach good news to them, to tell those who are held captive that they can now be free, that the blind can now see, to liberate those held down by oppression and to proclaim that now is the time and jubilee season of grace.” (Luke 4:18-21 VOICE).

Jesus is the Unquenchable Source of Light

Jesus’ entrance into the world was light coming into darkness.  John’s gospel tells us that Jesus was with God before creation and that He was the source of light in the universe “that thrives in the depths of darkness, blazes through murky bottoms – it cannot and will not be quenched.” (John 1:5 VOICE).

No Room in the Inn

But what has my attention this year is this part of Luke 2:7 VOICE, “because the inn had no room for them.”  During my elementary school years, it never made much sense to me when the Sunday school teacher shared this story.  How can they not make room for the Savior of the world?

Do I Make Room for Jesus?

What has me thinking about this verse so much is that I am not sure that I make enough room for Jesus in my life today.  I believe when Jesus said that He is always with those of us who call Him King of our lives.  But my awareness of His presence is absent far too frequently than I’d like to admit.   Distracted by the list of tasks to be accomplished today, commitments I’ve made, my health, our family schedule, work challenges, relationship struggles, and whatever breaking news is going on, I do not make room to create awareness of Jesus who is always with me.

Challenged To Make Room

Knowing this, I am committed to creating space as a part of my daily routine to arouse my personal awareness of Jesus with me.  In my space, I am committed to talking to Jesus through prayer and listening for anything He has to say to me about whatever is going on in my life at that time.  I’m committed to spending some time with an open Bible in a reading program that focuses me on my relationship with Him.  I am excited about what making room in my life for Jesus might bring to the rest of my life.

Need more light in your life?  Perhaps you will join me in making room for Jesus in your awareness as well!

(adapted from Dave Rider)

 

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Giving Groups

Every year several Journey Groups send in a group donation to Crucible.  We wanted to find out how it began and why they continue to give back to Crucible in this manner.  We interviewed Christopher Dorsano and Larry Korbus who generously shared their responses.

When did your group start doing it and why?

Larry said,

“Our Journey Group, we call “TCP Sequel”, was founded in April, 2014 by five men who were graduating from the 2-Year Program within one or two months of each other. (Four of the five men are still members today. The other relocated to another state.) We decided we did not want our “journey” together to end upon graduation. We wanted to “grow old together”. (Or as one of the men jokes, “grow older together”.)

The five of us met with members of two other Journey Groups to learn how they structured and governed themselves. We then drafted group documents which are still in place 8 years later.  One of the documents we agreed to stated, “In lieu of dues, each man is expected to make a donation to The Crucible Project. The donation should be made each month in the amount of $25 or a bi-annual donation in the amount of $150 or an annual donation in the amount of $300.””

Chris said,

“We have always done it that way. The fundamentals all came from Crucible and they are doing all they can to change lives and help them out of their deep waters. That is a mission I can put my money behind.”

Why does your group think giving back to the ministry is important

Larry replied:

“The founding members of TCP Sequel realized what a gift The Crucible Project had given us. We had grown significantly in areas of leadership, integrity and living our mission. We, in turn, wanted to give back to ensure that The Crucible Project continued to impact the lives of other men. We also did not want any existing or new members to take our group “lightly” or for granted. Therefore, requiring group members to make a minimum annual donation to The Crucible Project became a requirement for membership.”

Chris replied,

“The best way to make an impact I am not able to do with my own time is by tithing so others that do have the time can change lives.”

What do your group members get for themselves by giving to crucible? What are the benefits of your generosity?

Larry commented:

“We rest assured that our financial contributions are going to a ministry that is dedicated to changing the lives of men and women for the better. There’s a comfort in knowing that our continued support helps to maintain the current level of operations and provides for future enhancements and expansion.”

Chris commented:

“The benefits are a community of men that are all on different journeys but have a solid foundation. It is like having family all over the world that you may have never met but when you do there is common ground.”

If you want help to add giving as a part of your Journey Group covenant, contact us at communications@thecrucibleproject.org.

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Free for You for Life

In a recent conversation with my wife, Michelle, we were talking about the importance of continuing “our work.” I’m referring to our soul care journey toward self-awareness, emotional wellness and living at deeper levels of authenticity. We talked mostly about intentionality, but also about how hard it is to keep looking in the mirror, even though we both know it is vital to our healing.

I don’t know your story, but I wonder if it looked anything like mine over the last 18 months, where I often operated in survival mode and made up that it’s hard enough just to deal with life right now, so I’m gonna pass on “the work.” With too many weekends canceled and in-person group opportunities diminished during the lockdown, I had all the excuses.

Enter My Journey To 

I’m thankful for the forward thinking of The Crucible Project to build the My Journey To app that brings soul care right to you, literally anywhere, for free. Its content library is full of powerful teachings, exercises and visualizations developed and delivered by experienced men and women on the journey — it’s good stuff. It also features live connection events and workshops where you can join others online for shared experiences. Groups and coaching are offered through the app as well.

There are three membership levels, and the bronze tier is free forever. If you decide to upgrade to the silver tier, the expanded content library is free for the first two weeks and you get the self-assessment tool, which helps you identify areas to focus on and delivers content tailored to those areas. I challenge you to check MyJourneyTo.com out. If you think it may benefit others in your circle, please share it with them, too.

We may not yet know the full impact this pandemic has on our emotional health. While the soul work journey is not easy and requires intentionality, I believe anything we can do to press into our work and stay on the journey will prove invaluable.  Having a tool like the My Journey To app can only help. Be encouraged and keep looking in the mirror — you and those you love are worth it.

John Owen

Courageous Free Hawk

 

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Share to Win

We are meeting the dark times we are all living in by creating a world where souls help others to live fully alive, instead of wasting their lives.

Your help is urgently needed. We are inviting those of you who have wrestled with God around your core wounds to spread the mission of Crucible Project across the globe.

Crucible’s strongest hope of introducing Christ-centered soul work to souls who are unaware of how they are living their lives is Crucible’s new outreach application – MyJourneyTo.com.  We anticipate that a large number of souls helped through My Journey To will eventually face the fire and find their gold at an upcoming Weekend.

Are you Social?

Our new social media channels for My Journey To Renewal, Wellness and Belonging have recently launched on Facebook and Instagram.  Liking, following and sharing social media channels will expand our reach, without spending money on marketing. When you like, follow and share our My Journey To channels, you are helping provide Soul Care Anywhere – to isolated souls across town or across the globe.

Share to Win

When you like, follow and share My Journey To on Facebook or Instagram you are helping Crucible expand our reach as we provide Soul Care Anywhere. By engaging on these social media channels — you will be entered to win prizes as a thank you gift.

Random Drawing “Thanks for Sharing” Prizes

One will win a $100 Amazon Gift Card

One will win a $50 Amazon Gift Card

Five will win a $10 Starbucks Gift Card

How to enter on Facebook:

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow My Journey To My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in comments on the Share to Win post for an additional entry.
5. Share the Share to Win post for an additional entry.

How to enter on Instagram: 

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow the My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in the Share to Win comments for an additional entry.

Contest Rules:

Anyone over 18 can enter. Must complete steps 1-3 for valid entry. Complete steps 4-5 for additional bonus entries. No limit to number of entries. Winners drawn randomly. Seven total winners. Winners will be announced on the My Journey To Facebook and Instagram channels on October 20, 2021.  Winners must send a private/direct message through to My Journey To channels within 7 days of winner announcement. Questions about the contest should be addressed to Communications@MyJourneyTo.com.

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Dare to Soar Couples and Crucible

Our Founder, Greg Huston, and his wife, Toni, have been leading Dare to Soar Couples Retreats, groups and coaching for a couple of decades.  Greg Huston started Dare to Soar in 1999 to help men create more authentic, passionate, and grace-filled lives and to build relationships in which they experience more joy, love, and peace.

A pastor for 18 years, Greg first developed Dare to Soar programs, including individual counseling work, group work, and weekend retreats, to address the issues with which many men in the church were struggling. In 2005, Greg’s men’s work evolved into The Crucible Project ministry.

After several years of working with men, Greg felt a growing desire to bring his expertise to couples. At the same time, men were requesting a way to introduce their wives to their spiritual and emotional journey. Greg responded by expanding Dare to Soar to include couples’ retreats—and to include his wife, Toni, to help lead them.

Together Greg and Toni launched the first Dare To Soar Couples retreat in 2005 and quickly added continuing care in the form of monthly groups. Since then, they have led couples’ weekends in Illinois, Texas, Colorado and the Czech Republic.

An accomplished speaker, facilitator, coach, and counselor, Greg is driven not just by his education and pastoral experiences but also by 30 years of extensive work on his own life. He has been used by God to powerfully impact the lives of many through his work.

One of the great joys of Greg and Toni’s life is doing this work together, sharing what they have learned in the “lab” of their own 45 years of marriage.  Another is their family, which includes two daughters and their husbands and two grandchildren.

Greg and Toni are excited that The Crucible Project will continue the Dare to Soar legacy of couples’ retreats, groups and coaching beginning in January, 2022.  According to Greg and Toni, “We are thankful that our work with couples will continue as we shift to a new season in our lives.”

Roy Wooten, Executive Director, stated, “It is a great honor for Crucible to continue Greg and Toni’s legacy of couples soul work.  They are such a gift to couples around the world and to this ministry.  The need for good solutions for couples navigating the ups and downs of lifelong relationships is great.  We are so thankful to Greg and Toni!”

The last Dare to Soar Weekend led by Greg and Toni Huston is scheduled for October 15-17 in the Chicago area.  Registrations are still available for couples to register.  Learn more!

 

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Will you step into your Warrior and rise to the challenge?

On your initial weekend you were challenged to stop complaining and blaming and step into your warrior.  You were courageously vulnerable in declaring the thing you did not want others to know.  You wrestled with God around your core wounds – and found a true blessing. You found your power and stepped into your strength to set boundaries within you.  As you gained clarity about your heart’s deepest desires, you stepped into action to get them for yourself and to create the world you really want.

This has been one of the most challenging years of our lifetimes.  Many Redwoods rose to the challenge facing this incredible ministry we both love so much.  They stepped into their strength and courage to financially provide for the ministry’s sustainability during a time many ministries closed their doors forever.  Their investments made it possible for over 250 Weekend Participants and over 200 Staff to engage their soul work this challenging pandemic.

Will you join fellow Redwoods by rising to the financial challenges of this past year by making a financial contribution to The Crucible Project?  Your donation to the Annual Fund supports all operational and strategic initiatives.  A secure one-time or monthly donation of any amount can be set up quickly at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or by mailing checks to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.

When I mail out acknowledgment for a donation of any amount, you will receive the new Warrior sticker to proudly display in a visible place.  You can use it as a point of discussion to share what God has done and is doing through this powerful ministry and remind you of the strength and courage you summoned this past year and can deploy for any future challenge before you.

Your generosity will keep us igniting Christ-like change in men and women through experiences of radical honesty and grace.  Your gift will allow us to continue to create a world of women and men who live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose!

Thanking you in advance for rising to the challenge!

Roy Wooten

Executive Director

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For Redwood Pastors Only!

Participate in the first Redwoods Pastors Retreat

3pm Monday, November 1-11:30am Thursday, November 4, 2021

Land of My Grandfather’s

North Zulch, TX

The last 18 months have been some of the most challenging times to be a Pastor.  With that in mind, we have put together a retreat with you in mind.  This special men's retreat is for initiated full-time Pastor’s and parachurch Ministers to come and renew your spirit, to rest, to connect, to be authentic and find a brotherhood for support. Our desire is to minister to the heart of each one of you!  We believe this retreat will be inspirational, healing, refreshing and will be better if you are there.

The cost is $250 which includes lodging, food and supplies. Register now so we can plan for your attendance. For more information,  Contact Andy Spell or Tim Rush.

REGISTER NOW

Join a Redwood “Pastors Only” Group

We are starting two new groups for Pastors who would like a place to do your work, where you are allowed to be your authentic self, and in a place that is set apart from those you lead.

Both groups will meet on the 1^st and 3^rd Wednesday of the month, beginning June 2^nd and ending November 17^th.  Group one will meet from 6:00-7:30 am central time zone.  Contact Andy Spell . Group two will meet from 6:00-7:30 am pacific time zone.  Contact Tim Rush.

There are no fees for these groups.

What Pastor’s Are Saying:

“The pastors in this group helped me process things that others would never understand.  A safe place that I could just be me, nothing more. No pastor hat just a man among other men.”   -Brent in Chicago

“The Crucible Pastor's Group was the safe community I was missing. I never thought a zoom call could have such a profound impact on my life and walk with Jesus.  It was well worth waking at 3:30am to join twice a month” - Ryan in Seattle

Mid-Week Initial Weekend

So many church staff struggle to give up a weekend while in full time ministry.  Will you prayerfully consider staffing a midweek weekend?  Staff will arrive on Sunday night, August 22^nd as a member of the staff team, serve pastors from across the country as they experience radical honesty and grace, and leave the afternoon of Wednesday, August 25^th full and blessed. If you are interested in staffing, complete an application.

Participant registration is open!  Participants arrive 6:45-7PM Central Monday night and exit by 3PM on Wednesday.  Let ministers know that they can sign up now at TheCrucibleProject.org

New Resource for Those You Lead

When a challenging church member or a church leader is struggling, Crucible now has a suite of resources you can place in their hands.  My Journey To is an online app that has an assessment, pre-recorded soul work experience library, and Live Events available to supplement any pastoral care or counseling you might be providing.  If you would like a complimentary membership, contact   and let him know you are a Pastor.  If interested in group membership pricing for your leadership team or congregants, contact Roy Wooten.

 

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Finding My Strength and Growth Opportunities

“Intentional living is the art of making our own choices before others’ choices make us.” – Richie Norton

Emerging Intentionally

It is so encouraging to see news reports that the pandemic’s end is in view.  The past fourteen months have been challenging, but we can find some truths about ourselves.  Challenges provide opportunities to raise our awareness about who we are, how we show up in life, where we still have opportunities to grow, and what our strengths are.  There are always things to learn as well as celebrate along our journey.

One of the gifts many of us discovered is that we do not want to go back to the way life was pre-pandemic.  Many of us found an unscheduled “reset” to our lives. Hurry and busy have been replaced with serenity and meaning.  Changes in routines provided more space for contemplation, creativity and recreation.  Some of us found our spiritual practices increasing even as church attendance disappeared or dwindled.

• What growth opportunities have you discovered about yourself?
• What strengths and resiliency have you noticed about yourself?
• What have you been doing that you want to continue post-pandemic?

Intentionally Creating Your Post-Pandemic Life

Our My Journey To Team has a free and confidential resource to assist in planning and designing your post-pandemic inner world.  The My Journey To Self-Assessment is a tool that provides personal feedback of strengths and growth opportunities in eight areas of your life.

The eight areas measured include emotional wellness, family relationships, physical wellness, vocation, spiritual wellness, finances, relationships with friends, and recreational life. Results reveal where you are satisfied in your life and what is in the way in the areas where you are not satisfied.

The Self-Assessment takes about forty minutes to complete and provides a report or each assessment area as well as an overall conclusive report.  It is available with a two-week trial membership of My Journey To.

 

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You Are the Sum of What You Look At

You may have heard the saying that, “You’re the sum of the five people you spend the most time with.” 

Maybe before the internet age that was true, but it’s really not true anymore.

I think today what’s true is, “You are the sum of what you look at.”

The idea used to be if you hung around with certain people, they would rub off on you. Their attitudes would rub off on you. Their ways of thinking about things would rub off on you. That you’d be influenced even if you thought these were just little interactions that didn’t really matter, you’re gonna be influenced.

That’s true, but it’s even more true for what it is you look at.

If you spend time flipping through “feeds”—be it Facebook, or Reddit, or Instagram, or Twitter, or whatever—of things that make you angry all the time, you are going to be the sum of all those little posts that make you angry.

That’s what you’re going to turn into. You’ll become incredibly bitter about life.

On the other hand, if you’re always reading books that are uplifting, or biographies of great people, or sci-fi that you really enjoy, stuff like that, that’s going to have that impact on you too. You’re going to be the sum of the quality of what you look with there, as well.

In Cal Newport’s book, Deep Work, he talks about how we tend to think that it’s the big outcomes in life that really matter, and they’re the only things we really need to think about: Did I get the job? Did I get married? Did I get a raise? Did I succeed at the thing?

We think the big outcomes are what’s important, and all the little moment-to-moment stuff can be ignored.

But it turns out the reverse is actually a lot more true.

What you do moment-to-moment, what you look at moment-to-moment, what media you’re consuming moment-to-moment—it’s those little moments that actually add up to who you become.

It’s easy to discount these effects.  It’s easy to say, about the five people you hang out with who have the biggest impact, “Well, you know, we just hang out occasionally, it doesn’t really matter.” It’s easy to say, “While I’m standing in line I flip through Facebook, and that doesn’t really matter.”

But if you’re doing that literally for, perhaps, hours a day, it actually really does matter.

It’s the little things in life, as they say, that matter. And they actually create that big picture outcome that you might be going for.

So what’s the takeaway for this? Over the next few days, if you think of it, think about, “What is it I’m looking at most? What is it I’m absorbing most?”

Ask yourself: “If this is influencing me ten times more than I think—if this is influencing my attitude, my day-to-day feelings, and my ability to focus on something for more than a moment—would I really want to be looking at it?”

And if you feel like you wouldn’t, maybe search out things that actually do inspire you and do make you feel good. Either reading books, on the internet, people you like—something like that.  It’s just so easy for these little moments that we have throughout our day to get sucked up and filled up with flipping through the “feeds”—the five internet friends —who make us the craziest.

Choose what you look at, in those little moments, wisely. They make up who you are.

By Dmitri Bilgere

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Christmas Tears

I remember feeling my heart sink when I saw him come through the door. My wife and I were at a Christmas gathering at our church. My brother spotted me and made his way to our table. He didn’t have to say anything. I knew what had happened by the look on his face. My fears were confirmed with just two words: “He’s gone.”

That December 19th — 21 years ago — made it a Christmas season very different from any I had ever experienced.

Dad had gone into the hospital that year shortly after Thanksgiving. The doctors soon concluded that his heart would not withstand bypass surgery. There were no other options. The goal now was to build up his strength enough so he could come home for what was to be his last Christmas.

Just as Jan and I were about to leave for our Christmas party, Dad called to see how things were going with us. That was Dad. Literally on his death bed but asking how we and the kids were doing. As the conversation was ending he asked, “When am I supposed to come home again?” Jan answered, “Christmas Eve.” Dad asked, “How many days is that?” Jan told him, “Five.”

Dad’s response was peculiar. He said matter-of-factly, “I’m not going to make that.” Jan assured him that if he wanted to, the doctors would certainly allow him to come home early. She told him we could come right then to pick him up. Not surprisingly, he declined the offer. Dad never wanted people making a fuss over him. He responded, “No, we’ll see how tonight goes.”

A nurse later reported that, according to Dad’s roommate, he was “on the phone with someone, hung up and died.” Turns out Dad was calling to say goodbye.

Most people who are close to me or have heard me speak or have read my writings know that due to my father’s drinking problem we a rather tumultuous relationship. Throughout my childhood I knew my dad as a verbally abusive alcoholic. The name of my ministry–Finding Father’s Love—suggests what my heart yearned for. The very title of my first book–When Father is a Bad Word—offers a glimpse into what my relationship with my father had been like. 

Through the years I have shared many personal and painful stories about how my dad’s drinking affected me and my family. I have described my father to literally thousands of people with adjectives like violent, scary, mean, and shaming. One would think that news of his passing would trigger feelings of anger, hopelessness, and deep regret. Instead, I found myself overflowing with gratitude.

Many people know about the drinking problem my dad had when I was a boy. What they may not know is that my dad overcame his addiction when I was an adult. In what could rightfully be termed a miracle, my dad quit drinking. That in itself is not miraculous. People overcome addictive behaviors every day. It’s how my dad did it. You see, he did it with no visible help. He didn’t seek support from AA. He didn’t go to a counselor for direction. He didn’t rely on a sponsor for support. He just quit.

When our pastor got wind of the news he stopped by for a visit. “John,” he said, “I understand you quit drinking.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“I also understand that you’re not going anywhere for help.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“Well,” the pastor replied, “if you’re able to quit without help you’ll be the first person I’ve ever seen do it.”

Dad’s response took him aback. He grinned and said, “Then I’ll be the first.”

My dad never drank again. Turns out God’s help was the only help he needed. I don’t often speak of this because I don’t want to hold up Dad’s story as the norm. For the vast majority of alcoholics, quitting drinking is just the first step. Then they must assemble and rely on a support network to help them maintain sobriety. For many, staying sober is an everyday, lifelong battle.

My dad, virtually overnight, was transformed from the raging drunk I feared as a child to the kind and gentle man I was privileged to come to know and love as an adult.

There were many tears during that Christmas season 21 years ago. But intermingled with my tears of sadness were tears of profound gratitude.

• I was grateful for the answer to thousands of prayers uttered in desperation by me and my family on my father’s behalf.
• I was grateful for the years of sobriety that God had granted Dad at the end of his life.
• I was grateful that mom didn’t break her wedding vows and kept our family together when it would have been easier to bail.
• I was grateful that my wife and children never witnessed thatside of my dad.
• I was grateful to get to know my father for who he really was—a good man who happened to have a bad problem.

While I struggled to sing Joy to the World on that Christmas after losing my dad, there were many other familiar carols that took on new meaning for me that year. Some still bring tears. But they are no longer tears of sadness. Only tears of gratitude.

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

Dan Kuiper completed his initial Crucible weekend in 2009. He is an author and speaker and leads a ministry called, Finding Father’s Love which helps wounded souls find love, healing, and grace in relationship with the Heavenly Father. Dan’s first book, When Father is a Bad Word, illustrates the parallels between our relationship with our earthly father and our perception of our Heavenly Father. Dan leads Finding Father’s Love Seminars across the country, offering hope and healing to those who have experienced brokenness from dysfunctional family relationships.

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My Journey To: Renewal - Wellness - Belonging

Executive Director, Roy Wooten and Member Services Manager, Bob Locascio discuss new offering for future Redwoods coming in January!

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Post Traumatic Stress and Crucible

We have experienced some great books by Redwoods sharing their story. In Redwood Jason Wilson’s Cry Like a Man: Fighting for Freedom from Emotional Incarceration , Jason reveals all of his story and his road to recovery through The Crucible Project. Jeff Madsen writes the history of Crucible Founder Greg Huston and the history of The Crucible Project in Truth and Grace: The Leadership Legacy of Greg Huston.

Both books share voraciously highly confidential information about each soul. And this month a new book was published by another Redwood with the same courage.

George Coen, a 72 year old retired Navy Veteran who had served two deployments with a Navy Attack Squadron in Viet Nam, attended one of our weekends after ten years of extensive PTSD treatment. Not only was he suffering post traumatic stress from combat, but also from his year’s growing up in the home of a father with untreated post traumatic stress from World War II.

His new book, Collateral Damage: A Journey in Dealing with Combat-related PTSD, is about physical, mental and spiritual healing. He attributes the healing of his physical wounds and the treatment of his mental wounds to the Veterans Administration. But the VA is absent of spiritual healing. Several men where he and his wife of thirty-four years worship encouraged him to attend The Crucible Project Weekend. At the age of 72, he registered and attended.

He shares on pages 116 and 117, the following:

“…the weekend experience was one of the most intense physical, mental and emotional challenges that I have ever experienced. Yes, I wrestled with God …. I. came home. At peace, knowing I could trust God to do the right thing with the remaining few years of my life. …Prior to my Crucible experience… my statement of faith would have gone something like this:

For most of my life, God has been some mystical being out there that is somehow responsible for all things. In spite of that I am still in control and responsible for short-come outcomes. The conflicting tension is the persistent presence of that “inner voice” that is often times in conflict with my actions.

Today … having completed Crucible, I would summarize my faith as follows:

Jesus in the example of the person I should aspire to be. It’s not about the destination; it’s about the voyage. I need to be less concerned about the future and more concerned with the present. God has a plan for my life, but only the ending is made known to me and is certain. The path will be revealed to me in small increments. I. just need to pay attention and listen. I believe that voice that is constantly talking to me over my shoulder is that revelation in small bits. I just need to listen and heed. God’s intermediate destinations for me my not be consistent with my desires or expectations; however, I’m expected to obey! Terrible things happen to good people, thus the significance of the. Cross and the Resurrection. I know God loves me and is with me!

The empirical literature points to a clear conclusion: spirituality is part and parcel of the human response to trauma and its resolution.”

We are thankful to Redwood George M. Coen for the authenticity and courageous vulnerability in how he tells his story toward healing. This risky story-telling is why every soul can find a part of their story in his. Every soul’s work is my work and my work is every soul’s work.

You can get access to George’s story and the book at this link. George wants to ensure anyone who wants a copy can get one, so let bduke@thecrucibleproject.org know if you need assistance in getting a copy.

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Thriving in Covid Times: Heart & Soul

“How’s your heart?” my three year old asked his mom.  “My heart is full,” my wife answered.  “How is yours?”  My son answered, “My heart is naughty,” he smiled.

You can’t talk about the heart, until you define the heart.

The heart I am talking about is mentioned many times in the Scriptures.

Our hearts can provide strength (Psalm 73:2), be guarded (Prov. 4:23, Phil.4:7) and be purified (Matt 5:8).

The heart and the head/mind - seem to be separate things mentioned together.

In the ancient world, Greek and Hebrews among others, the heart was symbolic of the soul.  The heart is considered the seat of all morality and spiritual functions.

In these challenging times - caring for our soul is more important than ever.

If we just live on the surface, taking care of our bodies, being mindful of our lives - it’s not enough.  C.S. Lewis is typically attributed this quote from his favorite writer, George MacDonald:

"'Never tell a child you have a soul. Teach him, you are a soul; you have a body."

How do we care for our soul?  Three distinct, but connected ways:

1. Connect with God
2. Connect with our neighbors
3. Connect with ourselves

Connect with God

We cannot form character from inside our own selves.  We get our worth and sense of identity from God.  What God says about us is true and good and worthy.  If you believe what God  says about you is true, your identity is rooted in something that can’t be changed and can’t go away.  What does God say about you?  You found some things out on that initial Crucible weekend, and perhaps on second level or workshops.  The good news?  There’s more!

Connect with our neighbors

We must get more external connections with people that God created in His image.  Here’s the caveat - the BEST connections are with those who are safe, doing their own work, and connecting with God, others and themselves.  Henry Cloud states the four corners of connection:  No Connection, Bad Connection, Pseudo Connection and Real Connection.

Real connection gives ultimate freedom and self-control.  Don’t those sound like great things to have in a pandemic?  Fortunately Crucible Project small groups are excellent places to get real connection.

Real connection allows us to ultimately....

Connect with ourselves

We must learn to love ourselves as a result of experiencing love and acceptance and connection from God and others.  It is a natural flow from this experiential place that empowers us and helps us live out what God intended for us all along - a life that THRIVES.

Remember this story of Jesus in Mark 12:28-34?

One of the teachers of religious law was standing there listening to the debate. He realized that Jesus had answered well, so he asked, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”

Jesus replied, “The most important commandment is this: ‘Listen, O Israel! The Lord our God is the one and only Lord. And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength.’ The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’No other commandment is greater than these.”

The teacher of religious law replied, “Well said, Teacher. You have spoken the truth by saying that there is only one God and no other. And I know it is important to love him with all my heart and all my understanding and all my strength, and to love my neighbor as myself. This is more important than to offer all of the burnt offerings and sacrifices required in the law.”

Realizing how much the man understood, Jesus said to him, “You are not far from the Kingdom of God.” And after that, no one dared to ask him any more questions. 

The Mic Drop of Jesus is: Love of God, love of  neighbor and ourselves - THAT is how to THRIVE.

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 2

Let me remind you again: This is no ordinary time!

If you’ve made some commitments to take care of your body - remember your brain is a part of that.  You need water, rest and healthy hobbies to keep the brain going!

Even more amazing than the brain - is what the brain “houses”  our minds. 

Our minds are incredible mysteries that can adapt to extremely stressful situations, get us going to accomplish seemingly impossible tasks, and solve complex issues and problems.  Our minds are powerful.

The apostle Paul affirmed the power of the mind.  It’s worthy of a Bible study:

“Fix your mind…”  “Renew your mind…” “Think about these things…”  

“Have this mind among yourselves…”  “The world has blinded the minds…”

Paul knew the power of Mindfulness. 

People who experience consistent success and persevere through life have discovered the secret of Mindfulness. 

What is it?

Oxford Dictionary gives a few definitions that are helpful:

1. The quality or state of being conscious or aware of something.
2. A mental state achieved by focusing one's awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one's feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations, used as a therapeutic technique.

Remember your Crucible weekend? 

Everything was full of mindfulness - it was designed to help you become aware of what was working and not working in your life. 

By focusing on the present moment, you were able to work our feelings, thoughts, and body exercises that gave you a God-ordained experience!

In these extraordinary times, here are some ways to practice mindfulness:

• Regularly check-in with yourself and others around your feelings.  
• Meditate on phrases or verses of Scripture that are true and good.
• Get in touch with your attitude.  Attitude is one of the only things we can control.
• Cultivate your mind with gratitude.  Being thankful for what God has provided.
• Create a daily time and place to practice mindfulness. A morning and evening time where you can ground yourself in the morning and decompress your mind in the evening is relieving. 

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.” - Paul in Philippians 4:8

Next Issue:  Our Hearts

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 1

This is no Ordinary Time!

We can all agree that there are so many things that feel out of control - we feel hard pressed on all sides.  Our country is experiencing many crises at one time. We all can agree on that.

Stress levels are through the roof!  How do we deal with that?

In speaking with a variety of professionals and wise men & women from all backgrounds, here are insights that may help you move from surviving to thriving in these times.  While not an exhaustive list,  it is a good start.    We will cover Body, Mind, Heart & Soul in this series.

Today we focus on the Body!  Remember what the Apostle Paul wrote to the church in Corinth (who had confusion over the importance of the body): “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;  you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.” 1 Cor. 19-20

Your Body

1. Exercise well
2. Sleep well
3. Eat well
4. Wash your hands

Exercise Well! Just getting out for a 30 minute walk/jog is a huge help.  If you have a dog (or a child on a lease), you’ve already got an excuse to exercise.  In addition to being outdoors if you can, you can also exercise with instructors online.  Set up a routine, ask some friends to go with you (but follow social distance guidelines) and try a variety of things to see what you enjoy. When you exercise, you not only reduce the obvious stress you’re experiencing, but you prevent weight gain, boost your immune system and improve your sleep.

Sleep Well! Good sleep goes hand in hand with exercise (so does food).  It has all the same benefits as exercise - including preventing weight gain!  The Mayo Clinic defines fatigue as “a nearly constant state of weariness that develops over time and reduces your energy, motivation and concentration.” Even if you receive an adequate amount of sleep at night, fatigue can still leave you feeling tired and unmotivated in the morning. Establish a sleep routine of consistent wake-up, wind-down and bedtimes.

Eat Well! Stress can translate into poor eating habits.  Remember that we truly are what we eat.  If we load junk into the furnace, the furnace won’t work.  One of the greatest things I’ve ever learned was that you exercise to build muscle and immunity, but you lose weight by having good eating habits. 

Lastly, wash your hands!   Good hygiene is a huge deterrer to sickness! Plus, it puts into practice, Mindfulness, which we will showcase next time.

Treat your body well.  If you need a coach or personal accountability, remember your Crucible Redwoods stand ready to be supportive to you as you take care of you! Find out more about Crucible Coaching.

At the end of the day, we cannot control how others treat us, how others treat others or how others treat themselves.  We can control how we treat others and how we treat ourselves.

Next issue: Our Minds

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Coaching Bennies (Benefits)

Coaching is available for both men and women by highly trained and qualified Crucible coaches.

This isn't just for Crucible men and women - did you know that anyone can use our coaching services?

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Ancient Creeds in Modern Times

“They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers.” - Acts 2:42 (NRSV)
“Adversity does not build character, it reveals it.” - James Lane Allen 

Life in the age of pandemic  - trying times indeed.  If ever there was a season that has revealed much to us about ourselves, now is that time. 

As one of those who have stopped to reflect on how I have been responding and acting, I have discovered a deep truth.  I am not who I thought I was.  

I discovered in The Crucible Project and in recovery work - that the biggest problem in my life is myself.  And I have discovered new ways to live and respond to my family, friends, clients and others.  It’s been a good journey.

What about the way I live and respond to God?

Take for example, my prayer life.  I’ve had a short attention span with God in prayer.  Let’s just say - the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.  

I find myself going off course in prayer - being inconsistent - and wondering what to do.

The character of my prayer has been revealed to be about me.  When I’m angry, my prayers are angry.  When I’m sad, my prayers are sad.  My prayers are flighty and unfocused. And that’s if I pray at all.

Brian Zahnd states, “The primary purpose of prayer is not to get God to do what we think God ought to do, but to be properly formed.”

The verse from Acts mentioned above - shows how the early community of God was being formed.  They did four things:

1. Learned the apostle’s teachings about Jesus (The Bible)
2. Were in fellowship with each other (Community)
3. The weekly breaking of bread (Communion)
4. And “The Prayers” - Here we go!

“The Prayers” is descriptive of the early church teachings of the Creeds and Prayers that the followers of Jesus recited.  They were being properly formed by these liturgical truths.  

There’s no such thing as dead liturgy - only true or false liturgy.  There are dead or alive people.   Using the Creeds and Prayers is like putting up a trellis for vines to grow.  It takes the pressure off the soul and allows us truth to cling to and focus on - while we become formed in the likeness of Jesus.  Jesus taught us this.

When the disciples asked Jesus to teach them to pray - he did:

Our Father, Who Art In Heaven

Hallowed Be Thy Name

Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will Be Done

On earth as it is in Heaven

Give us this day our daily bread

And forgive us our trespasses, 

as we forgive those who trespass against us,

And led us not into temptation, 

But deliver us from evil, 

For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory forever. Amen.

There are so many amazing time tested prayers and creeds.  (The Apostle’s Creed, Nicene Creed, The Jesus Prayer, The Beatitudes in Matt 5, Psalm 23, Prayer of St. Francis, Confessional Prayers). I realize I am joining with past and present Jesus followers in prayer.

I started praying a set of them every morning - and it’s been transformational. 

My mind can focus on my heart - and my heart focuses on the deep truths of these rich treasures.  I even use my body in raising my hands, or moving about.  It fulfills the “Love the Lord  God with your Heart, Soul, Mind & Strength”  that is so important! 

Here’s a confessional example I pray and how it’s changing  me:

Most merciful God, we confess that we have sinned against you in thought, word, and deed, by what we have done, and by what we have left undone.

We have not loved you with our whole heart; we have not loved our neighbors as ourselves. We are truly sorry and we humbly repent.

For the sake of your Son Jesus Christ, have mercy on us and forgive us; that we may delight in your will, and walk in your ways, to the glory of your Name. Amen.

I am so much more in tune with my neighbors - all people I come in contact with - I am more tender and empathetic and helpful.  Why? God is forming me during my morning prayer time.

I do this every day.  My challenge to you is get a set of these prayers - and pray them for 30 days. 

Blessings as we journey with Jesus together. - Tim White

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Preparing to Go Live Again

When the Crucible COVID19 committee met for the first time, the discussion began with these perplexing questions:

• How can we implement the deep experiential and intimate programs within our weekends within healthy boundaries set by public health officials? 
• Will Personal Protective Equipment be required?
• Is it responsible for Crucible to consume PPE that hospitals while medical staff in hospitals are experiencing shortages and rationing them?

It is hard to imagine any way we can be fully compliant with current public health guidance with the way our Weekends protocols are currently organized.

Crucible Project staff have been working with Retreat Leaders and key volunteers to prepare for a safe launch of Weekends again as soon as public health officials tell us we can.

According to Roy Wooten, Executive Director, “It is likely that we will be able to hold face-to-face groups and Weekends in some Crucible Communities before others. We will go wherever we can as soon as we can!”

Rachel Shubin and Bob Locascio have been working with Redwood medical professionals to develop adaptations to our Weekends protocols to enhance staff and participant safety and reduce COVID fears that might be a barrier to getting what they came for.

Rachel Shubin states, “We are committed to maintaining the integrity of the Crucible Weekend experience, while also creating safety for participants and staff.”

The recommendations of this committee will hopefully support the reopening of face-to-face weekends and groups as soon as possible.

“I’m excited to be planning the restart of our weekends, and I know many regular staffers who share that excitement,”  says Bob Locascio.

If you have ideas about implementation of our groups and weekends during this pandemic, please contact Rachel or Bob. Keep Crucible and this committee in your prayers.

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Fear

I’m reminded of Henri Nouwen’s words about fear:  Fear, not hate, is the opposite of love and its obstacle, he said.   When we accept God’s unconditional love, we can find joy in the limited expression of this love in our intimate relationships, without feeling that we have to be God for each other.  “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” (I John 4:18)

Pastor John Casey, one of our long time Crucible Project leaders states:

“In my work as a hospital chaplain, the people who most deny their fear are those who claim connection with God.

To Zechariah and later to Mary, the angel said, “Do not fear.”   To the Israelites facing destruction, God said, “Fear not.”

We misunderstand God, I think.

God isn’t saying, “Never be afraid” or “Fear is wrong.”

Believing this, we deny our fear and miss deep connection with God.

When God says, “Fear not,” he means, “Do not stay in fear” and then almost always adds a way out.

In Psalm 23, “I fear no evil, for you are with me.”

To God’s people facing deportation, God says, “Fear not for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name…when you walk through the waters, I will be with you…”

In these chaotic times, feel your fear of getting sick, of losing ones you love, of not being able to pay your rent. And then look for reassurance—remember God’s past help, search for his presence now, ask him for your daily bread, remember your Father knows what you need. We are finite and will fear. Feel your fear and in the dark, feel for God who is always nearby.”

Remember what Paul writes in Philippians 4:6-7, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”   

Acknowledge your fear, reach out to God and to God's supportive people.  Let us take care of each other. - Tim White

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Owning Your Darkness

Wednesday, February 26 is Ash Wednesday, the start of Lent

Ash Wednesday derives its name from the  placing of repentance ashes on the foreheads of participants to either the words "Repent, and believe in the Gospel" or the dictum "Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return.”

Ash ceremonies typically recite Psalm 51, prayers of confession, and receiving the sign of the ashes, typically in the form of a cross - a blessing on the forehead.

Fasting, Abstinence and Repentance can also encompass Ash Wednesday.

People sat in Ashes to show on the outside what they knew was true about them on the inside.

In many faith traditions, ashes represent:

• Deep awareness of your sinfulness in God’s holy presence
• Resolve to operate in God’s power, and not your own.
• Your mortality - dust to dust, ashes to ashes.
• That you don’t have it all together.
• Showing honesty instead of hiding.
• Death & Mourning.
• Your Shadow, and conversely, your Gold.
• The truth you don’t want you to know about yourself revealed.

The Crucible Project has its own ash ceremony.  One where acknowledgement of one’s shadow is encouraged and a blessing offered to bring that shadow for others to see - as a gift.  What shadow shows up for you this season?

When we acknowledge the truth of our shadow side, we not only give it a voice that we may have repressed, we also use our shadow & brokenness to bring life and healing to ourselves and others.  

Psalm 51 is a beautiful reminder of owning our shadow & brokenness and sitting in honest reflection about who we really are - all the facets - and not sugar coating our lives.  

The promise of cleansing and healing is right there from God AS IS the ability to help others and bless them from the truth of owning our shadow and gold.  What gold do you bring to yourself and others this season?

May God richly bless you during this Lenten season as you own your darkness, in the light of God's grace and truth.

Psalm 51

Have mercy on me, O God,

    according to your unfailing love;

according to your great compassion

    blot out my transgressions.

Wash away all my iniquity

    and cleanse me from my sin.

For I know my transgressions,

    and my sin is always before me.

Against you, you only, have I sinned

    and done what is evil in your sight;

so you are right in your verdict

    and justified when you judge.

Surely I was sinful at birth,

    sinful from the time my mother conceived me.

Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;

    you taught me wisdom in that secret place. 

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;

    wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. 

Let me hear joy and gladness;

    let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

Hide your face from my sins

    and blot out all my iniquity.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,

    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Do not cast me from your presence

    or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation

    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways,

    so that sinners will turn back to you.

Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,

    you who are God my Savior,

    and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

Open my lips, Lord,

    and my mouth will declare your praise.

You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;

    you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;

    a broken and contrite heart

    you, God, will not despise.

May it please you to prosper Zion,

    to build up the walls of Jerusalem.

Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,

    in burnt offerings offered whole;

    then bulls will be offered on your altar.

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New Communication @ The Crucible Project

In our world, communication methods and tools change at a frenzying pace. New or even old ways start to seem like some foreign code.

Jesus communicated in code.  Parables to be exact. “With many such parables he spoke the word to them, as they were able to hear it; he did not speak to them except in parables, but he explained everything in private to his disciples.” (Mark 4: 33-34)

To his disciples, he explained what those coded parables meant.  

In a sense, those of us initiated on a Crucible Project weekend, are ‘brought in from the code’.  We learn a language and learn what it’s all about. This outside/inside communication isn’t unique to The Crucible Project, but it’s a tension we deal with.

We are currently exploring ways to expand both our communication methods based on the realities we experience:

• People are more mobile and use more mobile.
• More people scan for information, instead of deep reading.
• Email isn’t as big of a thing as it used to be - texting/messaging is.
• More information is disseminated via video and auditory delivery culturally. 
• Everyone longs for connection and we are committed to providing that connection.

Here is what we are doing and working on:

• Social Media to the outside audience.  We are exploring best methods and tools to let the world know about this ministry’s mission.  
• Texting Services internally.  We know we can't exclusively use email for our communication.  It’s now old-school to some groups!
• Shifting from Words to Video.  Attention spans are short. Studies show that people “consume” messages differently online than reading offline.
• New Monthly Town Hall meetings via Video.
• More FB Group Live communication from leadership as a way to keep in touch.
• Podcasting.  Replacing those amazing Crucible Project blog posts  (Thanks, Jeff!)

Do you have a question or idea?  Do you want to get involved? Email Tim White communications@thecrucibleproject.org 

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Lifelong Soul Work In Redwood Circles

Soul work circles have always been a part of The Crucible Project since its earliest days. As the organization expanded outside of Chicagoland, the need for training group leaders and replicating group exercises became apparent. The birth of the exercise group now called Growth Group was developed and launched in 2010.

Group Variety and Choices

Since then the variety of groups where soul work happens has continued to expand. Today the types of groups include the following:

• Growth Group – paid group led by a certified group leader, these exercises provide deeper understanding of core concepts taught on the weekend with the goal of integrating the weekend’s experiences.
• Development Group – paid group led by a certified carpet leader, this group offers the opportunity to experience carpet work every session for participants.
• 2 Year Group – this is a Development Group where a cohort of Redwoods also participate in all second level weekends together and includes individual coaching sessions.
• Journey Group – this free group is led by uncertified peer Redwoods with access to group exercise resources. Typically group leadership rotates within the group.
• Open Group – this free group is open to uninitiated people and is led by a Redwood with access to pre-weekend exercises.

 

Why Do Some Groups Have Fees?

All paid groups have certified group leaders. Group leaders invest time and energy achieving certification as well as coordinating and preparing for each group session. Certification ensures that group quality and safety remains at a high level. Group leaders receive compensation for their time and energy. Some of the group payments recover expenses in group development, marketing, and back office support.

Free groups are peer led. There may be a certified group or carpet leader in the group, but group leadership is shared by all Redwoods in the group. A large array of exercises are available for Journey groups to self-facilitate and are accessible with a request to your Regional Leader or Community Developer. For questions, contact Brittany Duke, Office Manager at BDuke@TheCrucibleProject.org.

Growth Group Curriculum Changes

With input from Regional Leaders, the Growth Group Curriculum has expanded to include three additional sessions which will be paid for in the weekend registration fees. In other words, all newly initiated Redwoods will have access to join a local or video based group without additional costs for the first three sessions of the Growth Group. These first sessions help new Redwoods experience group life, including Accountability and Clearings, which are essential to healthy group life.

If you are interested in becoming certified as a Group Leader or Carpet Leader, contact Byron Myers, Leadership Development Manager, to begin the process at LeadershipDevelopment@TheCrucibleProject.org.

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Gratitude This Thanksgiving

The Character Trait God Values Most

That is a big statement, to say THIS is the thing God values and desires in His people more than all else.  What is it?  There are some biggies that come to mind:  Righteousness and holiness.  For sure, God calls us to be Holy, set apart and to live righteous lives.  But there is a character trait that must be place BEFORE holiness or else the pursuit of holiness degrades quickly into self-righteous Phariseeism.

Self-sacrificial serving is another big character trait that seems to be a contender for the top spot on the list. But again, there is another trait the but go BEFORE serving, else the serving opportunities devolve into a self-serving martyr syndrome. What is that one character trait that tops the list that must come before any other?  The one trait that brings out a pleasing aroma to our Lord in the WAY all those good things are carried out?  HUMILITY.

Humility is prized by our Father more than anything else.  Its opposite is what God Adam and Eve expelled from the Garden and Lucifer from Heaven before that.  Humility’s opposite is what turns any good thing ugly. Yet, humility is one of those traits that seems to not be available to us in a head-on pursuit.  It seems to be the byproduct of something else that, unfortunately, is usually only talked about one time a year:  Gratitude.

Brennan Manning in his excellent book Ruthless Trust, outlines four specific types of gratitude that, when practiced, yield the sweet fruit of genuine humility before the Lord and men.  In chapter two he outlines four ideas which I have re-arranged a bit in order to spell a word (call me crazy, but it helps me remember things!):  PACT. Daily I make a PACT with my heart to be thankful to God in these four ways and the result is humility.

• Present in God’s presence in the present. It is easy to wallow in yesterday’s losses or tomorrow’s what-ifs.  But to be present with God, here and now, and thankful for this very moment and the very air filling your lungs does something to the human soul.  It reminds you of your place before God.
• All inclusive Gratitude. The Bible says to give thanks to God IN ALL things.  Years ago my dad went through 17 years of brain tumors before one finally took him home to be with Jesus. After recovery from his first brain surgery, he said, “I would not wish brain tumors on my worst enemy, but I would not trade them for the world.  They have served to bring me closer to God than ever and closer to may family than ever.  I thank God for my brain tumors.”
• Contagious Gratitude. To ensure your gratitude is up to par, it must pass the test: Does my gratitude infect others with the desire to be grateful?
• Theocentric Gratitude. It is so easy to become self-centered in all of our thinking, even what we are thankful for. When we maintain God at the center our gratitude takes on a different shape.

Manning says that when we have this type of Gratitude, it produces in us the sweet fruit of humility, which is so precious to God.  So may challenge to you during thanksgiving (and beyond) is to get beyond the surface level of thankfulness and dig deep.  Make a PACT with your heart to cultivate THIS type of gratitude—then watch humility start to take shape in your life.

(Thoughts on gratitude this Thanksgiving from Texas Redwood Pastor Dr. Kevin Pigg.)

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Introduction to the Enneagram

By now you’ve probably heard of the Enneagram. It’s garnering a lot of attention lately and with good reason! This practical tool can give you remarkable self-clarity, increased emotional intelligence and greater empathy for others. It’s also an excellent team building tool – improving communication, collaboration, and morale while lessening conflict and making it more constructive.

So, what exactly is the Enneagram?

The Enneagram is a personality theory that recognizes 9 distinct personality types. The word Enneagram comes from two Greek words: ennea = nine, and gram = drawing. What sets it apart from other personality theories is that while other theories tend to focus on behavior (Myers-Briggs, DISC, Strengthsfinder, etc.), the Enneagram goes beyond the superficial to focus on motives. The WHY behind the WHAT provides vital insights into ourselves and others. This emphasis on motives is a very biblical concept! 1 Corinthians 4:5 states: “So don’t make judgments about anyone ahead of time—before the Lord returns. For he will bring our darkest secrets to light and will reveal our private motives.”

Enneagram Types and Common Characteristics

1 (The Perfectionist) – Precise, moral, diligent, reliable. Loves organizing.

2 (The Helper) – Caring, helpful, considerate, warm. Loves serving.

3 (The Performer) - Hard working, driven, focused, efficient. Loves competition.

4 (The Romantic) – Empathetic, sensitive, tasteful, intellectual. Loves creating.

5 (The Investigator) – Analytical, resourceful, knowledgeable, private. Loves problem solving.

6 (The Loyalist) – Loyal, dedicated, responsible, thorough. Loves planning.

7 (The Enthusiast) – Fun, inspiring, energetic, versatile. Loves adventures.

8 (The Challenger) – Protective, decisive, bold, compassionate.  Loves challenges.

9 (The Peacemaker) – Thoughtful, kind, inclusive, steady. Loves nature.

Each type has its own unique core motivations – comprised of it’s core fear, core desire, core weakness, and core longing. Understanding why we do what we do allows us to cooperate with the Holy Spirit in becoming more like Christ.

In the summer of 2020, I invested in myself by getting some Enneagram coaching. The five sessions I had were amazing! The coaching helped to lift my “inner fog” and better understand myself. It helped me become a better leader, husband, father, friend, and follower of Christ. It was so helpful that I decided to become a certified Enneagram coach myself! Since becoming a coach, I love seeing the light bulb turn on for people as the Enneagram exposes their true, God-given personality – the good, the bad, and the ugly! In Redwood terms – you develop a sharper vision of both your shadow and your gold.

Recommended Resources

1. The Road Back To You by Ian Morgan Cron and Suzanne Stabile. This is the place to start your Enneagram exploration; This book gives you the basics simply, concisely and with great humor!
2. The 9 Types of Leadership: Mastering the Art of People in the 21^st Century Workplace by Beatrice Chestnut. Intensely practical – If you lead a team, you need this book!
3. Your Enneagram Coach is a very biblical, gospel-centered ministry with a lot of resources – including a free online assessment.
4. NewLifeEnneagram.com is where I provide resources.

One final piece of advice: we should never use the Enneagram as a club or a shield. We use it as a club when we deride others by saying (or thinking) things like, “You are so bossy, you’re such an 8” or “You are a typical 4, always so melancholy.” We use it as a shield when we excuse our own bad behavior by saying things like, “I can’t help that I’m so critical – I’m a 1” or “I’m a 7, you can’t expect me to follow through on the details.”

While I believe the Enneagram is a helpful tool, I also firmly believe that it’s the good news of Jesus Christ that changes lives - NOT the Enneagram. Used correctly, the Enneagram shouldn't encourage you to “try harder” but rather lead you to lean into the mercy and provision of God as found in Jesus Christ.

Dave Corlew, Chicagoland Community

Get in touch with me here.

 

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Welcome New Support Team Members

The Crucible staff team serves to support the mission-centric work of Crucible volunteers throughout the globe.  In 2020, the staff supporting the organization was halved in order to meet the demands of the pandemic.  As our volume of weekends and giving returned, our staff is growing to meet today’s new demands.

Welcome Kenny Johnston as Full-time Men’s Ministry Coordinator

Kenny attended his initial weekend in July 2016 and started staffing weekends almost immediately. He is a certified group leader and is actively working towards his certification for both retreat leader and carpet leader. He graduated from Sam Houston State University in 2005 with a degree in music and history.  He spent most of his professional life in secondary education teaching percussion, history, and Bible. He is also a Bible teacher at his local church.  Kenny lives in Spring, TX, with his wife Lisa and their two elementary-age children, Timothy and Michaela.

Men’s Ministry Leader, Byron Myers, stated, “Although it was a difficult decision, I believe Kenny Johnston is the right person for the Men’s Ministry Coordinator position at this time.  Kenny will be also filling a community coordinator function that is currently missing as well as taking on some tasks and projects that I have in que and need completion.   I believe Kenny will be an asset to Men’s ministry.”

Welcome Jess Donovan as Part-time Communications Coordinator 

Jess Donovan is a proud New Englander who lives in New Hampshire. Her soul work journey started in the Northeast

community in 2021.  She is passionate about communicating in a way that is effective and engaging.  She shared, “Partnering alongside Crucible to help others in life transformation is a huge blessing to me”.  When she’s not working you can find her hiking, dancing, or exploring with friends.

Executive Director Roy Wooten shared, “The candidates for this position were all awesome and it was a tough decision made with prayer and input from interview committees.  I’m so glad to have Jess’ enthusiasm for Christ-centered soul work and her understanding of communicating in ways that this generation will consume will be such a gift to the ministry with her in this role.  I look forward to having Jess sharing Crucible with the world in this formal way”.

 

 

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Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Pastor Greg Huston went on a secular men’s retreat to work on the “things in the basement of his life” effecting his key relationships and ministry and experienced grace in such a unique way that he had never experienced over the course of his lifetime in Christian ministry.  He felt God’s calling to take this grace-filled experience to the Christian world.  What started as groups and coaching in the early 2000’s morphed into The Crucible Project ministry in 2005.  Now over six thousand across the USA and on three continents have touched their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of our Savior on one of our weekends.

Because of Greg’s inspirational actions that created a Christ-centered soul work movement across the globe, Crucible leadership has created an award to recognize him and an annual recipient.  We are calling it, the Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity Award

Founder Greg Huston

Greg served as a pastor for 17 years in several churches in Philadelphia and Chicago.  He holds a Bachelors degree in Bible from Grace College and a Masters of Arts in religion from Westminster Theological Seminary.  Greg first launched what would become The Crucible Project under his coaching practice, Dare to Soar.  Under his 13 years of leadership, more than 1700 souls experienced our life changing work.  He also expanded Crucible beyond its initial roots in Chicagoland to flourishing communities in Texas, Colorado and Australia.  Although he retired from active ministry leadership in 2015, he continues to serve as a weekend leader.

Greg Presents First-Ever Recipient

At this year’s annual gathering, Greg introduced this year’s recipient.  “It is my privilege to present the first ever Greg Huston Inspirational Integrity award this evening to Les Crooks.  Four years ago a mentor invited Les to attend the Crucible weekend.  He left empowered and wanting more.  He was an unhealthy warrior who was not the man he wanted to be.  He soon joined the 2 year transformational program.  Over the course of the next two years, he discovered how his warrior energy can be shifted to sovereign blessing energy, strengthening relationships with his wife and three boys.

Les Crook’s Leadership Project

As the Penn High School Buildings Trades teacher for the past 22 years, he is always active and building something.  His 2 year group leaders, Scott Selby and Bill Snyder, and his coach and mentor Chris Cleghorn, challenged him to use his warrior energy to make a difference in his leadership project.  Les began challenging himself by riding his bike longer and longer distances.  He signed up for the race around Michigan and continued finding different challenges to better himself mentally and physically.  Les’s leadership project began to take shape.

Goal that is a Stretch!

What if he joined the Race Across America championing Crucible from coast to coast?  It would stretch him to be able to lead a team of crew members required, find the resources and volunteers necessary to safely accomplish the race, including a follow-van and RV, medical expertise and all the supplies.  What if he could stretch himself to lead others to donate $100,000 of financial support for Crucible weekends?

Goal Achievement

That is exactly what he did.  Les left Oceanside, California on his bike on June 14^th and finished the grueling 3088 mile journey 11 days and 8 hours later.   Less than 500 people have ever completed the solo Race Across America.  Les’s goal to raise awareness caused significant increases in website visitors, new Compass Resource email subscribers, social media followers and inquiries for 2 year programs, weekends, groups and coaching.  Not only has his efforts raised awareness, but his physical challenge inspired donors to give $100,000 toward financial assistance for future participants.”

Les Crooks Award Winner

Les Crooks responded by sharing, “I would have never taken the chance to go for such a huge goal without the work I received on my weekend and through the 2-year transformational program.  I am so thankful to my wife and family, my crew, Bill Snyder who was there every pedal along the way, and all of you helped support and donate. This has been life changing.  Thank you so much Greg  Huston.  I’m honored and I humbly accept.”

 

 

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No One Left Behind Initiative

^“A shepherd in charge of 100 sheep notices that one of his sheep has gone astray. What do you think he should do? Should the shepherd leave the flock on the hills unguarded to search for the lost sheep? God’s shepherd goes to look for that one lost sheep,”

Matt 18:12 (VOICE)

At Crucible, we believe that every soul is a precious gift from God and worthy of us inviting them to experience the life changing soul work of Crucible. Every new Redwood is valued enough to not let fade away but instead be invited into a soul work lifestyle that will help them survive the ups and downs of life.  Every soul, regardless of their relationship with God, socioeconomic status, race, culture or ethnicity, nationality or political leanings should have access to the gift of soul work.

No One Left Behind in Your Sphere of Influence

What you got for yourself on your initial weekend is the miraculous work of God.  Moving from the lies you once believed to a new truth about who you are at the core of your soul was so transformational that it had a ripple effect in your marriage, family, church, workspace and neighborhood.

We believe everyone you know should have the opportunity to experience what you experienced. As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, we are developing a dropbox full of resources to help you share this ministry with everyone you know.  New Redwoods will soon begin leaving the weekend with resources in their hands to promote upcoming weekends to their friends, family, coworkers and church.  Resources are in development for each Graduation attendees to leave with as well.

No New Redwoods Left Behind

Too many Redwoods leave their initial weekend and never connect with other Redwoods in their community.  This is especially true for Redwoods who do not live near a large or budding community.  It is vitally important for each soul who has touched a piece of their shadow and experienced the scandalous grace of God to find immediate support for their continued journey.

We believe each new Redwood needs a community where the ups and downs of life can be met with Christ-centered soul work in a Crucible community.  As part of the No One Left Behind, we have implemented a post-weekend interview with the same pre-weekend interviewer.  A new Online Community will capture souls who live far from a Crucible community to provide follow up for online groups.  Growth Groups are being scheduled before each weekend to begin within 6 weeks post weekend.  Group coordination has been strengthened across Crucible Communities.

No One Left Behind Due to Financial Constraints

Money should never be a barrier to anyone who wants to engage in soul work within Crucible. Growth Group and initial weekend access should be available regardless of ability to pay the set fees.  We are a nonprofit ministry that provided $112,138 in financial assistance for initial weekends in the past 12 months.  Support for our work in Mexico, Rwanda, Kenya and other special communities provide resources allowing every soul to attend regardless of their financial situation.

We believe each Redwood should be given the opportunity to “pay-it-forward” by joining other Redwoods in financially supporting the ministry.  As part of the No One Left Behind initiative, changes to pre and post weekend communications will strengthen Crucible’s culture of generosity providing the financial resources to leave no one behind due to their financial situation.

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Soul Work on the African Continent

There were two landmark events for Crucible the past couple months: Launching work in Rwanda with a first Crucible Weekend in Rwanda and doing the first Level II Weekend in Kenya, Africa. These two events came together through an intense and complex journey of just four months from idea inception to execution.  This is a summary of the story:

In December we were presented an opportunity to bring Crucible work to Rwanda by tapping relationships and the leadership of some men who had experience with Christian soul work.  We were known to them by reputation.  We went after this seeing it as a unique opportunity to build on our Crucible work already underway on the African Continent. This meant calling together a team of men who could provide leadership as staff from the US and especially African men from Kenya and possibly South Africa.

I was asked to run point on this project by Byron.  There were many unusual elements.  We recruited a small team of experienced US Redwoods who would commit to over two weeks of travel and cover their own expenses.  To have a core of local Rwandans, a number of men who had done another men’s soul work experience went through Crucible’s Online Intensive in February. This created a local staff. The staff included them and nine men who came from Kenya, at their own expense and raising some funds from their community.  Six Americans were part of the team, and one we lost to quarantining in Kigali for a week with COVID and could not serve, except to pray.

Key to all of this was the initial outreach from Jamie Whyte from Colorado who had the network of relationships in Rwanda with Christian men, leaders and close contacts with Hope Haven School which hosted the weekend. Jamie’s leadership and investment in all ways made this weekend possible.

Several generous Redwoods gave financially to help cover costs of this start up. Men from different men’s work experiences, and men from America, Kenya and Rwanda blended into a team that worked together beautifully.

One important element of doing soul work in Rwanda is the fact that the country today is still deeply affected by the national horror of the 1994 genocide there.  More than 800,000 civilians—primarily members of the Tutsi - were killed during the campaign over 100 days. As many as 2,000,000 Rwandans fled the country. This is a scar for all Rwandans and every man on a weekend comes with some residual trauma. In light of this history, we intentionally stepped into local history orientation to attempt to understand this experience, and the Kenyan and American staff men visited the Rwanda Genocide Memorial together prior to arriving at the weekend site.

18 men went through the initial weekend, all Rwandan men except, ironically two Americans (read about one of them here.). There were so many unique aspects of this and it was an extraordinary experience for everyone. The staff men from Kenya had their first taste of helping to take a Crucible work to a new country.  Key leadership came from Pastor Jimmy Muyango of Rwanda who was enrolled as local leader and provided important guidance, and linguistic and cultural interpretation.  Kenyan leader Ananda Kinisu of The Tribe served as Co-leader of the weekend and led the Kenyan team.

Immediately following the Weekend in Rwanda the staff scattered to other business or home, and some crossed to Kenya.  On the next weekend all the Kenyan staff men were participants in the Leadership Joy retreat as the US team came to do that retreat with support of two key staff from Kenya.  Alan Hicks and Kariuki Thande did all the work of the weekend while still serving as staff experiencing a rare blend of staffing and participating in processes throughout.  For the second level weekend, there were a total of 18 Kenyan Redwoods, going deeper into their work as they focused and became more aware of living as kings!

The US team for both the Rwanda initial and Kenya Leadership weekends was Jay Mountjoy and Paul Storaci from Colorado Community, Byron Myers and myself.  Personally, for me, Rwanda was the most demanding preparation and execution of a weekend I’ve worked on.

In the near future, we see continued initial and Level II weekends in Kenya, continued initial weekends in Rwanda, and our first Kenyan Women’s initial weekend.  All of it will take Redwoods giving of their time and financial resources to make it possible.

The bottom line: we have seen this in places everywhere in the United States and in Australia, Mexico, Kenya, South African – this work and the Crucible weekend “works” across cultures and geographies.

Chris Cleghorn

Volunteer Ambassador

 

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Confidentiality in Our Circles

On Friday night of your initial weekend, you heard the following:

“What goes on throughout this weekend as well as each soul’s story is confidential. Whatever a man says and does here, stays here. When you leave this place, you may talk about what you learn about yourself, but not the work of others. The staff will not share anything they hear about you, nor should you share what you hear about any other. The only exception to this rule is that there may be an obligation to report to social agencies if anyone shares that they are currently abusing children or the elderly in any way. Anyone feeling the need to make such a report is asked to notify staff.  However, we as a staff remain committed to helping you face and overcome such a pattern and will work with you toward liberating you from your abusive practices.”

Confidentiality is a sacred trust with those we do our soul work with.  Whether it is on a weekend, in a group setting or with a Crucible coach, the agreement to keep confidential each person’s work is the bedrock foundation of safety for each soul.

Breaking Confidentiality by Reporting

Crucible policy only places safety as a higher value than confidentiality.  Crucible leaders are trained to break confidentiality when there is abuse or neglect of elderly or children, and when there is imminent harm to others, such as when someone reports they intend to harm themselves or others.

Breaking confidentiality to report is always a difficult decision.  If someone is in harms way, a report to a family member or governmental entities may be obligatory.  In the post-“me-too” era and the aftermath of catholic sexual abuse cover-ups, many states have added laws of required reporting beyond child and elderly abuse.  At the core of any decision to break confidentiality and report, we must keep in mind that the only reason to report must be to protect from harm’s way.

Container Leaks

Container leaks include sharing another’s work to others who are voluntarily staffing a weekend as well as casual conversations with another Redwood over drinks or meal.  Some break confidentiality when they share another’s work with their spouse.  It is never OK to tell another soul’s story unless it is determined that a report for safety reasons is necessary.

If you find a container leak, it is important that you call into account the person who has possibly broken the container.  We have a process for that!  Your Regional Leader , Group Leader, or any of our certified Retreat Leaders can assist you.

Recommit to Confidentiality

Anytime you find yourself wondering about your container holding, ask for a recommitment to confidentiality.  Bring any perceived breaches to your circle.  Your retreat leader on a weekend or group leader can assist with any questions you might have.  Byron and Lisa are great resources for any questions you might have about our policies.

 

 

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“I got what I came for and more!”

You probably said something like that.  That’s what all but a few Redwoods say on every Sunday afternoon to the final leader before they leave their initial weekend.  A small number say, “I got a great start toward it.”

God has met your courage, and the courage of over 5,800 men and women as they wrestled with Him around wounds at the core of their soul on our transformational weekends.  Their weekends ignited Christ-like change through experiences of radical honesty and grace.

Over 700 Redwoods volunteered to staff one of our weekends last year, committed to creating a world where men and women live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose.

Over $85,000 of financial assistance was given to participants last year.  Redwoods “paid it forward” allowing souls to find peace, confidence, clarity, power, joy, purpose, and freedom last year.

If you are currently a donor, thank you on behalf of so many who your funds help!  If you are not a donor yet,

Will you join with hundreds of other Redwoods to “pay it forward” so that more souls will be able to experience radical honesty and grace?

Get Your Sticker!

If you say “yes”, I want to send you a token gift of appreciation.  Set up a monthly contribution at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or send a monthly check to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.  When you do, I’ll send you a couple of “Radical Honesty & Grace” stickers, like the one above, for you to place on a vehicle, cup, laptop, or whatever you choose.  If you are already a donor, your sticker will be coming to your mailbox soon.

I’m praying that your donation will help over 1,000 men and women become Redwoods in 2022.  I am also praying that the stickers I send you will be a point of conversation with others in your life to invite them to a weekend.

Join the hundreds of Redwoods who are “paying it forward” so that this ministry continues to create weekend experiences where every soul “gets what they came here for and more!”

Continuing the Journey and helping others start theirs,

Roy Wooten

 

 

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Souls Are Waiting

In addition to volunteering to staff Weekends, Crucible needs your help.  Want to volunteer?

Scheduler – Do you have experience scheduling multiple people for meetings?  We are looking for a virtual scheduler who would be willing to help set up meetings.  .  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke

Database Manager – Looking for a Redwood with high attention to detail and experience with Excel or databases, such as CRMs, Salesforce, etc.  If you have time and high attention to detail, we’ll train you.  If interested, connect with Brittany Duke.

Content Developers – Redwoods with years of experience in soul work and participating or leading groups who might want to work with other experienced Redwoods to create new experiences for non-Redwoods across the globe through My Journey To online offerings.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Communications Coordinator – Are you good at editing?  If you have experience with MailChimp and would like to assist with growing outward facing communications, connect with Roy Wooten.

Podcast Host – Work with a team of volunteer podcasters to interview guests as part of the Crucible Podcast launching soon.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Testimonials – Would you be willing to share your testimonial in a video or audio format?  If so, we’ll help with interview questions.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Video and Audio Editors – Do you have skills editing video and audio recordings?  We are looking for volunteers willing to serve 2-4 hours per week to help with editing audio for podcasts and video for outward facing communications.  If interested, connect with Roy Wooten.

Online Crucible Intensive Staff – are you passionate about helping those who cannot attend an in-person Weekend? If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Local Men’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Byron Myers.

Local Women’s Community Coordinators – tracking materials, organizing local trainings, recruiting staff for retreats. If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski

Weekly Check-In Hosts – Wednesday check-ins are here to stay, and we’d like to get organized and expand our host rotation! It’s a great way to step into leading and hosting on Zoom in a relaxed, low-pressure environment! If interested, connect with Lisa Modrzejewski.

Pre-Retreat & Post-Retreat Interviewers – Like talking on the phone? Good at basic facilitation skills? You do not need to be staffing a particular retreat to help with interviews. You’ll receive training and detailed instructions for how to complete the interview. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Participant Coordinators – like emailing with participants and tracking details? Work with retreat leaders to help women get to the retreats with all the information they need! Got a sturdy shield and lots of grace to extend to scared participants who have not yet gone on their Crucible retreat and know what you already know? Maybe you’re cut out for being a participant coordinator! Requires some customer service, computer and problem solving. If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

Staff Coordinators – If you enjoy being the hostess, you’ll love being staff coordinator! Help make sure staff have the info they need for meetings, updated protocols, and coordinate travel and bedding for staff who are traveling in from out of town.  If interested, notify Retreat Leader during Staff Application.

 

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Continuing Your Soul Work

Attend Second Level Weekends

Unshackled: Breaking the Chains of Shame - Women

February 4-6 Hempstead, TX

Available to women who have attended the Crucible Women’s Weekend, is a deep dive into breaking free from the shame-based identities that bind us.  Women will walk away knowing at a core level who God has created us each to be.  Register Here!

Leadership Joy - Men

February 4-6 St. Charles, IL

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Mission - Men

March 4-6 Como, CO

September 9-11 St. Charles, IL

WHAT IT IS

The core of a man’s life is his purpose. Without a conscious mission a man is lost, drifting and adapting to circumstances in his life, rather than creating events. We believe Jesus lived on mission and modeled how He wants us to fulfill our purpose as followers of Him (Luke 4:18, 19:10). This entire weekend is devoted to exploring the core of your life — your mission.  Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn to minimize distractions and detours and live from your heart, giving your gifts to the world.

Develop a conscious, actionable mission and align your life with it.

Challenge and support to embrace your purpose.

Deepen your commitment to act with integrity.

Sexuality Weekend - Men

April 8-10 Andover, CT

August 26-28 Chidlow, Western Australia

September 16-18 Como, CO

WHAT IT IS

If you are like most men, the word “sex” stirs up a wide range of emotions and experiences – from joy, delight and ecstatic pleasure to shame, anger and pain. How can something that God designed as such a wonderful gift become a source of such confusion, darkness and despair for so many men? This entire weekend is focuses on tackling the multifaceted subject of sex. If you long to move toward seeing your sexuality as a wonderful gift God has given you to enjoy, then this weekend is for you. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Investigate the “dark side” of sexuality – looking at the woundedness and shame you carry

Explore how men use sex to avoid unpleasant feelings—and chart a better path to emotional health

Reclaim your sexuality as a sacred gift to be repossessed—not repressed

Experience healing and freedom in a safe place to engage in a holistic process

Leadership: Dark Side - Men

May 20-22

Brownwood, TX

WHAT THEY ARE

Go beyond just gathering more information about leadership; learn how to make authentic, courageous leadership a part of who you are. These two weekends and the accompanying leadership project provide a roadmap for you to practically engage what your heart longs to give your family, church, community and the world. Register Here!

WHAT YOU’LL GET

Learn about authenticity, integrity, brokenness, courage, vision, servanthood and blessing in leadership.

Identify the ways you limit your leadership and then break through those barriers.

Learn to lead from your true essence and power instead of image or persona.

Discover how to increase your influence — how to lead as a Servant-King who uses his gifts to bless those he serves.

Develop and execute a leadership project.

Groups

CRUCIBLE PROJECT SOUL GROUPS WERE FORMED OUT OF THE RECOGNITION OF THE NEED FOR MEN AND WOMEN TO CONTINUE THE WORK FOLLOWING THEIR INITIAL WEEKEND.

What It Is

Small circles of men or women (typically 6-10) are committed to grow into deeper levels of authenticity, honesty, transparency and grace in a safe and non-condemning environment. Groups typically meet three times a month — although it varies by group — and are led by a trained facilitator. Groups are open to men and women who have completed an initial weekend (or equivalent). Groups are offered locally within our established communities, or you may join one of our many video-based groups that meet online.

What You’ll Get

• Support and positive challenge for your continued work and the goals you want to reach.
• Learn from the deepest experience of other men or women as they share their work with you.
• An unparalleled group experience of safety, openness and trust.
• The tools, skills and healing to live a more passionate, powerful life

Connect to an in-person or online Growth Group, Journey Group or Development Group for Men or Women.

Get a Crucible Certified Coach

What is it?

Hiring a Crucible Certified Coach is like hiring a trainer/guide for fitness, wilderness adventures or home design.  Coaching helps you move from a stuck place toward your goals.  Crucible Coaching has the express purpose of helping men & women move toward Christlikeness and become more like Jesus.  Crucible Project coaches meet you where you are at and help you become a better version of yourself.  Coaches do this by unlocking your God-given gifts, talents, and goodness.

How does it work?

Generally, you meet by phone or online for about fifty minutes. Prior to each session you will complete a brief questionnaire about your progress and what specifically you would like to focus on during the session together.  During the session the coach will serve as a guide in helping you achieve your goals. Before the end of the session you will confirm the next session. Appointments are at varied times of the week at the day and time you agree upon.

We use methods, language, and some processes practiced by The Crucible Project as well as the individual coach’s skill set.

What are the benefits?

In coaching you will discover how and where you are stuck, be guided to break through barriers and achieve your goals. You will find a trusted professional walking alongside and encouraging you; giving guidance as you move out of your current place to something better; someone who can tap your own personal resources and God-given giftedness to live as a better you. The cost of coaching is included in the Two-Year Transformation program.

Join the Two-Year Transformational Program for Men!

THE TWO-YEAR TRANSFORMATIONAL PROGRAM IS AN INTENSE PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT TRACK FOR MEN WHO ARE COMMITTED IN THEIR BOLD JOURNEY TO LIVE FULLY AS WARRIORS, LOVERS, SAGES AND KINGS — LIKE JESUS.

The Two-Year Program is open to men who have completed an Initial Weekend (or equivalent).

What It Includes

• Second Level Weekends
  • Mission/Life Purpose
  • Sexuality
  • Leadership: Facing the Dark Side and Discovering the Hero Within
  • Leadership: Moving Through Barriers Towards Joy
• Development Group membership. Continue your work with other men willing to make the same two-year commitment as you. Groups meet three times a month and are led by a trained facilitator. In addition to local face-to-face groups, we offer a video conferencing based group for those living in an area without a local group.
• Monthly coaching calls to further refine your journey in the two-year program.
• Staffing opportunities. Priority staff placement for all 1st-Level weekends to use what you are learning in service to other men.

What You’ll Get

• Discover and live your God-given purpose as a man.
• Become a more authentic man who lives at deeper levels of integrity.
• Engage your God-given inner strength to live with greater confidence and courage.
• Live more courageously – willing to shake things up and take risks; penetrating your world.
• Learn to live from your heart.
• Let go of the sexual shame you carry and embrace your sexuality as a sacred gift – full of life, connection and creativity.
• Build more authentic, loving relationships.
• Grow as a more effective leader.

Contact us for more information and cost

Workshops and Connections

FREE Weekly Redwood Men's or Women's Check In

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Caring For Your Inner Child

January 21, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Caring For Your Inner Child.

Register in Events!

Live Connection - Morning Stillness & Check In

January 25, 8-9AM CDT

Beginning your day with a meditation, stilling your soul. Center yourself for a productive day.

Register in Events!

Live Connection – Lunchtime Discussion – Motivation Without Shaming

January 27, 12-1 PM CDT

Join us for a BYOL open discussion on the topic: Motivation Without Shaming.

Register in Events!

FREE Live Workshop: Why Am I Stuck?

January 29, 9-11AM CDT

An opportunity to explore how and why we get stuck when trying make changes in our lives. Work on some specific area you’d like to change and develop a plan to move forward.

Register in Events

Introduction to Facilitation Training for Men

Connecticut Jan 22–23, 2022 In person or online. Led by yours Judson Poling.  $350 per person or $600 for couples.  In this training, you will learn the theory of all Carpet Work processes as well take a deep-dive into the specific steps of Anger and Support processes. The training will provide several opportunities to review and practice those steps. You’ll also learn how to refine what the participant really wants; what are people's different learning styles and the language to use that fits their style; and understand your own facilitator shadows. To maximize your learning, we recommend you carefully read over the manual before attending, which requires you to register at least four weeks in advance. If you register later, you’ll get the manual when you arrive on Saturday.

Register Here!

Staff an Upcoming Weekend

Staff an Upcoming Weekend
Men, Andover, CT March 18-20
Women, St. Charles, IL April 1-3
Men, Chouteau, OK April 1-3
Men, North Zulch, TX April 1-3
Men, Como, CO April 8-10
Women, Andover, CT April 22-24
Men, Sexuality, Andover CT April 8-10
Apply!

 

 

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The Gift of Christmas

Christmas Season Points to Jesus

I love that across the world, people are reminded annually that Jesus came into the world to “be God’s representative tot eh poor, to preach good news to them, to tell those who are held captive that they can now be free, that the blind can now see, to liberate those held down by oppression and to proclaim that now is the time and jubilee season of grace.” (Luke 4:18-21 VOICE).

Jesus is the Unquenchable Source of Light

Jesus’ entrance into the world was light coming into darkness.  John’s gospel tells us that Jesus was with God before creation and that He was the source of light in the universe “that thrives in the depths of darkness, blazes through murky bottoms – it cannot and will not be quenched.” (John 1:5 VOICE).

No Room in the Inn

But what has my attention this year is this part of Luke 2:7 VOICE, “because the inn had no room for them.”  During my elementary school years, it never made much sense to me when the Sunday school teacher shared this story.  How can they not make room for the Savior of the world?

Do I Make Room for Jesus?

What has me thinking about this verse so much is that I am not sure that I make enough room for Jesus in my life today.  I believe when Jesus said that He is always with those of us who call Him King of our lives.  But my awareness of His presence is absent far too frequently than I’d like to admit.   Distracted by the list of tasks to be accomplished today, commitments I’ve made, my health, our family schedule, work challenges, relationship struggles, and whatever breaking news is going on, I do not make room to create awareness of Jesus who is always with me.

Challenged To Make Room

Knowing this, I am committed to creating space as a part of my daily routine to arouse my personal awareness of Jesus with me.  In my space, I am committed to talking to Jesus through prayer and listening for anything He has to say to me about whatever is going on in my life at that time.  I’m committed to spending some time with an open Bible in a reading program that focuses me on my relationship with Him.  I am excited about what making room in my life for Jesus might bring to the rest of my life.

Need more light in your life?  Perhaps you will join me in making room for Jesus in your awareness as well!

(adapted from Dave Rider)

 

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Giving Groups

Every year several Journey Groups send in a group donation to Crucible.  We wanted to find out how it began and why they continue to give back to Crucible in this manner.  We interviewed Christopher Dorsano and Larry Korbus who generously shared their responses.

When did your group start doing it and why?

Larry said,

“Our Journey Group, we call “TCP Sequel”, was founded in April, 2014 by five men who were graduating from the 2-Year Program within one or two months of each other. (Four of the five men are still members today. The other relocated to another state.) We decided we did not want our “journey” together to end upon graduation. We wanted to “grow old together”. (Or as one of the men jokes, “grow older together”.)

The five of us met with members of two other Journey Groups to learn how they structured and governed themselves. We then drafted group documents which are still in place 8 years later.  One of the documents we agreed to stated, “In lieu of dues, each man is expected to make a donation to The Crucible Project. The donation should be made each month in the amount of $25 or a bi-annual donation in the amount of $150 or an annual donation in the amount of $300.””

Chris said,

“We have always done it that way. The fundamentals all came from Crucible and they are doing all they can to change lives and help them out of their deep waters. That is a mission I can put my money behind.”

Why does your group think giving back to the ministry is important

Larry replied:

“The founding members of TCP Sequel realized what a gift The Crucible Project had given us. We had grown significantly in areas of leadership, integrity and living our mission. We, in turn, wanted to give back to ensure that The Crucible Project continued to impact the lives of other men. We also did not want any existing or new members to take our group “lightly” or for granted. Therefore, requiring group members to make a minimum annual donation to The Crucible Project became a requirement for membership.”

Chris replied,

“The best way to make an impact I am not able to do with my own time is by tithing so others that do have the time can change lives.”

What do your group members get for themselves by giving to crucible? What are the benefits of your generosity?

Larry commented:

“We rest assured that our financial contributions are going to a ministry that is dedicated to changing the lives of men and women for the better. There’s a comfort in knowing that our continued support helps to maintain the current level of operations and provides for future enhancements and expansion.”

Chris commented:

“The benefits are a community of men that are all on different journeys but have a solid foundation. It is like having family all over the world that you may have never met but when you do there is common ground.”

If you want help to add giving as a part of your Journey Group covenant, contact us at communications@thecrucibleproject.org.

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Free for You for Life

In a recent conversation with my wife, Michelle, we were talking about the importance of continuing “our work.” I’m referring to our soul care journey toward self-awareness, emotional wellness and living at deeper levels of authenticity. We talked mostly about intentionality, but also about how hard it is to keep looking in the mirror, even though we both know it is vital to our healing.

I don’t know your story, but I wonder if it looked anything like mine over the last 18 months, where I often operated in survival mode and made up that it’s hard enough just to deal with life right now, so I’m gonna pass on “the work.” With too many weekends canceled and in-person group opportunities diminished during the lockdown, I had all the excuses.

Enter My Journey To 

I’m thankful for the forward thinking of The Crucible Project to build the My Journey To app that brings soul care right to you, literally anywhere, for free. Its content library is full of powerful teachings, exercises and visualizations developed and delivered by experienced men and women on the journey — it’s good stuff. It also features live connection events and workshops where you can join others online for shared experiences. Groups and coaching are offered through the app as well.

There are three membership levels, and the bronze tier is free forever. If you decide to upgrade to the silver tier, the expanded content library is free for the first two weeks and you get the self-assessment tool, which helps you identify areas to focus on and delivers content tailored to those areas. I challenge you to check MyJourneyTo.com out. If you think it may benefit others in your circle, please share it with them, too.

We may not yet know the full impact this pandemic has on our emotional health. While the soul work journey is not easy and requires intentionality, I believe anything we can do to press into our work and stay on the journey will prove invaluable.  Having a tool like the My Journey To app can only help. Be encouraged and keep looking in the mirror — you and those you love are worth it.

John Owen

Courageous Free Hawk

 

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Share to Win

We are meeting the dark times we are all living in by creating a world where souls help others to live fully alive, instead of wasting their lives.

Your help is urgently needed. We are inviting those of you who have wrestled with God around your core wounds to spread the mission of Crucible Project across the globe.

Crucible’s strongest hope of introducing Christ-centered soul work to souls who are unaware of how they are living their lives is Crucible’s new outreach application – MyJourneyTo.com.  We anticipate that a large number of souls helped through My Journey To will eventually face the fire and find their gold at an upcoming Weekend.

Are you Social?

Our new social media channels for My Journey To Renewal, Wellness and Belonging have recently launched on Facebook and Instagram.  Liking, following and sharing social media channels will expand our reach, without spending money on marketing. When you like, follow and share our My Journey To channels, you are helping provide Soul Care Anywhere – to isolated souls across town or across the globe.

Share to Win

When you like, follow and share My Journey To on Facebook or Instagram you are helping Crucible expand our reach as we provide Soul Care Anywhere. By engaging on these social media channels — you will be entered to win prizes as a thank you gift.

Random Drawing “Thanks for Sharing” Prizes

One will win a $100 Amazon Gift Card

One will win a $50 Amazon Gift Card

Five will win a $10 Starbucks Gift Card

How to enter on Facebook:

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow My Journey To My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in comments on the Share to Win post for an additional entry.
5. Share the Share to Win post for an additional entry.

How to enter on Instagram: 

1. Like the Share to Win post.
2. Like/Follow the My Journey To page.
3. Comment 'Done' on the Share to Win post.
4. Tag two friends in the Share to Win comments for an additional entry.

Contest Rules:

Anyone over 18 can enter. Must complete steps 1-3 for valid entry. Complete steps 4-5 for additional bonus entries. No limit to number of entries. Winners drawn randomly. Seven total winners. Winners will be announced on the My Journey To Facebook and Instagram channels on October 20, 2021.  Winners must send a private/direct message through to My Journey To channels within 7 days of winner announcement. Questions about the contest should be addressed to Communications@MyJourneyTo.com.

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Dare to Soar Couples and Crucible

Our Founder, Greg Huston, and his wife, Toni, have been leading Dare to Soar Couples Retreats, groups and coaching for a couple of decades.  Greg Huston started Dare to Soar in 1999 to help men create more authentic, passionate, and grace-filled lives and to build relationships in which they experience more joy, love, and peace.

A pastor for 18 years, Greg first developed Dare to Soar programs, including individual counseling work, group work, and weekend retreats, to address the issues with which many men in the church were struggling. In 2005, Greg’s men’s work evolved into The Crucible Project ministry.

After several years of working with men, Greg felt a growing desire to bring his expertise to couples. At the same time, men were requesting a way to introduce their wives to their spiritual and emotional journey. Greg responded by expanding Dare to Soar to include couples’ retreats—and to include his wife, Toni, to help lead them.

Together Greg and Toni launched the first Dare To Soar Couples retreat in 2005 and quickly added continuing care in the form of monthly groups. Since then, they have led couples’ weekends in Illinois, Texas, Colorado and the Czech Republic.

An accomplished speaker, facilitator, coach, and counselor, Greg is driven not just by his education and pastoral experiences but also by 30 years of extensive work on his own life. He has been used by God to powerfully impact the lives of many through his work.

One of the great joys of Greg and Toni’s life is doing this work together, sharing what they have learned in the “lab” of their own 45 years of marriage.  Another is their family, which includes two daughters and their husbands and two grandchildren.

Greg and Toni are excited that The Crucible Project will continue the Dare to Soar legacy of couples’ retreats, groups and coaching beginning in January, 2022.  According to Greg and Toni, “We are thankful that our work with couples will continue as we shift to a new season in our lives.”

Roy Wooten, Executive Director, stated, “It is a great honor for Crucible to continue Greg and Toni’s legacy of couples soul work.  They are such a gift to couples around the world and to this ministry.  The need for good solutions for couples navigating the ups and downs of lifelong relationships is great.  We are so thankful to Greg and Toni!”

The last Dare to Soar Weekend led by Greg and Toni Huston is scheduled for October 15-17 in the Chicago area.  Registrations are still available for couples to register.  Learn more!

 

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Will you step into your Warrior and rise to the challenge?

On your initial weekend you were challenged to stop complaining and blaming and step into your warrior.  You were courageously vulnerable in declaring the thing you did not want others to know.  You wrestled with God around your core wounds – and found a true blessing. You found your power and stepped into your strength to set boundaries within you.  As you gained clarity about your heart’s deepest desires, you stepped into action to get them for yourself and to create the world you really want.

This has been one of the most challenging years of our lifetimes.  Many Redwoods rose to the challenge facing this incredible ministry we both love so much.  They stepped into their strength and courage to financially provide for the ministry’s sustainability during a time many ministries closed their doors forever.  Their investments made it possible for over 250 Weekend Participants and over 200 Staff to engage their soul work this challenging pandemic.

Will you join fellow Redwoods by rising to the financial challenges of this past year by making a financial contribution to The Crucible Project?  Your donation to the Annual Fund supports all operational and strategic initiatives.  A secure one-time or monthly donation of any amount can be set up quickly at TheCrucibleProject.org/Donate or by mailing checks to The Crucible Project 1420 Smith St. Waller, TX 77484.

When I mail out acknowledgment for a donation of any amount, you will receive the new Warrior sticker to proudly display in a visible place.  You can use it as a point of discussion to share what God has done and is doing through this powerful ministry and remind you of the strength and courage you summoned this past year and can deploy for any future challenge before you.

Your generosity will keep us igniting Christ-like change in men and women through experiences of radical honesty and grace.  Your gift will allow us to continue to create a world of women and men who live with integrity, grace and courage, fulfilling their God-given purpose!

Thanking you in advance for rising to the challenge!

Roy Wooten

Executive Director

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For Redwood Pastors Only!

Participate in the first Redwoods Pastors Retreat

3pm Monday, November 1-11:30am Thursday, November 4, 2021

Land of My Grandfather’s

North Zulch, TX

The last 18 months have been some of the most challenging times to be a Pastor.  With that in mind, we have put together a retreat with you in mind.  This special men's retreat is for initiated full-time Pastor’s and parachurch Ministers to come and renew your spirit, to rest, to connect, to be authentic and find a brotherhood for support. Our desire is to minister to the heart of each one of you!  We believe this retreat will be inspirational, healing, refreshing and will be better if you are there.

The cost is $250 which includes lodging, food and supplies. Register now so we can plan for your attendance. For more information,  Contact Andy Spell or Tim Rush.

REGISTER NOW

Join a Redwood “Pastors Only” Group

We are starting two new groups for Pastors who would like a place to do your work, where you are allowed to be your authentic self, and in a place that is set apart from those you lead.

Both groups will meet on the 1^st and 3^rd Wednesday of the month, beginning June 2^nd and ending November 17^th.  Group one will meet from 6:00-7:30 am central time zone.  Contact Andy Spell . Group two will meet from 6:00-7:30 am pacific time zone.  Contact Tim Rush.

There are no fees for these groups.

What Pastor’s Are Saying:

“The pastors in this group helped me process things that others would never understand.  A safe place that I could just be me, nothing more. No pastor hat just a man among other men.”   -Brent in Chicago

“The Crucible Pastor's Group was the safe community I was missing. I never thought a zoom call could have such a profound impact on my life and walk with Jesus.  It was well worth waking at 3:30am to join twice a month” - Ryan in Seattle

Mid-Week Initial Weekend

So many church staff struggle to give up a weekend while in full time ministry.  Will you prayerfully consider staffing a midweek weekend?  Staff will arrive on Sunday night, August 22^nd as a member of the staff team, serve pastors from across the country as they experience radical honesty and grace, and leave the afternoon of Wednesday, August 25^th full and blessed. If you are interested in staffing, complete an application.

Participant registration is open!  Participants arrive 6:45-7PM Central Monday night and exit by 3PM on Wednesday.  Let ministers know that they can sign up now at TheCrucibleProject.org

New Resource for Those You Lead

When a challenging church member or a church leader is struggling, Crucible now has a suite of resources you can place in their hands.  My Journey To is an online app that has an assessment, pre-recorded soul work experience library, and Live Events available to supplement any pastoral care or counseling you might be providing.  If you would like a complimentary membership, contact   and let him know you are a Pastor.  If interested in group membership pricing for your leadership team or congregants, contact Roy Wooten.

 

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Finding My Strength and Growth Opportunities

“Intentional living is the art of making our own choices before others’ choices make us.” – Richie Norton

Emerging Intentionally

It is so encouraging to see news reports that the pandemic’s end is in view.  The past fourteen months have been challenging, but we can find some truths about ourselves.  Challenges provide opportunities to raise our awareness about who we are, how we show up in life, where we still have opportunities to grow, and what our strengths are.  There are always things to learn as well as celebrate along our journey.

One of the gifts many of us discovered is that we do not want to go back to the way life was pre-pandemic.  Many of us found an unscheduled “reset” to our lives. Hurry and busy have been replaced with serenity and meaning.  Changes in routines provided more space for contemplation, creativity and recreation.  Some of us found our spiritual practices increasing even as church attendance disappeared or dwindled.

• What growth opportunities have you discovered about yourself?
• What strengths and resiliency have you noticed about yourself?
• What have you been doing that you want to continue post-pandemic?

Intentionally Creating Your Post-Pandemic Life

Our My Journey To Team has a free and confidential resource to assist in planning and designing your post-pandemic inner world.  The My Journey To Self-Assessment is a tool that provides personal feedback of strengths and growth opportunities in eight areas of your life.

The eight areas measured include emotional wellness, family relationships, physical wellness, vocation, spiritual wellness, finances, relationships with friends, and recreational life. Results reveal where you are satisfied in your life and what is in the way in the areas where you are not satisfied.

The Self-Assessment takes about forty minutes to complete and provides a report or each assessment area as well as an overall conclusive report.  It is available with a two-week trial membership of My Journey To.

 

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You Are the Sum of What You Look At

You may have heard the saying that, “You’re the sum of the five people you spend the most time with.” 

Maybe before the internet age that was true, but it’s really not true anymore.

I think today what’s true is, “You are the sum of what you look at.”

The idea used to be if you hung around with certain people, they would rub off on you. Their attitudes would rub off on you. Their ways of thinking about things would rub off on you. That you’d be influenced even if you thought these were just little interactions that didn’t really matter, you’re gonna be influenced.

That’s true, but it’s even more true for what it is you look at.

If you spend time flipping through “feeds”—be it Facebook, or Reddit, or Instagram, or Twitter, or whatever—of things that make you angry all the time, you are going to be the sum of all those little posts that make you angry.

That’s what you’re going to turn into. You’ll become incredibly bitter about life.

On the other hand, if you’re always reading books that are uplifting, or biographies of great people, or sci-fi that you really enjoy, stuff like that, that’s going to have that impact on you too. You’re going to be the sum of the quality of what you look with there, as well.

In Cal Newport’s book, Deep Work, he talks about how we tend to think that it’s the big outcomes in life that really matter, and they’re the only things we really need to think about: Did I get the job? Did I get married? Did I get a raise? Did I succeed at the thing?

We think the big outcomes are what’s important, and all the little moment-to-moment stuff can be ignored.

But it turns out the reverse is actually a lot more true.

What you do moment-to-moment, what you look at moment-to-moment, what media you’re consuming moment-to-moment—it’s those little moments that actually add up to who you become.

It’s easy to discount these effects.  It’s easy to say, about the five people you hang out with who have the biggest impact, “Well, you know, we just hang out occasionally, it doesn’t really matter.” It’s easy to say, “While I’m standing in line I flip through Facebook, and that doesn’t really matter.”

But if you’re doing that literally for, perhaps, hours a day, it actually really does matter.

It’s the little things in life, as they say, that matter. And they actually create that big picture outcome that you might be going for.

So what’s the takeaway for this? Over the next few days, if you think of it, think about, “What is it I’m looking at most? What is it I’m absorbing most?”

Ask yourself: “If this is influencing me ten times more than I think—if this is influencing my attitude, my day-to-day feelings, and my ability to focus on something for more than a moment—would I really want to be looking at it?”

And if you feel like you wouldn’t, maybe search out things that actually do inspire you and do make you feel good. Either reading books, on the internet, people you like—something like that.  It’s just so easy for these little moments that we have throughout our day to get sucked up and filled up with flipping through the “feeds”—the five internet friends —who make us the craziest.

Choose what you look at, in those little moments, wisely. They make up who you are.

By Dmitri Bilgere

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Christmas Tears

I remember feeling my heart sink when I saw him come through the door. My wife and I were at a Christmas gathering at our church. My brother spotted me and made his way to our table. He didn’t have to say anything. I knew what had happened by the look on his face. My fears were confirmed with just two words: “He’s gone.”

That December 19th — 21 years ago — made it a Christmas season very different from any I had ever experienced.

Dad had gone into the hospital that year shortly after Thanksgiving. The doctors soon concluded that his heart would not withstand bypass surgery. There were no other options. The goal now was to build up his strength enough so he could come home for what was to be his last Christmas.

Just as Jan and I were about to leave for our Christmas party, Dad called to see how things were going with us. That was Dad. Literally on his death bed but asking how we and the kids were doing. As the conversation was ending he asked, “When am I supposed to come home again?” Jan answered, “Christmas Eve.” Dad asked, “How many days is that?” Jan told him, “Five.”

Dad’s response was peculiar. He said matter-of-factly, “I’m not going to make that.” Jan assured him that if he wanted to, the doctors would certainly allow him to come home early. She told him we could come right then to pick him up. Not surprisingly, he declined the offer. Dad never wanted people making a fuss over him. He responded, “No, we’ll see how tonight goes.”

A nurse later reported that, according to Dad’s roommate, he was “on the phone with someone, hung up and died.” Turns out Dad was calling to say goodbye.

Most people who are close to me or have heard me speak or have read my writings know that due to my father’s drinking problem we a rather tumultuous relationship. Throughout my childhood I knew my dad as a verbally abusive alcoholic. The name of my ministry–Finding Father’s Love—suggests what my heart yearned for. The very title of my first book–When Father is a Bad Word—offers a glimpse into what my relationship with my father had been like. 

Through the years I have shared many personal and painful stories about how my dad’s drinking affected me and my family. I have described my father to literally thousands of people with adjectives like violent, scary, mean, and shaming. One would think that news of his passing would trigger feelings of anger, hopelessness, and deep regret. Instead, I found myself overflowing with gratitude.

Many people know about the drinking problem my dad had when I was a boy. What they may not know is that my dad overcame his addiction when I was an adult. In what could rightfully be termed a miracle, my dad quit drinking. That in itself is not miraculous. People overcome addictive behaviors every day. It’s how my dad did it. You see, he did it with no visible help. He didn’t seek support from AA. He didn’t go to a counselor for direction. He didn’t rely on a sponsor for support. He just quit.

When our pastor got wind of the news he stopped by for a visit. “John,” he said, “I understand you quit drinking.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“I also understand that you’re not going anywhere for help.”

“That’s right,” Dad said.

“Well,” the pastor replied, “if you’re able to quit without help you’ll be the first person I’ve ever seen do it.”

Dad’s response took him aback. He grinned and said, “Then I’ll be the first.”

My dad never drank again. Turns out God’s help was the only help he needed. I don’t often speak of this because I don’t want to hold up Dad’s story as the norm. For the vast majority of alcoholics, quitting drinking is just the first step. Then they must assemble and rely on a support network to help them maintain sobriety. For many, staying sober is an everyday, lifelong battle.

My dad, virtually overnight, was transformed from the raging drunk I feared as a child to the kind and gentle man I was privileged to come to know and love as an adult.

There were many tears during that Christmas season 21 years ago. But intermingled with my tears of sadness were tears of profound gratitude.

• I was grateful for the answer to thousands of prayers uttered in desperation by me and my family on my father’s behalf.
• I was grateful for the years of sobriety that God had granted Dad at the end of his life.
• I was grateful that mom didn’t break her wedding vows and kept our family together when it would have been easier to bail.
• I was grateful that my wife and children never witnessed thatside of my dad.
• I was grateful to get to know my father for who he really was—a good man who happened to have a bad problem.

While I struggled to sing Joy to the World on that Christmas after losing my dad, there were many other familiar carols that took on new meaning for me that year. Some still bring tears. But they are no longer tears of sadness. Only tears of gratitude.

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

Dan Kuiper completed his initial Crucible weekend in 2009. He is an author and speaker and leads a ministry called, Finding Father’s Love which helps wounded souls find love, healing, and grace in relationship with the Heavenly Father. Dan’s first book, When Father is a Bad Word, illustrates the parallels between our relationship with our earthly father and our perception of our Heavenly Father. Dan leads Finding Father’s Love Seminars across the country, offering hope and healing to those who have experienced brokenness from dysfunctional family relationships.

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My Journey To: Renewal - Wellness - Belonging

Executive Director, Roy Wooten and Member Services Manager, Bob Locascio discuss new offering for future Redwoods coming in January!

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Post Traumatic Stress and Crucible

We have experienced some great books by Redwoods sharing their story. In Redwood Jason Wilson’s Cry Like a Man: Fighting for Freedom from Emotional Incarceration , Jason reveals all of his story and his road to recovery through The Crucible Project. Jeff Madsen writes the history of Crucible Founder Greg Huston and the history of The Crucible Project in Truth and Grace: The Leadership Legacy of Greg Huston.

Both books share voraciously highly confidential information about each soul. And this month a new book was published by another Redwood with the same courage.

George Coen, a 72 year old retired Navy Veteran who had served two deployments with a Navy Attack Squadron in Viet Nam, attended one of our weekends after ten years of extensive PTSD treatment. Not only was he suffering post traumatic stress from combat, but also from his year’s growing up in the home of a father with untreated post traumatic stress from World War II.

His new book, Collateral Damage: A Journey in Dealing with Combat-related PTSD, is about physical, mental and spiritual healing. He attributes the healing of his physical wounds and the treatment of his mental wounds to the Veterans Administration. But the VA is absent of spiritual healing. Several men where he and his wife of thirty-four years worship encouraged him to attend The Crucible Project Weekend. At the age of 72, he registered and attended.

He shares on pages 116 and 117, the following:

“…the weekend experience was one of the most intense physical, mental and emotional challenges that I have ever experienced. Yes, I wrestled with God …. I. came home. At peace, knowing I could trust God to do the right thing with the remaining few years of my life. …Prior to my Crucible experience… my statement of faith would have gone something like this:

For most of my life, God has been some mystical being out there that is somehow responsible for all things. In spite of that I am still in control and responsible for short-come outcomes. The conflicting tension is the persistent presence of that “inner voice” that is often times in conflict with my actions.

Today … having completed Crucible, I would summarize my faith as follows:

Jesus in the example of the person I should aspire to be. It’s not about the destination; it’s about the voyage. I need to be less concerned about the future and more concerned with the present. God has a plan for my life, but only the ending is made known to me and is certain. The path will be revealed to me in small increments. I. just need to pay attention and listen. I believe that voice that is constantly talking to me over my shoulder is that revelation in small bits. I just need to listen and heed. God’s intermediate destinations for me my not be consistent with my desires or expectations; however, I’m expected to obey! Terrible things happen to good people, thus the significance of the. Cross and the Resurrection. I know God loves me and is with me!

The empirical literature points to a clear conclusion: spirituality is part and parcel of the human response to trauma and its resolution.”

We are thankful to Redwood George M. Coen for the authenticity and courageous vulnerability in how he tells his story toward healing. This risky story-telling is why every soul can find a part of their story in his. Every soul’s work is my work and my work is every soul’s work.

You can get access to George’s story and the book at this link. George wants to ensure anyone who wants a copy can get one, so let bduke@thecrucibleproject.org know if you need assistance in getting a copy.

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Thriving in Covid Times: Heart & Soul

“How’s your heart?” my three year old asked his mom.  “My heart is full,” my wife answered.  “How is yours?”  My son answered, “My heart is naughty,” he smiled.

You can’t talk about the heart, until you define the heart.

The heart I am talking about is mentioned many times in the Scriptures.

Our hearts can provide strength (Psalm 73:2), be guarded (Prov. 4:23, Phil.4:7) and be purified (Matt 5:8).

The heart and the head/mind - seem to be separate things mentioned together.

In the ancient world, Greek and Hebrews among others, the heart was symbolic of the soul.  The heart is considered the seat of all morality and spiritual functions.

In these challenging times - caring for our soul is more important than ever.

If we just live on the surface, taking care of our bodies, being mindful of our lives - it’s not enough.  C.S. Lewis is typically attributed this quote from his favorite writer, George MacDonald:

"'Never tell a child you have a soul. Teach him, you are a soul; you have a body."

How do we care for our soul?  Three distinct, but connected ways:

1. Connect with God
2. Connect with our neighbors
3. Connect with ourselves

Connect with God

We cannot form character from inside our own selves.  We get our worth and sense of identity from God.  What God says about us is true and good and worthy.  If you believe what God  says about you is true, your identity is rooted in something that can’t be changed and can’t go away.  What does God say about you?  You found some things out on that initial Crucible weekend, and perhaps on second level or workshops.  The good news?  There’s more!

Connect with our neighbors

We must get more external connections with people that God created in His image.  Here’s the caveat - the BEST connections are with those who are safe, doing their own work, and connecting with God, others and themselves.  Henry Cloud states the four corners of connection:  No Connection, Bad Connection, Pseudo Connection and Real Connection.

Real connection gives ultimate freedom and self-control.  Don’t those sound like great things to have in a pandemic?  Fortunately Crucible Project small groups are excellent places to get real connection.

Real connection allows us to ultimately....

Connect with ourselves

We must learn to love ourselves as a result of experiencing love and acceptance and connection from God and others.  It is a natural flow from this experiential place that empowers us and helps us live out what God intended for us all along - a life that THRIVES.

Remember this story of Jesus in Mark 12:28-34?

One of the teachers of religious law was standing there listening to the debate. He realized that Jesus had answered well, so he asked, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”

Jesus replied, “The most important commandment is this: ‘Listen, O Israel! The Lord our God is the one and only Lord. And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength.’ The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’No other commandment is greater than these.”

The teacher of religious law replied, “Well said, Teacher. You have spoken the truth by saying that there is only one God and no other. And I know it is important to love him with all my heart and all my understanding and all my strength, and to love my neighbor as myself. This is more important than to offer all of the burnt offerings and sacrifices required in the law.”

Realizing how much the man understood, Jesus said to him, “You are not far from the Kingdom of God.” And after that, no one dared to ask him any more questions. 

The Mic Drop of Jesus is: Love of God, love of  neighbor and ourselves - THAT is how to THRIVE.

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 2

Let me remind you again: This is no ordinary time!

If you’ve made some commitments to take care of your body - remember your brain is a part of that.  You need water, rest and healthy hobbies to keep the brain going!

Even more amazing than the brain - is what the brain “houses”  our minds. 

Our minds are incredible mysteries that can adapt to extremely stressful situations, get us going to accomplish seemingly impossible tasks, and solve complex issues and problems.  Our minds are powerful.

The apostle Paul affirmed the power of the mind.  It’s worthy of a Bible study:

“Fix your mind…”  “Renew your mind…” “Think about these things…”  

“Have this mind among yourselves…”  “The world has blinded the minds…”

Paul knew the power of Mindfulness. 

People who experience consistent success and persevere through life have discovered the secret of Mindfulness. 

What is it?

Oxford Dictionary gives a few definitions that are helpful:

1. The quality or state of being conscious or aware of something.
2. A mental state achieved by focusing one's awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one's feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations, used as a therapeutic technique.

Remember your Crucible weekend? 

Everything was full of mindfulness - it was designed to help you become aware of what was working and not working in your life. 

By focusing on the present moment, you were able to work our feelings, thoughts, and body exercises that gave you a God-ordained experience!

In these extraordinary times, here are some ways to practice mindfulness:

• Regularly check-in with yourself and others around your feelings.  
• Meditate on phrases or verses of Scripture that are true and good.
• Get in touch with your attitude.  Attitude is one of the only things we can control.
• Cultivate your mind with gratitude.  Being thankful for what God has provided.
• Create a daily time and place to practice mindfulness. A morning and evening time where you can ground yourself in the morning and decompress your mind in the evening is relieving. 

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.” - Paul in Philippians 4:8

Next Issue:  Our Hearts

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How to Thrive in Covid Times: Part 1

This is no Ordinary Time!

We can all agree that there are so many things that feel out of control - we feel hard pressed on all sides.  Our country is experiencing many crises at one time. We all can agree on that.

Stress levels are through the roof!  How do we deal with that?

In speaking with a variety of professionals and wise men & women from all backgrounds, here are insights that may help you move from surviving to thriving in these times.  While not an exhaustive list,  it is a good start.    We will cover Body, Mind, Heart & Soul in this series.

Today we focus on the Body!  Remember what the Apostle Paul wrote to the church in Corinth (who had confusion over the importance of the body): “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;  you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.” 1 Cor. 19-20

Your Body

1. Exercise well
2. Sleep well
3. Eat well
4. Wash your hands

Exercise Well! Just getting out for a 30 minute walk/jog is a huge help.  If you have a dog (or a child on a lease), you’ve already got an excuse to exercise.  In addition to being outdoors if you can, you can also exercise with instructors online.  Set up a routine, ask some friends to go with you (but follow social distance guidelines) and try a variety of things to see what you enjoy. When you exercise, you not only reduce the obvious stress you’re experiencing, but you prevent weight gain, boost your immune system and improve your sleep.

Sleep Well! Good sleep goes hand in hand with exercise (so does food).  It has all the same benefits as exercise - including preventing weight gain!  The Mayo Clinic defines fatigue as “a nearly constant state of weariness that develops over time and reduces your energy, motivation and concentration.” Even if you receive an adequate amount of sleep at night, fatigue can still leave you feeling tired and unmotivated in the morning. Establish a sleep routine of consistent wake-up, wind-down and bedtimes.

Eat Well! Stress can translate into poor eating habits.  Remember that we truly are what we eat.  If we load junk into the furnace, the furnace won’t work.  One of the greatest things I’ve ever learned was that you exercise to build muscle and immunity, but you lose weight by having good eating habits. 

Lastly, wash your hands!   Good hygiene is a huge deterrer to sickness! Plus, it puts into practice, Mindfulness, which we will showcase next time.

Treat your body well.  If you need a coach or personal accountability, remember your Crucible Redwoods stand ready to be supportive to you as you take care of you! Find out more about Crucible Coaching.

At the end of the day, we cannot control how others treat us, how others treat others or how others treat themselves.  We can control how we treat others and how we treat ourselves.

Next issue: Our Minds

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Coaching Bennies (Benefits)

Coaching is available for both men and women by highly trained and qualified Crucible coaches.

This isn't just for Crucible men and women - did you know that anyone can use our coaching services?

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Ancient Creeds in Modern Times

“They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers.” - Acts 2:42 (NRSV)
“Adversity does not build character, it reveals it.” - James Lane Allen 

Life in the age of pandemic  - trying times indeed.  If ever there was a season that has revealed much to us about ourselves, now is that time. 

As one of those who have stopped to reflect on how I have been responding and acting, I have discovered a deep truth.  I am not who I thought I was.  

I discovered in The Crucible Project and in recovery work - that the biggest problem in my life is myself.  And I have discovered new ways to live and respond to my family, friends, clients and others.  It’s been a good journey.

What about the way I live and respond to God?

Take for example, my prayer life.  I’ve had a short attention span with God in prayer.  Let’s just say - the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.  

I find myself going off course in prayer - being inconsistent - and wondering what to do.

The character of my prayer has been revealed to be about me.  When I’m angry, my prayers are angry.  When I’m sad, my prayers are sad.  My prayers are flighty and unfocused. And that’s if I pray at all.

Brian Zahnd states, “The primary purpose of prayer is not to get God to do what we think God ought to do, but to be properly formed.”

The verse from Acts mentioned above - shows how the early community of God was being formed.  They did four things:

1. Learned the apostle’s teachings about Jesus (The Bible)
2. Were in fellowship with each other (Community)
3. The weekly breaking of bread (Communion)
4. And “The Prayers” - Here we go!

“The Prayers” is descriptive of the early church teachings of the Creeds and Prayers that the followers of Jesus recited.  They were being properly formed by these liturgical truths.  

There’s no such thing as dead liturgy - only true or false liturgy.  There are dead or alive people.   Using the Creeds and Prayers is like putting up a trellis for vines to grow.  It takes the pressure off the soul and allows us truth to cling to and focus on - while we become formed in the likeness of Jesus.  Jesus taught us this.

When the disciples asked Jesus to teach them to pray - he did:

Our Father, Who Art In Heaven

Hallowed Be Thy Name

Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will Be Done

On earth as it is in Heaven

Give us this day our daily bread

And forgive us our trespasses, 

as we forgive those who trespass against us,

And led us not into temptation, 

But deliver us from evil, 

For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory forever. Amen.

There are so many amazing time tested prayers and creeds.  (The Apostle’s Creed, Nicene Creed, The Jesus Prayer, The Beatitudes in Matt 5, Psalm 23, Prayer of St. Francis, Confessional Prayers). I realize I am joining with past and present Jesus followers in prayer.

I started praying a set of them every morning - and it’s been transformational. 

My mind can focus on my heart - and my heart focuses on the deep truths of these rich treasures.  I even use my body in raising my hands, or moving about.  It fulfills the “Love the Lord  God with your Heart, Soul, Mind & Strength”  that is so important! 

Here’s a confessional example I pray and how it’s changing  me:

Most merciful God, we confess that we have sinned against you in thought, word, and deed, by what we have done, and by what we have left undone.

We have not loved you with our whole heart; we have not loved our neighbors as ourselves. We are truly sorry and we humbly repent.

For the sake of your Son Jesus Christ, have mercy on us and forgive us; that we may delight in your will, and walk in your ways, to the glory of your Name. Amen.

I am so much more in tune with my neighbors - all people I come in contact with - I am more tender and empathetic and helpful.  Why? God is forming me during my morning prayer time.

I do this every day.  My challenge to you is get a set of these prayers - and pray them for 30 days. 

Blessings as we journey with Jesus together. - Tim White

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Preparing to Go Live Again

When the Crucible COVID19 committee met for the first time, the discussion began with these perplexing questions:

• How can we implement the deep experiential and intimate programs within our weekends within healthy boundaries set by public health officials? 
• Will Personal Protective Equipment be required?
• Is it responsible for Crucible to consume PPE that hospitals while medical staff in hospitals are experiencing shortages and rationing them?

It is hard to imagine any way we can be fully compliant with current public health guidance with the way our Weekends protocols are currently organized.

Crucible Project staff have been working with Retreat Leaders and key volunteers to prepare for a safe launch of Weekends again as soon as public health officials tell us we can.

According to Roy Wooten, Executive Director, “It is likely that we will be able to hold face-to-face groups and Weekends in some Crucible Communities before others. We will go wherever we can as soon as we can!”

Rachel Shubin and Bob Locascio have been working with Redwood medical professionals to develop adaptations to our Weekends protocols to enhance staff and participant safety and reduce COVID fears that might be a barrier to getting what they came for.

Rachel Shubin states, “We are committed to maintaining the integrity of the Crucible Weekend experience, while also creating safety for participants and staff.”

The recommendations of this committee will hopefully support the reopening of face-to-face weekends and groups as soon as possible.

“I’m excited to be planning the restart of our weekends, and I know many regular staffers who share that excitement,”  says Bob Locascio.

If you have ideas about implementation of our groups and weekends during this pandemic, please contact Rachel or Bob. Keep Crucible and this committee in your prayers.

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Fear

I’m reminded of Henri Nouwen’s words about fear:  Fear, not hate, is the opposite of love and its obstacle, he said.   When we accept God’s unconditional love, we can find joy in the limited expression of this love in our intimate relationships, without feeling that we have to be God for each other.  “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” (I John 4:18)

Pastor John Casey, one of our long time Crucible Project leaders states:

“In my work as a hospital chaplain, the people who most deny their fear are those who claim connection with God.

To Zechariah and later to Mary, the angel said, “Do not fear.”   To the Israelites facing destruction, God said, “Fear not.”

We misunderstand God, I think.

God isn’t saying, “Never be afraid” or “Fear is wrong.”

Believing this, we deny our fear and miss deep connection with God.

When God says, “Fear not,” he means, “Do not stay in fear” and then almost always adds a way out.

In Psalm 23, “I fear no evil, for you are with me.”

To God’s people facing deportation, God says, “Fear not for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name…when you walk through the waters, I will be with you…”

In these chaotic times, feel your fear of getting sick, of losing ones you love, of not being able to pay your rent. And then look for reassurance—remember God’s past help, search for his presence now, ask him for your daily bread, remember your Father knows what you need. We are finite and will fear. Feel your fear and in the dark, feel for God who is always nearby.”

Remember what Paul writes in Philippians 4:6-7, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”   

Acknowledge your fear, reach out to God and to God's supportive people.  Let us take care of each other. - Tim White

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Owning Your Darkness

Wednesday, February 26 is Ash Wednesday, the start of Lent

Ash Wednesday derives its name from the  placing of repentance ashes on the foreheads of participants to either the words "Repent, and believe in the Gospel" or the dictum "Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return.”

Ash ceremonies typically recite Psalm 51, prayers of confession, and receiving the sign of the ashes, typically in the form of a cross - a blessing on the forehead.

Fasting, Abstinence and Repentance can also encompass Ash Wednesday.

People sat in Ashes to show on the outside what they knew was true about them on the inside.

In many faith traditions, ashes represent:

• Deep awareness of your sinfulness in God’s holy presence
• Resolve to operate in God’s power, and not your own.
• Your mortality - dust to dust, ashes to ashes.
• That you don’t have it all together.
• Showing honesty instead of hiding.
• Death & Mourning.
• Your Shadow, and conversely, your Gold.
• The truth you don’t want you to know about yourself revealed.

The Crucible Project has its own ash ceremony.  One where acknowledgement of one’s shadow is encouraged and a blessing offered to bring that shadow for others to see - as a gift.  What shadow shows up for you this season?

When we acknowledge the truth of our shadow side, we not only give it a voice that we may have repressed, we also use our shadow & brokenness to bring life and healing to ourselves and others.  

Psalm 51 is a beautiful reminder of owning our shadow & brokenness and sitting in honest reflection about who we really are - all the facets - and not sugar coating our lives.  

The promise of cleansing and healing is right there from God AS IS the ability to help others and bless them from the truth of owning our shadow and gold.  What gold do you bring to yourself and others this season?

May God richly bless you during this Lenten season as you own your darkness, in the light of God's grace and truth.

Psalm 51

Have mercy on me, O God,

    according to your unfailing love;

according to your great compassion

    blot out my transgressions.

Wash away all my iniquity

    and cleanse me from my sin.

For I know my transgressions,

    and my sin is always before me.

Against you, you only, have I sinned

    and done what is evil in your sight;

so you are right in your verdict

    and justified when you judge.

Surely I was sinful at birth,

    sinful from the time my mother conceived me.

Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;

    you taught me wisdom in that secret place. 

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;

    wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. 

Let me hear joy and gladness;

    let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

Hide your face from my sins

    and blot out all my iniquity.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,

    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Do not cast me from your presence

    or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation

    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways,

    so that sinners will turn back to you.

Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,

    you who are God my Savior,

    and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

Open my lips, Lord,

    and my mouth will declare your praise.

You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;

    you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;

    a broken and contrite heart

    you, God, will not despise.

May it please you to prosper Zion,

    to build up the walls of Jerusalem.

Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,

    in burnt offerings offered whole;

    then bulls will be offered on your altar.

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New Communication @ The Crucible Project

In our world, communication methods and tools change at a frenzying pace. New or even old ways start to seem like some foreign code.

Jesus communicated in code.  Parables to be exact. “With many such parables he spoke the word to them, as they were able to hear it; he did not speak to them except in parables, but he explained everything in private to his disciples.” (Mark 4: 33-34)

To his disciples, he explained what those coded parables meant.  

In a sense, those of us initiated on a Crucible Project weekend, are ‘brought in from the code’.  We learn a language and learn what it’s all about. This outside/inside communication isn’t unique to The Crucible Project, but it’s a tension we deal with.

We are currently exploring ways to expand both our communication methods based on the realities we experience:

• People are more mobile and use more mobile.
• More people scan for information, instead of deep reading.
• Email isn’t as big of a thing as it used to be - texting/messaging is.
• More information is disseminated via video and auditory delivery culturally. 
• Everyone longs for connection and we are committed to providing that connection.

Here is what we are doing and working on:

• Social Media to the outside audience.  We are exploring best methods and tools to let the world know about this ministry’s mission.  
• Texting Services internally.  We know we can't exclusively use email for our communication.  It’s now old-school to some groups!
• Shifting from Words to Video.  Attention spans are short. Studies show that people “consume” messages differently online than reading offline.
• New Monthly Town Hall meetings via Video.
• More FB Group Live communication from leadership as a way to keep in touch.
• Podcasting.  Replacing those amazing Crucible Project blog posts  (Thanks, Jeff!)

Do you have a question or idea?  Do you want to get involved? Email Tim White communications@thecrucibleproject.org 

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Lifelong Soul Work In Redwood Circles

Soul work circles have always been a part of The Crucible Project since its earliest days. As the organization expanded outside of Chicagoland, the need for training group leaders and replicating group exercises became apparent. The birth of the exercise group now called Growth Group was developed and launched in 2010.

Group Variety and Choices

Since then the variety of groups where soul work happens has continued to expand. Today the types of groups include the following:

• Growth Group – paid group led by a certified group leader, these exercises provide deeper understanding of core concepts taught on the weekend with the goal of integrating the weekend’s experiences.
• Development Group – paid group led by a certified carpet leader, this group offers the opportunity to experience carpet work every session for participants.
• 2 Year Group – this is a Development Group where a cohort of Redwoods also participate in all second level weekends together and includes individual coaching sessions.
• Journey Group – this free group is led by uncertified peer Redwoods with access to group exercise resources. Typically group leadership rotates within the group.
• Open Group – this free group is open to uninitiated people and is led by a Redwood with access to pre-weekend exercises.

 

Why Do Some Groups Have Fees?

All paid groups have certified group leaders. Group leaders invest time and energy achieving certification as well as coordinating and preparing for each group session. Certification ensures that group quality and safety remains at a high level. Group leaders receive compensation for their time and energy. Some of the group payments recover expenses in group development, marketing, and back office support.

Free groups are peer led. There may be a certified group or carpet leader in the group, but group leadership is shared by all Redwoods in the group. A large array of exercises are available for Journey groups to self-facilitate and are accessible with a request to your Regional Leader or Community Developer. For questions, contact Brittany Duke, Office Manager at BDuke@TheCrucibleProject.org.

Growth Group Curriculum Changes

With input from Regional Leaders, the Growth Group Curriculum has expanded to include three additional sessions which will be paid for in the weekend registration fees. In other words, all newly initiated Redwoods will have access to join a local or video based group without additional costs for the first three sessions of the Growth Group. These first sessions help new Redwoods experience group life, including Accountability and Clearings, which are essential to healthy group life.

If you are interested in becoming certified as a Group Leader or Carpet Leader, contact Byron Myers, Leadership Development Manager, to begin the process at LeadershipDevelopment@TheCrucibleProject.org.

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